A Guitar and a Pen

by Robert Hicks

  “I guess I’m black and I’m white too,” said Whitey.“Nothin’ I can do about it, but it ain’t nothin’ but skin, man, and I sure don’t need no more name callin’.” He was closin’ up his guitar case and winding up his cord.“Guess I’ll see you good folks on down the line—it was fun makin’ a little music with y’all.”

  “Hey, Whitey, you’re not leavin’, are you? We gotta do another set,” Randy had a desperate tone in his voice.

  “Oh, you guys will do all right without me. I think I’ve played about everything I know already.” Whitey was climbing into the truck; his brother had already loaded up the amp. I watched Randy walk over and put some money in Whitey’s shirt pocket and tell him thanks again. As we watched them drive away, everybody looked over at big ol’ Wayne and just shook our heads. He mumbled something nobody understood as he walked off. The Valiants didn’t make an attempt to play another set. The evening’s entertainment closed out with another set by the Breakdown Boys, a repeat of the set they had done earlier in the day—they only knew twelve songs. Leon and I went back to hangin’ around the girls at the Fun House.

  That was my first time hearing Whitey play, and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I was so inspired by his performance that I made up my mind to really try to learn more, but as I started taking lessons I realized that what he had done that day was far beyond the reach of any teacher I could find, or any scales I could practice, or licks I could pick off of records. He was putting himself into the music in a way that I wouldn’t see again until I saw Hendrix the first time, about six years later.

  With Whitey it was all about feeling. He had honed a sound that blended all the styles of his heroes—T-Bone Walker and the three Kings: B.B., Freddie, and Albert, with a strong dose of some kind of surf-guitar weirdness that no one around the Dallas area was hip to yet. His performances in local clubs became the thing all the musicians were talking about. He could be a wild one, doing everything from playing behind his back and over his head, to playing with his teeth, falling to his knees, lying on his back slidin’ across the stage. Anything you’d ever seen any guitar trickster do, Whitey would do it with a manic, fun-loving smile, making it look so easy.

  The story came around after Whitey’s death that he had seen Hendrix play in Vegas with some lame lounge act, a gig he had to take while Little Richard wasn’t working. Whitey went there every night after hours when he got off his own gig at midnight. Apparently he got to be friends with Jimi and learned everything he could from him. Anyway, it was a wonderful surprise to hear that first Hendrix record and begin to understand a little about where Whitey had been coming from.

  About two weeks after the fair moved on, Leon came by the house one Sunday afternoon and told me he had heard that Whitey would be playing at the Pentecostal church over on the east side of town for a fund-raiser for a new building. He got this information from Billy Ray’s cousin, who worked at the Nite Owl, where Whitey’s mom was a short-order cook. We had no way to get there except to ride our bikes because we sure couldn’t ask our parents to give us a ride to the black part of town to sneak into a church. It would be a longer bike ride than we would usually consider, but by now I had a few more guitar lessons in me and I was ready to go check out Whitey again and see what I might pick up. Leon and I took off right after supper, telling our parents that we were going bowling and would be home by ten. We got to the church a little early, so we stopped in the 7-Eleven and got a couple of Fudgsicles and cruised the area for a while. It felt a little dangerous for us white boys to be riding through the black neighborhood. We got a few long looks from some kids playin’ basketball at the school, and we heard someone holler, “Where you goin’, whitey?” after we rode on by.

  Leon laughed and said, “Yea, it’s whitey, goin’ to hear Whitey.”

  We circled back around to the church and watched people walkin’ in for a while until the preacher drove up in his old green Oldsmobile. We were surprised to see Whitey get out of the backseat and come around to open the trunk. He pulled out a new-looking gray guitar case and started walking in behind the preacher. At this point we made our move to get a little closer to the church, figuring we would let the service start and then sneak inside in the most inconspicuous way. But when I saw Whitey walkin’ in with that case I couldn’t keep myself from pedaling on up and knocking my kickstand down as I coasted in, so I could walk right in behind them. When I realized what I’d done, I fell back a little so they wouldn’t notice me and sat in a back pew.

  When Whitey opened the case I was amazed. Now I know that it was a Gretsch White Falcon, the top-of-the-line model that I would later see played by Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young, but that night it looked like the guitar that Michael the Archangel would play if called down from heaven on a special rescue mission for the Eastside Church of the Pentecost. The White Falcon had all-gold hardware, including tuning keys, bridge, Bigsby tailpiece, volume and tone knobs, and of course the fine FilterTron dual-coil hum-canceling pickups. The sparkling gold binding on the body and the neck and the snap-on pad on the back made it one of the most over-the-top flamboyant, but classy, electric guitars ever made.

  I watched Whitey find a chord and plug into that same Super Reverb he had used at the fair. He turned on the tremolo and got that great Pop Staples shake going with a heavy alternating thumb rhythm. The preacher smiled and said, “Praise the Lord, Whitey, I believe that’ll work just fine.”

  Whitey then sat down in a chair behind the podium holding the magnificent instrument and smiling at the folks as they found their seats. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. With no volume on he was making some chords up and down the neck I had never seen before, maybe hearing some melody in his head, and I was fascinated. Then the organist came out and began to play “Doxology” and then “In the Garden” with Whitey quietly chording along. By now, Leon had made his way into church and found me in the back pew. He was a little mad at me for taking off without him and he said we should always stick together in case there was any trouble. But nobody ever gave us much of a second look, and I never felt unwelcome. I did feel out of place, like I was stepping into their world without an invitation, but it wasn’t them making me feel that way. The truth is, if anybody had asked me what I was doing there, I would have probably come right out with “I’m here to watch that man play guitar!”

  Reverend Eugene Davis got the service under way with a prayer and then made a few announcements regarding the building fund. He gave a brief sermon that didn’t sound much different than the usual things we heard at our Baptist church, but when the music started everything changed. Reverend Davis’s sister, Marvelle, made her way to the pulpit shaking a tambourine and humming a tune under her breath. When she finally got her 300-pound frame up the steps and turned to face the congregation, she opened her mouth to reveal all her teeth, white ones and gold ones, and let out with a long, sustained soulful vibrato that exploded into a fast-rockin’ two-beat version of “Jesus Gonna Be Here Soon.” The organist, who had been playing so quiet and reverently, was now kicking the bass pedals in a hard-drivin’ pattern that moved everyone to stand up and shout and shake and wave hands in the air and sing out loud. There were more battered tambourines and some cowbells and shakers made from Coke cans filled with dry beans and duct-taped on the ends. Everybody had something to rattle or beat on, and everybody was up on their feet moving. Except, of course, Leon and me. We just sat in a back pew, never daring to get too close to the action. But I did find myself scootin’ around the room with my back to the wall so I could zero in on Whitey’s hands, which held all the salvation I had come for.

  I remember talking to Leon that night while we were biking back home about Whitey’s playing in church. Leon was saying he wasn’t so impressed, because Whitey didn’t do any of the flashy stuff he had done at the fair. But I was even more impressed with Whitey for not stepping out and drawing attention to himself. He just played the hymns and accompanied the singers, keeping himself in the background with a
respectful reverence that seemed right for playing in church. He was never too loud, with a sweet tone and that beautiful pulsing tremolo. Besides that, he played a lot of chord voicings and changes that I had never heard before, that were beyond the usual rock ’n’ roll and blues we were all used to, and I could feel his depth and soulfulness. The other thing that struck me that night, that I never brought up to Leon, was how much more black Whitey was in church that night with all his people around him. I guess I hadn’t thought much about it, but the only other time I had seen him had been onstage with some white boys, and the Valiants were really white. There in the middle of the congregation, laughing and carryin’ on and makin’ music, there was no mistaking Whitey’s race, and it made me wonder what it must have been like for him, having the disability of being white.

  The summer days kept dragging by for me. I was mowing yards and helping Leon with his paper route, and trying to get a little better on the guitar. I was taking lessons at the Music Mart from Don McCord, who had once played with Bob Wills and had pictures on the wall to prove it. He had me playing “San Antonio Rose” and “Faded Love,” and I was taking him Beatles records hoping he could show me some stuff that might impress the girls. He told me one day that Whitey had gone on the road with Bobby “Blue” Bland and they were gonna work in Vegas and then tour Europe. He said everybody was really talkin’ up Whitey, like he was the best around, and it made me proud that I’d seen him play a few times and that he was from our little town.

  At my guitar lesson two weeks later I got the news. Whitey had been in a horrible car wreck on the road with Bobby Bland. The driver (Buzz Brown, sax) was in the hospital with a concussion and the front passenger (Kenny Keys, keyboards) broke three ribs and his left arm. Whitey broke his right leg. He was back in Garland staying at his mother’s house after seeing Las Vegas, London, Paris, Amsterdam, Switzerland, and who knows what else. We heard all about it from Billy Ray’s cousin over at the Nite Owl. Whitey’s mom had postcards he’d sent tacked up in the kitchen—so proud of him.

  With Whitey off the road, he started playing all the time in church. In addition to the Sunday and Wednesday night services, there were Friday night fish-fry fund-raisers for the new addition, which would be a Sunday-school room. I kept saying I was gonna go to another service, but Leon’s dad had found out about us and told Leon never to go back. He said it wasn’t because he had anything against blacks; he just thought we might be asking for trouble, that they might think we were making fun of their religion. Besides that, his dad said, we weren’t members of that church, and why didn’t we just go to our own Church of Christ service. We didn’t have a comeback for that one. I thought about going by myself, but it was pretty scary to be biking alone through an all-black neighborhood in those days, even if your destination was church. Besides, it was almost five miles, which seemed like a lot at age thirteen on my hand-me-down bike. Anyway, I never made the trip again. I’d give anything if I had.

  The rest of this story is still so unreal to me that I picture it as a movie or a nightmare or a lie someone told that got all stretched out of control in the telling and the retelling. Anyway, with Whitey’s mom as a source, this is what happened. Whitey loved to play the beautiful White Falcon that he played in church. The guitar had been left to the church by Otis Reeves, a regional gospel singer who performed with his two daughters for years around North Texas, doing shows with such well-known artists as the Staples Singers and the Mighty Clouds of Joy. When Whitey had his accident, Reverend Davis offered to let him keep the guitar at his house and bring it to the Sunday and Wednesday night services. But Whitey didn’t feel good about taking that expensive instrument out of the church, afraid that it could get stolen or something might happen. So Whitey would get a ride to the church with his mom as she was going to the Nite Owl, and he would limp into the reverend’s office and play all day long. His leg was in a full white plaster cast, and he was movin’ slow on his crutches, so he would just sit there practicing scales and playing along with the radio, and sometimes a few folks from the choir would stop in and they would do a little rehearsal for the Sunday service. This all worked out great until Whitey’s mom got moved to the late shift, twelve midnight till nine in the morning. At that point Whitey lost his ride and he went a few weeks without playing the White Falcon. But one Thursday evening Whitey decided he really wanted to play and he was willing to just lie down on the Reverend’s couch and take a little nap if he got tired. His mom would stop by and pick him up on her way home in the morning.

  Whitey’s mom said that when she dropped him off at the church that evening she came in for a while, and Whitey played some hymns for her. She said he was complainin’ about his bad leg so she made him take some of the pain medicine the doctor had prescribed. She said he didn’t want to take it ’cause it made him too drowsy to play, and that’s what he was there to do. But he did take the medicine, and that further explains why he never woke up when the fire started.

  I had never heard of the Klan before Whitey’s death. I didn’t know they existed. Later, when I see films of them in their white hoods burning crosses, raisin’ hell in the name of God, I would try to imagine what might have taken place the night they torched Eastside Pentecostal. They didn’t know Whitey was in there, but it’s still unimaginable to me that anyone could be so full of hate that they would destroy a sweet little harmless church where people liked to smile and dance and sing worship to God. How could they justify it? Wouldn’t they reason that their own White God would be a bit disappointed? It’s the kind of ignorance I’ll never understand. Two of the officers on the scene tried to promote the theory that it could have been some drunk teenage pranksters daring each other into some senseless vandalism that got out of hand, but none of the congregation was gonna buy that; everyone knew it was the Klan.

  At least whoever did the torching would have had no way of knowing Whitey was there asleep in Reverend Davis’s office—not that it would have stopped them, but hopefully no one actually intended for him to be trapped in the flames, unable to hobble away fast enough from the thick black smoke he was inhaling, too slowed down by his full-length plaster cast to get out the office door before the flames reached the adjacent storage closet where the lawnmower and gasoline were kept. They said it was the explosion of the gas can at about four in the morning that woke up the neighbors who called the fire department.

  No one really knew exactly what happened to Whitey. They say when the fire trucks got there, his body was burned beyond recognition, with his charred white cast smoldering. I never let myself imagine how he might have suffered. I’ve heard that sometimes when sleeping people die in fires, they might not even wake up, that they just inhale the smoke and pass out and it’s over and they don’t have to feel the torturous burns while trapped in flames unable to run. I like to imagine that Whitey might have gone out in his sleep like that, and left his body to float above the blaze, looking down on his flesh melting with the flaming White Falcon, witnessing his own cremation with the beautiful instrument at the most holy place he knew, then easing off to heaven. But then I think about the gas can exploding, and how it must have woke him up, and I go back to picturing all kinds of horrible scenes.

  I had to go there as soon as I heard about it, I had to see whatever was left of the church and say goodbye to Whitey some way. It took me a while to get up the courage to ask my dad to drive me, but I guess he could tell how much it meant—he just walked on out to the car. On the way there, he told me as much as he knew about the Klan and their activities. He said he had a Masonic friend who was a detective in Dallas and he was gonna talk to him about an investigation. My dad rarely cursed, but I remember him saying, “Somebody’s gotta stop those assholes.”

  When we got there we just sat in the car for a while and looked over the scene. The arched front entrance of the little white-frame church was slouching down humiliated, its scorched doors standing open. It appeared that the arsonist had broken through the stained-glass windo
w closest to the pulpit to start the blaze. The podium and steps for the choir were collapsed and reduced to ashes. Reverend Davis’s office, where Whitey had been, was just gone. The gas can exploding had left nothing but black on black charcoal and a blown-out metal desk to reveal that an office had once been there.

  Dad was saying we should just go on and leave and was turning the ignition when I overheard one of the officers say something about a melted guitar. I asked my Dad to give me a moment, and I got out and walked slowly up to the still-smoldering rubble at the back of the church. I saw the gold hardware glittering before I saw anything else, then as I stepped through the ashes I could make out the neck. I stood there awhile and took it in. The White Falcon was a charred and twisted mess with blistered paint making ugly black bubbles on what was left of its body. The thick plastic of the pickguard was melted over the gold pickups, and the Bigsby tailpiece was loose with a few broken strings waving. The neck, with its ivoried fret markers intact, was broken where it joined the body and pointed away. The headstock, with its fancy gold tuning keys, was so incinerated that the keys were just lying there, blackened but still attempting to shine. I looked up to see if the cop was watching before I slipped one into my pocket.

  I’ve still got it.

  Gary Nicholson

  Gary Nicholson is a multiple number-one-hit songwriter, a two-time Grammy-winning producer, a world-traveling performer, recording artist, and session guitarist. In 2006 he was nominated to the Nashville Songwriters Hall of Fame.

  Over four hundred of his songs have been recorded in various genres, including country, rock, blues, folk, bluegrass, and pop, by such diverse artists as B.B. King, Garth Brooks, Fleetwood Mac, Bonnie Raitt, Ringo Starr, Willie Nelson, Etta James, John Prine, the Dixie Chicks, Stevie Nicks, Emmylou Harris, Keb’ Mo’, George Jones, the Neville Brothers, Waylon Jennings, Del McCoury, Guy Clark, and so many more.