Dark Benediction

by Walter Michael Miller

  Beyond one such window, he erected an altar, and placed a priest before it to chant a liturgical description of the heart-reasoning of his times. And beyond another window, he built a stage and set his talking dolls upon it to live a dramaturgical sequence of wishes and woes of his times.

  True, the priests would change, the liturgy would change, and the dolls, the dramas, the displays—but the windows would never—no never—be closed as long as Man outlived his members, for only through such windows could transient men see themselves against the back-ground of a broader sweep, see man encompassed by Man. A perspective not possible without the windows.

  Dramaturgy. Old as civilized Man. Outlasting forms and techniques and applications. Outlasting even current popular worship of the Great God Mechanism, who was temporarily enshrined while still being popularly misunderstood. Like the Great God Commerce of an earlier century, and the God Agriculture before him.

  Suddenly he laughed aloud. “If they used human actors today, it would be a pretty moldy display. Not even true, considering the times.”

  By the time another figure lounged in his doorway, he had begun to feel rather expansive and heroic about it all. When a small cough caused him to glance up, he stared for a moment, grinned broadly, then called: “Ho, Richard! Come in. Here… sit down. Help me decide on a career, eh? Heh heh—” He waved the classified section and chuckled. “What kind of little black boxes can an old ham—”

  He paused. Rick’s expression was chilly, and he made no move to enter. After a moment he said: “I guess there’ll always be a sucker to rerun this particular relay race.”

  “Race?” Thorny gathered a slow frown.

  “Yeah. Last century, it was between a Chinese abacus operator and an IBM machine. They really had a race, you know.”

  “Now see here—”

  “And the century before that, it was between a long-hand secretary and a typewriting machine.”

  “If you came here to—”

  “And before that, the hand-weavers against the automatic looms.”

  “Nice to have seen you, Richard. On your way out, would you ask the nurse to—”

  “Break up the looms, smash the machines, picket the offices with typewriters, keep adding machines out of China! So then what? Try to be a better tool than a tool?”

  Thorny rolled his head aside and glowered at the wall. “All right. I was wrong. What do you want to do? Gloat? Moralize?”

  “No. I’m just curious. It keeps happening—a specialist trying to compete with a higher-level specialist’s tools. Why?”

  “Higher level?” Thorny sat up with a snarl, groaned, caught at his side and sank back again, panting.

  “Easy, old man,” Rick said quietly. “Sorry. Higher organizational-level, I meant. Why do you keep on doing it?”

  Thorny lay silent for a few moments, then: “Status jealousy. Even hawks try to drive other hawks out of their hunting grounds. Fight off competition.”

  “But you’re no hawk. And a machine isn’t competition.”

  “Cut it out, Rick. What did you come here for?”

  Rick glanced at the toe of his shoe, snickered faintly, and came on into the room. “Thought you might need some help finding a job,” he said. “When I looked in the door and saw you lying there looking like somebody’s King Arthur, I got sore again.” He sat restlessly on the edge of a chair and watched the old man with mingled sadness, irritation, and affection.

  “You’d help me… find a job?”

  “Maybe. A job, not a permanent niche.”

  “It’s too late to find a permanent niche.”

  “It was too late when you were born, old man! There isn’t any such thing—hasn’t been, for the last century. Whatever you specialize in, another specialty will either gobble you up, or find a way to replace you. If you get what looks like a secure niche, somebody’ll come along and wall you up is it and write your epitaph on it. And the more specialized a society gets, the more dangerous it is for the pure specialist. You think an electronic engineer is any safer than an actor? Or a ditch-digger?”

  “I don’t know. It’s not fair. A man’s career—”

  “You’ve always got one specialty that’s safe.”

  “What’s that?”

  “The specialty of creating new specialties. Continuously. Your own.”

  “But that’s—” He started to protest, to say that such a concept belonged to the highly trained few, to the technical elite of the era, and that it wasn’t specialization, but generalization. But why to the few? The specialty of creating new specialties—

  “But that’s—”

  “More or less a definition of Man, isn’t it?” Rick finished for him. “Now about the job—”

  “Yes, about the job—”

  So maybe you don’t start from the bottom after all, he decided. You start considerably above the lemur, the chimpanzee, the orangutan, the Maestro—if you ever start at all.

  1955

  DARK BENEDICTION

  Always fearful of being set upon during the night, Paul slept uneasily despite his weariness from the long trek southward. When dawn broke, he rolled out of his blankets and found himself still stiff with fatigue. He kicked dirt over the remains of the campfire and breakfasted on a tough forequarter of cold boiled rabbit which he washed down with a swallow of earthy-tasting ditchwater. Then he buckled the cartridge belt about his waist, leaped the ditch, and climbed the embankment to the trafficless four-lane highway whose pavement was scattered with blown leaves and unsightly debris dropped by a long-departed throng of refugees whose only wish had been to escape from one another. Paul, with characteristic independence, had decided to go where the crowds had been the thickest—to the cities—on the theory that they would now be deserted, and therefore noncontagious.

  The fog lay heavy over the silent land, and for a moment he paused groping for cognizance of direction. Then he saw the stalled car on the opposite shoulder of the road—a late model convertible, but rusted, flat-tired, with last year’s license plates, and most certainly out of fuel. It obviously had been deserted by its owner during the exodus, and he trusted in its northward heading as he would have trusted the reading of a compass. He turned right and moved south on the empty highway. Somewhere just ahead in the gray vapor lay the outskirts of Houston. He had seen the high skyline before the setting of yesterday’s sun, and knew that his journey would soon be drawing to a close.

  Occasionally he passed a deserted cottage or a burned-out roadside tavern, but he did not pause to scrounge for food. The exodus would have stripped such buildings clean. Pickings should be better in the heart of the metropolitan area, he thought—where the hysteria had swept humanity away quickly.

  Suddenly Paul froze on the highway, listening to the fog. Footsteps in the distance—footsteps and a voice singing an absent-minded ditty to itself. No other sounds penetrated the sepulchral silence which once had growled with the life of a great city. Anxiety caught him with clammy hands. An old man’s voice it was, crackling and tuneless. Paul groped for his holster and brought out the revolver he had taken from a deserted police station.

  “Stop where you are, dermie!” he bellowed at the fog. “I’m armed.”

  The footsteps and the singing stopped. Paul strained his eyes to penetrate the swirling mist-shroud. After a moment, the oldster answered: “Sure foggy, ain’t it, sonny? Can’t see ya. Better come a little closer. I ain’t no dermie.”

  Loathing choked in Paul’s throat. “The hell you’re not. Nobody else’d be crazy enough to sing. Get off the road! I’m going south, and if I see you I’ll shoot. Now move!”

  “Sure, sonny. I’ll move. But I’m no dermie. I was just singing to keep myself company. I’m past caring about the plague. I’m heading north, where there’s people, and if some dermie hears me a’singing… why, I’ll tell him t’come jine in. What’s the good o’ being healthy if yer alone?”

  While the old man spoke, Paul heard his sloshing across the ditch
and climbing through the brush. Doubt assailed him. Maybe the old crank wasn’t a dermie. An ordinary plague victim would have whimpered and pleaded for satisfaction of his strange craving—the laying-on of hands, the feel of healthy skin beneath moist gray palms. Nevertheless, Paul meant to take no chances with the oldster.

  “Stay back in the brush while I walk past!” he called.

  “Okay, sonny. You go right by. I ain’t gonna touch you. You aiming to scrounge in Houston?”

  Paul began to advance. “Yeah, I figure people got out so fast that they must have left plenty of canned goods and stuff behind.”

  “Mmmm, there’s a mite here and there,” said the cracked voice in a tone that implied understatement. “Course, now, you ain’t the first to figure that way, y’know.”

  Paul slacked his pace, frowning. “You mean… a lot of people are coming back?”

  “Mmmm, no—not a lot. But you’ll bump into people every day or two. Ain’t my kind o’ folks. Rough characters, mostly—don’t take chances, either. They’ll shoot first, then look to see if you was a dermie. Don’t never come busting out of a doorway without taking a peek at the street first. And if two people come around a corner in opposite directions, somebody’s gonna die. The few that’s there is trigger happy. Just thought I’d warn ya.”

  “Thanks.”

  “D’mention it. Been good t’hear a body’s voice again, tho I can’t see ye.”

  Paul moved on until he was fifty paces past the voice. Then he stopped and turned. “Okay, you can get back on the road now. Start walking north. Scuff your feet until you’re out of earshot.”

  “Taking no chances, are ye?” said the old man as he waded the ditch. “All right, sonny.” The sound of his footsteps hesitated on the pavement. “A word of advice—your best scrounging’ll be around the warehouses. Most of the stores are picked clean. Good luck!”

  Paul stood listening to the shuffling feet recede northward. When they became inaudible, he turned to continue his journey. The meeting had depressed him, reminded him of the animal-level to which he and others like him had sunk. The oldster was obviously healthy; but Paul had been chased by three dermies in as many days. And the thought of being trapped by a band of them in the fog left him unnerved. Once he had seen a pair of the grinning, maddened compulsives seize a screaming young child while each of them took turns caressing the youngster’s arms and face with the gray and slippery hands that spelled certain contraction of the disease—if disease it was. The dark pall of neuroderm was unlike any illness that Earth had ever seen.

  The victim became the eager ally of the sickness that gripped him. Caught in its demoniac madness, the stricken human searched hungrily for healthy comrades, then set upon them with no other purpose than to paw at the clean skin and praise the virtues of the blind compulsion that drove him to do so. One touch, and infection was insured. It was as if a third of humanity had become night-prowling maniacs, lurking in the shadows to seize the unwary, working in bands to trap the unarmed wanderer. And two-thirds of humanity found itself fleeing in horror from the mania, seeking the frigid northern climates where, according to rumor, the disease was less infectious. The normal functioning of civilization had been dropped like a hot potato within six months after the first alarm. When the man at the next lathe might be hiding gray discolorations beneath his shirt, industrial society was no place for humanity.

  Rumor connected the onslaught of the plague with an unpredicted swarm of meteorites which had brightened the sky one October evening two weeks before the first case was discovered. The first case was, in fact, a machinist who had found one of the celestial cannon balls, handled it, weighed it, estimated its volume by fluid-displacement, then cut into it on his lathe because its low density suggested that it might be hollow. He claimed to have found a pocket of frozen jelly, still rigid from deep space, although the outer shell had been heated white-hot by atmospheric friction. He said he let the jelly thaw, then fed it to his cat because it had an unpleasant fishy odor. Shortly thereafter, the cat disappeared.

  Other meteorites had been discovered and similarly treated by university staffs before there was any reason to blame them for the plague. Paul, who had been an engineering student at Texas U at the time of the incident, had heard it said that the missiles were purposefully manufactured by parties unknown, that the jelly contained microorganisms which under the microscope suggested a cross between a sperm-cell (because of a similar tail) and a Pucini Corpuscle (because of a marked resemblance to nerve tissue in subcellular detail).

  When the meteorites were connected with the new and mushrooming disease, some people started a panic by theorizing that the meteor-swarm was a pre-invasion artillery attack by some space-horde lurking beyond telescope range, and waiting for their biological bombardment to wreck civilization before they moved in upon Earth. The government had immediately labeled all investigations “top-secret,” and Paul had heard no news since the initial speculations. Indeed, the government might have explained the whole thing and proclaimed it to the country for all he knew. One thing was certain: the country had not heard. It no longer possessed channels of communication.

  Paul thought that if any such invaders were coming, they would have already arrived—months ago. Civilization was not truly wrecked; it had simply been discarded during the crazed flight of the individual away from the herd. Industry lay idle and unmanned, but still intact. Man was fleeing from Man. Fear had destroyed the integration of his society, and had left him powerless before any hypothetical invaders. Earth was ripe for plucking, but it remained unplucked and withering. Paul, therefore, discarded the invasion hypothesis, and searched for nothing new to replace it. He accepted the fact of his own existence in the midst of chaos, and sought to protect that existence as best he could. It proved to be a full-time job, with no spare time for theorizing.

  Life was a rabbit scurrying over a hill. Life was a warm blanket, and a secluded sleeping place. Life was ditchwater, and an unbloated can of corned beef, and a suit of clothing looted from a deserted cottage. Life, above all else, was an avoidance of other human beings. For no dermie had the grace to cry “unclean!” to the unsuspecting. If the dermie’s discolorations were still in the concealable stage, then concealed they would be, while the lost creature deliberately sought to infect his wife, his children, his friends—whoever would not protest an idle touch of the hand. When the grayness touched the face and the backs of the hands, the creature became a feverish night wanderer, subject to strange hallucinations and delusions and desires.

  The fog began to part toward midmorning as Paul drove deeper into the outskirts of Houston. The highway was becoming a commercial subcenter, lined with businesses and small shops. The sidewalks were showered with broken glass from windows kicked in by looters. Paul kept to the center of the deserted street, listening and watching cautiously for signs of life. The distant barking of a dog was the only sound in the once-growling metropolis. A flight of sparrows winged down the street, then darted in through a broken window to an inside nesting place.

  He searched a small grocery store, looking for a snack, but the shelves were bare. The thoroughfare had served as a main avenue of escape, and the fugitives had looted it thoroughly to obtain provisions. He turned onto a side street, then after several blocks turned again to parallel the highway, moving through an old residential section. Many houses had been left open, but few had been looted. He entered one old frame mansion and found a can of tomatoes in the kitchen. He opened it and sipped the tender delicacy from the container, while curiosity sent him prowling through the rooms.

  He wandered up the first flight of stairs, then halted with one foot on the landing. A body lay sprawled across the second flight—the body of a young man, dead quite a while. A well-rusted pistol had fallen from his hand. Paul dropped the tomatoes and bolted for the street. Suicide was a common recourse, when a man learned that he had been touched.

  After two blocks, Paul stopped running. He sat panting on a fire
hydrant and chided himself for being overly cautious. The man had been dead for months; and infection was achieved only through contact. Nevertheless, his scalp was still tingling. When he had rested briefly, he continued his plodding course toward the heart of the city. Toward noon, he saw another human being.

  The man was standing on the loading dock of a warehouse, apparently enjoying the sunlight that came with the dissolving of the fog. He was slowly and solemnly spooning the contents of a can into a red-lipped mouth while his beard bobbled with appreciative chewing. Suddenly he saw Paul who had stopped in the center of the street with his hand on the butt of his pistol. The man backed away, tossed the can aside, and sprinted the length of the platform. He bounded off the end, snatched a bicycle away from the wall, and pedalled quickly out of sight while he bleated shrill blasts on a police whistle clenched between his teeth.

  Paul trotted to the corner, but the man had made another turn. His whistle continued bleating. A signal? A dermie summons to a touching orgy? Paul stood still while he tried to overcome an urge to break into panicked flight. After a minute, the clamor ceased; but the silence was ominous.

  If a party of cyclists moved in, he could not escape on foot. He darted toward the nearest warehouse, seeking a place to hide. Inside, he climbed a stack of boxes to a horizontal girder, kicked the stack to topple it, and stretched out belly-down on the steel eye-beam to command a clear shot at the entrances. He lay for an hour, waiting quietly for searchers. None came. At last he slid down a vertical support and returned to the loading platform. The street was empty and silent. With weapon ready, he continued his journey. He passed the next intersection without mishap.