Hawk

by Abigail Graham

  “He told you that?”

  Katie nodded.

  Jennifer looked out the window. “We talked about kids. He did want to move, but… I don’t need that much room. The duplex is fine.”

  “It’s not fine, Jennifer. You didn’t have anything in your fridge but bottles of water and cheese.”

  Jennifer winced. The last of the orange juice was gone.

  “I just haven’t gotten to the store this week.”

  Katie sighed and leaned back in the seat. “Why not?”

  “I’m busy. New school year. I have work to do.” She nibbled at the fish sandwich.

  Both sisters ate in uncomfortable silence until Katie broke with the refrain she heard from multiple people the past few days. “You have to do something.”

  “Like what?” Jennifer said.

  “I don’t know. Call the cops. The FBI. Somebody.”

  “Who?” Jennifer said. “Elliot can do whatever he wants. The only person who ever stopped him is gone.”

  The only person?

  Jennifer shivered. Not now.

  “This is what we should do. I can have a guest in my room. No one will care. It’ll be a little weird at first, but my loans will pay for an apartment. We can move in together. I know you’ve got enough to get by.”

  Jennifer thought about her sister’s offer while chewing fried fish. She did have a sizable nest egg. Her rent was absurdly low, which was how she and Franklin managed to afford a place of their own after they were both essentially disowned. Mrs. Carmody had never upped the rate.

  I could do it. Leave with Katie, get an apartment. With my experience and references… oh.

  “I’ll never get another job,” she said.

  “Why?”

  Jennifer shook her head. “I’d need references, Katie. Elliot would pull strings. If he thought I was going to get away from him, who knows what he’d do? He could probably get my teaching license revoked or pressure my coworkers not to give me recommendations.”

  “Rachel would never do that.”

  “I’m not sure. I wouldn’t do that to her, anyway.”

  “Do what?”

  Jennifer shrugged. “Put her up against Elliot. I won’t have him sending Grayson over to threaten my friends so I can get away from here. Where am I going to go, anyway? Unless I move out of the state I’ll never get away from them, and even then, who knows what kind of favors his father can call in? I’m just a teacher, Katie. I don’t have anybody but you.”

  Does it have to be that way?

  Jennifer shivered.

  Katie gulped down the last big bite of her cheeseburger, stuffed the greasy wrapper back in the bag, and made a show of cleaning herself up.

  “Well, I am involved. I mean it, Jen. You say the word, and we’ll go back to the house and get your stuff and go. Mrs. Carmody will be fine without you.”

  Jennifer’s sigh turned ragged. Her breath hitched, and melted into a sob when she let it out. She rubbed her eyes and threw half the fish sandwich into the bag.

  “What?” Katie’s concern ratcheted up a few notches.

  “I like him.” Jennifer hugged herself and hunched forward. “I don’t know why, but I do. I made a mess of it. I ran out of the house. He must think I’m crazy. What’s wrong with me, Katie?”

  Katie rubbed her back. “You’re just not ready yet, Jen. Look, I want to see you get together with somebody, I really do. You’re too young to be so… old.”

  Jennifer’s sharp glare didn’t interrupt her sister.

  “I mean it. You’re only twenty-six, Jenn. Lots of people your age haven’t even gotten married yet. You can start over, but you’re not going to do it living in that shitty house, staring at Franklin’s picture. I don’t care if you want to hear it or not, I have to say it. Do you really think it would make him happy to know that you ended up like this, eating cheese sandwiches for every meal, and letting Elliot torment you all the time?”

  Jennifer’s jaw clenched. “I am not leaving my home.”

  “It’s not your home anymore. It was, but it isn’t now. You have to accept that. Stop beating yourself up. It’s not your fault that Franklin died. It was an accident. Things happen. I know what it’s like.“

  “Do you?” Jennifer snapped. “How do you know, Katie?”

  Katie wilted and drew her hand back. “Dad,” she said, “and you know, I liked Franklin, too. I liked having a big brother.”

  Jennifer’s head drooped, and a sob wrenched itself free. “I’m sorry, Katie. I didn’t mean it.”

  Her sister’s ragged breathing and choked her voice. “I know. Come on. Get a bag, grab some stuff, and come with me.”

  “No,” Jennifer said. “Don’t ask me again. I’m not going. I’m not. I want to go home.”

  Katie wiped away her tears with the back of her sleeve. “Fine,” she said with resignation. “Let’s go back to your house.”

  Katie focused on the road and didn’t speak again until they pulled up to the duplex.

  Chipped white paint covered the house, revealing the silvery old wood beneath. The porch sagged to the left, pulling away from the structure. The warped overhang beneath the second floor windows gave the front of the house a drunken grin. The half-abandoned appearance matched the rest of the street, where some of the houses were abandoned.

  Jennifer got out of the car and fished some cash out of her purse. Katie declined the offer with a wave of her hand.

  “Call me if you need anything,” Katie said. “I mean anything. If he comes back, get somewhere safe and call me and I’ll come get you. I mean it.”

  Jennifer nodded even though Katie would be over an hour away and probably wouldn’t get to her in time to affect anything Elliot attempted. The handle swayed loose on the bent storm door, and chips of paint scattered to the ground. She started to step out of the car.

  Katie grabbed her arm. “Jennifer, please. Don’t stay here. Come with me. I’m scared. I haven’t talked to Mom in over a year. I can’t lose you.”

  “You’re not going to lose me,” Jennifer said, absently. “This is my house.”

  She would be safe in her house.

  Katie sighed, willing the tears back. Jennifer hugged her sister, and Katie squeezed her back.

  “Call me if anything happens. Even if you just need to talk. I mean it.”

  Jennifer nodded.

  “You’re supposed to be the big sister,” Katie said softly. “You’re supposed to be taking care of me.”

  Tears slid hot down Jennifer’s cheeks. “I’m sorry. I’ll call you in the morning, Kat.”

  “Okay,” she said. “I’ll be waiting. I’m not leaving until you’re in the house.”

  Jennifer’s stomach twisted into a queasy knot as she watched the goofy little car pull away. The fish sandwich wanted to come back up. A hard swallow banished it back to her stomach, but it wasn’t giving up yet.

  She took an old piece of wood and wedged it against the baseboard, between the front door and the wall behind it. When they first moved in, Franklin reassured her by putting the board in place and kicking the door. Even unlocked, it wouldn’t budge. The back door was locked up tight with a heavy deadbolt, a chain and a little wire hook.

  After checking every window twice, she went upstairs and got in the shower. Just being around Elliot made her feel like she was covered in a fine layer of grease, and the warm water swept it away as well as settled her stomach. She just hoped Mrs. Carmody wasn’t trying to do her dishes.

  Jennifer unwound her hair and counted each stroke as she brushed it out. Her mother would do this for her when she was very young, but when Jennifer hurt her ankle and had to quit gymnastics, her mother stopped and Katie took over. Working the bristles through the tangles only reminded her how terribly empty the house was.

  As much as she hated doing it, she took out one of Franklin’s old sport shirts and put it on, buttoning it up to her neck. She liked to imagine she could still smell him on it, but time and mothballs had stolen t
he scent from the cloth. Trying to remember his voice brought only white noise.

  The bedsprings creaked under as she curled up on her side and tucked the pillow under her head and breathed into it to warm it up. The air conditioner rattled like mad. The room around her was dark. The baseboards were scuffed and the paint peeled. The hardwood floor was worn, its shine lost. The walls were warped and uneven and the crown molding was cracked and the corners didn’t meet up.

  “And he built a crooked house,” Jennifer sighed.

  Katie was right. Why was she doing this to herself? She could barely remember his voice or his touch no matter how she obsessed over it and living in this awful place didn’t help. The ceiling had a long spidery crack in it.

  Jennifer was surprised Elliot hadn’t sent county inspectors just for spite.

  Katie’s offer floated back into her head. The money was in her bank account. She kept more than half of her last three years’ salary. While the yearly pay for a Paradise Falls high school teacher was well below the state average, her savings were robust.

  The sun had set. Jennifer left the light off and played with her tablet, looking at computers. She wanted to have something nice for once, something that wasn’t a hand-me-down. The tablet chimed. The little envelope icon was blinking. There was an email in her school inbox from Jacob.

  Jennifer, I’m sorry. We never exchanged numbers. You left your helmet behind at my place. I’ll bring it to you on Monday.

  The question was left unsaid. Unless you’d like me to bring it over tomorrow. She bit her lip.

  If she moved in with Katie, that probably meant no Jacob. Then again, Philadelphia was not that far. She could still see him if she managed to fix the mess she made. Thinking about that morning made her so angry with herself that her hands started trembling.

  What did she get for running out on him like that? Elliot, that’s what. She should still be there. Jacob was never anything but polite, kind, and even chivalrous, and her stupid brain twisted him into something he wasn’t. He probably was just in a bad accident and studied martial arts as a hobby, like other people she knew. Howard Unger and Brock Edwards gave after-school jiujitsu classes. Rachel had a scar on her leg from a motorcycle accident. They were just regular people. So was he.

  Except Jacob was more than that. He was kind and he saved her.

  Just like…

  No. No, no, no. Stop it!

  Her ring itched. She bit her lip and looked at it. Her sister was right.

  She made up her mind. Call Katie tomorrow, and then call Jacob. Maybe invite him over just to talk. The fridge needed to be restocked first, so she turned on the alarm clock. The Bi-Lo opened at ten, but she could get in a relaxing ride first, stretch herself out and work out the storm in her mind, then talk to Jacob like an adult, not a flighty teenager. The guy with the mansion could probably deal with a long distance… she didn’t want to think the word relationship.

  It’s been three days, Jennifer.

  Leaving school was the only thing bothering her. Rachel would be happy for her and Krystal… well, Krystal would get over it. She would graduate at the end of the year, move on, move away, and Jennifer would fade into the background of the girl’s life. A happy memory.

  “I’m not just going to be someone else’s happy memory,” she said, settling into the bed.

  Saying goodbye to them would be like cutting off her arm, but if she stayed here, then what? How long would it be until Elliot got fed up and took what he wanted?

  Katie is right. I don’t have to do this anymore.

  Twisting up into a cocoon of blankets, she fell asleep.

  The house groaned as the old wood shifted. The groaning grew louder and louder, followed by the crash of glass shattering and skidding across the kitchen floor.

  11.

  There were heavy footsteps in the kitchen. Jennifer switched on the light, then swung the bedroom door shut and gently twisted the lock, wincing at the sound. The landline phone on her nightstand offered a quiet hiss. Frantic, she turned on the light and looked for her cell phone. Panic throbbed in her temples, ice cold. There was no way out. She needed to call for help and she needed her gun.

  Her cell phone and revolver were in her purse.

  The purse was in the living room.

  The big Amish dresser didn’t want to move, until it started to slide across the floor. Frustration coiled hot in her muscles and Jennifer gave it one great shove, and it finally started to slide. She stopped pushing the dresser when it fully blocked the door, and listened for any sound beyond her own panting. The footsteps resumed downstairs, but this time, they were heavy thumps on the living room carpet. Why didn’t she carry her purse upstairs?

  Idiot, think.

  There was no use in hiding. Her only hope was her neighbor. She pounded the wall with her fist. “Mrs. Carmody! Call the police!”

  No answer. The old woman’s television babbled through the wall. Jennifer banged the heels of both hands against the wall and called Mrs. Carmody’s name repeatedly. The heavy footsteps pounded up the stairs, and shook the floor. The bedroom door shook like a leaf when it a meaty fist pounded the hollow wood.

  “Open up.”

  Jennifer felt a tight clutch of panic in her chest. Grayson Carlyle. He hit the door hard enough to make the hinges creak. The old door splintered around the doorknob, and banged against the back of her dresser.

  “I’ve called the cops!” she shouted. “Get out of here!”

  The closet was full of clothes but it was also full of Franklin’s stuff. After shoving the racks of old shirts out of the way, she felt along the back of the closet for his old Louisville Slugger, tucked in the corner. The kid’s size bat was almost three feet of solid ash, unbelievably hard even before age turned it nearly to stone. Covered in dirt and scuff marks, the end of the bat was worn striking a ball so many times.

  The carpeting bunched up behind the dresser enough to slow its movement. Grayson shouldered the door. The dresser held. Briefly. It skidded across the bare floor until it hit the throw rug, and the rug bunched up. The door was open maybe six inches, and Grayson peered through it.

  “Open the fucking door. You’re coming with me.”

  “Get away,” Jennifer said. “I’ve got a baseball bat.”

  Grayson snorted, and shoved. The dresser caught on the bunched rug, and tipped. The drawers came open, spilling out everything inside, and the whole thing tipped over with a crash.

  Jennifer gripped the bat tightly in her hands and edged towards the door, fighting every instinct, screaming at her to run, but there was nowhere to go.

  Grayson peered through the opening. He was dressed head to toe in black, a watch cap pulled low over his thick brows. He pulled back for a running start, and then the former linebacker crashed into the door like a freight train. The door snapped with a hollow crack, where it hit the fallen dresser. Grayson grabbed the broken door in his big hands and shoved it into the room. It broke into pieces and ripped right off the hinges. With one big slab of a foot, he kicked the dresser back and squeezed through the opening.

  Jennifer edged away, until he stood to his full height in her bedroom.

  A surge of cold anger tore through her. He was in her house.

  Her lips pulled back, her eyes widened, and she tightened every muscle in her body. The rough handle of the bat dug into her palms, and she tested its weight.

  “Get out!” Jennifer shrieked. “Get out of my house!”

  “Put the bat down, bitch.”

  She moved the bat in slow circles, like she’d seen players do when they were waiting for the pitch. She tilted her head down, clenched her jaw, and blew out a breath.

  Grayson stepped over the broken door and fallen dresser, then came at her. Jennifer swung with all her might, twisting at the waist and pivoting her feet while ignoring the flare of pain in her ankle. The bat whipped through the air, right at his head.

  He was too fast, and the bat too short. He caught it with a grunt
, stopping the swing by catching it just above her hands, and seized the end in his other hand. With a turn of his arms, the bat tore free from her hands. Jennifer screamed again and jumped back. She almost fell when she hit the nightstand. She crawled over the bed and headed for the door. Grayson’s ham-sized hand clamped down on her ankle, sending a teeth-gritting flash of red pain up her leg as he dragged her back.

  The panic surging in her chest turned to ice and crushed the air out of her lungs as she remembered another bedroom, another man pinning her to a bed. Shrieking and contorting herself with a hidden, frantic strength, she drew her leg up and kicked him right in the jaw. Grayson’s head snapped back, and let go. He thumped against the wall. Blood poured from his mashed-in nose, and he stared at the wet streak on his hand, naked shock widening his beady eyes. Raging, he came at her again, teeth clenched.

  Jennifer went for the door, crawling over the dresser, and again she was too slow.

  He got both her legs this time, pulled, and dragged her around, away from the door. She landed on her backside, her back hit the wall, and her head cracked against the plaster. A blinding white flash consumed her vision. Grayson dug fingers into her arm to pull her around, then wrapped his arms around her from behind in a bear hug. She screamed until the strength of his massive arms crushed all the air out of her. He lifted her flailing body from the floor. She kicked her feet against the wall, her grippy socks catching on the smooth plaster.

  He pushed her towards the wall, but her feet were planted. She let them bend, and then with a wordless scream pushed with all her might. Muscle from riding, muscle from leaping and spinning, muscle she carried in her legs and grew and grew since she was twelve years old coiled with power like steel bands. She pushed against the wall in a single explosive motion. Gayson lurched backwards, losing his footing as. He let out a throaty grunt as he crashed into the air conditioner, and his arms opened enough for her to wriggle loose.

  Jennifer slammed onto the hardwood floor and went rigid. Pain lanced up from her tailbone, too intense and hot to muster a scream. Her lungs filled with air that wouldn’t go back out. She choked and sputtered as she rolled away from him. As Grayson drew back from the window, the wreckage of the air conditioner scraped down the roof, hitting the sidewalk below with a crunch.