Take My Hand: BWWM Romance

by Shanade White

  Unable to speak, she simply hung on as Scott took possession of her mouth, his tongue plunging into her mouth as his finger bringing her crashing over the brink, her orgasm so intense only Scott’s mouth on hers could have muffled her cries of pleasure.

  When her trembling finally ceased, he pulled her to him and cradled her in his arms, supporting her weight until her legs began to work again. “You’re an incredible woman, Marissa. I hope you’ll reconsider your stand on sex, we seem to be good together,” he said, lifting her head and gently kissing her before untangling himself and walking back to his car.

  Marissa watched him drive away, too stunned by her reaction to him to even consider what her next move would be. Any thoughts of keeping some distance between them had all but vanished, there was no way she was going to be able to resist him, married or not. When he touched her, it was like any rational thought she had vanished in a rush of desire and passion.

  It had become abundantly clear that she was going to break her no sex rule the first chance she got, and equally obvious that Scott wasn’t going to give up until she did. How she was ever going to keep a huge part of her life a secret from him, she had no idea, but for the next year their lives were going to be intertwined in ways she’d never experienced before. The intimacy was scary, sharing her life with someone she barely knew wouldn’t be easy and now her heart was involved, because if it wasn’t already, it would soon be.

  She got into to bed that night with Scott in her thoughts. Just thinking about him stirred her up, thoughts of what he’d done with those wonderful hands making her wet all over again. Deciding that the sooner she got this over with the better, she settled down to sleep, but before she could fall asleep her phone chimed. Rolling over, she picked it up, heart racing to find that Scott had sent her a text message.

  Sleep well, Marissa, I’ll be thinking about you and our wonderful night.

  Flirting over text message had never been her strong suit, but she needed to respond, so she fired off a text of her own.

  Sweet dreams, I can’t help but think of you after that goodnight.

  Scott put his phone down, a huge smile on his face, then laughed out loud at himself. In the last few days, he’d become someone he didn’t even recognize, a man who flirted and seduced, who didn’t worry about making that next dollar. It was liberating to feel so free, to do as he pleased and only think of the pleasure it might bring him.

  He may have set out to make Michael’s life miserable, but he wasn’t sure that he hadn’t done himself a huge favor. Given himself a chance to change his life, become a different person, a better person. His old life seemed so far away, the constant struggle of trying to be the best, to have the most seeming empty now.

  Marissa had changed him in some way, woken him up to what the world might have to offer if he’d only open himself up to caring about someone or something besides himself. He’d been looking at life all wrong, thinking that if everything was perfect then the pain he carried from his childhood would go away, but the truth was he was the only one who could make the pain disappear.

  He was far from ready to address all those issues, just knowing that there were issues to be dealt with was enough for now. Instead, he was going to enjoy his pursuit of Marissa, a new challenge that would be more than worth it in the end, but he also wasn’t facing the fact that his infatuation with Marissa was quickly turning into more than just that.

  He probably should be worried about what would happen when this forced marriage was over, Marissa had certainly made it clear that she wasn’t in this for the long haul, but he hadn’t been raised to give up on something so easily. Marriage was an important institution, one that should be valued, it might not be that easy to walk away in the end, especially considering the way he was beginning to feel about her.

  Realizing that he was getting way ahead of himself, he put the phone down on the table next to the bed, thinking about the message he’d send her in the morning. He had no idea what their next function was, but he was already looking forward to it, Marissa all dressed up was quite the sight to behold. As sleep took him, he smiled, thinking hopefully soon he’d be able to see her out of her dress.

  Chapter 5

  With only two and a half weeks until they’d planned to be married by a justice of the peace, Marissa was pleased to hear that the rumors were flying around town. Their plans were working perfectly. Her father, while not exactly pleased with them because of their display at the restaurant, seemed to accept their charade and was leaving them alone. With a week to go before their next function, a masquerade ball that was held every year to raise money for the local historical society, Marissa had plenty to keep her occupied.

  Luckily, she’d planned to be in L.A. for most of early summer to make the final decisions about the fall and winter line for Marissa’s Fashions, a process that was time consuming but exciting. Most mornings found her driving to the local factory where she’d located her headquarters, a simple office that was just big enough for a small support staff. It was there in her office that the biggest decisions were made, but to look at the office you wouldn’t know that the company behind it was already worth millions.

  Marissa preferred to do most of her business out in the field, using one of her many disguises to hide the fact that she was the owner of the company. Thinking about how many times she’d posed as her own assistant, she had to laugh, but then she suddenly remembered that all those disguises, which she’d perfected over the years, were stored at her house in the mountains. She’d have to get them packed up and moved to another location and soon, in only a few weeks she and Scott would be living in that house.

  Thinking of her little house in the mountains made her wish she could just get in the car and go there, the need for some privacy so intense in that moment that she could hardly breath. But just then there was a knock at her door, a rare thing since no ever knocked around here. To her surprise, Scott was standing in the doorway, a giant cup of coffee in his hand.

  “I thought you might be ready for a coffee break,” he said, smiling at her, then stepping into her office and sitting down across from her.

  She rubbed her temples, the final decision for the fall line had to be made in less than a week and she just couldn’t concentrate on anything but the man sitting across from her. Reaching for the coffee he’d brought, she said, “That sounds like the best idea I’ve heard all day. Let’s go for a walk, I need to get out of here for a few minutes.”

  On their way out of the office, Marissa introduced everyone to Scott knowing that if she didn’t she’d never hear the end of it. Once they got out of the building, Marissa took several deep breaths trying to clear her head, but all that did was make her realize that Scott smelled good. With a sigh, she crossed the street to the little park where she liked to sit and people watch. They sat in silence for a while, Scott giving Marissa some space to decompress.

  Finally, she gathered her thoughts and said, “I’m going to have to go out of town for a couple of days. I just can’t make the final decision on the line without seeing the clothes in person. Hopefully, it won’t take that long, but I’ll have to go to Chicago and Houston.”

  Scott thought about this for a second. “I could go with you. I don’t have anything else going on,” he offered.

  “No, you’d only be a distraction. I just need to get this done, if we don’t start production soon it will be a huge disaster. I’ll be home in plenty of time for the ball, it’s not until next week. Will you be okay on your own?” she said, then smiled to take the sting out of her refusal.

  “It’s okay, I understand. I don’t miss all the stress and worry of my job, but I’m beginning to get bored,” Scott said, not even bothering to pretend that Marissa didn’t know most of his story.

  She looked at him, trying to decide if she could ask about his job or lack of one. It didn’t really matter to her, but she had a feeling that it mattered to him. “Scott, I can’t help but wonder
what happened with your dad. I told myself that I wasn’t going to ask...” she said, shrugging her shoulders.

  “It’s a long story, but basically he asked me to step down because I’d become too...” Scott didn’t finish, unsure how to explain to her what had happened.

  “Ruthless?”

  He laughed. “Yes, I guess that’s a good way to put it.” But then he said more seriously, “I’m sure you’ve been on the internet so you know some of the story, but let’s just say that I took things a little too far. Made some decisions based on some long held grudges that I’m trying to work through.”

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to pry. I just wondered what happened. I, of all people, know that you can’t believe anything you read on the internet,” she said, taking his hand in hers. “Have you thought about what you’re going to do now? Although I guess you don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to.”

  Scott thought about that for a minute. “I thought I might just take some time off and be lazy, but I doubt that’s going to work, I’m already bored. I tried to play golf with your dad the other day, but it didn’t do anything for me. I’ve never had free time, never let myself have it, so I’m a little lost.”

  “Well, I wish I could help you, but free time isn’t something I have a lot of either, but when I do I like to work on my house. It’s a bit of a fixer upper, but it has a long history and I love it,” she said, wishing they were there right then.

  “You keep talking about this house, but I don’t even know where it is. When do I get to see it?” he asked, intrigued by her description.

  “I probably won’t go back until after we get married,” she said, finding it easier to say. “It’s a three-hour drive up in the mountains in an old mining town. There’s not much up there, but I like it that way.”

  Scott looked at her surprised. He’d thought that she’d have a house in one of the exclusive communities scattered around the mountains up and down the state, but this sounded more rustic than that. “You never cease to amaze me,” he said, grinning at her.

  “Let me guess, you did some internet research as well,” she said, laughing. “Scott, I’m really nothing like that woman you find on social media.”

  “Then why does your dad think you are?” he asked, thinking that there was a piece to the puzzle in her answer.

  “Because that’s the way I want it,” she said, clearly shutting down the conversation.

  Making note of the fact that her father was definitely a touchy subject, although he should have figured that out before., no father forces his daughter to get married without some issues, he knew what he was going to do while she was gone. It shouldn’t matter to him why she put on this false front, but since Marissa was beginning to matter to him it did. Howard had always been his enemy and he’d never given much thought to his life, but he did know that he’d been married multiple times since his first wife had died.

  Marissa pulled him from his thoughts when she said, “I probably should get back to work.”

  “Thanks for taking a few minutes out for me. Can we have dinner before you leave?” he asked, kissing the palm of her hand sending shivers up and down her spine.

  Marissa’s body responded immediately to his simple gesture, but she managed to say, “I’d like that. I’ll probably be leaving early tomorrow morning and I still have to pack, but how about eight o’clock tonight?”

  “It’s a date. I’ll see you then,” he said, getting to his feet and offering her his hand.

  They walked hand in hand back across the street. Scott kissed her goodbye, an event that was quickly becoming a habit. As she rode the elevator up to her office, she touched her lips with her fingers, thinking that she’d become accustomed to those kisses. By the time he picked her up for dinner that night, she was exhausted and not up to a big scene at one of the popular restaurants.

  When she let him in the house, he took one look at her and said, “It looks like it’s been a long day. Do you still want to go out? We could just make something here.”

  “No, I’d still like to go out, but let’s go someplace low key. I can’t handle getting dressed up tonight,” she said, leading him into the sunroom. “Wait here, I’ll be right back, just let me get cleaned up a little.

  Before she got three steps, Scott had his arms around her. “I think you look just perfect the way you are with your hair a little wild and a big smudge of dirt on your cheek. What have you been doing anyway?” he asked, wiping the dirt off her face with his thumb.

  “Packing,” she said, looking up at him, her heart beginning to beat faster in her chest, knowing that one of those Earth shattering kissing was coming. “I was looking for a pair of shoes.”

  “Hm, and you had to dig them up?” he said, his mouth coming closer to hers.

  “Uh, no, they were on the top shelf of my closet,” she whispered, her eyes locked on his.

  When his mouth came down on hers, it was like an explosion of fireworks in her brain, the pleasure surging through her in heavy waves. His tongue was hot and demanding as he bent her back, his mouth slanting across hers. She wrapped her arms around him to keep her balance. The feel of his strong arms supporting her only increased her pleasure, the tingle that had started deep inside her blooming into a full blown throbbing between her legs.

  Scott pulled her back to her feet, then said, “Go do what you have to, but you look beautiful just the way you are.”

  Marissa stumbled from the room, grinning from ear to ear. Once back in her room, she quickly changed her clothes and ran her fingers through her hair. It was wildly out of control but so was she. Contrary to what was on the internet, Marissa was seldom out of control, but when she was with Scott there was no other way to describe her behavior. The worst part was that she knew that she was making a big mistake, this was only a diversion for Scott, and eventually he’d move on, they’d both agreed on that.

  She’d always been careful with her heart, but this time she was going with her instincts which told her that as short lived as their relationship was going to be, it wasn’t something she wanted to miss. The power of their attraction couldn’t be denied, it had a life of its own, and she knew that resisting would only delay the inevitable. But that didn’t mean that she was going to give in easily. In fact, she might even make him wait until the wedding night, if she could resist that long.

  Marissa surprised him once again that night when she not only directed him to one of the worst neighborhoods in town, but paid a couple of dangerous looking men to watch the car while they ate. He was hesitant to even enter the little hole in the wall, but once inside, the smell of Mexican food drew him further into the cramped space. All the tables were full, but once the owner spotted Marissa, he rushed across the room and moved people around until he’d gotten them a couple of places to sit at one of the large tables.

  Without even placing an order, food began to appear on their table. Raising his eyebrows quizzically, Scott picked up the margarita that had been placed in front of him and took a small sip. Marissa did the same, waiting to see his reaction which was just as she’d expected.

  “That’s the best margarita I’ve ever had,” he said, taking another sip.

  “Wait until you try the food,” she said, taking the lid off a big soup tureen.

  Inside, Scott saw a steaming tomato-based seafood soup with an amazing array of fresh crab, mussels, and shrimp. It smelled wonderful, and his mouth began to water. Marissa ladled some into his bowl and handed him a warm tortilla, watching as he took his first bite, then laughed when he closed his eyes in pleasure.

  “Told you,” she said, taking a portion for herself.

  They ate in silence until the worst of their hunger had been appeased, then Scott asked, “How did you know about this place? Don’t tell me you just stumbled on it.”

  “Actually, I loaned the owner the money to open it a few years ago. It’s a long story, but he paid me back in less than a year,” she said
, taking her last bite, pleased that she’d been able to answer him without giving anything away about her community service. This neighborhood had been the first one she’d spent time in after she’d turned eighteen.

  Scott could sense that there was much more to the story than she was telling him, but also knew that she wasn’t going to share more than that so he changed the subject. “What time does your flight leave in the morning?”

  “Early. I have to make this trip as quick as I can, the ball is this weekend,” she said, nodding to the owner who brought them a simple dessert of tropical fruit and her favorite Mexican pudding.

  “I’d be happy to take you to the airport,” he said, taking a bite of the dessert then a second when he realized how good it was.

  “That’s okay, I have a car coming to pick me up at four. I’m not exactly a morning person so I’ll spare you my wrath,” she said, touched that he’d be willing to take her to the airport, a terrible trip even that time of day.

  “I’ll have to remember that in the future,” he said, flashing her a smile. “Does coffee help with this morning grumpiness?”

  “Don’t even talk to me until I’ve had at least two cups,” she said, laughing. “What about you? Are you one of those people who jumps out of bed ready to start the day? Keep in mind that I hate those kind of people.”

  “Me? No, definitely not. I like to lay around in bed as long as I can. I’ll use just about any excuse to stay in bed. Don’t you just hate that first cold blast of air on your bare skin when you get out of bed?” he asked innocently, knowing he’d just painted a picture in her mind when her eyes got big.

  Stamping down a wave of desire, she said, “Um, I guess so.” But the picture of him naked in bed just wouldn’t leave her mind. “That was terribly unfair to paint that picture in my mind,” she said as they walked to the car, finally able to drag her mind away from thoughts of Scott in bed.