One New Message (A Dark Romance Novel)

by Vivian Ward

  And maybe that’s why I feel so damned guilty. Had I known what has been going on in my husband’s mind, in my own house, I might not have felt as bad. But you never really have a way of knowing what’s going on inside someone’s head.

  The two clues were porn clips that he downloaded to his computer, but all guys watch porn. I mean, any guy I’ve ever met usually has a backup porn stash for or from their bachelor period. My husband came equipped with his own, so I was surprised to find porn downloaded on his computer.

  And it wasn’t that I was surprised at seeing porn on his computer, but it was what kind of porn that I found most baffling.

  One title was Wife Cheating Fucks Stranger and the other video was Slut Wife Taking BBC.

  I had no idea what the hell they were so I decided to watch them. He apparently liked them so much that he had to download them to his computer which he’s never done in the past. At least, not that I know of anyway.

  Normally, he just streams porn from various online sources. In all the years we’ve been married, I can’t remember a single time that he’s downloaded porn.

  I push play on the first video and watch a woman being taken from behind by a man of average size. There’s nothing that stands out to me about the video, but I do notice it’s amateur porn. If there’s any type of porn my husband likes, it’s definitely amateur videos.

  Continuing the video to see what happens, I begin to notice something else.

  Where the fuck is this being recorded?

  It looks like they’re in a bedroom. Maybe hers?

  But where is the camera? Where is it being shot from?

  No sooner than I think this, the camera moves just a bit so I stop the video and rewind it back a few frames.

  Someone’s holding the camera. I keep watching. Oh shit! He’s in the closet.

  But who would be in the closet? I’ve never seen any camera man hiding in a closet.

  That’s when it hits me that the husband is in the closet video taping his wife fucking some guy he doesn’t know.

  That’s….odd? What the fuck? Why would this guy record his wife doing such a thing?

  Ohhhhh.

  Probably for evidence that she cheated so he can keep the house, kids and whatever else he wants.

  Nonetheless, it was still a good video of this wife getting it real good from someone the husband didn’t know so I can see why he’d like it. He’s always been a fan of doggy style.

  I’d give this video five thumbs up because it was pretty good, even if she is a cheater and about to lose everything under the sun. The sex was really hot and intense.

  Moving onto video number two, I press play and right off the bat, I notice this is also an amateur video. No surprise there.

  A woman with the whitest, creamiest skin I’ve ever seen—even whiter than mine— is lying on the bed, masturbating and a tall, dark brother approaches the bed. He’s as black as an Ace of Spades.

  He wastes no times lifting her legs over his forearms and starts hammering it into her. As I’m watching her get what looks like the pounding of her life, I suddenly notice another dick on the screen! It’s at the bottom of the screen, barely visible.

  What the hell is this?

  I keep watching and that’s when I realize that whoever is recording has their cock out, jacking off and that the camera’s at the perfect angle to record this guy stroking himself while he films.

  This one ends very anticlimactically with the guy pulling out and cumming all over the girl’s tits and then the footage cuts off right away.

  I’d say this one gets three thumbs up but that’s only because of the way she was able to fit his monstrous dick inside of her. There’s no way I could ever handle something that size.

  I make sure that I restore my husband’s browser back to its normal position and get everything back on his desk just the way it was before he left so he doesn’t know I was trying to spy on him, but what I found doesn’t help me any.

  He’s watched porn since the day I met him and I know his taste. These two videos were really racy so I can see why he likes them, especially the first one.

  But none of this explains why he’s become so secretive about his electronics.

  Chapter 4

  There are men galore at my factory job, and some good looking ones, too. There is enough testosterone in that plant to last for hundreds of years.

  I have always told myself, “Cathy, don’t even go there. You’re married,” anytime I flirt with the guys, but I can’t help it.

  We are on the same crew, working 12-hour shifts together three to four days a week and spend all of our breaks together.

  At first, I was just the new girl, and they were training me when I first got my job, teaching me how to do things. Jeremy was the one who primarily taught me, which might be why I connect with him so well. There have been plenty of fuck-ups on my part, but he’s always covered my ass to keep me from getting in trouble.

  But then one day things changed.

  I caught him looking at me. He noticed me.

  We smile at each other, laugh, tell jokes and often flirt. Eventually that fun, light-hearted flirting became a bit heavier, more dramatic.

  Initially, I thought, “What’s the harm? We’re both married. Neither of us would ever go there.”

  Would we?

  I mean, he loves his wife. Yes, I’m sure of that.

  And I know I love my husband. I talk about him all the time, so surely everyone knows how I feel about him.

  Every time I come home from work, my husband asks how my day went, and I describe all the machine break-downs or how swamped we are and, somehow, his name always came up.

  Jeremy.

  Like I said, my husband knows me better than anyone else. In fact, he knows me so well that he can almost read my mind. It’s like he knows what’s going on in this head of mine.

  It’s scary.

  Too bad I can’t say the same for him. I never know what he’s thinking. His poker face is much better than mine.

  One thing that doesn’t help my cause is that I’m an honest person. I’m an open book, and I suck at hiding shit. I’ve told a handful of white lies in my life, but I’ve always come clean about them sooner or later.

  Brett notices the grin on my face every time Jeremy’s name comes out of my mouth, the way my eyes light up, and how I even giggle when I mention him.

  I didn’t even realize I was doing it until my husband started calling me on it.

  “Look at you,” Brett says. “Look at how your face lights up when you talk about him. I know that look,” he sets his beer on the patio table.

  It’s a lovely summer evening, and the two of us are enjoying the warm breeze with a small fire in the backyard while the kids are fast asleep inside. It’s a rare occasion that we get to enjoy.

  My eyes turn into round saucers. I don’t know why I’m so shocked that he’s blatantly asking me this.

  “What? What are you talking about?”

  Deny. Deny. Deny.

  Yep, that’s what I do. I could never tell my husband about the boyfriend joke at work. There’s no way he’d understand.

  “Oh, for fuck’s sake, Cathy,” he leans closer to me. I can smell the hops on his breath, and I hate the smell of beer. “I used to watch you tell all of your little friends about me when we first started dating, and that’s how your face always looked when you talked about me.”

  I don’t answer him. Instead, I take a long sip of my wine cooler and poke the fire, pretending that it needs my attention.

  “And that’s the same look you get when you talk about him,” he pauses. “Or your other little boyfriend, Larry.”

  The way he emphasizes Larry’s name makes my stomach twist. How the fuck does he know? How can he tell?

  I knew I was developing a little crush on Jeremy, but that’s all it was.

  A crush.

  Right. That’s what I keep telling myself, anyway. I’m a married woman. Married women don’t get
crushes or go outside of their marriage. Do they?

  “You know what I think? I think you’ve had too much to drink, Brett.”

  “Maybe,” he says, tossing his empty bottle into the trash. “But it doesn’t change the fact that I see it whether I’m drunk or sober. Don’t forget, Cathy, you’re mine and I know you better than you know yourself.”

  He’s right, and I can’t deny that.

  “We better get to bed soon,” I slide out of my seat. “If we’re going to move into our new house, I can’t waste my day off tomorrow. I need to get some sleep.”

  Brett takes one last swig before he rises to join me and the two of us go back inside, leaving the fire to burn out on its own.

  “Hey, babe,” Brett says to me. “How are you planning on getting the rest of the stuff from our house?”

  We’ve been moving for the past week, and although it hasn’t been fun, it is nice to move into a bigger house that gives us more room.

  Our little family has been living out of boxes while we unpack in the new house, but there are still a few odds and ends at our old place. I’ve been dreading going back over there to finish up our move, but I’m so ready to be done with it.

  “I’m not sure. It sucks that you have to stay put with the kids and work because I’d like some help.”

  I need some help. Some of those odds and ends include a window unit on the second story and taking down our curtains, which means my small ass will have to carry around a ladder and climb the damn thing to get the rest of the window dressings.

  “I wish I could go over to the old house to help you but I can’t. What do you think the best way is to get the AC unit out of the window upstairs? I don’t think you’ll be able to lift it out, at least without dropping it.”

  Honestly, there’s no way I can do most of the things that are left by myself, and I need a second pair of hands to help me. Jeremy instantly comes to mind. He’d give me a hand in a minute; I know he would.

  “I could maybe ask one of the guys at work,” I offer.

  Brett presses his lips together, not missing a beat, and tilts his head. His body language tells me that he’s already accusing me of something before anything even happens.

  For all he knows, I could ask my friend Amy to help me. She’s a big girl who can reach high stuff and lift heavy things. I’ve seen her do things at work that I’d never be able to do in a million years.

  “One of the guys, huh?” he looks at me from the corner of his narrowed eyes. “And which guy would that be?”

  “I don’t know?” I shrug, playing it off. “I’ll ask around and see who’s free.”

  Much to my surprise, he drops it and doesn’t say more but I know what he’s thinking, and I’m going to do it. We both know it, but I won’t admit to it.

  During our lunch break, I sit next to Jeremy like always and start talking about the move and how we’re almost finished.

  “You’re still not finished?” he takes a drag off his cigarette as he plays on his phone.

  “No, not yet. I have a few things left that I have to get out of there, but it’s going to take me forever because I have to do it by myself.”

  He stops playing on his phone and looks up at me, taking another puff. The cherry of the cigarette burns bright as the paper around it disappears.

  “By yourself? Why isn’t your husband helping you?”

  I shrug. “He has to work and take care of the kids. I just have to take down the curtains and get our AC unit out of the window on the second floor. Hopefully, I don’t drop it because that thing’s heavy as fuck.”

  He laughs. “You’re not going to be able to move that. When are you going over there? I’ll come help you.”

  I smile on the outside, but I’m giddy on the inside.

  “Oh, you don’t have to do that Jeremy,” I coo. “Don’t you have any faith in a little girl my size?”

  He shakes his head and waves me off.

  “No, I don’t.” He sighs, “Tell me what day and I’ll be there.”

  “How about after work? I’ve got to turn the keys in and the sooner, the better.”

  His eyes cast down as if he’s thinking.

  “Yeah, I should be able to do that. I’ll just let my wife know I’ll be home late.”

  It’s funny, all this time that we’ve been friends, he only refers to her as “my wife.” I’ve never once heard him say her name, so I have no clue what it is. He’s heard me say Brett’s name at least a thousand times.

  It almost makes me wonder if their relationship isn’t that good, maybe they have problems.

  “Okay, and if it’s not a problem, you can just follow me over there after work.”

  Chapter 5

  All day I haven’t been able to stop thinking about Jeremy coming to help me when we get off work. Before break is over, I send my husband a quick text letting him know that Jeremy is going to help me and he doesn’t sound happy.

  C: I’ll be home late. Jeremy’s going to help me carry that AC unit and get the curtains down.

  B: Uh-huh. I see.

  C: What? He said he was free tonight and he’s willing to help, so I’m going to let him. We’ve got to get this stuff done.

  B: Yeah, have fun with your boyfriend, I guess.

  C: He’s not my boyfriend, and I’ll see you when I get home. Break’s almost over.

  Even being married as long as we have been, I like the fact that he still gets jealous. It’s another indication that I’ve apparently still got it and a sign that he still pays attention to me, plus it shows me that he loves me.

  Brett’s always paid attention to me; it’s one of the things I love about him. At the same time, it drives me crazy that he pays so much attention to me because he knows me so well.

  Sometimes too well.

  Our shift is almost over, and my mind is running rampant with ideas and possibilities of what might occur between Jeremy and me once we’re alone.

  All alone in that big, empty house.

  It’ll just be the two of us in the house. Alone, able to talk about or do whatever we want.

  He seemed so eager to help me, which makes me wonder if he has ulterior motives.

  I wonder if he’ll try anything? Like touching me or kissing me. What if he wants to have sex with me?

  No, that would be stupid. He wouldn’t want to have sex with me. We’re both married. He has a wife and I have a husband.

  But if he does want to have sex with me, would I have sex with him?

  I’ve thought about having sex with him plenty of times. I’ve imagined various positions of me fucking him and him fucking me. Hell, I’ve not only imagined it, but I’ve pictured it.

  What would he feel like inside me? How would he move? Who would be on top? Is he a missionary man or is he more like my husband who likes his woman to sit on her throne and ride him?

  I try to push all of these thoughts out of my head, but I can’t help it. In just a half an hour, the two of us are going to be alone, and that’s when the real test begins.

  I’ll find out if us taking every break together, huddled up in the cold with him shielding me from the elements is just a friendly gesture or if there’s something more to it. I’ll also know if his whistling and comments are friendly and playful or if there’s actual meaning behind them.

  But what about Brett? Can I really cheat on him?

  God, the thought of cheating on Brett makes my stomach churn. I love him so much and could never do anything to hurt him.

  But fuck, I want to fuck Jeremy so bad, and I don’t know why.

  So, so, SO bad. I want his dick in my mouth, and I want him to fuck me. Hard.

  But at the same time, Brett is the love of my life, and I could never jeopardize what we have. I love him too much.

  I wonder what Jeremy’s lips would feel like pressed against mine?

  I feel my panties becoming wet as I think about fucking Jeremy in different positions with our mouths pressed together.

  Damn
it!

  One vision that’s been popping in my head over and over is him fucking me in what used to be my marital bedroom that I shared with my husband.

  I keep picturing the two of us standing in the bedroom in front of the closet doors that are made of glass mirrors. While we’re standing there talking, he can’t resist me any longer and leans over and kisses me.

  It starts out as a slow, soft peck as he tests the waters and then it turns into a sensual kiss as he realizes I’m not going to push him away. His face smiles relieved that he finally gets to have his way with me.

  He moves in closer, pressing our bodies together as his tongue explores my mouth and his hands glide along my curves. Leaning into him, I let him consume me and feel me as I eagerly return his kisses.

  Smelling his cologne, I melt in his hands like putty as he begins removing my clothes, starting with my shirt. Before I know it, he’s cupping my breasts in his hands as I fiercely undo his pants.

  The two of us drop to the floor in front of the closet mirrors as I climb on top of him, our clothes lying crumpled in a pile next to us in the empty bedroom.

  There’s nothing in the mirror to look at besides him and me, we’re the only two objects in the room. Lying on top of the cream colored carpet, I lick my lips as I greedily grip his dick and begin to mount him while I watch our reflections.

  Grabbing the base of his cock, I slowly slide my wet pussy onto him and fill his length consume me, gasping as I take in every magnificent inch.

  He feels so full inside me, and I love the feeling of having him there. I relish in it for just a moment before we begin fucking.

  That’s all it would be, plain and simple. A good, hard, fast fuck. I don’t love him, and I don’t want the emotional attachment of a lover. I just want to fuck him, raw and heated.

  Pure lust.

  His hands reach for my hips as he begins moving in a perfect rhythm with my body as I take long, slow, deliberate thrusts up and down his shaft to tease both of us into a frenzy.