RIDE (A Stone Kings Motorcycle Club Romance)

by Daphne Loveling

  I spent the first fifteen minutes working myself up into a frenzy of nerves. Eventually, though, the beauty of the scenery whizzing by us began to force the panicked thoughts from my head.

  As we rode past canyons and ravines, the wind rushing past, I found my body loosening up, becoming accustomed to the movements and speed of the bike. My legs were pressed around Caleb’s, and the flex of his thigh muscles as he changed gears or put on the brake made me grow hot and wet between my legs. It felt as though my whole body was crackling with energy. Every nerve ending felt like it was standing at attention, all of my senses on high alert.

  I had never felt so truly alive before. It was absolutely exhilarating.

  Eventually, the bike slowed, and Caleb turned in the direction of a large sign that read “Piñon Valley Hot Springs.”

  I had heard about the place, but had never been here before. My mother wasn’t exactly the type to take us on family outings. We bumped along a gravel road until we came to a group of parked cars, and he angled the bike in and shut it off. He motioned for me to get down, and I scrambled into a standing position awkwardly.

  Caleb flipped down the kickstand and got off the bike. “It’s too bad we don’t have swimsuits,” he said to me, “but there’s lots of stuff to see hiking around.”

  My face grew hot at the idea of Caleb seeing me in a bathing suit, and I heaved an inner sigh of relief that he hadn’t suggested bringing them.

  I took off the helmet and handed it to him, then looked around. There were families splashing around in the springs, steam and spray rising from them. A smattering of young couples, a few of whom I vaguely recognized, lounged about on the rocks. The surface of the water bubbled. There was a faint smell of burning matches.

  “It smells like sulfur,” I said in surprise. In spite of myself, I broke into a wide grin. “This is so cool! How have I never come here before?”

  “I dunno, you tell me.” He nodded toward the springs. “Come on, there’s a place over here I want to show you.”

  And then, as though it was the most natural thing in the world, he took my hand.

  I’m not sure I had ever been so surprised by anything in my life.

  As Caleb led me up a path to one side of the springs, I tried not to stumble, and hoped he couldn’t hear the crazy pounding of my heart in my chest. Everything seemed to suddenly fall away except for the feeling of my small hand in his large, strong one. The contact of our skin seemed electric.

  I wondered if my hand would ever feel the same again.

  Caleb stopped at a clearing with a view of the valley below, and evergreens extending upward to the top of a small hill. There was a bunch of stones that had been moved into a sort of low bench, and we sat down on it, my hand still in his. For a while, we just sat there, looking at it all.

  For as nervous as I had been before, a strange sort of calm came over me now. It was all just so beautiful. I wanted time to stop.

  But for two eighteen year-olds, time seems a warped thing — at once frozen stuck, and on the verge of racing out of control. As we sat there, I started thinking about the fact that in a couple of months, we would both be finishing high school.

  “Caleb,” I said suddenly. “What are you going to next year? After high school?”

  “Dunno,” he shrugged, unconcerned. “Haven’t really thought about it yet.”

  We talked about my plans to go to University of Washington. He asked me why I was going so far away, and I almost told him. But my heart still wasn’t sure if I could trust Caleb Jackson, and anyway, I didn’t want to ruin this perfect moment by talking about things that hurt.

  Still, something compelled me to talk to him — to confide, just a little, to this person who made me want to open to him like a flower.

  “Have you ever felt like you were going to explode if you didn’t get out of your life?”

  The words burst from me almost before I knew I was going to say them. I flushed red, wishing I could take them back, but then Caleb made it all right.

  “Yeah. I have. Pretty often, in fact.”

  I sighed. It felt like a bubble that had been choking me from the inside had just burst. To know that Caleb understood, just a little, what I was feeling — to know that sometimes, he even felt that way himself — made me feel close to him, comfortable around him in a way I never had with anyone else before.

  “I just… I just want to go somewhere else,” I admitted. “I want the chance to be someone else for a while.”

  He looked at me then, his expression intense. Slowly, so slowly, his hand reached up to my face. With an almost excruciating softness, his thumb caressed my cheek.

  “I think who you are already is pretty fucking great.”

  And then… he kissed me.

  Even to this day, ten years later, I remember how it felt. The way his lips were soft and hard, cool and burning, hesitant and insistent. I’ve been in a few relationships since then, and I’ve even had a one-night stand or two, but there has never been anything like it since.

  Maybe it’s because it was really my first kiss that wasn’t just a perfunctory peck on the lips. I don’t know. But just the memory of the heat between us, all these years later, can make my pulse race and my nipples harden with the intensity of it.

  One of the things I remember most is Caleb’s eyes. At one point, when his lips had trailed down to my the neckline of my T-shirt, his hands caressing the outline of my breasts, he raised his head to look at me. For a few frozen moments, we locked eyes. The intensity of his expression communicated a rawness of need, almost as though he was baring his soul to me without saying anything at all. It was at that moment that I almost asked him to take me somewhere more private, somewhere we could be alone to say everything we wanted to say, with our bodies instead of our words.

  It’s the memory of that moment — of how naive I was to fall for his little performance — that still has the power to make me feel the sting of humiliation to this day.

  At the time, though, I believed him. Which is why I have no idea how I managed to pull myself together enough to tell him I thought we should stop, before we went too far and were discovered.

  “Whatever you say, princess,” he murmured, kissing my neck.

  A thrill went through me and I almost changed my mind, but he stood up. He spent a moment trying to conceal the obvious erection in his jeans, then grinned at me sheepishly and held out his hand. We wandered around the paths for a while, talking about other things, and then finally went back to the motorcycle and he took me home.

  At the time, I remember feeling disappointed that we were going back, but hopeful that this was the beginning of something important. Something real.

  What an idiot I had been.

  I sighed and drained my iced tea, then looked up at the clock above the cafeteria exit. Shit. While I had been sitting here reopening old wounds, my break had ended more than ten minutes ago. I stood abruptly and threw my glass into the trash. I had two more patients to see, and then I had to go pick up Zoe at pre-K.

  It was time to put painful old memories behind me. Caleb Jackson didn’t exist anymore, I told myself. Besides, the boy I thought he was back then hadn’t really existed anyway. The patient I’d be seeing for the next few weeks was called Trig.

  The fact that he had the same dark, penetrating eyes and the same lazy, sensuous smirk that made my insides turn to Jello? That was just a coincidence.

  7

  Trig

  Thank Christ even though my bum left leg meant I couldn’t ride my bike, I could still drive a cage. Otherwise, I’d be stuck being carted around by Cal like a fuckin’ kid, like last time I’d been shot.

  The day I got out of the hospital, Cal drove me straight to the clubhouse so I could show the brothers I was doing okay. Grey didn’t say anything about the partial conversation he’d overheard between me and the doc, and I didn’t bring it up. I wasn’t ready to talk about that shit with anyone else, especially him. Grey was a great guy, and a
fucking top notch president. I considered being his VP a privilege. But if I couldn’t ride anymore, I’d have to step down from that position, no question. A gimp VP wasn’t worth anything to the club.

  I didn’t own a four-wheeled vehicle, but Grey gave me the keys to one of the trucks we used for pickups and drop-offs so I could get around. It was a little tough getting in and out of it, but there was room to stretch out in the cab once I was behind the wheel. So after making my appearance and telling everyone I’d be up and running soon, I hoisted myself into the truck and drove myself home.

  My bike was sitting in the garage when I got there. One of the brothers had driven it back to my place from the motel the day I got shot.

  I flipped the overhead light, cracked a beer, and lowered myself painfully onto the stairs leading down into the garage from the kitchen. There it sat, my pride and joy, and there it would sit for at least the next six weeks. The one possession, other than my cut, that mattered more to me than anything.

  And if the physical therapy didn’t go well, I might not ever be able to ride it again.

  I hadn’t told anyone in the MC how serious the injury was, or that I might not recover fully, and I knew Grey wouldn’t tell anyone the part he’d heard. I didn’t need the looks they’d give me if they knew. Oh, I knew they’d try to mask their pity, but I’d see it all the same.

  I thought I’d done a pretty good job of convincing them all I was fine, knocking back a couple of shots with them despite the pain meds I was on, until I told them I was tired and was gonna pack it in for the night. Now here I was, sitting in the dark with no companions but my thoughts, none of them good. Truth was, I didn’t want to be alone, but I didn’t want to be with anyone, either.

  I just wanted to fast forward to a couple months from now, to know whether I was still gonna be a Stone King when this was all over.

  Because if I couldn’t ride, I was done. I was quitting the club.

  I wasn’t gonna be some goddamn charity case. I’d miss the club and everyone in it like crazy, but if I was gonna lose the life I knew, I’d rather rip the bandaid off and lose it all. Start over again from zero someplace else. Doing what, I had no idea.

  I took a long pull of the beer and leaned back against the door jamb, closing my eyes. In my mind’s eye, Eva’s face appeared. Her lip was turned up in that mocking half-smile she’d given me earlier that day, her brow arched.

  She had called me a fucking baby when I tried to get her to shut up with all the talking about my leg. A laugh snorted out of me in spite of myself. I didn’t think anyone had called me that since I was five years old. She had guts, I’d give her that. And a goddamn smart mouth.

  A mouth I ached to kiss.

  Fuck.

  I opened my eyes and sighed. Even after all this time, Eva Van Buren still had the ability to twist me up in knots. No other girl, before or since, had ever held my interest past a fuck or two. Hell, maybe that was the problem. Maybe if I’d just managed to fuck her back then — get it out of my system — I wouldn’t have cared so much when she went batshit on me.

  Maybe if I can get her into bed now… it would do the same.

  The thought came unbidden, and I pushed it aside. Eva hated me way too much to have sex with me. Plus, she was probably one of those “take your professional duty seriously” types. She didn’t strike me as the kind to engage in horizontal aerobics with her patients. She had standards.

  Besides, even if I could convince her to get all hot and sweaty with me, I wasn’t exactly in fighting form with this bum leg.

  My cock had hardened and thickened at the thought of getting Eva into bed. At least the plumbing still works, I noted to myself sardonically.

  Shaking my head, I grabbed one of the crutches I had propped up against the jamb and used it to haul myself up, wincing as I did. I flashed back to the hospital, to when I sprouted wood just as Eva was bending down to look at my wound site. Jesus Christ, I hoped I wasn’t gonna be sporting a third leg the whole time I was in therapy. It was gonna be fucked up enough with me having to take directions from her for an hour every day. The last thing I needed was her laughing at me to boot.

  I wish I could say I didn’t jerk off to thoughts of her before I went to sleep that night, but I’d be lying. In so many ways, it felt like the ten years separating us had never happened. It was almost as though I was right back to being an eighteen year-old kid who couldn’t stop thinking about the one girl who wanted absolutely nothing to do with him.

  I overslept the next morning, and I was grouchy as fuck as I made myself a half-pot of coffee and stumbled around my kitchen like a goddamn invalid. I dropped some grounds on the floor but had no way to clean them up, so I just left them there, wishing I had a caffeine-addicted dog or some shit to take care of them for me.

  I couldn’t take a shower with the bandage on, but luckily the remodel I had done on the bathroom last year had included a stall with a sizable bench built in and a hand-held shower head. So at least I was more or less able to make sure I didn’t smell like I’d slept in an alley.

  I showed up for my first physical therapy appointment five minutes late, a fact that Eva wasted no time letting me know.

  “If you don’t take your therapy seriously, your chances of making a full recovery will be lessened,” she said as she led me back to the rehab room.

  “You already told me that,” I grumbled. “Besides, have you ever tried to get into a pickup truck with a fucked-up leg? It takes some doing.”

  “I’m sure it does.” She looked down at my jeans. “Didn’t the appointment desk tell you to dress in shorts or workout sweats?”

  “Yeah,” I said. “But I don’t have any.” Truth be told, I did have some gym shorts, but damned if I was gonna wear them to be poked and prodded by Eva.

  She pursed her lips. “I should send you home and tell you not to come back until you’re wearing the proper attire.”

  “You’re kind of bossy. Has anyone ever told you you’re kind of bossy?”

  “Would you be calling me that word if I were a man?” Her eyes flashed.

  “Probably not. You’re still bossy.”

  “And you’re sexist.” She turned to a cabinet and reached in, pulling out a pair of gray sweats. “Here,” she said, nodding to a door that had the unisex restroom sign on it. “Go change into these. That’s an order.”

  She walked away before I could respond.

  Grumbling, I went into the bathroom and spent a painful five minutes pulling off my jeans and putting on the sweats. When I came back out, Eva took the clothes I’d piled on a small table inside the bathroom and shoved them in a cubby by the front desk.

  “You can change back into them when we’re through,” she said. “But next time, dress appropriately.”

  Eva was all business as she showed me the room we’d be working in. All sorts of weird contraptions, balls, colored mats, and weights were organized at strategic places. Off to the far end, an older lady was lying on a mat, trying to raise her arm up ninety degrees to meet her therapist’s hand.

  Shit. Me and a senior citizen. Fuck if that didn’t make me feel even worse.

  “So,” Eva began. “We’ll be starting out slowly, because your wound is still healing. But the longer we wait, the longer your recovery time will be. So, we’re going to start out with some basic movements so I can see your starting point.

  “I’m going to need you to tell me how everything feels, and describe any numbness or pain you experience.” She glanced at me briefly, her eyes cool and professional. “How much longer is your course of pain medication?”

  “I stopped taking them this morning,” I growled.

  Her eyes widened. “Is that a good idea?”

  “I don’t care if it’s a good idea. The doc put me on Percocet. That shit is addictive as hell.” I shook my head. “I’ll take the antibiotics, but fuck the pain meds.”

  She took a deep breath and let it out. “Okay. Well, that’s good to know. But recognize th
at some of these exercises will be more painful as a result.”

  “I’m no stranger to pain.”

  She smirked at me, her eyes twinkling. “You sound like some tough guy character in a movie.”

  Goddamnit, was she making fun of me? “Can we move on?” I said impatiently.

  Suppressing a smile, she nodded. “Okay. So, let’s see you move. Come over here to these bars.”

  Eva had me crutch over to some parallel bars and told me to use my arms to take the weight off my leg, then show her how much mobility I had. Then she had me sit down and show her how much I could flex my ankle and foot. The entire time, her expression gave away nothing, until I went too far once and winced in pain.

  “Shit,” I hissed.

  Her eyes widened in concern. “Are you okay?”

  I let my breath out slowly. “Yeah. Just overdid it a little. I’m still getting used to it, I guess.”

  She blinked, and the mask of coolness returned. “Okay. Let’s go to the plinth and start some exercises.”

  She brought me into another, smaller room, with a large padded table in it, kind of like a massage therapist table. I sat on it and propped my crutches next to me.

  Eva disappeared for a moment and came back with an ice pack. “Lie down,” she said.

  “What— ”

  “Lie down. I’m going to ice the muscles.”

  I lay back, and she unzipped the bottom of the sweats, then pushed the leg up past my thigh. I closed my eyes and tried not to think about anything as she placed the ice pack.

  She started talking about how icing me down would facilitate movement, and then ran through some of the exercises she planned to have me do, but I wasn’t really listening. All I could think about was how she sort of smelled like lilacs, and how her hands felt firm but gentle on the muscles of my thigh.

  It was a special brand of torture to have her working on me so close to my groin. Why the fuck couldn’t I have been shot in the arm or something? I groused to myself.