Helena couldn’t believe what she was hearing. “Why should I believe you? Are you sure you’re not just missing the sex?”
For a second he looked ashamed. “I deserve that. I hurt you and I realize that. What I suggested we do was wrong. But, because of you, because of us, I have grown. You are a gift. One I didn’t think I wanted but one I certainly needed. You’ve shown me how to move past the guilt I’ve carried to see the world in a fresh new light. With you I can look to the future, not live in the past.”
She liked what she was hearing. Yet that fear of being hurt again still nagged at her. “What changed your mind?”
Elijah took her hand. “Fear made me make the biggest mistake of my life. When you left, all the happiness and fun in my life went with you. After you told me what you had been through, and delivering Marcy’s baby, I saw your fears though her. It helped me to better understand you. And I learned new things about myself.”
“Like what?” She watched him intently, not wanting to miss a word.
“Like how to care about someone other than myself. How to share my feelings. How to forgive others and myself. To look forward instead of back.”
“It sounds like you’ve been busy.”
“I have. And I spoke to Charles.”
“What did he say?”
“That you’d better grab love when it comes your way because it’s too hard to find.” His look held hers. She saw his heart reflected there.
“Are you sure?”
He pulled her to him and kissed her. “I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life. I can prove it. I couldn’t even get rid of that ridiculous Christmas tree.”
She laughed. She couldn’t believe how her life had changed in just a few minutes. “Remind me to thank Charles.”
“I’m sure he’ll be glad to hold that over me for the rest of our lives. So, can you forgive me?”
She cupped his cheek. “Yes, and I want to thank you.”
Elijah gave her an incredulous look. “Thank me? Whatever for? I would’ve thought you’d be wishing me dead for how I’ve treated you.”
“Well, that too, but because of you I’ve really faced up to my loss. I’m no longer just putting a bandage over it.”
“How is that?”
“I went to the nursery. I even held and fed the baby you delivered. Her name is Olivia.”
“Oh, honey, that had to have been hard.” Elijah gave her a squeeze.
“It was but it was good also. I realized that I need to give to heal.” It felt good to tell him about what she had done.
Elijah hugged her close. “I’m so proud of you.”
“I was pretty proud of myself. I would like to help Marcy get back on her feet when she gets out of the hospital. I’ve been thinking I need to use my experience to help other vulnerable mothers. I don’t know how I’m going to go about it yet but I’ll figure it out.”
“I think you’ll be a real inspiration. At my friend’s clinic there’s an extra meeting room. Maybe you can start there. I could put the Davenport name to good use and see about raising some funds to help out. What do you think?”
“I think you’re the most wonderful man I know.” She wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him.
“Would you still like to have a baby of your own one day?” Elijah said softly.
She looked at him. “I’ve always hoped I would. But I have to admit the idea is scary. I don’t want to go through what I did before.”
“That’s understandable. What if I was there by your side?”
Helena’s eyes widened. “I didn’t think you wanted children.”
“I didn’t until you came along.” His voice held all the assurance she needed.
“I’d only have them if I was married.”
He smiled. “I think that’s only fair.” Elijah reached into the basket and pulled out a small blue-green box that was too large to belong to a ring. He handed it to her.
She held it in the palm of her hand. “You went into Tiffany’s?”
“It’s a little early Christmas present,” Elijah said.
“You don’t do Christmas.” Helena slowly opened the top. Nestled in white velvet was a pin of a knight riding a rearing stallion.
“People change. I don’t know if I can make all your dreams come true but if you’ll let me be your knight, I promise to always treat you as my princess. I love you, Helena.”
“Oh, Elijah, it’s perfect. I love you too.”
Grabbing her, he pulled her onto his lap and kissed her. His heart beat next to hers. This was what she’d been missing. She was where she belonged.
“When we get ready we’ll go to Tiffany’s and pick out an engagement ring.” He gave her another kiss.
She smiled. “I can’t think of anything more wonderful.”
“I can.” He wiggled his eyebrows at her. “I have one more question. Would you go with me to my family Christmas Eve dinner? I think with you beside me I can do more than survive.”
“Just try to keep me away.” She hugged him tight and kissed him softly before it turned deeper.
Later they sat snuggled under the blanket, with the snow gently falling around them.
“So when did you know you were in love with me?” Elijah asked.
“I think it has been building for a long time. I watched as you interacted with your patients, the staff. I knew there was someone special under that devil-may-care attitude. How about you? When did you fall in love with me?”
A grin came to his lips. “When I saw you twirling around in the snow like a winter princess. I knew then you were the person who could bring happiness to my dark life. And you have and will forever.”
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Welcome to the CHRISTMAS IN MANHATTAN six-book series
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Navy Doc on Her Christmas List
by Amy Ruttan
CHAPTER ONE
“NEW YORK IS at a standstill. Bridges and tunnels have been closed. What a great last-minute Christmas gift from old Saint Nick. NYPD are advising if you don’t have to go out, don’t. New York hasn’t seen a blizzard like this since the late seventies...”
Ella shut the radio off. She didn’t know who had left it running on an annoying Christmas music channel, but at least the radio host had it right—there hadn’t been a blizzard in New York City like this in quite some time.
And she knew that without listening to some awful music station, because her aching feet were a grim reminder of what heavy snowfall did to people. She’d just wrapped up eight hours on the ER floor and since Charles Davenport said that everyone was to stay put because of the blizzard, she was stuck here.
At least the hospital was more prepared for a brownout this time. Well, in theory. Ella would believe it when she saw it. Charles had electricians and system specialists working on the new generators to make sure they didn’t fail, like the old ones had.
Still, the storm raging outside was a doozy.
It wasn’t like it was anything new, the storm that was, it felt like it had been storming for months on end, but the meteorologists were calling this storm the worst of them all. Ella was skeptical. How could this storm be worse than the last one? In reality, she thought probably the weatherman was exaggerating and it would be nothing.
But since the new shift couldn’t get in, it meant that she was still on duty, even though she had just worked a long one.
Not that Ella minded in the least bit. It meant she could avoid the obligatory family dinner where her mother would lament her lack of having a husband and providing her with grandchildren.
Which was all her parents ever thought she was good for.
“By the time I was your age, Ella, I was married with three children,” her mother had droned on. “If you’d smiled more during your coming out, you would probably have a husband by now.”
Yeah, because smiling more would have helped the men she’d been forced to smile and flirt with change their minds about a short, awkward, ugly duckling in god-awful designer dresses that her mother had picked out for her.
All those society functions had done was reinforce her desire to stay single and become the best damn trauma surgeon on the eastern seaboard.
Which, working under Charles Davenport’s tutelage, she was fast becoming. Being snowed in and forced to work while her mother’s tedious society Christmas function was taking place was just perfect.
So Ella relished her moment of freedom, far from her mother complaining of her perpetual state of single life, and settled down to enjoy a nice cup of coffee in the empty staff lounge while there was a lull between patients.
Ella sighed as she propped up her aching feet. The lights were off and the heavy snow that was blanketing Manhattan gave a nice calming, glow outside.
And she couldn’t remember the last time that Manhattan had been so completely covered in snow. It was nice. She liked the snow. She liked the magic of Christmas on her own. It was her mother who made Christmas painful.
So she didn’t mind working an extra shift.
This was heaven to her. She’d catch a few winks of sleep before she headed back down to the emergency room.
“There might be some mistletoe in here!” The lights were flicked on and Ella squinted at the blinding light she was not prepared for.
“What in the heck...?” she asked as she sat up.
Two nurses in Santa caps were standing in the doorway of the staff room, blushing.
“Oh, Dr. Lockwood, we’re so sorry, we didn’t know that anyone was in here!”
Ella rubbed her eyes and was still seeing two large spots as she sat up. “It’s okay. I’m just a surgeon, I don’t need my eyes anyway.”
Stacey, one of the trauma nurses, chuckled as she began rooting through a box labeled “Christmas Decorations” in the corner. “Again, sorry.”
“What’re you looking for?” Ella asked, annoyed that her solitude had been broken.
“Mistletoe,” said Carol, the other nurse. “We just have some down time and since we’re stuck here we thought we would have some kind of Christmas fun.”
“Aha!” Stacey shouted, producing a very fake-looking piece of plastic mistletoe. “It’s not real, but it should do the job just the same.”
Ella just shook her head. “You two have fun with that. Who are you going to kiss anyway?”
Carol and Stacey were always scheming to land themselves rich doctors as a potential mates. They were Manhattan Mercy’s version of her mother. They also schemed to set other people up, but mostly themselves. Carol and Stacey’s targets were wealthy doctors, preferably attendings over interns.
“Dr. Zac Davenport!” Carol practically squealed like a schoolgirl. “He said he’s never been kissed under the mistletoe before.”
Ella rolled her eyes and snorted. She could almost guarantee that Zac Davenport had been kissed under the mistletoe before. It was probably just a ruse to get a kiss from a couple of pretty nurses.
Zac Davenport was a playboy, and a handsome one at that. Sure, he’d aged since he’d come home from his last tour of duty, but it had made him even sexier. The boyishness had melted away to a hardened man, one who seemed to hide pain behind those Davenport blue eyes.
Maybe no else saw the pain he was trying to hide, or how jumpy he was, like when the corks were popped at the wedding a couple weeks ago, but she saw it. She saw the change in him, because once upon a time she and Zac had been close.
Although she thought they’d been closer than maybe he did.
Still, she was always a sucker for those blue eyes.
Eyes that had at one time caused her to go weak in the knees and melt. There was a change in his, but Ella seriously doubted there was much of one. Slime was still slime.
You kissed that slime before too.
She’d done more than kiss that slime. She’d given a piece of herself to him, a piece of her heart, and then he’d crushed it with his cruelty.
Ella was going to say something else when Zac entered the staffroom. He didn’t see her as she hurriedly stood up, but her heart skipped a beat at the sight of him. She felt her knees weaken, her pulse start to race and her palms grow sweaty. He’d been here a couple of weeks, but she’d tried to avoid him as much as possible. Not to be on duty when he was.
Apart from the odd blip, it had been working up until now.
Suddenly she felt like that dumpy, awkward girl in the lime-green dress. And she didn’t like that much. It was exactly how she’d felt when he’d spoken to her briefly at Charles’s wedding.
She’d thought he was off duty. He was supposed to be on the next rotation and part of the staff that couldn’t get in. What was he doing here?
“Merry Christmas, Dr. Davenport,” Stacey squealed as she ran up to him, holding the ugly fake mistletoe over her head and kissing him on the cheek. Carol snatched it from Stacey’s hand.
“Merry Christmas.” And Carol kissed him on the other cheek.
“Uh, Merry Christmas...” he said stiffly.
Ella snorted. He didn’t know their names. That wasn’t surprising. They were only two of the trauma nurses in the department he worked in, why should he know their names? Typical spoiled Zac Davenport. Not a care in the world for anyone but himself.
“Stacey,” Stacey said.
“And I’m Carol,” Carol said, stepping in front of Stacey. “We’re on duty tonight.”
Zac looked uncomfortable.
Good.
“Shouldn’t you two be out on the floor?” Zac asked, trying to untangle himself from the onslaught of nurses. Ella felt a small amount of pity for them.
“Yes, you two should be out on the floor. There are patients waiting,” Ella said
stiffly, trying not to make eye contact with Zac.
“Of course, Dr. Lockwood,” Carol said. “We’ll just take our decorations and go.”
Stacey nodded and picked up the dilapidated box where they’d got the fake mistletoe from and left the staffroom.
“Thanks,” Zac said. “I wasn’t sure how I was going to get out of that.”
“No problem,” Ella replied, but she didn’t look at him. It was better that way.
“Isn’t your shift over?” he asked, as he approached the coffee pot where she’d retreated to after he’d walked into the room. In effect, cornering her.
“Yes, but if you haven’t heard, most of the next shift is unable to make it in and Manhattan has shut down.”
“You worked a full shift, you can just walk home.”
“It’s not safe,” Ella snapped, annoyed that he wanted to get rid of her so badly.
Wouldn’t you be pestering him the same way too?
“I’m just worried that you’re too tired to work another shift.”
She glared at him. “Really? You’re concerned about my well-being?”
“You’re tired,” he said.
“You don’t look so hot yourself. You have dark circles under your eyes.”
Zac’s eyes narrowed and he pursed his lips. “I didn’t sleep well.”
“Then maybe you should go home and rest.”
Zac’s eyebrows shot up. “What is wrong with you?”
“What is wrong with me?” Her voice rose an octave and she was annoyed with herself for engaging in conversation with Zac. She’d promised herself when she’d heard that Zac Davenport had been discharged from the navy and was coming to work at Manhattan Mercy that she would keep her distance from him. That she wouldn’t let him bait her.
She’d worked hard here to build a reputation for herself, and just because Zac had come waltzing back to Manhattan and had immediately got an attending position in Trauma because he was a Davenport, it didn’t mean that she was going to run away with her tail between her legs.
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