Seamless

by Griffin, R. L.

  Seamless

  R.L. Griffin

  Seamless

  Copyright © 2013 by R.L. Griffin

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

  Printed in the United States of America. All rights reserved under International Copyright Law. Contents and/or cover may not be reproduced in whole or in part in any form without the express written consent of the Publisher.

  Table of Contents

  Dedication

  Prologue

  Chapter One: Done

  Chapter Two: And it begins…

  Chapter Three: I Don’t Do Trust

  Chapter Four: Cut a Bitch

  Chapter Five: Nothing Like A Backyard BBQ

  Chapter Six: Throwing Shit and Breathing

  Chapter Seven: Sex on Wheels

  Chapter Eight: Lunch Box

  Chapter Nine: Curiosity

  Chapter Ten: Porn Martinis

  Chapter Eleven: Don’t Go

  Chapter Twelve: I Belong to the Hurricane

  Chapter Thirteen: Cooper, My Hero

  Chapter Fourteen: Distraction

  Chapter Fifteen: Bullet to the Head

  Chapter Sixteen: Quack like a Duck

  Chapter Seventeen: Fight for Us

  Chapter Eighteen: I Don’t Get Paid to be Nice

  Chapter Nineteen: Hell’s Empty

  Chapter Twenty: Mine’s Bigger than Yours

  Chapter Twenty-One: Too Much Porn for One Night

  Chapter Twenty-Two: Check Fucking Mate

  Chapter Twenty-Three: All My Mistakes

  Chapter Twenty-Four: House of Cards

  Chapter Twenty-Five: Red Hands

  Chapter Twenty-Six: The Fourth Time’s the Charm

  Chapter Twenty-Seven: Falling Apart

  Chapter Twenty-Eight: Not How I Thought

  Chapter Twenty-Nine: Can’t

  Chapter Thirty: The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions

  Chapter Thirty-One: Everyone’s a Little Broken

  Chapter Thirty-Two: Three Minutes

  Epilogue: The Beginning

  Acknowledgements

  Heart in Wire: Prologue

  Dedication

  This book is dedicated to my Cooper. I know this is super cheesy, so just go with it. I adopted a crazy looking Wire-Haired Fox Terrier when I moved to DC for law school in 1999. My mom talked me into getting him because I was thinking “no.” He looked homely in the shelter, his hair was matted and he didn’t want us near him. Fortunately, I listened to my mom—it was a rare occasion. He died in May this year and I was so sad it was ridiculous. I tried to read Dog Heaven to my four year old in order to explain what happened and had a total breakdown. (I know this may shock some of you who believe I’m soulless).

  He was my rock when I didn’t know anyone. He was my confidant, my shoulder to cry on and my bedfellow. He was an asshole too, some say just like me. His personality was one of the best (see previous sentence) and he gave me some of my favorite memories. He ran with me too, but when he got tired he would just lay down, wherever we were, and force me to carry him home. When he was mad he would pee in my shoe or on my pillow (no joke) or bring me dead animals in the middle of the night. As you can tell, I could write for days about my love for Cooper. I know if you’ve ever had a dog you know the kind of love I mean, the kind that will be with you long after they’re gone. The kind of love that makes you smile when you’re greeted at the door every day by a wagging tail and a tongue hanging out. My life is a little dimmer without him in it.

  Prologue

  Perfection is elusive and may truly be an illusion, but it’s still something everyone strives for. Stella had witnessed perfect moments that were split-seconds of perfection: taking an outside pitch to right field exactly where she wanted it to go, the wind blowing her hair at the beach while the waves crashed around Cooper, and the way George fell asleep with his hand on her tattoo. The perfection that people strive for—the perfect job, perfect family, perfect house—it doesn’t exist. It’s created in labs, in artist studios, with Photoshop, but it doesn’t happen in real life. Ever.

  Whenever things seem like they’re good and a peace starts washing over Stella, that’s when worry creeps over her and settles in her gut, right next to the pain that she struggled so hard to keep shoved down. Thoughts rolled through her mind as to what the bad would be this time: (1) George was finally leaving her; (2) she’d fall into a hole somewhere and finally die; or (3) her emotions would swallow her whole and she would have a total mental breakdown.

  Stella’s life was full of downs and mediocrity. She was ready for a high or two, but she didn’t know if she deserved the glee at the top of a rollercoaster; she didn’t think she could lift her hands and just enjoy the ride.

  This dare-she-call-it-happiness was an exhilarating, scream-inducing, terror-filled feeling that she hadn’t really felt since Jamie proposed. Yes, she loved George, but she was always so certain he was going to bolt so she couldn’t lift her hands and scream even when he’d asked her to move in with him. Stella desperately wanted the carefree bliss she’d seen other people enjoy—the ordinary act of holding George’s hand and walking around, confident that they were simply walking around. What she wouldn’t give to lead a boring, somewhat normal life.

  That ship sailed years ago.

  Chapter One

  Done

  Time stood still as she ran toward the loves of her life, her arms flailing.

  “RUN!”

  Patrick, Millie and George looked at her with alarm and started moving quickly toward the house. Adrenaline was coursing through her veins and as she barreled down the four stairs, only touching two, and met them in the driveway.

  “Inside, get inside!” she huffed, more from the stress than exertion. Stella pushed at their backs, making them move faster up the stairs toward the front door.

  Cooper danced through their legs, tail moving rhythmically back and forth, excited by the uproar.

  “What?” George implored as she pushed them in the front door.

  Patrick examined Stella’s expression, his own not showing any emotion. Millie’s eyes were wide, searching Stella’s. Stella shut the front door and leaned her back against it as if she alone could hold off any danger to her family. This is it! I’m done with this shit. The cord binding her to reason snapped unceremoniously.

  “FUCK! THIS! SHIT!”

  The look on George, Millie and Patrick’s faces probably would’ve sent her into hysterics if the circumstances weren’t so dire. Stella pointed toward the note on the box of clementines.

  “A note,” she said shortly, unable to find more words.

  George bent down to look at the paper taped on the box of fruit. “I thought I’d bring these to you since I know you like them so much. Enjoyed your testimony. We’ll talk soon. J.” He stood up straight and looked directly at Stella. “This wasn’t here when I left.”

  “The clementines?” she asked, her breathing labored from anxiety.

  “No,” George began pacing, “those were delivered right before I left, but the note wasn’t on there.”

  “I thought the car had a bomb in it or something.” When she’d seen the note, her mind led her directly to believe that Jamie had bombed the car. Wow! How fucked up am I?

  Patrick’s ears perked up at the word “bomb” and he pulled out his phone from his olive cargo pants and began talking to someone. His blue eyes pierced her, keeping an eye on her while he spoke authoritatively. “That’s a possibility,” he acknowledged slowly, nodding. He told the person the address and put his phone back in his pocke
t. He grabbed Millie’s hand and squeezed it.

  George stopped pacing and wrapped his arms around Stella’s waist from behind her, resting his chin in the crook of her neck.

  Stella couldn’t read his face and wondered what he was thinking. “George.” Stella sunk into him. He kissed her temple.

  “You need to call the FBI, right now,” George said softly into her ear.

  She nodded. She’d tried to do it her way and she’d failed miserably. Just a few minutes ago she’d allowed herself to feel safe and happy. Now her fucked up life reared its ugly head and bitch slapped her for even thinking happiness was a possibility. Stella knew she was stupid for not telling the FBI about Jamie to start with and this just solidified that fact. Her emotions were almost numb to the possibility that there was a bomb to kill her in her car, but her heart clenched at the likelihood that Millie, Patrick or George would be hurt because of her. She would end this; she just needed to figure out how. Stella sighed as she eyed Patrick, resigned to the fact she would need his help.

  “What the fuck is going on?” Millie burst out, shaking Stella from her thoughts.

  Stella was always a little surprised when Millie cussed because she looked so prim and proper. Today, her caramel, shoulder-length hair was pulled up in a high ponytail and she had on short pink shorts with a white tank top, making her look like an innocent college kid. Her attitude often made her seem a lot younger than the rest of their jaded selves and they each almost flinched when Millie erupted.

  “Am I the only one that doesn’t know something? Why is someone threatening your life? Why did someone bring your car, which was stolen over six fucking months ago, all the way from Atlanta? Why the fuck are you guys not more freaked out? Why did you say Jamie?” Millie’s hands flew around wildly to show her frustration, her face flushed, then she crossed her arms over her chest and pouted.

  “Damn, Mil, if I knew the answers to those questions I’d be better off,” Stella said. “What are you both doing home anyway?”

  “Well, you wouldn’t let us go to Montana, so we’d thought we’d be here when you got back,” she responded insolently.

  Patrick pulled Millie protectively into his chest. “I called in a favor and my buddy from the ATF is coming to take a look at the car for any sign of explosives. I’m taking Millie home.” He attempted to pull her toward the door. “Call me if you need me, El.”

  “Wait, I want to know what the fuck is going on!” Millie demanded, refusing to move.

  “Babe, we’ll talk about it later. Let’s just get out of here now, okay?” Patrick ran his thumb over Millie’s right eyebrow and she melted into him, finally letting him guide her toward the door.

  “Fine, but don’t think this is over.” She pointed her pointer finger and her middle finger at her own eyes and then at Stella’s.

  Stella couldn’t contain her laughter and then held her hands up in surrender. “Of course not.”

  Stella’s laughter was short lived. She was wound up and George’s hold on her was making her claustrophobic. She wiggled out of his grasp and gazed into his eyes. He, Millie and Patrick were her heart now and she couldn’t live if anything were to happen to them. She pulled out her cell phone and looked up the phone number she knew she needed to call. She glanced at George and groaned before she hit send. “Agent Harris. I just got a death threat.”

  George walked into the kitchen and poured them both a glass of Glenfiddich. He took a gulp of his drink as he walked back over to where she was still standing in the entryway.

  “Well, I didn’t think I’d hear from you again, Ms. Murphy,” Agent Harris responded. “Is this call related to the trial?”

  “Yes, because of my testimony.” She looked at George and sighed. “I also think I have some more information you may want, too.”

  Agent Harris had testified yesterday too, after Stella, but was still in Montana because he wanted to stay through the entire trial until they got a guilty verdict. Regardless of his plan, his tone was all business when he assured her he’d be there the next day, with someone from the DC office as well.

  She sighed again, loudly, walked toward the bar in the kitchen and put her phone down. Her throat burned as she took a gulp of the scotch.

  “Well?”

  “He told me not to bother calling the police. He’s sending someone over to check out the car and then he’ll be here tomorrow.”

  “So this is it. You’re going to tell him everything?” George asked.

  “Most things.” Stella nodded. “I guess I better call Greg.”

  George took another sip of scotch. “That’s probably smart.”

  Stella picked up her phone and punched in Greg’s office number. “Mr. Cotter, please.”

  While she was waiting, she heard a knock on the door. She watched George answer it and follow a man dressed in his ATF uniform outside. Cooper paced by the door.

  “It’s Stella Murphy,” Stella said when Greg’s receptionist came on the line and then took another sip of her scotch. It burned as it slipped smoothly down her throat.

  Greg’s voice was jovial when he came on the line. “Stella, your testimony went well.”

  “Yes, it was fine,” she answered curtly. “Listen, when George and I got home, my car was sitting in front of the house and Jamie left a note and a box of clementines threatening me. I called Agent Harris, but I just wanted to check and make sure I don’t need to worry about anything.”

  “Your car? I thought your car was stolen and I’m sorry, did you say a box of clementines. How’s that threatening?” Greg’s voice was skeptical.

  “It’s a long story,” she deadpanned.

  “Well, there are plenty of things that you need to be worried about.” He paused for a few seconds. “Stay with the most recent events—the kidnapping and the threat. We’ll have to figure out what we’ll do about the shooting later, because you could be charged for obstruction or perjury. I think the smarter course of action is to talk to him tomorrow without me, but if you’d rather, I could be there tomorrow during your interview.”

  “No, you’re probably right. I’ll call you after I talk to him. I don’t want him to think I’m hiding something or that I feel like I need a lawyer right now.” She blew her bangs even though they weren’t in her eyes. Anxiety and fear bubbled in her gut and threatened to make her throw up. She looked around the house for her purse; she couldn’t find it. It must still be in George’s car. Stella walked upstairs to find her other set of stomach medicine, all the while Greg was talking to her about her interview with Agent Harris. She popped a pill in her mouth and went back downstairs to look out the window next to the front door.

  “Stella?” Greg asked impatiently.

  Stella was distracted, wanting to get out front with George and the ATF guy. “Yes?”

  “Be very careful with your words. Make sure you’re honest,” he coached.

  “Yes, sir. I’ll call you when I find out anything else.” She hung up.

  Standing in the now open door, she saw the ATF agent holding a long pole with a mirror right under the driver’s side seat. He looked at George and nodded solemnly.

  “What is it?” George asked, glancing at Stella, who was standing stoically on the stairs, her face devoid of emotion.

  “Some sort of explosive device. I’ll have to call in a team to get it removed and then we’ll have more information,” the ATF agent answered, pulling out his phone.

  Stella hung her head. He confirmed what she’d thought initially. That crazy fucker had just pushed her over the edge. She hadn’t realized she even had an edge anymore, since she’d been free falling for the last four years.

  George held his hand out for her to stop before she came down the stairs.

  Anger, red and hot, shot through her brain. Oh, I’m so done playing nice. Jamie had threatened the people that she loved. Done. Now she just had to figure out how to deal with this situation without it turning into something bigger.

  Two dark sedans pul
led up, blocking the entire road on either side of her car. It was like a scene out of a movie; four agents swarmed the car and spoke with Patrick’s friend. Oh fuck, here it goes. She glanced into the park and saw people taking notice and digging out their phones to take pictures. She could only imagine what people would think about this.

  One of the new agents glanced at Stella, then stalked over to her. George followed him up the stairs and then stood shoulder to shoulder with her.

  “Ma’am. I’m Special Agent Mark Gunter. Agent Harris called and we’re here to assess the threat and the necessity of a protective detail. However, it seems that the ATF just confirmed that your vehicle does, in fact, have an explosive device on it. We’ll need to clear you and your other neighbors out for about an hour so that our team can come in and detonate the device.”

  Stella’s shoulders slumped and she nodded. “Okay.” She was sorry the neighbors would be inconvenienced, but assumed most of them would be at work. Thank goodness for small mercies.

  “Stella. I’ll be in charge of protection. I’ll need your phone.” Agent Gunter held his hand out for her phone.

  She pulled it out of her pocket and handed it over, taking him in. He was older than Agent Harris and slightly friendlier looking with short grey hair, a freshly shaved face, and an ill-fitting navy suit. He entered in his number and then sent a text to himself, adding her information to his contact list.

  “I’ve put my number in here, but I’m also adding a walkie-talkie app that you can use to contact us as well,” he said while he was working with her phone. “There will be four agents that could be assigned to your detail.” He looked over his shoulder to the three other agents. “These are Agents Josh Regents, Oliver Morris and Max Eddy. As soon as our team gets out here and we talk to headquarters, I’ll make contact with you on specifics.” He handed her phone back to her.

  “Specifics about what?” she asked, confused.

  “On whether we’re putting you in a safe house tonight or later on. Whether we’re going to allow you to come back to this house at all,” he answered, already walking back down to her car in front of the house.