The Secret

by Julie Garwood

  Because Judith was so determined to impress her new friend, she didn’t think about the consequences any longer. She reached out to slap the bee, but as soon as she felt the flutter of its wings against the palm of her hand, it tickled her so, she instinctively closed her fingers.

  Then she started wailing. Frances Catherine bounded off the rock to help the only way she knew how. She started wailing, too.

  Judith ran around and around the rock, screaming so vigorously she could barely catch her breath. Her friend chased after her, screaming just as fiercely, though in sympathy and fear rather than in pain.

  Frances Catherine’s papa came running across the field. He caught hold of his daughter first, and when she’d stammered out her problem, he chased down Judith.

  In a matter of minutes the two little girls had been properly soothed. The stinger had been removed from the palm of Judith’s hand and cool wet mud applied. Her friend’s papa gently mopped away her tears with the edge of his woolen plaid. He sat on the punishment rock now, with his daughter cuddled up on one side of his lap and Judith cuddled up on the other.

  She’d never had anyone make such a fuss over her before. Judith turned quite shy because of all the attention she was getting. She didn’t turn away from the comfort, though, and in fact edged a little closer to get even more.

  “You two are a sorry pair,” the papa announced when they’d quit their hiccuping and could hear him. “Screaming louder than the trumpets sounding the caber toss, you were, and running in circles like hens with your heads cut off.”

  Judith didn’t know if the papa was angry or not. His voice had been gruff, but he wasn’t frowning. Frances Catherine giggled. Judith decided her friend’s papa must have been jesting after all.

  “It was paining her considerably, Papa,” Frances Catherine announced.

  “I’m certain it did pain her,” he agreed. He turned his gaze to Judith and caught her staring up at him. “You’re a brave little lass to help my daughter,” he praised. “But if there be a next time, try not to catch the bee. All right?”

  Judith solemnly nodded.

  He patted her arm. “You’re a pretty little thing,” he remarked. “What’s your name, child?”

  “Her name’s Judith, Papa, and she’s my friend. Can she have her supper with us?”

  “Well now, that depends on her parents,” her father replied.

  “Her papa’s dead,” Frances Catherine announced. “Isn’t that pitiful, Papa?”

  “It surely is,” he agreed. The corners of his eyes crinkled up, but he didn’t smile. “She’s got the prettiest blue eyes I’ve ever seen, though.”

  “Don’t I have the prettiest eyes you’ve ever seen, too, Papa?”

  “Aye, you do, Frances Catherine. You’ve got the prettiest brown eyes I’ve ever seen. You surely do.”

  Frances Catherine was so pleased with her father’s praise, she scrunched up her shoulders and giggled again.

  “Her papa died before she was even borned,” Frances Catherine told him then. She’d only just remembered that information and was certain her papa would want to hear it.

  He nodded, then said, “Now daughter, I want you to keep real quiet while I talk to your friend.”

  “Yes, Papa.”

  He turned his attention back to Judith. He found it a little unnerving, the way she was intently staring up at him. She was such a serious little thing, too serious for someone of her young age.

  “How old are you, Judith?”

  She held up four fingers.

  “Papa, do you see? She’s just my age.”

  “No, Frances Catherine, she isn’t just your age. Judith’s four in years and you’re already five. Remember?”

  “I remember, Papa.”

  He smiled at his daughter, then once again tried to talk to Judith. “You aren’t afraid of me, are you?”

  “She’s not afraid of anything. She told me so.”

  “Hush, daughter. I want to hear your friend speak a word or two. Judith, is your mama here?”

  She shook her head. She started twisting a lock of her white-blond hair around and around her finger in a nervous gesture, yet kept her gaze fully directed on the papa. The man’s face was covered with red whiskers, and when he spoke, the bristles wiggled. She wished she could touch the beard to find out what it felt like.

  “Judith? Is your mama here?” the papa repeated.

  “No, Mama stays with Uncle Tekel. They don’t know I’m here. It’s going to be a secret, and if I tell, I won’t ever be able to come back to the festival. Aunt Millicent told me so.”

  Once she started talking, she wanted to tell everything she knew. “Uncle Tekel says he’s just like my papa, but he’s only mama’s brother and I never sit on his lap. I wouldn’t want to if I could, but I can’t so it doesn’t matter, does it?”

  Frances Catherine’s father was having difficulty following the explanation, but his daughter wasn’t having any trouble at all. She was filled with curiosity, too. “Why can’t you if you wanted to?” she asked.

  “He got his legs broke.”

  Frances Catherine let out a gasp. “Papa, isn’t that pitiful?”

  Her father let out a long sigh. The conversation was getting away from him. “Aye, it surely is,” he agreed. “Now, Judith, if your mother’s at home, how did you get here?”

  “With Mama’s sister,” Judith answered. “I used to live with Aunt Millicent and Uncle Herbert all the time, but Mama won’t let me anymore.”

  “’Cause why?” Frances Catherine asked.

  “’Cause Mama heard me call Uncle Herbert ‘Papa.’ She was so fuming mad, she gave me a smack on the top of my head. Then Uncle Tekel told me I had to live with him and Mama for half the year long so I’d know who I belonged to, and my aunt Millicent and uncle Herbert would just have to do without me. That’s what Tekel said. Mama didn’t want me to go away even half the year, but Tekel hadn’t started his after-supper drinking yet, so she knew he would remember what he told her. He always remembers when he isn’t drunk. Mama was fuming mad again.”

  “Was your mama fuming mad because she was going to miss you half the year?” Frances Catherine asked.

  “No,” Judith whispered. “Mama says I’m a bother.”

  “Then why didn’t she want you to go?”

  “She doesn’t like Uncle Herbert,” Judith answered. “That’s why she was being contrary.”

  “Why doesn’t she like him?” Frances Catherine wanted to know.

  “’Cause he’s related to the damn Scots,” Judith answered, repeating what she’d heard time and time again. “Mama says I shouldn’t even want to talk to the damn Scots.”

  “Papa, am I damn Scots?”

  “You most certainly are not.”

  “Am I?” Judith asked, her worry obvious in her voice.

  “You’re English, Judith,” her friend’s papa patiently explained.

  “Am I damn English?”

  Her friend’s papa was clearly exasperated. “Nobody’s damn anything,” he announced. He started to say more, then suddenly burst into laughter. His big belly jiggled with his amusement. “I’d best remember not to say anything in front of you two little tarts I don’t want repeated.”

  “’Cause why, Papa?”

  “Never you mind,” he answered.

  He stood up, holding his daughter in one arm and Judith in the other. Both little girls let out squeals of delight when he pretended he was going to drop them.

  “We’d best find your aunt and uncle before they start in worrying, Judith. Point me the way to your tent, lass.”

  Judith immediately became frightened inside. She couldn’t remember where the tent was located. Since she didn’t know her colors yet, she couldn’t even give Frances Catherine’s papa a description.

  She tried not to cry. She bowed her head and whispered, “I don’t remember.”

  She tensed in anticipation of his anger. She thought he’d shout at her for being ignorant, the way her
uncle Tekel always did whenever he was drunk and pricked about something she’d inadvertently done that displeased him.

  Frances Catherine’s papa didn’t get angry, though. She peeked up to look at him and caught his smile. Her anxiety completely vanished when he told her to quit her fretting. He’d find her relatives soon enough, he promised.

  “Will they miss you if you don’t come back?” Frances Catherine asked.

  Judith nodded. “Uncle Herbert and Aunt Millicent would cry,” she told her new friend. “Sometimes I wish they were my mama and papa. I do.”

  “’Cause why?”

  Judith lifted her shoulders in a shrug. She didn’t know how to explain why.

  “Well now, there’s nothing wrong with wishing,” Frances Catherine’s papa said.

  Judith was so happy to have his approval, she put her head down on his shoulder. His warm plaid felt rough against her cheek. He smelled so nice, too, like the outdoors.

  She thought he was the most wonderful papa in the whole world. Since he wasn’t looking down at her now, she decided to appease her curiosity. She reached up to touch his beard. The bristles tickled and she let out a giggle over that notice.

  “Papa, do you like my new friend?” Frances Catherine asked when they were halfway across the field.

  “I surely do.”

  “Can I keep her?”

  “For the love of . . . No, you can’t keep her. She isn’t a puppy. You can be her friend, though,” he hastily added before his daughter could argue with him.

  “Forever, papa?”

  She’d asked her father that question, but Judith answered her. “Forever,” she shyly whispered.

  Frances Catherine reached across her father’s chest to take hold of Judith’s hand. “Forever,” she pledged.

  And so it began.

  From that moment on, the two little girls became inseparable. The festival lasted three full weeks, with various clans coming and going, and the championship games were always scheduled on the last Sunday of the month.

  Judith and Frances Catherine were oblivious to the competition, however. They were too busy telling each other all their secrets.

  It was a perfect friendship. Frances Catherine had finally found someone who wanted to listen to what she had to say, and Judith had finally found someone who wanted to talk to her.

  The two of them were a trial of patience for their relatives, however. Frances Catherine started using the word “damn” in every other sentence, and Judith was using the word “pitiful” just as often. One afternoon, while they were supposed to be napping, they cut each other’s hair. When Aunt Millicent got a good look at the lopsided mess they’d made, she started in screeching and didn’t let up until she’d slapped white caps on their heads to hide the sight. She was furious with Uncle Herbert, too, because he was supposed to be keeping his eye on the girls, and instead of being the least contrite over the catastrophe, he was laughing like a loon. She ordered her husband to take the imps across the field and set them on the punishment rock to think about their shameful behavior.

  The girls did do a lot of thinking, but it wasn’t about their behavior. Frances Catherine had come up with the wonderful idea that Judith should also have two full names so they’d be just alike. It took them a long while to settle on the name, Elizabeth, but once it was decided, Judith became Judith Elizabeth, and refused to answer anyone’s summons unless they used both her names when they called to her.

  A full year passed, and yet when they were reunited, it was as though they had only been apart an hour or two. Frances Catherine couldn’t wait to get Judith alone, because she’d found another amazing fact about birthings. A woman didn’t have to be married to have a baby after all. She knew that for certain because one of the Kirkcaldy women had grown a baby in her stomach and she wasn’t wed. Some of the old women in the clan had thrown stones at the poor lass, too, Frances Catherine whispered, and her papa had made them stop.

  “Did they throw stones at the man who spit in his drink?” Judith wanted to know.

  Frances Catherine shook her head. “The woman wouldn’t tell who’d done it,” she replied.

  The lesson was easy to understand, Frances Catherine continued. It had been proven that if a fully grown woman drank out of any man’s goblet of wine, she would surely get a baby in her stomach.

  She made Judith promise she would never do such a thing. Judith made Frances Catherine give her the same promise.

  The growing years blurred together in Judith’s memory, and the awareness of the hatred that existed between the Scots and the English was slow to penetrate her mind. She guessed she’d always known her mother and her uncle Tekel despised the Scots, but she believed it was because they didn’t know any better.

  Ignorance often bred contempt, didn’t it? At least that’s what Uncle Herbert said. She believed everything he told her. He was such a kind, loving man, and when Judith suggested that Tekel and her mother had never spent any time with a Scottish family and that was why they didn’t realize what fine, good-hearted people they were, her uncle Herbert kissed her on her forehead and told her perhaps that was true.

  Judith could tell from the sadness in his eyes that he was only agreeing with her to please her, and to protect her, too, from her mother’s unreasonable prejudice.

  When she was eleven years old and on her way to the festival, she found out the true reason her mother hated the Scots.

  She was married to one.

  Chapter 1

  Scotland, 1200

  Iain Maitland was a mean son of a bitch when he was riled.

  He was riled now. The black mood came over him the minute his brother Patrick told him about the promise he’d given his sweet wife, Frances Catherine.

  If Patrick had wanted to surprise his brother, he’d certainly accomplished that goal. His explanation had rendered lain speechless.

  The condition didn’t last long. Anger quickly took over. In truth, the ridiculous promise his brother had given his wife wasn’t nearly as infuriating to lain as the fact that Patrick had called the council together to render their official opinion on the matter. lain would have stopped his brother from involving the elders in what he considered to be a private, family matter, but he’d been away from the holding at the time, hunting down the Maclean bastards who’d waylaid three unseasoned Maitland warriors, and when he’d returned home, weary but victorious, the deed had already been done.

  Leave it to Patrick to take a simple issue and complicate the hell out of it. It was apparent he hadn’t considered any of the ramifications of his rash behavior. lain, as the newly appointed laird over the clan, would now be expected to put his duties to his immediate family aside, his loyalty, too, and act solely as the council’s advisor.

  He wasn’t about to meet those expectations, of course. He would stand beside his brother no matter how much opposition came from the elders. He wouldn’t allow Patrick to be punished, either. And if need be, he was fully prepared to fight.

  lain didn’t share his decision with his brother for the simple reason that he wanted Patrick to suffer the uncertainty awhile longer. If the ordeal proved painful enough, perhaps Patrick would finally learn to use a little restraint.

  The council of five had already gathered in the great hall to hear Patrick’s petition when lain finished his duties and made his way up the hill. Patrick was waiting in the center of the courtyard. He looked ready to go into battle. His legs were braced apart, his hands were in fists at his sides, and the scowl on his face was as fierce as the thunderstorm brewing overhead. lain wasn’t at all impressed with his brother’s bluster. He shoved Patrick out of his path when he tried to block his way, and continued on toward the steps to the keep.

  “Iain,” Patrick called out. “I ask you now, for I would know your position before we go inside. Do you stand beside me on this issue or against me?”

  lain stopped, then slowly turned around to look at his brother. The expression on his face showed his anger. His v
oice was deceptively mild, however, when he spoke. “And I would know, Patrick, if you deliberately try to provoke me by asking such a question?”

  Patrick immediately relaxed his stance. “I meant no insult, but you’re new as laird and still to be tested in such a personal way by our council. I hadn’t realized until just now the awkward position I’ve put you in.”

  “Are you having second thoughts?”

  “No,” Patrick answered with a grin. He walked over to his brother. “I know you didn’t want me to involve the council, especially now when you’re battling to get them interested in forming an alliance with the Dunbars against the Macleans, but Frances Catherine was determined to gain their blessing. She wants her friend to be welcomed here.”

  lain didn’t remark on that explanation.

  Patrick pressed on. “I also realize you don’t understand my reasons for giving my wife such a promise, but someday, when you’ve met the right woman, all of this will make perfectly good sense to you.”

  lain shook his head in exasperation. “Honest to God, Patrick, I’ll never understand. There isn’t any such thing as the right woman. One’s just as good as another.”

  Patrick laughed. “I used to believe that, too, until I met Frances Catherine.”

  “You’re talking like a woman,” lain said.

  Patrick wasn’t insulted by his brother’s comment. He knew lain couldn’t understand the love he felt for his wife, but God willing, one day he would find someone to give his heart to. When that day arrived, he was going to thoroughly enjoy reminding lain of this callous attitude.

  “Duncan indicated they might want to question my wife,” Patrick said then, turning the topic back to his main concern. “Do you think the elder was jesting with me?”

  lain didn’t turn around when he gave his answer. “None of the council members ever jest, Patrick. You know that as well as I.”

  “Damn it, I’m responsible for this.”

  “Aye, you are.”

  Patrick ignored his brother’s quick agreement. “I won’t let the council intimidate Frances Catherine.”

  lain let out a sigh. “I won’t, either,” he promised.