Crossroads 4: Shot Through the Heart (Siren Publishing Ménage Everlasting)

by Dixie Lynn Dwyer

  “Keys. Hand them over,” Murdock said again with his palm out.

  “Why?”

  “Because you’re coming home with us. We’re going to explore these feelings we have and stop denying them. You’ll come with me. Mitch will drive his truck, and Murdock will drive yours,” Tiegen told her as he held her shoulder and neck and smiled softly down at her. He looked so sexy and desirable. She wanted him. She hadn’t had sex in years, and here she was contemplating having sex with three men. That meant she would have to open up to them and let them in.

  “I can’t. I’m sorry. I just can’t.” She held her purse to her chest and backed up. Tiegen stopped her and held her close. “What’s wrong? Why are you running from this?”

  “Is it the sharing thing? So you what, never had a ménage before? Do we scare you?” Mitch asked her.

  She shook her head. “I’ve never had sex with more than one man. I haven’t had sex in a long time, and I don’t sleep around.”

  “Of course you don’t. It’s one of the reasons you’re so appealing. You’re shy, modest, sweet, but also tough. There’s a fighter in you, and we like that,” Murdock told her.

  “You’re making this so difficult.”

  “Good,” the three of them said together, and then she snorted low.

  “No, not good. I hardly know the three of you. I don’t date.”

  “Is it because of R.J.?” Tiegen asked, and she was shocked.

  “What?”

  “Who is R.J.?” Murdock asked, crossing his arms in front of his chest.

  Mitch squinted at her. “You’re seeing someone?”

  “No. God, Tiegen, why are you bringing him up again?”

  “Because I saw your face when he called the other day when we were walking after lunch. Everything stopped. It was like he came first.”

  She felt the chill in the air. Her body was losing the heat from their kisses and sensual touches, and now she was feeling cold and alone again. How did they have the power to make her feel safe and whole? It didn’t matter anyway because here she was screwing things up before they even got started.

  “I think I should head inside.” She started to walk, and Tiegen grabbed her hand and pulled her close. He pressed her hand to his chest.

  “Be honest. Don’t lie. Are you seeing him?”

  “No.”

  “Were you seeing him at some point?”

  She swallowed hard. “Yes.” She felt the tears hit her eyes.

  “Do you still have feelings for him?” Mitch asked.

  She looked at him and nodded. “I’ll always have feelings for him. He was my first and only.”

  “Lover?” Murdock asked, sounding so shocked.

  “Yes.”

  “No others?” Tiegen asked her as he cupped her cheek.

  She tried turning away. “Do we need to discuss my inexperience right now?”

  “Yes,” Mitch said to her.

  “Why?”

  “Because it explains your fears.”

  “I’m not afraid,” she snapped at him.

  “Then come home with us tonight. Come see where this leads. Forget about R.J. or anything else and just let go with us.”

  She couldn’t believe what he was saying and how she was considering accepting the offer. But what would it be like when things went wrong and when she hurt them and pushed them away or became cold, distant because she was too scared to let go?

  “Say yes, Mia,” Mitch said to her.

  Murdock took her hand, which held her keys, brought it to his lips, and kissed her knuckles. “We want you. Let us in.”

  She felt the tears fill her eyes. “I don’t know how,” she whispered, and her voice cracked.

  “We’ll show you,” Mitch said, and she looked at each of them and followed her gut and her heart. She nodded.

  Mitch headed out, and so did Murdock. Tiegen unlocked the truck door and helped her get up and into the truck. She was shaking with a combination of fear and anticipation. She was going to do this. She was going to have sex with three men she was attracted to, and nothing else mattered. Then she felt the fear. It wouldn’t work out. She would screw it all up, and this time, it would hurt three times as badly as the first time.

  * * * *

  Tiegen reached over to caress Mia’s thigh, and she tightened up. A quick glance at her and he could tell she was scared. But his gut told him it was more than she was letting on. He and his brothers could be pretty demanding, especially in bed with a woman. He already knew this was going to be different. He already had such deep desires and feelings for Mia, and he hardly knew her. There was just something about her that pulled him toward her. But they weren’t the type of men to coerce a woman to make love. Maybe comfort her, guide her if she were inexperienced, but not manipulate or force her. He had to find out why she was so scared to the point of shaking and sitting so far away.

  “Mia?”

  She swallowed hard.

  “I want you to know that if you’re not ready for this, if you’re not feeling the attraction and desire, that it’s okay. We can slow things down and take our time. We’ve got all the time in the world. You know that, don’t you?”

  She looked at him. “Really? You would stop right now and give me time?”

  He took a deep breath and slowly released it as he stopped at the red traffic light. He looked at her. “It would kill me inside because I want you, want to explore your body, bring you pleasure and soak in every bit of you, but yes, I would, and so will Mitch and Murdock.”

  She nodded, and he could see the tears in her eyes. She leaned back. The light turned green, and he accelerated and gripped the wheel. He couldn’t help but to hope she didn’t want that, that she would open up and she would just give this a chance. But she was taking a risk. A woman who engaged in sex with multiple men at once was risking so much emotionally, physically, and it wasn’t something to be forced but to desire.

  “I love the way the three of you make me feel from a simple touch,” she whispered, breaking the silence.

  He pulled along the long road that led up to their private home in the heavily wooded area, parked the truck, turned off the ignition, pulled out the keys, and looked at her.

  She turned to hold his gaze and her hand moved over the one he had pressed against the seat between them. So badly he wanted to close that space and draw her in close to kiss her, infuse faith into her that he and his brothers wouldn’t hurt her.

  “I’m scared, Tiegen. I’m scared for more reasons than I could get out or explain in such a short period of time.”

  “What do you mean a short period of time?”

  “Tonight, in this moment, with Mitch and Murdock approaching the truck. It’s a yes or no, a take a chance and live for tonight or not, but I know what tomorrow will bring.”

  He brought her fingers to his lips and kissed them. “It will bring more lovemaking, more pleasure and feeling complete in one another’s arms.”

  She smiled softly, but it didn’t reach her eyes. She wasn’t happy. She was sad, and his gut clenched.

  “You don’t think this will last between us?”

  “I know it won’t.”

  His chest tightened, and he felt a bit angry at her saying such a thing, but then she added, “Because I’ll ruin it. I’ll push you away. I’ll frustrate you because…I don’t know how to love. I can’t accept it. I can’t open my heart to it.”

  “Why?”

  “Too many reasons.”

  He looked toward her window and saw Mitch and Murdock standing there. Their expressions of concern were met with his stern expression and a nod to go ahead inside the house. They would get his drift, and when he had a moment, he would let them know to go slow with Mia and that whatever happened tonight depended on her.

  “Why don’t you come inside and see what happens? We want to be with you and to get to know you. We’ll take our time.”

  She nodded and then opened the door. He got out and took a deep breath. Who hurt he
r? Why is she so afraid? I want her. Please let her take a chance. Please.

  * * * *

  Mitch knew something was up. One look from Tiegen and then Mia and he knew that they needed to put on the brakes and slow things down.

  “Welcome to our home,” Mitch told her, and she smiled.

  “This is so big. My God, the ceilings are high.”

  She continued to compliment as she walked farther into the room, her heels clicking and clacking on the tile flooring. She looked so classy, sexy, and he wondered what she looked like naked. With thoughts of that came images of what it would feel like with her legs wrapped around his waist and his cock buried deep in her pussy. He wanted to hear her moan with pleasure, cry out his name, and give over all control to him, Tiegen, and Murdock.

  There was an open floor plan, so from where she stood, she had a view of the large living room with floor-to-ceiling fireplace and the kitchen, as well as the stairs that led to a sunken den.

  “We brought it from an architectural engineer Tiegen knew from the city. It had been his vacation home until he moved out to California and bought a place in Colorado. We fixed it up, added our own designs,” Mitch said to her.

  “It’s impressive. I don’t think I’ve ever been in a home that looked like this. It’s big.”

  Murdock took her hand and brought it to his lips. “We’re big.” He kissed her knuckles.

  She shyly lowered her eyes, and Mitch saw Tiegen shake his head, as if saying to not push. Murdock saw him, too, as he looked up.

  “How about a drink? We could sit in the living room or do a tour of the house?” Tiegen asked.

  “A drink sounds nice.” She clasped her hands in front of her.

  Mitch watched her walk around, and they looked at some of the paintings and even a photograph taken by the lake.

  “This is gorgeous. Is that by a local photographer?”

  Mitch smiled. He placed his hand on her shoulder and began to explain about how they’d come across it and how the photographer worked for the police department as a patrol officer.

  “So cool. I love photography.”

  Tiegen approached with some beers.

  “How did you get involved with forensic photography?” Mitch asked as he guided her to the long couch and took the seat next to her.

  She looked at each of them as they joined them. Tiegen sat across from her, and Murdock sat on the ottoman right by her legs. They surrounded her, and Mitch could tell it affected Mia when they were so close. Her body language changed, her cheeks became flush, and she averted her gaze from theirs. Hell, he was affected, too.

  “I was in college and debating about going into the police academy while I studied forensic technology and lab work. I was doing a combination criminal justice and forensics degree with this special program they offered at the community college. I also love photography and was asked to do some work. One of my professors got me started with a paid internship with the coroner’s office working in the lab. But one day their main photographer came down with the stomach flu, and well, they asked me to step in. I did it no problem. My professor is good friends with Jethro, and both men kind of guided me toward this combination career.”

  “So did you attend the academy?” Mitch asked “Because I noticed you carry a gun and other technicians don’t.”

  “I went through a special training and have qualifications that allow me to carry and to have the authority of an investigator. From time to time, I’m asked to profile cases and come up with connections. I like being able to carry. But how about you guys? What made you choose to become detectives and enlist in the military?”

  “I was in the Marines for five years and then wanted out. I took a series of tests for local, state, and even federal positions that I qualified for and then was brought in under a new division with the state police,” Tiegen said to her.

  She uncrossed her legs and then re-crossed them. Mitch reached over and ran his hand along her knee and thigh.

  “I always wanted to be in law enforcement. Did a youth program through the police department when I was in high school then took the test for the academy and got hired at twenty-one. I worked my way up and constantly take training classes and attend seminars to better my abilities. Homicide investigation is a calling, but it takes a unique person to hunt killers.”

  He kissed her neck, and Mia closed her eyes and leaned back.

  Murdock moved off the ottoman and placed his hands on either side of her thighs.

  “I’m into a different kind of hunting. Life-and-death situations. Unlike my brothers’ jobs, mine entails figuring out who the enemy is, what they look like, and learning when they’re going to strike then stopping them before they get a chance.”

  Mitch opened his eyes as he heard Mia moan softly and then glanced down to see Murdock uncrossing her legs and pressing her skirt up. He caressed her thighs up and down.

  “Sounds dangerous, Murdock. Are you ever scared that you won’t find them in time and they’ll succeed in hurting people?” she asked him.

  He gripped her thighs and lowered his face between her legs to kiss her inner thigh and arouse her pussy.

  “I’m very good at hunting. I can sniff out exactly what I’m looking for and what I want.”

  Mia gasped as Murdock used his teeth to pull on her panties. He looked up as she looked down, and Mitch felt his cock harden beneath his jeans.

  “I know what I want right now, and that’s to taste you.”

  Her lips parted, and she gripped the couch on either side of her.

  “Let me bring you pleasure, baby, and taste how sweet you are?”

  Mitch suckled against her neck, and she moaned. Then he felt her jerk and gasp, and he knew that Murdock was doing as he’d said he would.

  He felt her shift upward and then sensed Murdock removing her panties.

  “Damn, baby, you taste so good.”

  “Oh God. Oh, Murdock,” she whispered and began to thrust slowly upward.

  Mitch pulled his lips from her neck and reached over to undo her blouse and cup her breast. She looked at him, her dark-blue eyes glistening with arousal as he leaned over and kissed her lips. He pulled on her nipple and then plunged his tongue deeper as Murdock feasted on her cunt.

  * * * *

  Tiegen watch in awe and hoped that Mia would begin to let down the walls and trust them to take care of her. Whatever had occurred in her life to make her feel as if she couldn’t succeed in a relationship would be dealt with later. Right now, he wanted to taste her, too.

  He moved off the chair and joined his brothers on the couch.

  Murdock lifted her thighs up over his shoulders as he fingered Mia’s cunt and then alternated tongue and finger. She was moaning and panting, holding on to Mitch as he suckled her breast.

  “Damn, you’re so wet, Mia. You taste delicious,” Murdock told her, and she cried out a release. He continued to feast on her until Tiegen had enough of watching and wanted to join in.

  * * * *

  Mia couldn’t believe how wild she felt. She was thrusting her hips, clawing at Mitch’s back as he feasted on her breast while Murdock fingered and sucked her cunt. She couldn’t hold back, and she didn’t want to. She wanted to feel more.

  “I need to taste her, too.” Tiegen knelt on the couch and reached for her chin. He held her gaze with eyes as intense looking as she felt.

  He covered her mouth, kissing her deeply, and then when he released her lips, he lifted her chin.

  “You’ll let me taste you, too, and then Mitch?”

  She nodded so quickly she felt the heat of embarrassment hit her cheeks. Where had the fear, the anxiety about the inevitable and failing relationships gone to? It was nonexistent when these three men touched her, kissed her, and aroused her body, making her needy for cock and the deep connection only sex could bring.

  Slowly her legs lowered, and Murdock gave her a wink as he moved back and Tiegen took his place. She gasped as Tiegen massaged her calves as he
knelt between them, and then he gripped her ankles as he held her gaze. He gave them a squeeze. He looked so sexy, intense, and capable that it made her pussy spasm more cream.

  “I want you naked on our bed tonight. I want you to put the past behind you, along with everything that ever made you feel like you couldn’t love or be loved, and forget it. For tonight, for this moment, Mia, just let go and we’ll catch you.”

  His words brought tears to her eyes but also seemed to bring an encouragement or a push, a challenge, that fed her needs.

  She held his gaze and took unsteady breaths as she absorbed the feel of his hard, warm palms moving from her ankles to her inner thighs, spreading her wider.

  “Oh God, Tiegen. You make it seem so simple.”

  Mitch clutched her chin and tilted it toward him. “It is that simple. Nothing but us together, tonight, matters. Let go and let us make you feel so good.”

  Mitch didn’t give her a chance to respond. Instead, he kissed her deeply, plunged his tongue inside, and tasted her fully as thick, hard fingers undid her blouse and her bra the rest of the way. Then she felt the thick, hard digit press up into her cunt. A thumb, Tiegen’s, stroked her pussy lips while he thrust fingers to her cunt. He rolled her cream over her pussy lips, round and round, applying the precise amount of pressure to make her inner muscles tighten, her core ache, and tiny spasms erupt and leak more cream. She was sopping wet and felt so needy for cock she wanted it now.

  “I need you. Please. More,” she begged.

  “We want you, too, baby. Feel how badly,” Mitch told her as he moved her hand over his cock. Then Murdock did the same with her other hand and brought it to his cock. She cupped their balls, leaned her head back, and moaned out another release as Tiegen suckled and fingered her pussy.

  It was too much. She shook and cried out.