Stolen: A Dark Billionaire Romance
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It was all a mistake.
Sitting in the cab, I'm weak. My head is leaning against the glass, and the coldness is how I feel inside. Hollowed out, like all the heat in my body left when I abandoned Jacob.
When I come to the towering stone marvel where Jacob Renaud once lived, I don't know what I expected to see. I hoped there wouldn't be a for sale sign. Somehow, despite being in prison, I hoped that he wouldn't lose anything. I couldn't bear the thought of someone else living in the only place that had ever felt like home to me. I hadn't even recognized the feeling until it was too late.
But seeing the house in the exact shape it was before isn't nearly as shocking as Inspector Willoughby outside the home when I arrive. I give the cabby a generous tip, best I can manage now that I don't have unlimited funds. Still, I cried in his cab and made him wait for some time before I could work up the nerve to get out of the car.
"Inspector?" I ask when I step out.
"Fucking knew you wouldn't stay away," the inspector grumbled. His words were slurred, and I realized he was wearing jeans. When I’d seen him before, though he wasn’t as smartly dressed as Jacob (no one ever was), he was wearing a suit.
I'd never seen him in anything casual, much less the tattered old jeans with a few mystery spots on them. Some looked like beer I assumed with the smell and the speech, and some looked like blood. I walked up to him, holding myself with shivers in the cold night air. "Are you okay, Inspector? What are you doing here?"
"The question," he said with a laugh that chilled me more than the wind and my pain combined, "isn't why you're here. Of course. You want to build the case with me. I tell you not to get too attached. There's better cock than his, you stupid bitch."
I start to step back. There's a crazy look in his eyes, and that's scarier than anything he's saying.
"He could have bought and fucked anyone, and that used to bother you, but now you just brought your ass back here because you don't realize anyone else could fuck you so good. Do I need to call you baby girl? Do I need to hit you for you to realize you could have a good man? Why do you want this prick?" He's shouting now.
Desperately, I look in either direction for anyone. Anyone to be out here and to not mean that I'm out here alone with him. I have to get away, and I know that a few brisk steps backward aren't going to do it. I know I need to run away. I need to scream. Yet, my body doesn't want to leave Jacob's house, even though I know he's not there.
Why is the inspector here?
"Calm down," I say, but I'm spinning on my heel and ready to run.
Willoughby lunges for me. I hesitated for just a second too long, and he knocks me to the ground. I try to scream, but he crushes my mouth with his beer-soaked lips and roughly kisses me. My stomach roils, not just because of how much he tastes like several beers too many, but because I don't want him to touch me. I only want Jacob to touch me. This is what violation feels like. Even when I was first scared, never did I feel like this when Jacob touched me. Not even when I was afraid of what Jacob would do to me when I first met him, so long ago, in that hallway. No, this is something entirely different. I can't scream, and I can't get his mouth off mine, he's mashing his lips against mine so hard that our teeth clank. I try to hit him, but he captures my wrists and slams them into the ground. I can't kick or escape because his legs pin me down. I'm trapped, immobile, and I feel his cock jabbing into my stomach. I thought the inspector was attracted to me, but he always acted like such a gentlemen.
What lurks behind the thoughts of men who always act gently?
Jacob always said he was a bastard, and the man was downright filthy. Never would he have done this to me. Ever. I didn't think he was capable of an ugly act like what I knew was happening to me. My body wanted to check out, but my mind was on fire. I would not let this happen. I would stop him. I would be upset later, but I would fight now.
I did the only thing I could, as soon as I realized it was my only opening. I bit his mouth, hard.
"Fuck!" Willoughby groaned and pulled back for just a second.
He was still holding my wrists, but his legs shifted for just a second, and that was all I needed. After all, he was drunk off his ass, and I was feeling several surging rushes of adrenaline. I wasn't going to let this happen.
"I knew you liked it rough, but-"
I interrupted whatever disgusting thing he was about to say by pushing my knees up hard, to his groin. I pulled my arms as hard as I could, kicking my legs furiously. I hoped I looked like a confusing mess of limbs to him. Maybe he was drunk enough it would make him dizzy. I had to get away from him. Jumping up, my first instinct was to run toward the door of Jacob's house. But he wasn't there. I knew I was losing precious time and I turned, gritting my teeth and running in the opposite direction.
That's when I ran into the wall of Jacob's chest.
Willoughby slung curses at Jacob, who I promptly wrapped my arms around. Jacob let one hand free, and I realized he was holding a gun. I heard as he shot Willoughby, and I turned to see the gaping wound in the inspector's stomach. Jacob shot him with one arm wrapped around me.
I felt my stomach turn, and I wanted to throw up. I held in what was rolling around in my stomach because I needed to hold onto Jacob even more. I squeezed my eyes shut, pressing my head back into his chest. Both his arms wrapped around me. At that moment, I wasn't thinking about how he was here. Why he had a gun. I was just grateful that he was holding me. That Willoughby wasn't going to touch me.
Jacob pulled me up higher on his body, lifting me off my feet until his lips were on my ear. "Run in the house, now." He said it so firmly that my body shot into action. I knew that I had to do exactly what he said.
Grimly, my feet hitting the ground when he released me, I ran with the knowledge that it was because Willoughby was shot but not dead. And Jacob was going to finish the job.
Running for Jacob's door, just like he said, I bolted inside and closed the door behind me, my back sliding against it until I hit the floor. I didn't know by what miracle that Jacob was not in prison, but now he was sure to end up there. I couldn't believe I'd seen him again. That he'd held me again. Only to have him slip out from my fingers again.
"Fuck!" I screamed out, my stomach burning and my eyes burning and my throat burning and my whole body too hot and yet I felt clammy. Shock. I was in shock.
I couldn't pull myself from the door. I didn't want to get up until Jacob was walking through this door. And if he wasn't walking through it, I didn't want to get up ever again.
Jacob
I'd told myself that my version of staying away was to watch her. But she took a cab to my house.
Why?
She thought I was in prison.
And that fucking Willoughby. He'd been able to loiter drunk around my house because I was thinking about her rather than keeping any watch around the grounds.
Fuck. Now I'm covered in blood. That fucker touched Leah, hurt her, said fucking disgusting things to her and made her afraid. I shot him, but I made sure it hurt. Made sure he died slowly. I stuck my fingers in his bullet hole in his stomach, twisted, and told him that he was done. Because no one fucking hurts my Leah.
"You're a sick bastard. She could never really love you," Willoughby sputtered, blood spraying from his mouth as he died. I knew it hurt like hell, but all he really cared about was that I suffered. I had wrecked his career. His life. That was fair. But he hurt Leah and that fucking sealed his fate. I knew by the pictures my PI took, by how he looked at her, that he was in love with her. But I could never allow her to be hurt by him. I'd questioned myself, thinking maybe she wanted him...but this? He had to fucking die.
I texted a guy, gave him the code. I didn't like to kill men, but I didn't mind doing it, either. I was well aware of how to have this taken care of.
Right now, my only concern was Leah. Fuck, if she didn't want me before, killing a man in front of her would definitely make her hate me even more. I was probably more disgusting to her than thi
s prick Willoughby. Fuck. His hands. His mouth. His cock. He was all over my Leah and I may not enjoy killing but I would enjoy killing him again and again. I wanted to rip his cock off and shove it down his throat for forcing himself on Leah.
What did that make me? She didn't see me as anything different. I just had more money, more power than Willoughby.
Walking in that door, it was the hardest thing I'd ever do. Well, really, it would be watching her walk out of the door.
First, I was going to have to ask her. Why.
Why was she here?
I couldn't bear to ask her why she left, why she turned me in. I mean, it spoke for itself.
Fuck. Maybe she was afraid. Maybe she came here to confirm I was gone. Maybe she felt like she hadn't gotten rid of me, wasn't safe from me...and when she came to check, I'd killed the man that she thought was going to protect her. A man who was raping her, or rather about to.
Fuck.
I couldn't stand out here like some pussy. I was going to walk in this door and give Leah whatever she wanted. Fuck. I suck in a breath, and I knock on the door. "Leah, it's me. Jacob."
Slowly, the door opens. When her eyes lock with mine, she swings it open and bolts through it and jumps into my arms. I could have fallen over with the force of how she came to me, but I was more than ready to hold her, even though I wasn't expecting it.
"Is he..." Leah starts to ask, and I pry one of my arms away from her to close the door.
"Cleanup crew is taking care of him," I say, swallowing. I know this is the end. She's going to run from me. She's just relieved that he's not attacking her. "He's very painfully dead." I'm a bastard. I can't resist. I'm glad that fucker is dead.
"Good." I hear her words, and I'm shocked. "He was going to rape me, Jacob."
"I know, that's why I killed that fucker," I say.
"Thank you," she says. She's still squeezing my so tightly I can feel my heart ripping apart that I'm going to have to let go of her any second. Let her go when she lets go of me.
I don't know what to say to her thanks. I remember that I wanted to ask her why she came, but it is like I'm underwater and thoughts are too difficult to form. I remember that I'm covered in blood, and now it is all over her, and I recoil. I don't want this asshole's blood on my perfect girl. I have to erase every moment of this from her mind, clean every inch of it from her body and soul.
"Let me get you something clean. Get you in the shower."
Fuck.
Well, of course, I want her in the shower, but now she's gone from one cage to another. One asshole who was raping her, to another. I want her, and I want to take her. Her arms are around me now as I'm carrying her to the master bathroom, and I could get so caught up in this. Fuck. I walk out of the master bedroom and head to another room, a guest room, so she doesn't feel like I'm just taking her all over again. I set her on the bed.
Leah looks worried she'll get blood on the bedspread, and she jumps up and pulls off her shirt, drops her pants quickly and gathers them into her arms.
"I don't care about it staining," I say, more gruffly than I meant to.
I can't look at her eyes now. I just want time to stop. I want her with me, and I don't want to lose her.
"Leah, I'm sorry-"
"Don't." She interrupts my shitty apology.
I'm sorry hardly seems like an adequate thing to say to someone when you are talking about killing someone. I care about what Leah feels. I want to apologize for that. But of course, she interrupts this bullshit.
"Leah," I say, quietly. I know she stopped me, but I have to say something to her. I know I shot Willoughby but my guts are the ones exposed. Every second, I'm tearing my own fingers through the holes and twisting every darkness inside of me into more pain.
Leah walks toward me, dropping her clothes to the side of the bed and standing close enough to me that her bare nipples are pressed into the fabric of my bloodied shirt. I can feel her heat through my clothes, her presence a maddening necessity for my breathing. "Don't say anything. Don't apologize. I can't bear it," Leah says, her voice constricted with pain.
Why is she so close to me when she must not be able to bear the sight of me? I don't know, but she's touching me, and I need her desperately.
"Leah," I say, despite what she's asked, and she pulls my face to hers and kisses me. It is more passionate and needy than anything that has ever passed between us, and I'm desperate for her. She breathes me in and sinks into me, wrapping her legs around me and grinding her hips against mine. I can breathe her again. My heart is beating so hard it feels like it will rip through my chest with the fierceness of how much I need her. My hands sink into her skin, pressing her so tight to me that her skin will bruise from how I'm holding her. I can't stop. I remember how beautiful her pink, reddening flesh is and I want her. I want her marked as mine. I want to feel her. I need this to be real. She's quenching the thirst of everything I couldn't have. I desperately need her. I'm moaning in her mouth as she starts to run the slit of her wet pussy over my slacks where my cock is painfully tented. Fuck, I need her. The way she's touching me, she needs me.
Leah can't need me. She escaped me. She wanted to escape me. She needed to. But still her body is matching my every need, and we're melting into one. I step us back to the bed, and I lay her down, lifting her legs up high and sinking my face into her pussy, kissing that place I've missed more than anything. Her arms wrap around me, and I groan, so hot for her to hold me on her pussy like this. "Fuck, I need you, Leah." I know she didn't want me to talk, but the words come out like a prayer more than anything. A prayer for this moment to be real because it is everything that I need. I lap at her clit, stroke her folds with my tongue, kiss everywhere. I sink my tongue into her and feel those tight walls welcome me like I haven't been missing her like crazy for all this time. Like just moments ago we did this, and we're doing it all again. Her legs are shaking and I know she's coming. I circle her clit in slow drags with my thumb because I need to her to come for me just as I know she likes. "Come for me, baby girl." Come home. I want to bury myself into her now, and when I look up at how she's squeezing her breasts, I'm fucking undone. I need to tear off my bloody clothes first, but I give that a half-ass attempt, tearing down the fabric of my shirt before freeing my cock. She leans up and grabs my erection, scooting her ass up closer and pulling me inside her.
Fuck, I'm nearly ready to come the way she sinks my cock all the way inside her tight little pussy and rolls her hips to take me. I grab her calves and press them up. Leah spreads wide for me and lets me take her so much deeper.
"Jacob!" she moans out, and I know she's about to come again. She says my name. Leah looks into my eyes and never breaks contact while her body shakes around me. I wrap my arms around her and pull her toward me until we're both upright and I'm holding her, standing with her. Leah's body is jelly, but I'm holding her up for both of us. I'm just the bastard that can't resist how she feels when she fucking needs me. Her body is flushed, and she's so hot. We're slick with sweat and sealed together in how much we need each other, glistening with the perspiration of our desire. Her body is goddamn magnificent, and I want to worship every inch of her.
Holding her tight to me, I kiss her like this is the first kiss, the last kiss, every kiss. I am kissing her to know her, to love her, to hold her, to have her. To keep her. I'm so fucking lost for her, and I'm kissing her this way because I'm finding myself in her. My life changes every time our lips meet, when our tongues touch. I breathe her in and am consumed by how much I need her.
I want to kiss her until we both can't take it anymore, but I'm close to coming. I trail my lips down her neck, growling hard into her collarbone as I lay her down on the bed and I slam as deep as I can into her, almost completely pull out of her, and slam my cock in so deep again. I need the sweet, torturous surrender of filling her so completely each time. It means I won't come yet, and I was so close. But I just want to be inside her forever. I want to feel her just out of my grasp and
my touch and then dive into her, find a home in her. I'm filling her up, and she's moaning, her breathing is sped up, and she's panting out my name. This is too good to end, and I'm going to make us both want to come again so much that it hurts. That's what our love is. We need each other so fucking much at this moment it will hurt when we don't have everything.
Because I can't fucking have her. This is an illusion, and she'll be gone soon. I can't fucking stand it. I slam my body over hers on the bed, grabbing her wrists and holding them over her head. I close my mouth over her breasts, first one and then the other. I fucking need her to suffer so good like I am now, and I bite down on one wet nipple enough to make her writhe beneath me. Then I capture the other nipple. Torture them both with my flat lapping tongue. Suck them and release them with two wet pops. I hold her wrists in one hand and bring the other to tease her clit. She's crying out my name in staccato moans, desperately begging. Leah wants to come so bad she's shaking, but she doesn't. I keep her so close but not quite there, just like I am now. My thumb is working her clit, and the rest of my fingers are pressing on her abdomen, tightening the pleasure between us. I pick up the speed on her clit and bite down on her nipple, us both so close we are shaking together, but we're not quite there yet. Fuck, this is torture. Perfect torture I never want to end, and I'm desperate to come as she is. Leah is screaming my name. Her hips are bucking beneath me, and mine are pinning hers, keeping the rhythm exactly the speed that keeps us on edge.
I moan her name against her nipple. Her pussy is squeezing my cock so tight I can't breathe for a moment. I flick my tongue over her other nipple, then kiss between her breasts. I let go of her wrists, intending to flip her, but both of her hands capture my face. I think she's going to beg, demand answers. Anything. All she does is gaze in my eyes and then kiss me so slowly, so sweetly, so achingly pure. I fucking come when her tongue slowly laps over mine. We keep kissing and now that I'm coming, she's got to as well, and I finally let her hips meet mine exactly as they want. She's holding me so tight, kissing me so hard. I have no idea where Leah begins and I end, but at this moment, we are the same. She is everything. Never in my life have I come so hard, and while kissing Leah so tenderly. She is my undoing. Leah is my everything. We stay entwined, stay kissing like that, for so long that when we finally break to breathe, I feel how exhausted I am for the first time. Leah lays her head against my chest, and her breathing is so still, I realize that she falls right to sleep on my chest. I hold her and all I want to do is the same. My eyelids feel like they've been glazed in cement, they're so heavy, but my arms are vigilantly aware that Leah is held in them. I can't focus on anything but holding her. I love Leah more than I love breathing, comfort, anything. She's sleeping in my arms, and I'm holding onto her like I'm drowning.