by H. L. Logan
Starstruck
By H. L. Logan
This story has been adapted from a book previously published as Real Love by Harper Logan. I'm so excited to be taking my first steps towards my long goal of writing romance about women who love women. It was such a joy to play with the story and give my characters new depth. I hope it's as much a pleasure to read as it was to write.
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Amelia
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1.
Amelia
“Bastard!”
I rammed my hand against the horn as yet another driver cut me off on my mad race to reach Aorta Studios before my audition started in—shit, in twenty minutes. I stopped looking at the clock because it was making my heart race so fast I could’ve died of a heart attack. Wouldn’t that be just my luck? I finally land an audition for a movie and I die on the way to the studio at the tender age of twenty-three.
Or maybe the L.A. traffic would kill me first. I slammed the horn again, resisting the urge to rage out on the driver flipping me the bird. Breath, Amelia. Breath. This definitely was not the head space I wanted to be in right before trying out for my big break.
But maybe a small part of me was relieved at the thought of never making it to my audition. Sure, the movie might make my career, but there was one little catch. Actually it was a huge catch. I’d have to kiss a girl. Not just kiss her, but whisper in her ear and make googly eyes at her for the several months it took to film a romantic comedy.
Yes, I was auditioning for a lesbian romance movie.
No, I wasn’t a lesbian. Though it’d been hard to convince my mom that I wasn’t when I’d told her about the audition over the phone. She’d been awkwardly supportive—all, You’ll always be my daughter. I’ll love and accept you no matter what.
Which was sweet and all, except I wasn’t a lesbian! After explaining three times, she finally reiterated that her love and support was unconditional. Frustrating, but I guess nice to hear.
It wasn’t a new accusation. Because of my short hair and the way I prefered tailored suits over dresses, people tended to make stupid assumptions about my sexuality. But I’d never even considered women as an option—no matter how many loser guys I’d dated.
Truthfully, I was terrified about the prospect of faking attraction to a woman. I’d already been to two auditions for the film, and this was a call back to do a “chemistry test” with the other lead. Would I really be able to let a woman put her mouth all over my face and pretend to like it?
I turned on the radio to distract myself from that thought, because I was freaking myself out again. The DJ on my favorite station was droning on about celebrity gossip.
“Rumor has it,” he said over a cheesy whispering sound effect, “Jessica Black is dating her Maid for You co-star, Oliver Colt. Hasn’t she broken enough hearts already?”
I rolled my eyes. A week later, Jessica would be photographed cheating on Oliver, and then there would be rumors that she and Oliver were broken up, followed by whispers that they were engaged. Why were people so obsessed with this crap? I hated the thought of making it big if it meant my life became a stupid spectacle.
Just as I thought that, an ugly groan erupted from my car. Shit! I felt the car losing speed as more disturbing noises grunted from somewhere under the hood. I flipped my blinker on, begging one of the asshole drivers to let me get off the freeway before my poor car straight-up died in the middle of the road. I barely made it to the gravel before she puttered to a sad stop.
I told you about my bad luck, right?
But people with my horrible fortune don’t have time to sit around and feel sorry for themselves. I unclipped my seatbelt, leapt from the car, and started sprinting. Thank God I’ve always been a converse girl—there was no way I’d make it to the studio in heels.
I leapt over the guardrail and stumbled through long grass toward the street Aorta studio was on. I ran until my lungs burnt with every breath. I was a sweaty mess when I saw the small studio in the distance. Three minutes to spare. Yes! I bolted down the sidewalk even faster, fire tearing at all my muscles—when a puppy skittered out in front of me, running between my legs. I tripped, trying not to stomp the little thing, and stumbled off the curb in the process. Pain seared up my arm as I used it to catch my fall, barely managing to avoid scraping my face on the pavement.
I was sweaty, scratched, bruised, and late.
“Ruff!”
I looked up to the little white face nuzzling at my cheek. If I didn’t know better, I’d say the thing felt bad for what she’d done.
“Ruff!”
“Yeah, yeah, don’t worry about it.” I pushed myself up, wincing as I put pressure on my arm. I didn’t even know why I was still trying to make it to the audition when I was going to be this much of a mess. I guess I realized then how much the opportunity had meant to me.
“Ruff!” the puppy cried after me as I broke into a new sprint.
“I said don’t worry about it!” I called over my shoulder, but she was still running after me. If she thought we could be friends even after she’d nearly killed me, she’d be disappointed to learn I was seriously allergic to dogs.
I ran faster. Pushed harder. It was always about pushing myself. Even when months went by without booking an audition and I had to choose between electricity and groceries. Even when I received rejection after rejection. The only thing I could do was push myself. Relief washed over me when I tore open the door to the reception room. Only two minutes late. Maybe there was a chance they’d take pity on the poor mess that was me.
“I’m here to audition for Real Love,” I said to the receptionist. “My name is Amelia Earhart.”
“Wonderful!” The woman smiled sweetly with lips painted a sugary pink. “We haven’t started yet, so you can just take a seat.”
Was this really happening? Had I actually stumbled into some good luck?
“Do you have a restroom I can use?” I asked.
“Right through that door on the left.”
I sighed with relief as I walked down the hall into the bathroom. I wasn’t as much of a disaster as I thought I’d be. Sweaty, ruffled hair, but not a complete hot mess. I rinsed my face, washed the blood and dirt from my elbow, and took a comb from my pocket to smooth my hair. I wasn’t vain, but I knew I wouldn’t get anywhere if I didn’t look good.
Growing up, I’d always hated how my looks lead people to underestimate me. With my heart-shaped face and full pink lips that stood out against green eyes and brown hair, my features were so feminine it hurt. I guess that’s why I’d always liked defying expectations by keeping my hair short and going for menswear over fussy dresses.
I dried off quickly, returned to the reception room, and waited….
And waited...
And waited...
I scratched my nose, my eyes feeling itchy, as if just that brief encounter with the puppy had sent my allergies flaring up. It must’ve been my nerves. My body was reacting as if the room was teeming with dog hair. I tried not to sneeze as I waited….
And waited…
And waited...
“Is there an issue?” I finally asked the receptionist after I’d been si
tting for over twenty minutes.
“Errr.” The woman hesitated.
Just then, a door opened down the hall and I heard a shout. “I can’t do this until we find her!”
The receptionist's eyes darted back to the door where the shout had erupted from. “Look, I’m not supposed to tell anyone this.” The look of glee said that she couldn’t contain the secret. “We’ve already booked one of the romantic leads.”
“And?” I said to fill her dramatic pause.
“It’s Jessica Black!” She literally squealed with excitement.
No way.
No fucking way.
Jessica Black? It couldn’t be the Jessica Black. She had way better roles to be filling than this small-time movie that would be lucky to make it to a couple film festivals. And besides, her brand was built on selling the idea of romance to cheap magazines with headlines like “A Bazillion Ways to Please Your Man!” Barf! She’d dated every single actor from her romance blockbusters. Jessica Black was the last woman on earth anyone would expect to see in a lesbian romance movie.
That thought was interrupted by an enormous sneeze that made the chair shift under me.
“But of course, the star gets what the star wants,” the receptionist continued, giggling like it was all amusing to her. “She insisted on bringing her puppy to the set and it got out of her dressing room. She’s saying she won’t start until we find her.”
Of course.
Of course with my luck there would be a dog at the audition. If there would even be an audition. What a diva to not only insist on bringing her puff-ball, but refuse to start until it was by her side. How did someone with that little professionalism even make it this far? I blamed it on her stupid good looks. Must be easy to get ahead when you have every guy on the planet drooling over your curves and every girl trying to look like you.
Well… I also had to admit that she was a good actress. I set my lips in a hard line. That didn’t change how much I resented her for the trivial way she was treating this whole film. After everything I’d gone through to get here. All the literal pain I’d endured. First my car, then the mad dash, then the—wait a minute.
“What does her dog look like?”
“Oh, she’s the sweetest thing! Fluffy white fur and the biggest blue eyes you’ve ever seen!”
“Will you wait for me a minute?” I asked, already jumping up.
“I don’t see us starting anytime soon.” She still seemed amused by all this. Must be nice to be paid by the hour and have a guaranteed source of income.
I stuffed that bitter thought down as I dashed out the door and retraced my steps, searching for the ball of fluff that’d bruised my wrist. I found the bush I’d seen her scamper out of and called out, “Hey, umm... Marshmallow.” That was probably her name, right? What else could you call something that white and fluffy? “Marshmallow! Here girl.”
I was on my hands and knees now, getting dirtier by the second as I searched under the bush. I had no idea why I was even doing this when every second that ticked by made me want the role less and less. Did I really want to spend months working with a diva like Jessica Black?
I sighed. Diva or not, I needed this break. And the fact that Jessica Black was co-starring in the film only made it even more enticing as the opportunity that could rocket my career to the next level.
I got down lower to search further into the bush for that damn dog.
I was actually relieved to know that my co-star would be another straight girl. I wasn’t sure why it’d made me nervous to be kissing and making eyes at a gay woman. I just, well, I wouldn’t want her to develop feelings or anything.
I know, I know, I sound vain as hell, but off-screen romances developed all the time between co-stars. I guess it made sense. Actors are chosen not just for their ability as individuals, but for the chemistry they have together.
Hell, Jessica was currently dating the actor from her upcoming straight romance, and had dated every co-star before him. (Okay, you caught me, I do follow her in the tabloids. But in my defence, it’s hard to avoid news about the biggest star in cinema.)
Well, if chemistry was what would win me the role, I already considered it lost—just like this poor puppy that I was feeling worse and worse for, even as the perspiration of searching for her stung the scratches she’d given me when she’d knocked me from the pavement.
“Marshmallow!” I called out. “Marshmall—” My words cut off as another sneeze ripped through me.
“Ruff!”
I turned, joy washing through me the moment I locked eyes with that sweet little marshmallow. She sat wagging her tail, yapping cheerfully like she wanted me to come play with her.
“Hey, girl.” I held out my hand for her to sniff, silently begging her not to bolt. “Sorry I was rude to you earlier, I was just in a hurry.”
She approached with a clumsy little pounce and nuzzled against my hand. I scooped her up and she immediately curled against my chest. My racing heart seemed to calm at the contact, even as I felt my eyes already beginning to burn with irritation.
For the second time that day, I ran to the studio. I threw open the doors and shouted breathlessly, “Is this her?”
The receptionist looked at me for one agonizing moment. (Imagine if I went out and grabbed the wrong dog like a crazy person.)
“Oh my gosh!” She raced towards me. “I can’t wait to tell Jess!”
“Tell me what?” A slender form appeared in the doorway, sending a jolt of intimidation down my spine. She wasn’t just intimidating in her height, which in four inch heels, made her tower over me. Everything about being in the same room with the real Jessica Black was terrifying. Her perfectly curled blonde hair, glowing skin and piercing blue eyes made me so aware of what a fucking mess I must’ve been at that moment.
“We found Cleo!” The receptionist turned, taking Marshmallow from my arms to show Jessica.
“Oh my God!” Relief washed over her features as she practically threw herself towards us, snatching the puppy from the receptionist. “I’m so sorry.”
At first I thought she was apologizing to me for this fiasco, then I realized her babbled apology was directed toward the dog. Of course.
“Where did you find her?” She looked up at me for the first time. “I just left the room and she was gone!”
“I found her outside on the way here.”
“What were you doing outside?” She looked at the puppy incredulously and I really wished I could say the interaction wasn’t adorable. I still wanted to hate Jessica, but when she pulled me into a huge hug, my frustration with her melted as one thought ran through my head.
I’m being hugged by Jessica Black. No fucking way.
Then I remembered I’d be doing a lot more than hugging her if this audition went well. I swallowed hard as I inhaled the sharp cinnamon of her perfume before she pulled away, leaving me a mess of burning eyes and stuffy nose. I could practically see the dog hair floating around her like a halo.
“What are you doing?” someone shouted from the door behind us. “Get in here.”
“I guess we should get started, huh?” she said sheepishly.
Part of me wanted to respond with a bitchy remark like, yeah, we should’ve gotten started forty minutes ago. But I couldn't actually respond with anything, because a sneeze tore through me. I turned and covered my face in the crook of my elbow just in time to avoid sneezing all over Jessica and the receptionist.
“Are you feeling okay?” Jessica eyed me suspiciously, no doubt wondering if she was going to get sick from our proximity.
The voice returned with more urgency, “Let’s go!”
I followed Jessica down the hall into a fairly standard audition room. A long table was set up at one end with a large open space in front of it for the actors to move around. Marshmallow jumped out of Jessica’s arms and onto a little pillow in the corner that had apparently been set up for her. I tried not to roll my itchy eyes.
Three casting dir
ectors sat at the table looking justifiably cranky. I groaned inwardly that Jessica had already exhausted their patience. Of course this was all a joke to her, but my entire future rode on this audition.
“Thank you for joining us, Miss Earhart,” a large, red faced man said without looking up from the notes he was making. Braelyn Guss, the director. Next to him, was a woman with tightly pulled back hair, Emily Harp, the producer. I’d met them in my first auditions and memorized everything about their careers, but I was pretty sure none of them would remember my name if it weren’t scrawled on the headshots in front of them.
“We want to test your on-set chemistry,” Braelyn continued. “So if you could just run through the lines we supplied you with.”
“Ummm.” I froze. “Lines?”
“Didn’t you receive an email with the script?”
I shook my head. Numb, exhausted, bruised, eyes burning from that Marshmallow. This might’ve been the worst day of my life.
Emily sighed, leaned back in her chair and let her arms fall defeated to her sides. Clearly she was having as frustrating a day as I was. If that was possible.
“Hell, since you helped find that damned dog, I’ll give you a break.” Her eyes scanned me up and down, lips tightening. “Frankly, you look like you need it.”
“Uhh… thanks.”
She held out a script to me. “Just read for the character of Jordan and do the best you can.”
It felt like this whole thing was a courtesy at this point. I’d helped her out with the princess so she felt bad sending me packing. I really just wanted to go home, crawl into my bed and never come out again.