Temptation

by K. M. Scott

  “Oh yeah. She tells me Stefan is taken good care of her.”

  The idea of Stefan’s brand of taking care of someone sent a chill down my spine. Fucking around with Shank’s daughter was the last thing I needed him to do. Plastering a smile on my face, I nodded and prayed that my brother wasn’t doing anything that would cost us more money or worse, our lives.

  “Good to hear it. Until next month, John.”

  “Until next month.”

  I waited until he left the building and turned to Kane. “I didn’t hire his daughter. Did you check her out?”

  Kane shook his head. “No. I would have noticed someone with the last name Sheridan.”

  “Fucking Stefan! We need to find him now.”

  Kane took out his cell phone and called him, but like his office phone, there was no answer on his cell either. Only God knew where he was or what he was up to.

  “I don’t know, Cash. If he’s fucking around with Shank’s daughter, we’re going to have bigger problems than some minor league reporter.”

  “Have you seen anyone new behind the bar?”

  “No, but then again, I haven’t been paying attention. Have you?”

  Rubbing my temples to ease the headache already making my eyes hurt, I admitted, “No. I’ve been a bit preoccupied.”

  Kane smiled at my allusion to Olivia. “Making any progress? Has she at least agreed to come back to work?”

  “Yeah, she’ll be back on Monday.”

  “Just as your assistant?”

  Nodding, I tried to make it seem like that was good enough. “Yeah. I think it’ll be fine.”

  He said nothing, but I saw in his eyes that he knew having her back in my life as my assistant would never be enough for me. With all that I had to handle with Stefan and Shank and everything in the club, I never needed what Olivia offered more. I just had to hope someday soon she’d take me back.

  * * *

  I entered Olivia’s office and found her busy at work on her laptop like she’d been every day since she returned to her position as my assistant a week before. Each day I watched her arrive at eleven and thought about finally talking about what happened between us—not the Ciara Danson bullshit but how I’d stupidly jumped to the wrong conclusion and shut her out like only I could. But I hadn’t said a thing about it, instead letting each day pass with not a word between us other than work talk.

  She looked up from her computer and gave me a forced smile that never reached her eyes. “Do you need something, Cassian?”

  Her tone told me she could do icy as well as I could. Fuck, being shut out stung. My walls shot up around me, like they always did when I sensed I could be hurt. I should have fought to say something to her, but I just shook my head and walked away back into my office.

  I couldn’t go on like this much longer. I spent every waking minute thinking about her. I missed the sound of her voice, the smell of her perfume, everything that made her so different from everyone else in my life.

  But whatever I did to get her back had to be right. It had to show her how much she meant to me since telling her wasn’t going to be enough after what I’d done.

  Just before nine, I heard Olivia close her office door. Unlike so many nights before, she didn’t peek her head in to say goodnight. I watched from my desk as she walked into the club and my chest ached from how empty I felt without her in my life.

  Stefan came in just as she faded from view. As always, he was the last person I wanted to see. Before he could sit down, I held my hand up to stop him. “I’m leaving, so whatever you want will have to wait.”

  He ignored my warning and sat down anyway. Leaning forward to rest his forearms on my desk, he said, “I know. I just wanted to say I’m sorry.”

  A parade of ideas as to what he was sorry for marched through my mind. With Stefan, I never knew. “What are you talking about, Stefan?”

  Looking down at the floor, he answered quietly, “Rachel. I’m sorry, Cash.”

  A flash of rage tore through me. Now he wanted to apologize? “What’s this about, little brother? For five years you didn’t seem to need to apologize. Now you feel the need to?”

  Stefan looked up at me and grimaced. “I never meant to hurt you. I don’t know why it happened. I know it should have never happened.”

  “Why are you telling me this now? Because Rachel and I are getting divorced? You want her? Feel free.”

  He shook his head. “No. We were never anything permanent. By the time you two fell apart, we were done. I just saw how this Olivia thing affected you and wanted to say I was sorry for what I did.”

  I moved from behind my desk to stand in front of him. “Stefan, Rachel and I didn’t fall apart. You and she tore us apart.”

  Looking up at me with the same look he always gave our mother to get out of trouble, he nodded. “I know. There’s nothing I can do about it now, but I thought you should know I’m sorry.”

  He stood to his full height, still two inches shorter than my six foot two inches, and stuck out his hand. I stared down at it in amazement, unsure what he expected me to do. “So we’re going to shake on it and then what? We’re all good?”

  “Jesus, Cash. How long are you going to let this eat you up? I fucked up. I know. You’ll never trust me again. I get it. But Christ, you’re moving on with Olivia. You can’t move on with me?”

  Ignoring how wrong he was about Olivia, I snapped at him, “You sleep with my wife and I’m supposed to move on. Is that right? Let me guess. You have some bullshit excuse like our father never loved you like he loved me. Was that it?”

  “Says the son who the sun rose and fucking set on. You get to be Cassian March IV, the heir to our father’s name, and I get to be Stefan, the spare.”

  “So this is your apology for sleeping with my wife and ruining my marriage? You felt unloved by our father, so you thought fucking my wife would make up for that?” I barked at him, not believing what I was hearing.

  “Whatever. You wouldn’t understand. You’re the son who always got everything.”

  I cocked back my arm to finally pummel the fuck out of his face, to finally live out that dream I’d had night after night for months after finding out what he’d done to betray me. I’d played out in my mind over and over what I wanted to do to make him suffer like he’d made me suffer. Now, though, other than wanting to lay him out like I used to when we were teenagers, I couldn’t bring myself to keep my anger at him alive anymore.

  I didn’t hit him. Even though I hated his bullshit “Daddy never loved me enough” excuse, I stopped myself. Instead, I gave him the forgiveness I hoped Olivia would give me. Lowering my hand, I said, “Maybe it is time to move on, Stefan. You’re my brother, my blood. I can’t go on hating you.”

  “See? I knew you couldn’t stay angry at me forever,” he said with that stupid smile on his face. “Don’t worry. I won’t ever do it again.”

  Leveling my gaze on him, I let my anger out one last time. “I swear to God if you ever try anything with Olivia, I’ll kill you, Stefan.”

  The smile slowly slid from his face, and he raised his hands in front of him as he backed up toward the door. “I get it. I won’t fuck up again. “

  I walked around to sit down behind my desk, exhausted by Stefan’s need for confession and Olivia’s unwillingness to forgive me. Closing my laptop, I thought about what I could do to get her back. Day after day, the pain of missing her had grown until my chest felt empty and hollow.

  “Cash, you okay?”

  Looking up, I nodded at Stefan and forced a smile. “Yeah. I’m fine.”

  “If this is what love makes a man look like, I don’t ever want it. You look shit, big brother.”

  “Thanks.”

  “She still won’t forgive you? You know, you have this coming. You do that shut everyone out thing that you don’t realize how much it bothers people.”

  “Don’t you have a club to run or some bartender to molest?”

  “I was just trying to g
ive some brotherly advice. Thought I could help.”

  This was the second time in a week my brothers thought their advice was warranted. “You too? First Kane and then you with the advice on my personal life.”

  Stefan twisted up his expression. “Don’t listen to Kane, whatever you do. What would he know about love?”

  I thought about everything I knew about my half-brother’s life before we’d begun working together at the club. “I’d say a whole lot more than you. The man did time for a woman he loved. I don’t think you can make the same claim.”

  My younger brother snorted his disgust at Kane’s chivalry. “Thank God! Like I’d ever go to prison for any reason, especially love. And if that’s what love does to a man, fuck that. Look at you and him. He’s done time and you’re more miserable than I’d ever seen you. You two should do what I do—avoid love like the plague. It’s does nothing but ruin a man.”

  At that moment I remembered Shank’s daughter and the real possibility that Stefan was already fucking her and endangering our very livelihoods. “Speaking of that, did you hire a new bartender without telling me or Kane?”

  “Yeah, a couple.”

  Slamming my hands on my desk, I exploded with anger. “Jesus Christ, Stefan! We have policies for a reason. You didn’t think you should tell the other two owners of this club that you hired new people?”

  Confused, he shrugged. “What’s the big deal? One used to work for us. You remember Shelley. She came in and asked for her job back, so I said yes. She was one of my best bartenders. The other one said she’d been told the job was hers. I figured you’d already met with her in one of those fucking meetings I hated. Lola’s doing fine.”

  “Lola Sheridan?”

  “Who’s that?”

  “The person you hired.”

  Stefan shook his head. “No. Lola’s last name is Markess.”

  “Does she look like her father?” I asked, unable to contain my curiosity.

  “How the fuck would I know? I just met her. It’s not like we’re doing the meet the parents thing. I don’t do that dating shit, remember? Fuck ’em and forget ’em, although I might keep her for a while.”

  Stefan’s grin told me he’d already slept with the woman who was likely Shank’s daughter. Nothing fucking good could come of this. “Please make sure to give Kane her information so he can check her out.”

  “Okay. I’m out. I have a bar to run.”

  As he turned to leave, I yelled after him, “And do me favor. Don’t fuck around with these two.”

  He waved my suggestion off and laughed. “Yeah, yeah. I know the routine. All work, no play. Got it.”

  He left me sitting there with more worries than I’d had when he came in. And I still had no idea how to win Olivia back. All I knew was I had to. I couldn’t go on like this.

  I waited a few minutes before I headed out, determined to convince her not to give up on us. After stopping for flowers, I climbed the stairs to her apartment and had to admit I was in totally new territory. I’d never tried to win Rachel back after finding out what she’d done. The walls went up and that was it. We were done, and whatever feelings I’d had hardened over.

  But now I had to be the man I’d been before Rachel broke my heart. The problem was I didn’t even know if he existed anymore. I’d pushed him so far down inside me I couldn’t be sure he was still in there.

  I stopped in front of her door and stood with my hand up in front of me ready to knock for a moment as I told myself the same thing I’d said every day since offering Olivia her job back.

  Don’t lose her. Do whatever you have to, but don’t let her go.

  My heart pounded at the sound of her footsteps coming toward the door. I squeezed the stems of the roses in my palm and waited in anticipation. The door opened, and our eyes met for the briefest moment before she slammed the door closed again.

  “Olivia, please open the door. I just want to talk.”

  Silence.

  I leaned forward and pressed my forehead to the door. “Olivia, please…”

  She said nothing, and my heart sank as I heard the sound of her footsteps walking away.

  Every night I knocked on her door, and every night she refused to speak to me. Some nights she opened the door and stared at me with those beautiful brown eyes so full of pain. Other nights she didn’t even open the door, ignoring me as I stood on her doorstep pleading my cause. The florist near the club either thought I was the world’s biggest player or the world’s saddest man in love. Each night he gave me the look that told me he was sure it was the latter.

  Then each day I’d see Olivia at work and it was as if nothing ever happened the night before. With each time she called me Cassian and each cold glance she shot my way, I grew more miserable without her. I’d had no idea how much stubbornness lived in her. Day by day, she seemed to grow stronger in her choice to never speak to me again other than at work, and every minute I spent with her at the club was more painful than the next.

  I loved her. I wanted her. I needed her. And nothing I did mattered if I couldn’t convince her of those things.

  Two weeks into my torture, I couldn’t take it anymore. This double life of tepid professionalism by day and ignoring me by night had to end. Late Friday afternoon, I walked into her office to let her know.

  She sat behind her desk focused on her work on an upcoming club event I’d handed over to her when we were still together. I stood watching her, remembering how happy she’d been then when I’d come to see her.

  Looking up at me, she said coldly, “Did you need something, Cassian?”

  God, I hated when she called me that. I knew it meant she was keeping me at arm’s length. “I wanted to let you know I plan to knock on your door every night until you let me in. I don’t care if it takes a week, a month, or a year, I’m going to be there every night at nine.”

  “What happened to you working until midnight each night?”

  “This is more important. So just know we have a standing date every night at nine.”

  “And if I never let you in again?”

  I wanted to think she was joking, but the stern look in her eyes told me she was serious. It didn’t matter. She might believe she’d never let me in again now, but I wasn’t going to give up.

  “Then every night I’ll knock on your door and hope that’s the night you finally remember what we were.”

  Olivia said nothing in response, but it didn’t matter. Someday she would.

  Epilogue

  Cassian

  The gala at the Florida Museum of Photographic Arts kicked into high gear, but even as I schmoozed and glad-handed with the organizers to thank them for being club members for years and local politicos to ensure the safety of the club, my attention never really left my watch. No matter how much I needed to be at this event for Club X, I needed to be at Olivia’s apartment by nine for a far more important reason.

  In a room full of gorgeous women in expensive designer gowns, there wasn’t one that even made me look twice. None of them were the woman I wanted, even if she hadn’t opened her door for me in three days.

  I took the last drink of my champagne and placed my glass on a nearby table. Nearly eight-thirty, if I didn’t leave soon I’d be late. I made my way over to say my goodbyes, but a woman in a red gown stepped in front of me, blocking my way.

  “Cassian March?”

  Quickly scanning her face, I didn’t recognize this woman who seemed to know me. Giving her a brief smile, I nodded and made a move to escape, but she wasn’t having that.

  “I hoped I’d get to see you here tonight.”

  I stopped and studied her face. Beautiful, she had striking blue-green eyes and brown hair, but she was no one I knew. Why was she speaking to me like we’d met before? “Do we know each other?”

  Offering her hand, she smiled. “Josie Tellow. We have a shared acquaintance. Olivia.”

  “Oh. Are you a friend of Olivia’s?”

  Josie took a sip o
f champagne and nodded. “I am. You know at first I thought she should kick you to the curb. I didn’t tell her this, but I knew what kind of player you’ve been for years. I’ve seen you at these events with a different woman on your arm each time. I figured you would only break her heart. Then you did, and I wanted to kick myself for not telling her to drop you. But then she told me what you do every night, even after weeks of her not giving you even the slightest bit of hope, you’re still there every night.”

  “Then you know I have to leave now. It was nice meeting you, Ms. Tellow.”

  I moved to leave, but she grabbed my arm to stop me. “Don’t give up on her. I know you’re probably just about to, but don’t. Don’t be like most men.”

  “I’m not most men.”

  “Then show her that. Be that man she thought you were when she told me she could find another job, but she couldn’t find another Cash.”

  The way she said that gave me hope, so I made my goodbyes and raced over to Olivia’s apartment, arriving ten minutes late after practically having to beg the florist around the corner to stay open long enough to let me get flowers. Completely out of the roses I brought with me every night, all he could offer me was a bouquet of wildflowers.

  Like every other night for weeks, I knocked on her door and waited, prepared to be ignored but hoping tonight would be different. Not a sound came from inside her apartment, so I knocked again and waited as the knowledge that tonight would be like most other nights with me standing there alone not getting the chance to say what was in my heart.

  Discouraged, I leaned my body against the door and closed my eyes. “Olivia, please open the door. I can do this for the rest of my life, but I’d rather us do something together.”

  She said nothing. I wasn’t even sure she was there. Pressing my ear to the door, I strained to hear anything that would tell me Olivia heard what I’d said. Nothing. Not a sound.

  “Olivia, I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I know that doesn’t make up for what I did, but give me another chance.”