Anthology of Speculative Fiction, Volume Two
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“When you dream, where do you go?” the monk asked finally.
Hiroshi frowned. “I-I don’t know. Some say the spirit wanders, aimless. Others say you don’t go anywhere, and dreams are just stories you tell yourself while you sleep.”
The monk nodded. “Men believe many things. Some of them are true. Now then, where do you go when you die?”
“The River of Souls. Perhaps to be reborn.”
The monk nodded. “Now, then—where are you now?”
Hiroshi looked around, but the scene had not changed. He was in a cave far underground. His reasons for being there were perhaps not as clear as they could be, but he did know that much, and said so.
“You know less than you think. Go home, Hiroshi.”
Hiroshi blinked. “How do you know my name?”
The monk sighed gustily. “How do you not know mine?”
Hiroshi just stood in silence. “I don’t understand. You haven’t told me your name. I should have asked, but I didn’t mean to offend you—”
“I am not offended. I do regret the time you’re going to make me waste.” The monk carefully packed away his tea supplies and hoisted his bundle. “Shall we go?”
“I can’t ask you to come with me.”
“You can’t ask for me not to come with you. I choose what I do, as do you. I hope in time you will choose better.”
Hiroshi had no answer to that, because he didn’t understand a word of it. He merely picked up his sword and set out once more in the direction of the music, or as close as he could discern. The monk walked a few feet ahead, his staff making a rhythmic jingling sound from the small bell attached to it. Hiroshi thought at first that the sound would interfere with the music, but the jingle of the bell was so steady and constant that it was soon as lost as the sound of his own heartbeat.
This is a very strange cave, Hiroshi thought, even as he realized how foolish a thing it was to believe this place a simple cave. Hiroshi thought of stories he had heard about the Dragon Palace, where a simple fisherman once dallied with a princess in ageless luxury for centuries under the sea while his true home and all he knew turned to rot and dust. Except this was not under the sea, so far as Hiroshi knew, and the monk was certainly no princess.
The music was still faint, but by long practice at listening, Hiroshi was beginning to hear it better. “It’s a koto being played,” he said. “It’s lovely.”
The monk nodded, looking glum. “Yes. Akiko is very gifted.”
Hiroshi was so surprised he stopped walking. The monk merely glanced at him over his shoulder, waiting patiently for him to catch up.
“You know who’s playing the music?” Hiroshi asked.
“Of course. So do you.”
That was just more nonsense from his odd companion, so far as Hiroshi could see, and he didn’t dwell on it. Something he did dwell on was the simple fact that the music was getting louder. Another strange thing, since Hiroshi was certain they hadn’t traveled more than a bowshot from where he and the monk had taken tea together. He mentioned it to the monk, who seemed even more dispirited.
“We’re much closer now.”
“How can that be? We haven’t walked very far.”
“It’s not in how far you travel. It’s in deciding to make the journey.”
“I’d decided that when I climbed down the well!”
“If you say so. I think rather that you were traveling away as much as toward. You didn’t know where you were going. Now you do.”
“Akiko? And you say I know her? How?”
“You grew up together.”
“But I haven’t grown up yet,” Hiroshi said, though the admission pained him a bit.“And, although there are several girls my age in the village, I don’t know anyone named Akiko.”
His companion merely grunted. “Nor did she know anyone named Hiroshi.”
“Sir, I don’t understand any of what you’re saying.”
“You certainly don’t. Else you wouldn’t be here.”
Hiroshi didn’t know if he’d been insulted or not, but he rather thought so. He gritted his teeth but kept his voice level. “Then, Honored Sir, would you be so kind as to tell me where I should be?”
“Home, of course.”
“Very well—as soon as I find the music, I’ll go home. I have to know what it is and why it calls to me, else I’ll never be content.”
The monk nodded. “You’re not seeking music; you’re seeking an answer. I wondered if you understood that. Very well then, I will help you find Akiko. Yet whatever happens, afterwards you will leave this place. You don’t belong here. Do I have your word?”
Hiroshi hesitated, but he saw no good alternative. “Yes.”
“Well, then. You have mine. Only time will tell what either is worth.”
They walked for hours across what looked like the bones of a long-dead river. Hiroshi was amazed at how large the field of stones was and wondered if they would ever see the end. Now and then they came to a pile of white stones, standing alone in the flat rockynothing of that place. He asked about them, but the monk merely said “stones” and nothing else.
Also, now and again, Hiroshi could have sworn that he heard the sound of children playing. He asked about that too, but the monk merely said that the children were always there. Hiroshi saw no children, but he let the matter drop. It was enough to know that what had appeared to be a cave was now a vast empty riverbed of stones, and overhead was a darkness that might have been stone or might have been a night sky without stars.
In fact, neither said anything at all for the rest of their walk, until the monk pointed to something rising from the stone field in the distance.
“She’s there.”
Hiroshi looked closer. It was a hill by the riverbed. He hadn’t noticed it sooner because it didn’t rise very far from the rocks at all. That was because it began beneath it, at the bottom of a low, sloping valley. Hiroshi saw the way down marked by two stone lanterns.They cast a blue glow through the shadows of that place. Corpse lights drifted past on the wind.
He stopped for a moment, listening closely. The music was much clearer now, more than enough to discern the instrument. Almost enough to discern the song. Hiroshi listened as hard as he knew how.
“I-I know that song. It’s called....” His voice trailed away. He couldn’t remember, but he knew that was the only reason. He knew the song’s name. He had known it long ago and now forgotten. And yet he was equally sure he had never heard that song anywhere but down the dry dead well. “Perhaps it doesn’t matter.” Hiroshi turned toward the entrance to the valley.
“It’s guarded, of course.”
“Guarded? By what?”
“Three monsters. You’ll have to face all three to reach Akiko. I’m not going with you.”
Hiroshi nodded. “That would be best. Still, do you know how can I defeat the guardians?”
“I didn’t say you could defeat them. I said you had to face them. You do have a knack for misunderstanding your situation, young man.”
“Honored Sir, with all respect, you have a knack for meaningless answers.”
The monk smiled again. “Pass the guardians first; then tell me what I have said is meaningless.”
Hiroshi considered. He did not want to fight the monsters. He was afraid, and he couldn’t pretend otherwise. He just knew that he had to go forward now. Not out of pride he didn’t have, or bravery he didn’t feel. It wasn’t even for the music anymore. Maybe the monk was right—he wanted an answer. Something that would fill the empty ache he felt every time he heard the music, that he knew he always would feel even if he never heard the music again.
It’s not as if I can stop listening.
Hiroshi unsheathed his sword and stepped past the stone lanterns alone. Their glow faded behind him much sooner than he had expected. As in the first part of the cave the light was very faint but he still could see—barely. He moved slowly, carefully, trying to step quietly over the smooth gray stones.
/> It didn’t help. The first guardian was waiting for him before he had gone a dozen steps.
“Go home, boy.”
Hiroshi stood face to knee with a gigantic oni. It towered over him, a good eight feet tall. Its skin was redder than blood, its teeth like tusks, its hair like a lion’s mane. It carried in its right hand a gigantic iron club.
For several long moments Hiroshi just stared. He couldn’t raise his sword, he couldn’t run, he couldn’t do anything.
“I asked politely enough,” grunted the oni. “Now it is too late.”
The creature swung its club. Too late, Hiroshi tried to dodge. He didn’t get the full force of the blow, but he got more than enough. His vision exploded like a Chinese rocket, and for a moment all he could see was white drifting stars. The first thing to come back to him, even before his vision, was his name, and it wasn’t Hiroshi.
My name is Yojiro....
The rest of his former life came back to him then. Part of him remained Hiroshi and did not forget. Yet now he remembered being Yojiro too. Growing up in the shadow of Fuji-san, and the people he had known there. He remembered being a young samurai, full of life and promise. He remembered the lesson he’d been taught in both humility and the transience of a life, the day he had died in battle. All this was known to him in the instant before he opened his eyes again, knowing himself to be Hiroshi, and knowing that he, once, was Yojiro.
The oni was nowhere to be seen.
Hiroshi sat up, gingerly feeling the lump on the side of his head. “I think I am still alive, yet I don’t understand how that can be. Why didn’t the ogre finish me off? I was no match for him!”
Hiroshi didn’t question the new memories that had come to him on the oni’s club; he knew they had come to him for a reason. He didn’t know what that reason was, but he was certain he wouldn’t find out sitting there on the stones. He got to his feet, slowly, and looked around for his sword. It was lying some distance away. There was a nick on the blade where it struck a stone on landing.
That will take some time to polish out. Uncle will be cross.
No help for it now. Hiroshi carefully sheathed the sword, then remembered to examine himself for any other injuries he might have missed, but there didn’t seem to be any. That seemed strangely fortunate, but Hiroshi wasn’t sure if it was anything of the sort. The other young man’s memories were still strong in him, and he still didn’t know what they might mean. There was also a curious gap in those memories, curious because of the vividness of all the others. Someone he could almost but not quite remember.
Akiko?
Perhaps, but knowing the name did not help. He couldn’t picture her at all, nor name the song he still heard being played on the distant koto. He could picture the instrument itself, see delicate hands at its silk strings, but that was all. Hiroshi took a deep breath and, when he felt he was able, he followed the music one more time.
The valley narrowed soon after, but the hill where Akiko waited was getting much closer, and the music, while distant, was very easy to hear. The same song, beautiful and melancholy. Hiroshi saw bleak earth rise on either side of him, as if he was walking into a grave.
At least the monster can’t sneak up on me from the sides....
The monster didn’t bother. It waited, serene, in his path right in front of him. A coiled dragon with scales so smooth and black they glistened. Its talons dripped venom, and it looked at him with unblinking red eyes. “Go home, Hiroshi,” it said.
After the oni, the sight of a dragon was not so startling, for all that Hiroshi could see death in its eyes.
“If I could go back, I would have. Please let me pass.”
“That isn’t the way of this place,” the dragon said, and Hiroshi was almost certain that, when it bared its fangs at him, the thing was coming as close to a smile as its appearance allowed. Hiroshi, terrified and yet unable to retreat, did the only thing he could think to do and drew his sword.
Now I am sure it is smiling at me.
Whether it was or not, the thing struck almost too fast for Hiroshi to see. It didn’t bother to bite him; its talons closed tightly on his right arm, and Hiroshi felt them piercing his flesh, sending their venom into his blood. A wave of agony washed over him, far worse than when the oni had struck him down, far worse than anything he could have imagined.For a moment he knew nothing, could know nothing through the haze of pain.
He did not wake, exactly. He heard a woman’s voice, speaking to him. He knew it for a dream, a memory, but real just the same. Akiko was speaking to him, somewhere, sometime... him? No. Yojiro. It was Yojiro who heard, and Yojiro who answered.
“You will return, Yojiro. Promise me.”
“I promise,” Hiroshi heard himself answer, in Yojiro’s voice. It was a promise he had failed to keep, on the day he died.
Hiroshi opened his eyes. The dragon was gone. Hiroshi was not surprised this time; he had begun to understand, perhaps a little. He had two sets of memories now. First Yojiro, now Akiko. He remembered her, her glossy black hair and sweet face—remembered their love and the promises they had made to each other. He remembered dying.
And she followed me. I’m sorry, Akiko.
There would be a third guardian, but Hiroshi put his sword away; he did not think he would be needing it again. He followed the music, remembering the words, remembering who had played that song with so much joy before and so much sadness now.
Cherry Blossoms on the Water.
The song was a promise of spring. A promise of many things. Hiroshi looked up at the hilltop. He could see the lone figure sitting there, bowed over the koto, playing the song that had called him down the well and away from his life. He was neither angry nor sad about that, but he was left with the problem of what to do. He did not try to climb the hill just yet.He waited for the guardian to appear, and soon he did, the rhythmic jingle of his staff serving counter point to the mournful koto.
“Greetings, Honored Sir,” Hiroshi said to the monk. Hiroshi was a little surprised, but not very much.
“Why wait for me? The way to the hill was clear.”
Hiroshi shook his head. “Obvious, perhaps. But not clear. Nor do I think you intend to stop me directly. Either of the other two could have done that.”
The monk nodded. “You’re perhaps less of a fool than I thought. How much less, though? That is not certain.”
“The first two guardians gave me Yojiro and then Akiko,” Hiroshi said. “What will the third guardian do?”
“Perhaps he will take them away again. Perhaps that is up to you.”
“What should I do?”
“I told you before—go home.”
“I will go home, for that was my promise. Yet I have another promise that I must keep first. One even longer delayed.”
The monk frowned but stood aside. “I will wait here. If you return....”
Hiroshi didn’t like the way the monk said ‘if,’ but he understood. He slowly walked up the hill.
Akiko sat with her back to him, her long white fingers on the strings of the koto. Too long. Too white. Her kimono too was white, and it sagged back upon her bony shoulders.Hiroshi remembered those shoulders, that neck whiter than snow. Grayish now. He could not see her face. Her back was turned and she could not see him, but she obviously knew he was there.
“Yojiro, you’ve come back to me.”
She started to rise, but Hiroshi stepped forward and took her shoulders in a gentle but firm grip. He tried not to think of the scent that rose from her now, so different from long ago. “Do not look at me, Akiko.”
“Why not?”
“Because I’m dead. I was... I mean. Yojiro—I, remember. I waved my sword about quite bravely, then I was shot full of arrows and they cut off my head. My ankles were spiked.”
“You’ve returned,” she insisted.
“You called me from another place, with your music and my promise. I kept my promise, but I don’t belong here. Now I must go.”
She
shook her head, slowly. “Let me look at you.”
“What will you see, Akiko? What will I see when I look at you now? We are not what we were. I’ve traveled the River of Souls before and returned to the living world. You must do the same.”
“Stay?” She sounded confused. “You must stay!”
“No,” he said.
“You promised!”
“I promised to return, and I have. To love you, and I did. I remember. I... Yojiro, loved you. Let that be enough.”
“No!”
“What will I see when you look at me? I remember your beauty. Do you want me to see what you are now?”
“I am Akiko!”
“Yes. You are also dead and your flesh has gone to corruption. As long as you remain on this hilltop down in the darkness, playing that song for me, you will remain dead. I don’t want that, and neither should you.”
“Please...,” she said, and reached up to touch his hand. Her fingers were cold, and there was no living flesh to them.
Hiroshi took a deep breath. He knew what he must do, but it wasn’t his decision. It was Yojiro’s, for the woman who died out of love for him. Forgive me, Akiko, but I believe I will need Hiroshi’s sword one last time.
“Please play for me,” he said. “’Cherry Blossoms on the Water.’”
“Always,” she said, and her fingers caressed the strings as they had his face and body, once long ago.
In one smooth movement, with less thought than a breath, Hiroshi drew his sword and brought it down on the strings just to the side of Akiko’s fingers. The taut silk strings parted with a high screeching sound like a wail of despair, fading, only to be echoed by Akiko. She twisted suddenly in his arms, fingers reaching to claw, not caress, but Hiroshi held firm and looked full into her ruined face, painting over the horror he saw there with one last strong memory of beauty.
“Good-bye,” he said.
His memory clothed her in full life for just a moment, then it began to fade, as did Akiko. In a moment, both were gone, leaving only a trace of sadness and a faint ghostly memory that was more like a dream.