Then Comes Seduction

by Mary Balogh

  “You know,” she said, “I did not at all love Elliott when I married him, and he certainly did not love me. How could he when I was the one who proposed marriage to him, poor man. I believe he could barely tolerate me, in fact.”

  She laughed merrily and stepped back.

  Elliott had been looking about him for a bride when he first assumed guardianship of Stephen, and being an unromantic soul at the time, he had fixed his choice on Meg for pure convenience’s sake. But Meg had been waiting for Crispin Dew, who had gone off to war. Nessie had known, though, that Meg had a strong sense of family duty and was very likely to say yes to Elliott purely because she would think the marriage in the best interest of her family. And so Nessie, in a grand gesture of self- sacrifice, had proposed to Elliott before he had a chance to propose to Meg. And he had married her.

  “But now,” Nessie said, her rather plain face suddenly beautiful with animation, “we not only love each other dearly, we are also deeply in love. If there is the will to love, Kate, then love itself will follow in lavish abundance. I promise.”

  “But I already do love Lord Montford,” Katherine protested. “And he loves me.”

  She was overdoing it again.

  “Of course.” Vanessa’s smile suggested that she knew it but that she was filled with hope anyway “Of course you do. Oh, I so want you to be happy I want both my sisters to be happy. And Stephen too, though he is far too young to worry about yet.”

  She blinked back tears and laughed again.

  And then Stephen himself appeared in the doorway, looking splendidly handsome and very grown up in black and white.

  “Kate,” he said, coming inside and reaching out his hands to take hers in a strong clasp, “my favorite sister, I would feel bound to say if you were not all three my favorites. I wish I could have been an older brother so that I could have offered some of the care and protection that you all always gave me. I wish I did not have to give you up so soon. But Monty is a decent man despite everything. I am convinced of it. There is nothing vicious about him. I could never have been his friend if there had been. He will treat you well.”

  “Of course he will.” She laughed at his earnestness. “And soon your friend will also be your brother- in- law.”

  “I thought I had better come up,” Elliott said from the doorway, “to remind you all that we are expected at St. George’s sometime today It occurred to me that perhaps you had forgotten.”

  Katherine remembered seeing him for the very first time at a Valentine’s assembly in Throckbridge, the evening before he came to their cottage to break the news to Stephen. She had thought him—every lady present had thought him—the most handsome man she had ever set eyes upon with his dark good looks, which she had learned later came from his Greek mother—except for his blue eyes. Now he was Nessie’s husband and Isabelle and Sam’s father, and she could see him only as someone very dear.

  Oh, Nessie had been fortunate in her choice.

  “I am not going to deliver a sentimental speech or offer any sage words of advice, Katherine, you will be relieved to know,” he said. “It would all make us later still. But I must say that you look very fetching indeed.”

  “Thank you, Elliott.” She took a few steps toward him and he opened his arms. She went into them and they hugged each other.

  Did all brides feel that they were saying a final goodbye to all who were nearest and dearest to them? Was it natural?

  She stepped away from Elliott and smiled about at all of them, only slightly watery- eyed even though she felt as if there were a great lump in her throat.

  “If this is to be the happiest day of my life,” she said, “and I am determined that it will be, then let it begin in earnest. Off to church with all of you.”

  A minute later she was alone with her brother, and the dressing room seemed very quiet and empty—all her belongings had been packed and taken away earlier. She took his hand in hers and held it tightly. It was as if she no longer belonged. As she did not. This would never again be her room or her home.

  Stephen patted her hand.

  “You were my favorite, Kate,” he said, slightly shamefaced. “Youare my favorite. You are closest to me in age, and you were my playmate and my friend and confidante. Be happy.”

  “I have every intention of being the happiest woman in the world,” she assured him.

  But she bit her upper lip as she smiled and then blinked back tears when he raised her hand to his lips.

  “Oh, Stephen,” she said, “I will be happy. Wait and see.”

  His family members were sitting in the pews behind him—Rachel with Gooding, Charlotte, an uncle—his father’s brother—and three cousins, his offspring, all of whom Jasper had rarely ever seen because they had stopped coming to Cedarhurst after his father’s death and his mother’s remarriage. It had been Katherine’s idea that they be invited, enthusiastically seconded by Charlotte, though they were not her relatives.

  Indeed, both ladies had even insisted upon inviting Uncle Stanley and the cousins to Cedarhurst too for the birthday celebrations, and they had agreed to come.

  His family. His blood relatives. His support group of persons who loved him unconditionally Jasper’s lip curled slightly as he sat beside Con Huxtable in the front pew. Though he had no real cause to feel cynicism—not unless he directed it at himself too. He might have made an effort to establish closer family ties after the death of his mother’s second husband. Or after her death.

  He had not done so on either occasion.

  It had been too late by then.

  He wondered suddenly—as he had stopped doing years and years ago—how different life might have been if his father had not tried jumping that particular hedge that day but had ridden up to the gate as any sane man would have done. Pointless wonderings, of course. His father had jumped. And died.

  He felt an unfamiliar constriction in his throat and snapped to attention. Good Lord, if he was not careful, he was going to find himself weeping for his lost childhood on his wedding day Now that would give the gossips something to talk about.

  If he was not mistaken, the bride was late. A fine thing it would be if she failed to turn up.

  A spectacular catastrophe.

  Jasper, who had made it his business until one month ago never to worry about anything, felt a knot of sudden anxiety in the pit of his stomach and wished he had not eaten any breakfast. But wait a minute. He had not eaten breakfast, had he? He wished he had, then.

  But even as he wished it and even as he wished his valet had not throttled him with the knot in his neckcloth this morning, Con looked back over his shoulder and nudged Jasper’s elbow, and they both stood. There was a stir at the back of the church, and the whole congregation—dash it all, it was large!—was looking back to catch a first glimpse of the bride.

  The clergyman was taking his place at the front.

  She had come and he was dry- eyed and all was well.

  Jasper inhaled slowly and forgot to exhale when he caught sight of Katherine. Good God, she was beautiful. It was no startlingly new revelation, of course. He had thought it on his very first sight of her more than three years ago. He had thought it every time he had set eyes on her since then.

  But today she was his bride. Soon she would be his wife. His baroness, by Jove.

  And today she was… well, she was beautiful.

  Dash it all, why was the English language so inadequate to one’s needs on occasions like this?

  He was glad he had worn a dark blue coat with pale gray breeches and white linen rather than the black and white that were more fashionable. Black had seemed just too funereal for the occasion. Now they would match each other.

  Would they?

  Match, that was?

  He had promised her he would make her happy, had he not? Or had he only said that he would try not to make her miserable?

  There was, he supposed, a difference.

  But dash it all, this large congregation, most of which ha
d put in an appearance only out of morbid curiosity, would not go away thinking him unhappy Or her either, if he had any say in the matter.

  As she approached on Merton’s arm, he fixed his eyes on her. He remembered to open them wide and drank in the sight of her. And he smiled slowly at her.

  She was looking at him too through the fine veil that fell from the brim of her bonnet and covered her face. There was color in her cheeks —or so it seemed.

  And then, while everyone in the front seven or eight pews could still see her face, she smiled back at him, and it seemed that she must have brought the sunshine in with her from outside. But was it not cloudy out there?

  They smiled at each other—a bride and groom anticipating the advent of happily- ever- after in just a few minutes’ time. It was a grand charade that they played.

  An accelerated heartbeat was not necessary for a charade, though, was it? No one could see it.

  His heart thumped out a merry tattoo in his chest anyway.

  Good Lord, she was his bride.

  He was about to be married. Forever and ever, amen.

  They turned together to face the clergyman.

  “Dearly beloved,” he began.

  She must have washed her hair recently. He could smell that soap smell that had always been more enticing to him than any perfume.

  He could feel her body heat though they did not yet touch.

  He felt a sudden and unwelcome wave of remorse. This ought to be the happiest day of her life. Devil take it, it ought to be. But only the happiest so far. There should be happiness abounding in her future.

  The clergyman had said something and Merton was holding out her hand. Giving her away when he really ought to be clasping that hand tightly and whisking her off somewhere far away where she would be safe—from him. And happy—without him.

  Jasper took her hand in his own.

  And her very life into his safekeeping.

  For the rest of both their lives.

  It was a far more profound moment than anything he could have anticipated.

  Devil take it!

  “And what God hath joined together, let no man put asunder.”

  It was done, then. Already. So soon. There was no going back now

  They were married.

  Strangely, though Katherine had been concentrating hard on the words of the nuptial service, making it all very real to herself, as she must, part of her mind had drifted back to that evening at Vauxhall.

  She remembered the pull of forbidden attraction she had felt toward him then. And how their eyes had met and held while he was talking with Lady Beaton. And how her heart had turned over. She remembered the leap of excitement she had felt when he offered his arm later, during their walk, and the thrill she had felt when he spoke to her in a manner no man had ever spoken before. She remembered how that foolish, innocent young girl had fallen headlong in love with him, with the danger of him and the raw masculinity of him, and how she had followed him willingly to her doom because she had decided that love was not safe but that it must be pursued at all cost.

  Finally she knew the cost. She was paying it.

  Even though she had tumbled right back out of love with him on that same long- ago evening.

  Except that some of her fascination with him had lingered on into this year, and she had given in to it and so sealed her doom.

  Even today…

  Even now…

  She turned her head and found him smiling at her as he led her forward to the communion rail.

  Ah, even now she found him more attractive than any other man she had ever known. And handsome too, of course. He looked plain… gorgeous in his wedding clothes. And he was her husband.

  She should be the happiest woman in the world.

  She remembered all the people sitting in the pews behind them—looking at them. Including her family. Whom she loved. Who loved her.

  She smiled back at him.

  Not long after, it seemed, the communion service was over, the register had been signed, and they were on their way out of the church, her arm drawn through his, the organ playing a triumphant anthem, everyone nodding and smiling—or simply looking. And she smiled and smiled. So did he.

  As they reached the outer doors and stepped out through them, Katherine became aware that the church bells were pealing joyfully and that a crowd of the curious had gathered about the open barouche that awaited them on the square. Someone set up a halfhearted cheer, and other voices joined it.

  Despite herself she felt a welling of… something. Not joy exactly. But something. Some sense of completion. Perhaps relief that it was finally done and there could be no further temptation to call everything off and run away.

  Lord Montford hurried her in the direction of the carriage and handed her inside before joining her there and giving the coachman the signal to start just as the congregation began to spill out through the church doors.

  The crowd parted to let the horses and barouche through.

  It had been a cloudy morning. It had looked as if it might rain at any minute. But at some time while they were inside the church, the clouds had moved off and the sun was beaming down on them from a clear blue sky The air was warm without being oppressively hot.

  It was a perfect summer day.

  A perfect day for a wedding.

  He was sitting across the corner of the seat beside her, looking at her, his eyes half closed, his mouth half smiling.

  “Well, Katherine,” he said softly.

  She looked back at him—at her new husband.

  “Well, Jasper,” she said.

  It was the first time she had spoken his name even though he had invited her to do so all of one month ago.

  The half- smile became a full one.

  “Lady Montford,” he said.

  “Yes.”

  They could choose not to be miserable, he had said on that same occasion one month ago. Had he also phrased the idea in a more positive way? She could not remember. Could they choose to be happy?

  Was it possible? Was Nessie right?

  But even if it was possible, they would both have to commit themselves to the choice, would they not? What if she chose to be happy, and he chose to carry on with his life just as if nothing had changed?

  “I suppose,” he said, “we had better reassure our families, had we not? Not to mention everyone else who has remained in town just for this.”

  And even as she looked inquiringly at him and felt the barouche jolt into motion, he moved away from the corner in order to lean across her and set his lips to hers.

  She jerked back her head, realized what he had said, and… smiled dazzlingly at him.

  “But of course,” she said, and touched a hand to his shoulder as she raised her mouth to his again.

  As he kissed her, his lips slightly parted, his mouth warm and moist and knee- weakeningly sensual, she could hear applause and laughter and a few whistles and more cheering mingled with the sound of the church bells.

  All the sounds of a wedding.

  All the sounds of happiness.

  It had been a very crowded and a very grand wedding breakfast indeed. Jasper did not believe he had smiled so much before in his life. It had really been quite wearying. Katherine had smiled without ceasing too.

  The happy bride and groom.

  But finally they had extricated themselves. He wanted to get as far as Reading tonight. They had bidden their farewells to guests, hugged and kissed their family members, dealt with tears — Charlotte had cried all over them both even though she would be joining them at Cedarhurst in just a couple of weeks’ time. In the meanwhile she was going to stay at Warren Hall with Miss Huxtable, whom she insisted upon calling her sister.

  The farewells had all been said. The smiles had all been smiled, the tears all shed. They had just left London behind.

  Jasper settled himself more comfortably in his traveling carriage and looked at his wife beside him. She was quietly gazing out through the wi
ndow on her other side. She was still wearing both her bonnet and her gloves, though different ones from this morning. She had changed into traveling clothes before leaving. Her hands were set quietly one atop the other in her lap. She looked relaxed.

  A little too relaxed.

  He wondered if she was looking forward to the coming night.

  Their wedding night.

  There were compensations for some of life’s unpleasant experiences.

  He reached out and took one of her hands in his. He peeled off her glove, one finger at a time, and tossed it onto the seat opposite to join his hat. He set her hand palm- down on top of his. It was slender and pale-skinned and warm. Her palm was smaller than his, her fingers not quite as long.

  She did not move it though she had turned her head to look down at it.

  He eased his fingers between hers and moved their clasped hands to rest on his thigh.

  She did not resist. Neither did she cooperate.

  Of course she was not looking forward to tonight. Marriage was not about sex to her, was it? She had said so the day he proposed to her. Women were funny that way, and Katherine seemed funnier than most. She dreamed of love and hearts of hearts and souls of souls.

  She was like an alien creature.

  She was also, dash it all, his wife.

  And she had admitted that she wanted him.

  He hated the remorse he always felt in relation to her. He was not a man given to guilt and conscience. He was who he was, he did what he did, and anyone who did not like it—or him—could go hang for all he cared.

  But on one infamous occasion several years ago he had crossed an invisible but very real line from recklessness into depravity, and though he had crossed back over that line before irreparable harm had been done, nevertheless… Well, irreparable harm had been done anyway. The fact that they were sitting here in this carriage together, man and wife, but without a word to say to each other, was proof enough.

  And he would, he supposed, have to carry remorse with him to the grave. Not remorse for himself, for the fact that he had been forced to take on a leg shackle today. That he could and would live with. He was a gentleman, after all, and he had always known that sooner or later he must marry and produce an heir.