Vow (Andino + Haven Book 2)

by Bethany-Kris

  And yet, they were.

  They were exactly those kinds of words.

  Andino swung an arm wide, and took one step backward as if to open his place to her, and silently invite her in alongside his words. She would have responded right away, but she was a little struck at simply staring at this man.

  That hard, square-cut of his jaw. The stubble dusting his cheeks. The way his lips curved slightly at the edges like he might be happy, but he wasn’t willing to share it with a true smile. The greens of his eyes. A naked, expansive chest unmarked by ink or scars, and a railroad path of abs that led down to the pair of slacks he wore unbuttoned and resting low on his hips.

  All of him, really.

  Still tall.

  Still broad shouldered.

  Still terribly handsome.

  Haven hadn’t thought anything would change. Why would it? Other than how she felt inside, and in her heart, very little changed about her since the last time she saw him. Still, looking at him then was like seeing him for the first time.

  It was overwhelming.

  Very much so.

  “Well?” Andino asked quietly. “Do you want to come in?”

  She should have said no, and stepped back. She should have given him the truth—she’d only come here to check in on him, and make sure he was okay after what she heard on the radio that evening. Nothing more, and nothing less.

  She cared.

  He’d proven he didn’t care at all.

  Well, she’d gotten her answer. She could see he was fine, and that was enough to quell the panic that had lingered high in the back of her throat like vomit threatening to spill ever since she heard what happened.

  It should be enough.

  It wasn’t even close to it.

  Haven stepped into the house, and closed the door behind her. She didn’t miss the way the enforcer at the end of the walkway looked her over, but was quick to turn his back when she shut him out with the door. Spinning back around to face Andino, ready to explain why she was there, and that she couldn’t stay for long, something stopped her.

  She finally saw it, then.

  The injury—large and jagged—on his arm. Red, and sore. It looked horribly painful, and the stitches seemed to be barely holding it together.

  Andino didn’t miss the way Haven flinched. “It’s not bad. Looks worse than it is, I swear.”

  “How did that happen?”

  She knew; she wanted to know if he would tell her the truth. Whatever they had been was already dominated by lies he told, and the omissions he chose to keep away from her. Had he learned his lesson, or not?

  “Had a run in today. Somebody else’s gun got a little too excited about seeing me.”

  Haven blinked.

  Sure, he left details out. He still told her the basics of the truth that she knew.

  She didn’t know what did it—maybe his blasé tone, or the fact that his injury made her hurt for him. It could have simply been that she was there with him after doing her very best to avoid him at all costs, and move the hell on.

  Whatever it was that shot through her like a jolt of nostalgia, pain, and … love, too … it sent her forward without any warning. Haven didn’t think about it; she wrapped her arms around Andino’s neck, and found peace the second she was in his arms. It took him less than a second to react, and enclose her in his embrace.

  Things were good for a second.

  Good for them.

  All the bad shit went away, and the pain dissipated. The rest of the world blinked out like it didn’t exist at all, and she could pretend things were fine. She liked it here in his arms; nothing else had to matter. She could lose herself in his warmth, and hard lines. Breathe in his scent like it was the only air she was ever going to need.

  Why couldn’t they stay like this?

  She wanted that.

  Reality was a quick bitch, though. It was always waiting right around the corner to drag Haven back to hell kicking and fucking screaming, regardless of what she wanted. This time, reality came with a squeeze around her heart that hurt like nothing else because … no, they couldn’t stay this way, and she was still the same woman he’d discarded not too long ago.

  Andino seemed to sense her sudden shift in thoughts, or maybe it was the way she tensed in his arms. Either way, he loosened his hold enough to allow Haven to step just far enough out of his arms’ reach. The distance gave her some clarity, but it wasn’t very much. Not nearly enough.

  “That looks like it hurts,” she said, gesturing to his injury.

  It was the only thing she could think to say.

  “The Vicodin with whiskey chaser is starting to kick in, actually,” Andino muttered, glancing down at his arm. “Small fucking miracles.”

  Haven laughed, but it came out strained, and probably a little too bitter. She couldn’t even control the rush of emotions that swept over her, never mind the anger that was still ever-present no matter what her stupid heart wanted.

  She couldn’t escape this feeling.

  She didn’t want to feel like this at all.

  “Why are you here?” Andino asked.

  She looked back at him, and shook her head. “I heard what happened.”

  “I’m fine.”

  Clearly.

  He just completely missed the point.

  Her anger swelled again. “You don’t get it, do you?”

  “Get what?”

  “That I give a shit about you, I guess? I actually care, Andino. I wanted to make sure you were okay, but since the hospital said you voluntarily checked yourself out, that wasn’t good enough for me. I had to know. So, here I am. I don’t know. It’s pointless, right? I shouldn’t be here anyway.”

  Haven was glad she voiced that thought—she shouldn’t be here. It wasn’t a matter of wanting to be, but a matter of what was best for her. Of course, she wanted to be here. That didn’t mean it was good for her.

  Before she could overthink anymore than she already was, Haven turned to leave with a quiet, “Sorry, Andino. I’m glad you’re okay.”

  She didn’t even get the chance to grab the doorknob. She didn’t see him coming for her until his hand was locked around her arm, and he’d spun her back around fast enough to make the room spin in her vision. Her gaze cleared in just enough time to see the emotion darkening his features before he closed all distance between them, and kissed her.

  There was no hesitance in his kiss, and no wariness. Like he knew the moment his lips touched hers, she was going to respond just how he wanted her to. His mouth moved over hers in such a familiar way that she couldn’t help herself but kiss him back. A deep, aching kiss that left her lips tingling, and her body weaker than ever.

  He could own her with a kiss.

  He took her rationale away.

  Worries, anger, and control … all gone.

  All he needed was a fucking kiss.

  There was a part of her that wanted to step back from him, and reevaluate. She knew that was the smart part of her brain whispering through the haze of nostalgia and need. It was the slip of his hand curving around the back of her neck to pull her impossibly closer that silenced the little voice.

  Haven reached back for him—her hands slipping over his naked chest to get more of his skin on hers. His tongue teased hers; a silent promise if there ever was one. She always thought he kissed a lot like he fucked. Deep, and fast, and a little wild. Like he couldn’t get enough, but he was determined to get what he wanted, regardless.

  And when he kissed her like that, then all of her ability to think clearly was quickly lost. Like now.

  All she could focus on was him, and the way his hand tightened on her neck. His growing erection pressed against her body which only served to make her wet. She could already feel that dampness in her panties.

  Andino pulled away from her mouth with a ragged breath. Those green eyes of his flashed with something dark and wild. “Upstairs, then?”

  How simple that question was.

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nbsp; It should be an easy no from her.

  Let this go.

  Leave it alone.

  Haven was still humming—still high from his kiss, and the promise of what was yet to come. Oh, she knew what would be coming. And that was a large part of the reason why she was quick to nod and say, “Yeah, upstairs.”

  Maybe if she gave it one last go—did this whole fucking dance with him one more time—she would be able to walk away. It’d be done; her need sated, even if her heart was still broken. She could feed the selfish part of her today, and mend the broken bits tomorrow.

  That seemed like a good plan.

  Stupid, but good.

  Andino’s hand pressed against her neck, and Haven moved at his urging. “Ladies first,” he said.

  She didn’t need him to direct her through his house. She knew exactly where she was going, and what was going to happen once she got there. As she passed by the kitchen, a familiar pit bull came out to greet her in the hallway. Haven took a second to bend down, and say hello to Snaps. A thickness grew in her throat the longer she ran her fingertips through the dog’s short coat.

  “Hey, buddy,” she whispered.

  Snaps’ stubby tail wagged hard. He licked the palm of her hand, and then pressed the very top of his head against her arm. His silent hello. She felt like it also sounded like, I miss you.

  God, she missed him, too.

  “You be good, huh?” she told him. “I’ll give you a treat before I leave.”

  Because she would be leaving.

  She simply didn’t know when.

  Andino cleared his throat, clearly not missing her statement to his dog. She didn’t acknowledge his noise, instead saying a goodbye to Snaps before standing again. The dog didn’t follow them upstairs, but that wasn’t a surprise. Snaps was well trained, and knew to stay unless he was asked to follow.

  Haven shivered when Andino’s hand landed on the small of her back. He moved in close behind her as she stepped inside his room—just over the cusp of no return, she thought. His bed was still the same. Large, four-poster, with black sheets, and red pillows. She tipped her head to the side when his lips skimmed the back of her neck, and his hands drifted over her sides.

  “I’m not supposed to be doing anything strenuous,” Andino murmured against her skin. Well, damn. She hadn’t even thought of that. “But I really don’t give a fuck right now.”

  His teeth grazed her earlobe while his hands slipped around her front. One skipped beneath her shirt, and higher to cup her breast through the lace bralette she wore. He was quick to push the bralette down to get his thumb and forefinger on her nipple. His fingers tweaked the hardened bud until she felt a jolt of heat shoot straight down to her pussy.

  His other unsnapped the button on her jeans, and dipped beneath the matching lace panties. The tight fit of his hand in her jeans made her hot—his fingers could barely move, yet he managed to stroke her just right. Enough to make her shake. And then he teased her with his fingertips stroking the seam of her sex before toying with her clit, too.

  Soft, gentle strokes.

  Not too much.

  Not nearly enough.

  “Do you know how wet you are right now?” he asked, those fingers of his teasing her pussy again. “Wet enough for me to bend you over, and have a fucking feast.”

  Jesus.

  “Maybe you can do just that.”

  “You’re mine for the night,” he uttered.

  Dark, and wicked.

  His voice still made her wet.

  It was kind of ridiculous.

  “For the night,” she agreed.

  “Then strip.”

  The order came out sharp, and yet husky along the column of her neck. She was aching in all the right places. A small tremor worked its way over her body—the anticipation she felt making itself known.

  “Now,” Andino added.

  He stepped away from her then, taking those teasing, talented hands with him. Haven felt the loss like a visceral sensation washing over her skin, but she was a little distracted considering he’d told her to do something, and she wanted more than anything to comply. She was quick to slip out of her jacket, jeans, and shirt. By the time she was down to her lace underwear set, Andino had perched himself on the edge of his bed.

  “Come here,” he said, tipping his head a bit to encourage her.

  She walked across the room until she was standing in front of him. One of his hands came up to cup her thigh, and then stroke down over her smooth skin. His touch left a trail of heat behind.

  “Still perfect,” he murmured.

  Haven let out a soft laugh. “You know, it’d be easier on me if you didn’t say things like that.”

  There.

  She said it.

  Let him make of it what he wanted.

  Andino glanced up to meet her gaze. “Is that what you want? Just to get fucked, and then get gone, girl? You don’t want the rest?”

  Oh, she did.

  She wanted that more than anything.

  Her heart just couldn’t afford the cost.

  “Yeah,” Haven replied. “Just fuck me, and let me go, Andino.”

  He nodded.

  That was all she got—not even a verbal agreement—before he reached for her. His mouth landed just below her navel at the same time his hands fisted into the waistband of her panties. He dragged the lace halfway down her thighs while his mouth kissed a slow path lower on her stomach.

  “Just a taste,” she heard him say. Her panties fell down her legs, then. “Open up for me.”

  She stepped out of those forgotten panties, and widened her stance. His mouth was already on her pussy before she could drag in her next breath. He hadn’t lied about the just a taste thing. He teased her with his mouth and tongue just long enough to make her ready to beg.

  And then he pulled away.

  Andino tugged her into his lap; his hands grabbed her thighs with a rough touch, and fingertips that gripped hard enough to leave marks behind. And yet, she couldn’t find it in herself to give a single fuck about it.

  Not when he was spreading her wider.

  Not when he was whispering in her ear.

  “You want me to fuck you? You want my cock, baby?”

  “Yes.”

  Yes, yes, yes.

  The answer was always going to be yes.

  She fumbled with his pants to free his cock. Once she had his hard length in her hands, she took a moment to appreciate the weight and size of him as she stroked him slowly. All the while, that mouth of his was back on her throat—kissing, biting, and leaving behind more memories for her to feel even when she couldn’t see them.

  Every time she fisted his length, his hips jerked upward. His hands on her ass grasped tighter, and he pulled her hips into his groin. A low groan slipped from his lips, and skimmed over her skin even as she fitted him between her thighs.

  That first inch of him was heaven. It was the bliss she missed the most, and a sensation she would happily die feeling. No one had ever fucked Haven quite like Andino did. No one filled her as full, or stretched her open like he did.

  It was fucking delirious.

  Or, that’s how it made her.

  “Take what you want, then,” she heard him breathe against her chin when she tipped her head back. “Take it from me.”

  Being on top gave her back a sense of control, but his words only added to it. She controlled the pace, and how much of him she wanted to take. She decided when to make their fucking harder, and when to slow him down.

  And still, all she wanted was everything.

  All of it.

  “Just fuck me,” Haven muttered.

  So, he did.

  Hands firmly on her ass, and his mouth attacking hers. Thick cock bare, and making her ache with every deep thrust. She found stability tangling her fingers in his hair, and gasping for breath. But it was only an illusion. Even the control she thought he gave her had been an illusion.

  He fucked her hard.


  She begged for more.

  He slowed them down.

  Still, she didn’t come. He wouldn’t let her. Every time she came close enough, he pulled back until her body calmed, and then he went right back at it. Again, and again, and again. Until she felt like she was going to come apart at the damn seams. And she trembled on the edge until he was pounding into her again.

  Until she was sobbing because her mind was a mess, and her body couldn’t take anymore.

  Please, please let me come.

  It was all she could say.

  It was only after he’d flipped her over, and fucked her hard enough to make her throat raw from screaming that he finally let her fly.

  She broke apart all over again.

  Fuck him for that, too.

  • • •

  “You’re not going to say goodbye, then?” Andino asked.

  Haven pulled on her jeans, and internally cursed herself for not getting up the second she heard his bathroom door click. Maybe it was fucking cowardly of her—oh, it most certainly was—but she figured slipping out of his place would be the easiest way to do this. Then, there would be no need for any awkward conversation.

  Apparently, she hoped for too much.

  Damn.

  “Wasn’t last night enough?” Haven asked. “I kind of thought it was.”

  Andino leaned against the doorway leading into the connected master bath. “I don’t follow.”

  “Then, you’re clueless.”

  “Don’t be mean, Haven.”

  She let out a quiet laugh. “No, I suppose that’s meant for you, right? You’re the one between us who gets to make choices that hurts the other one. You’re the one who does cruel things. It’s entirely out of character for me to do something like that even if it is a reaction coming from my emotions. Yeah, I know. Don’t worry.”

  He moved forward, but Haven put a hand out to stop him even as she zipped up her jeans with the other one. “Don’t bother.”

  “You could have left last night.”

  “Why not stay for a good fuck?” she shot back. “At least then I’m getting something from this. It’s done now. Count on that.”