Something Just Ain't Right

by Sheena Binkley

  “Are you always going to let Lamar have you by your balls? Damn, loosen up,” Paula chided.

  Morgan rolled his eyes at her, then he turned to me.

  “Hales, you know I can’t have you here.”

  “Why not? In case you haven’t noticed, I’m 20 now, and I can pretty much figure things out on my own. I can’t keep having you and Lamar on my back every day, dictating what I do. Bad enough I had to deal with his controlling ways at home, now I have to endure it at college, too.”

  “You know you could have gone to another college, right?” Paula interjected.

  “Please, and have Lamar transfer schools?”

  “You have a weird family,” Paula said, shaking her head.

  Morgan looked annoyed by us; he cleared his throat to get our attention.

  “Excuse me, but you two have to go. In fact, why don’t I just walk you back to the dorms? I’m heading out any way.”

  “You don’t have to do that. We were leaving any way.”

  “What if I want to?” Morgan asked.

  Paula smiled and slowly backed away.

  “I think I’m going to stick around. I can get a ride with Shamicka if it gets too late.”

  I looked at Paula with a tiny smile.

  “Maybe you should come with us too, Paula,” Morgan suggested.

  “I don’t have a controlling brother, so I can stay,” she said and went into the crowd.

  I turned to Morgan, who ran a hand through his cropped hair.

  “I guess we should go then,” I said, walking in front of him.

  Who knew leaving this party would be a great idea? Hopefully, things would go even better once Morgan and I were alone.

  Morgan

  Once we left the Kappa house, Hayley and I walked towards Hudson Hall, the junior co-ed dorms at Thompson. I looked over at Hayley, who turned towards me.

  “You know, Paula made a point earlier.”

  “If you’re referring to Lamar having my balls, then you’re both wrong. I can do whatever I want. You know that.”

  “I do, but when it comes to me, you don’t.”

  I looked at Hayley, wondering where this boldness was coming from. It shouldn’t really surprise me though; the girl had always been fiery, especially towards her brother. She would state her case on various arguments until she had the last word. To me, that was kind of a turn-on.

  I stopped walking as I turned my body towards her. I stared into her brown eyes, pushing a strand of hair from her face.

  “Hales, you’re like my little sister. We’ve known each other since we were in elementary school. I just feel maybe we shouldn’t cross that line.”

  “Cross what line? Morgan, I see the way you look at me, and trust me, it’s not a stare siblings would give to each other.”

  I stared at her, our bodies close together, her eyes gazing into mine. I was trying my hardest to not give into this girl, but everything in me wanted to go into her dorm room and just let everything go. But I couldn’t do it.

  Lamar and I had been best friends since we were five. I had just moved into town, so of course I didn’t have any friends. On my first day of kindergarten, my mom urged me to take my Transformers to school, hoping that maybe it would be a way for someone to talk to me. For some reason, my mom thought I had a hard time making friends. Who wouldn’t at five years old? Anyway, during recess, Lamar approached me, noticing them and automatically started a conversation about them. Before I knew it, we were running around the playground pretending we were Optimus Prime and Bumblebee.

  After that, the two of us became good friends. We hung out at each other’s houses, had sleepovers, and even went on family vacations together. I became a part of Lamar’s family, just like he did with mine. As time went by, it became clear that not only were we good friends, but we were like brothers. It was something I always wanted, because I was the only child. We leaned on each other for a lot of things, from Lamar’s parents and their divorce, to the numerous girls we encountered, we developed a brotherly bond that was unbreakable.

  With Hayley, at first I did just look at her as Lamar’s sister. She always had those dolls with her and wanted to hang out with us as we played basketball or just talked. But as time passed, I did noticed how much she changed. I tried not to, but I couldn’t help it. I know Lamar wouldn’t want me with her, mainly because of my history with women, but honestly, he wouldn’t want any man to be around Hayley, because that was his sister, plain and simple.

  “You know how much your family means to me. You all helped me feel welcome when I first moved to Mission Glen. That’s something I will always remember.”

  “What does that have to do with us? If you think you have feelings for me, why fight them?”

  “You know why?”

  “I get it; you would think that we’re betraying Lamar if we do, but Morgan, don’t you think you should go for what you want?”

  “We need to go.” I said as I started back walking.

  Hayley stopped me, grabbing my arm and pulling me towards her. She put her arms around me, giving me a sensual glance.

  “I never expected you to act like this. Around campus, you break all the rules. You’re straightforward with everyone you encounter, but the one person you should be honest with, you don’t.”

  “Because I know if I do, it will lead to disaster.”

  “But wouldn’t you want to know how things would be between us?” Hayley asked, pressing her body against me.

  I breathed heavily against her, putting my hand across her shoulder, feeling how soft her skin felt beside mine.

  “Every single day,”

  “Well, why won’t you let go? Just one night, just see what it’s like. No thoughts, no worries. Just you and me, together,” she said.

  I leaned into her even further, taking in the mango scent in her hair, her fingertips gliding across my shoulders. At that point, I was completely horny. I grabbed her hand, sliding it down my stomach. She continued to stare at me as I pressed her palm against the hardness of my jeans. Her breathing became erratic while her hand moved against me.

  “That’s how bad I want you, but it’s not going to happen.” I said.

  I let go of her hand, disconnecting us from the reaction.

  “Come on.” I said, walking towards the dorm entrance.

  I heard Hayley give a soft moan as she walked behind me. I needed to hurry up and get her inside so I could go back to my apartment. I didn’t think I could take another minute alone with her, because I would end up doing something that would destroy the only real friendship I ever had.

  We finally approached the door, as Hayley pulled out her entrance card to grant access. She looked at me, giving me an apologetic smile.

  “Morgan...”

  “It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize.”

  “I can go in from here.”

  “No, I’ll walk you to your room.”

  “You don’t have to.”

  “I want to.”

  Hayley sighed as she led the way to her dorm room. While walking, I had to wonder how she was able to stay in a co-ed dorm. I’m sure Lamar had something to say about it, but knowing Hayley, she did something to get her request fulfilled.

  Once we reached her doorstep, she paused to stare at me one more time.

  “Morgan, if things weren’t so complicated, would we really have given into the attraction we have towards each other?”

  I stared at her, a smile going across my lips.

  “No, I wouldn’t have.”

  Hayley gave a disappointed pout to what I just said.

  “Hales, you deserve much more than a one-night stand, so, no I wouldn’t have just given into my attraction for you. Instead, I would have given us a chance for something more.” I said.

  I went up to her, slightly pressing my lips against her cheek. Before I knew it, she turned her lips towards mine, kissing me. Damn, her lips felt so good! She pulled me closer to her, wrapping her arms around me. I p
ut my hands through her hair, touching those curls I imagined doing every day for years. I wanted to resist kissing her, but I couldn’t anymore. I wanted to feel her lips against mine, her tongue moving with mine. I needed this. I needed her.

  She quickly released herself from me, putting her key into the lock. I leaned into her, pushing her hair to the side, kissing her neck. She softly moaned, managing to unlock the door. She turned around, bringing me inside and slammed the door.

  We moved towards the wall. Her back pressed against it while I held her closer to me. Her hands were underneath my shirt, trying to lift it off my body. I was doing the same to her, lightly touching her soft skin, kissing her neck and chest. She pulled my shirt off, staring at my chest. She smiled, moving her lips down my body. A moan quickly flew out of my mouth, leading me to take her towards her bed.

  We lay down, stopping to stare at each other. I knew I shouldn’t partake in this. To give into my weakness for her. I made a promise to myself and to Lamar that I would never try to pursue Hayley. That was a vow I gave to my best friend and mainly to myself, because I knew I would hurt her. If we ever got together, I would find some way to screw it up. I need to end this now before I got too involved.

  I got up, going over to the floor to pick up my shirt. Hayley sat up on the bed, completely confused as to what was going on.

  “What’s wrong?”

  “I’m not going to do this.”

  “Why not?”

  “You know why. With the way things are, it’s best if we remain friends.”

  Hayley sighed as she walked over to me.

  “I don’t understand you. You’d rather be with these other females around campus, but you don’t want to take a chance on something real. Something that will last more than one night.”

  I put my shirt on, trying really hard not to take her back into my arms and do all the things I’ve dreamt about doing to her. I turned towards her, putting my arms around her. I kissed her, taking my time with her, because I knew this would be the last time I could be like this with her.

  My hands roamed down to her body, getting a chance to feel her skin. I touched the small of her back. My hands went lower to her ass, wishing I didn’t go there, because now I was hard again. Hayley put her hands through my hair, caressing my lips with hers.

  “Let me leave you with something so you’ll always remember this moment,” she said.

  She pulled me back to the bed and before I knew it, it was over. I couldn’t fight my feelings for her. I knew I would regret it, but right now, the only thing I wanted was to be with her; and now, I was going to get my chance to.

  Hayley

  I slowly opened my eyes and quickly closed them. The morning sun was in my face, which I really didn’t appreciate. I was not a morning person and today was no exception.

  I rolled over on my side, expecting Morgan to still be beside me, but to my surprise, he wasn’t there. I raised up and looked around the room. Not only wasn’t he in the bed, but his clothes were gone.

  I lay down and sighed. I really thought we had a breakthrough last night. He finally let go of his hesitation with me which was something I’d been waiting on for years. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t sitting around waiting for the moment that Morgan finally noticed me. I did my own thing with dating other guys. I had fun with them, but they weren’t him. I constantly compared them to him and it was starting to get in the way of me dating.

  All of a sudden, a loud bang was escalating outside my door. I jumped up, wondering what the hell was that, when Paula’s loud ass voice vibrated from the other end.

  “I know you’re here, Hales! Open up!”

  I quickly got out of bed and ran to the door. I didn’t need the RA to come to my room about Paula being loud. Theresa already said if she did it again, she was not allowed back on the floor.

  “Do you really need to act like this so early in the morning?”

  “What? I was trying to wake you up. Consider me your alarm clock.”

  I rolled my eyes and opened the door wider for her to come in. She started to look around, and went under the bed. I stared at her with a curious glance.

  “What are you doing?”

  “I’m checking to see if Morgan left anything behind. I know you two got some last night.”

  “And how would you know? He just dropped me off, that’s all.”

  “Please, Hales. I could tell the way you two were looking when you left that you were going to have sex.”

  I sighed and went to the bed and sat down. “He could have at least stayed, but that’s Morgan for you. He only cares about himself.”

  “Stop, Paula!”

  “Stop what? Morgan is a player. In the short time that I’ve known him, his ultimate goal is to get into every female’s drawers. Hell, I’m surprised he hasn’t tried to get into mines, which I would never give up anyway.”

  “Are you done?”

  “No, I’m not. You deserve so much more, Hales. You probably think in the back of your mind that you could change his bad boy ways, but honestly, you can’t. He smooth-talked you into fucking him and it worked. Now, where is he? Let me guess, probably moved on to his next conquest.”

  “He’s not like that.”

  “If you say so. Anyway, this is just a lesson learned. Now, you’ve did what you wanted with him and it’s out of your system, so you can move on.”

  “Maybe so.” I said to myself.

  “I have to ask though, how was he? I mean, I heard so much about white guys…”

  “I’m not going to tell you that, Paula.”

  “Why not? We’re girls; we tell each other everything.”

  “Well, unfortunately, not this. Can we just move on to another topic? Why are you really here?”

  “I was hoping I could invite you out for breakfast. I was going to meet up with Scott and Brandon at the coffeehouse.”

  “I don’t think so.”

  “Come on; I thought you would be glad to see Brandon, especially with everything that has happened between you and Morgan.”

  I shook my head and sighed. Brandon and I had been dating for a little while now. Basically, he was my distraction from Morgan. From his mixed blue-green eyes to his honey-colored skin and his fit body, he was definitely easy to look at. Not only that, but he was easy to get along with. He was definitely boyfriend material, but there was something about him that made me wonder if he was too good to be true.

  “I have a lot of studying to do.”

  “Really, Hayley? You can take an hour out for breakfast.”

  “Paula, I don’t…”

  “Be ready in 5. I’ll be waiting.” She said. She patted the top of my head and went to the door.

  I watched it close and flopped down on the bed. I really didn’t want to go out and be social. The night I had with Morgan was amazing, which was definitely making me feel a little upset with what he’d done. I knew he would do this, but I took a chance with him anyway. Now, I definitely regretted being with him.

  ***

  After showering and getting into a peach bulky sweater and grey skinny jeans, I met up with Paula outside. I put my hair into a hat, wishing I had more time to tame it, but it didn’t matter anyway. It’s not like I was going to impress anyone right now.

  We approached the coffeehouse in five minutes and saw Brandon and Scott sitting at a booth near the window. Paula immediately went to Scott and gave him a sensual kiss. Scott was Paula’s man for the moment, which I used that term loosely. Paula is sort of the female version of Morgan, so it kind of surprised me that she would talk about Morgan when she does the same thing.

  “How are you this morning, pretty lady?” Brandon asked and smiled.

  I looked at him and gave a shy smile. “I’m doing great. How about yourself?”

  “Pretty damn good since I see you.”

  I blushed, completely smitten by the way he was being with me. I had to admit, now that I knew where things stood with Morgan, I probably could actuall
y give Brandon a chance.

  “I was thinking if you’re not too busy with studying that we could go into the city this week? Maybe grab some dinner and see a movie.”

  I smiled. “Sure, that would be great.”

  “And Lamar won’t have a problem with that, will he?”

  “At this point, I could care less about my brother.” I said.

  He leaned into me and gave me a kiss that literally made me wet. I didn’t know what was going on with me, but I guess my little obsession with Morgan was quickly fading away.

  Once I pulled away from Brandon, I could see him and Lamar walking in. I stared at him as he gave me a quick glance before going to the counter. Paula looked at me and over at Morgan and sighed.

  My phone beeped as I dug into my cross body bag. I looked at the text from Paula reading: “His lost, Hales,”

  I nodded as Brandon put an arm around me. I snuggled against him and closed my eyes. Paula’s right. If he didn’t realize the person that I was, then the hell with him.

  Morgan

  I glanced over at Hayley talking to that punk assed Brandon. I couldn’t stand him. He thought he could get with any woman because of those damn eyes. I bet they wouldn’t be any good once I punched them out of his sockets.

  “Morgan!”

  I looked over and saw Lamar giving me an intense look. Damn, I hope he didn’t see who I was staring at.

  “What?”

  “Did you want anything?”

  “Nah, I’m good.”

  “What is your problem? You’ve been out of it since you came in this morning, which you still haven’t said where you were all night.”

  I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. Like I would tell him I was banging his sister the entire night. Damn, I still couldn’t believe that happened between Hayley and me. The way she felt was incredible. I wanted so bad to stay with her and be with her, but we both knew that could never happen.