by Roma James
But it wasn’t about satisfaction. It was about this emotion that was building up inside me. The emotion that told me all of these men were important to me, that they all mattered deeply. It was that emotion that I simply couldn’t shake.
“Alright, I understand your hesitation,” I told him. “I know this is weird, I really do. Trust me, I’ve thought a lot about how strange this is. And yet, I couldn’t bring myself not to at least ask you guys. Because for whatever reason, this is what my heart is pulling me toward.”
I looked at all three of them. They were all so handsome, so perfect, so right for me.
I continued. “You guys have no idea what you’ve done for me. Just being with you has changed me. I’m a different person than I was last month, even Liza can attest to that. Before you guys, I was just sitting at home, alone, writing my books and living vicariously through the characters that I made up. But because of you, I’m actually living. Because of you, I’ve got this life. And it’s fun and adventurous and sexy, and it brings me so much joy. I look at you, and I know that I’m falling for each and every one of you. So maybe it’s weird, but you guys all mean so much to me. You just can’t ask me to choose between you, because I can’t do it. It’s not fair. I need… I just need all of you.”
Ryker’s expression seemed to soften as I spoke. “You really think we can do this? Just all be in one big, happy relationship?”
“Why not?” I asked. “You care about me, right? You guys all care about me?” They all nodded. “So why can’t we be happy? Why can’t we put aside jealousy and resentment and anything that could possibly be holding us back and just… jump head first into this thing? That’s what I want, desperately. If there’s even the smallest chance that this could make us happy, all of us, shouldn’t we do it?”
“Okay, sure.” Ryker shrugged. “Why not?”
“Really?” I squealed. “You mean that?”
“You’re right,” he said. “I care about you. I think we all do. And on the drive over here, all I could think about was how happy I would be if you wanted to be with me. And you’re saying you do. So what if you also want to be with Diesel and Axel? As long as I get to have some of you, too… then why not?”
I couldn’t control myself. I ran to him and threw my arms around his neck.
He wrapped his arms back around me tightly, pulling me close to him. I could smell the cologne on his neck, so I lingered there. The comfort of him felt so good.
“Ahem,” Axel coughed, clearing his throat. I looked over at him and Diesel, who were staring there awkwardly.
“Well, why don’t you guys get in on this?” I asked them. “You know, you’re going to have to get used to sharing me.”
They shrugged at each other and then moved in to me, joining in on a group hug.
I knew that it was weird. I knew that it was different. And yet, it felt right. It felt like I was with the men I was supposed to be with.
It may not have been the happily ever after I used to picture for myself. But then again, my life was now nothing like I used to picture, and I was the happiest I’ve ever been. Maybe it was time to throw out the generalizations of what my life should be like and how I should act. Maybe I needed to just… be happy.
They made me happy.
They all squeezed me tight, and I squeezed back. We were huddled there for a moment, but it didn’t take long until I felt something familiar on the back of my neck.
It was a kiss. Someone’s lips were on me, but I couldn’t tell if they were Diesel’s or Axel’s. All I knew was that someone was kissing me… and pretty sensually.
I realized I was going to get the thing that I had been fantasizing about for so very long. Something that I thought was only going to happen in my dreams…
I was going to get to sleep with all of them, all at once.
As right as the hug had felt… somehow, this felt more right.
I wanted and needed them all.
Chapter 15 - Harlow
I turned around on whoever was kissing my neck. It was Diesel, and when I did, his lips met mine and we began to kiss passionately.
For a moment, I was worried about Axel and Ryker. As much as I wanted all of them, it was going to be tricky to navigate this to where they all felt like they had my attention.
Thankfully, though, they seemed to take matters into their own hands. As Diesel kissed me, I felt Ryker begin to unbutton my blouse. He had to reach behind me to do it, and he ran his hands slowly over my breasts as he did.
I was so damn turned on already. I was kissing one man while the other was running his hands over my body? God, it felt so good.
So, naturally, when I felt Axel begin to unbutton my pants, I was overwhelmed with how sexy it all was.
I pulled my mouth away from Diesel’s. “Let’s… move this to the bedroom,” I said.
They all agreed, and as I began to walk down the hall to Axel’s bedroom, I also started walking out of my clothes. Though I wasn’t looking behind me, apparently the boys had been following my lead because when I reached the bed and turned around, they were all naked in front of me.
Naked and perfect.
Each one of them had a stunning body that I simply could not get over. They were the three most handsome men I had ever met in my life.
And I was about to get to be with all of them.
I began to climb onto the bed backwards, and Diesel was the first one to start climbing on top of me. It was not surprising at all, since so far he’d been the most take charge of the three.
But Axel and Ryker weren’t shy either, and they weren’t going to let him have all the action.
I thought Diesel was going to start kissing my mouth again when he climbed on the bed, but no, he claimed the part of my body he seemed to want most… my pussy.
As he put his head down toward it, Ryker and Axel were climbing on either side of me, each claiming either my right or my left.
I had no idea what either of them were about to do, which was even hotter.
Diesel’s tongue reached my clit, and I gasped out loud. Though I gasped even louder when Ryker and Axel took this opportunity to each begin to lick my nipples.
It was the most amazing thing I’d ever felt. So many erogenous zones being licked at once brought a pleasure out of me that I didn’t even know could exist. Although I was already turned on, I immediately became intensely wet, a fact that Diesel was probably acutely aware of.
He began sliding up and down my slit. God, he was amazing with his mouth. All the boys had their own things that made him sexy, but I had to say, Diesel by far gave the best oral sex I’d ever had in my life.
So to combine that with Axel and Ryker groping at my breasts… yeah, I could have come just by continuing to do this.
But that wasn’t what I wanted. I wanted more. I wanted to have them all buried inside me in any way that I could. I was absolutely desperate for each and every one of their cocks.
“I want you inside me,” I moaned out to Diesel. “I’m so ready for you.”
He lifted his head and wiped his mouth, giving me a cheeky grin.
“You’ve got condoms?” Diesel asked Axel.
Axel nodded and got off the bed for a moment, then went into his dresser drawer to grab some. He pulled out a string of condoms and tossed them on the bed before he immediately got back down to play with my breasts.
Diesel took a condom out of the packet and slid it on before positioning himself at my entrance.
I was dying for it, so when he began entering me slowly, ever so slowly, I practically begged him to just thrust it in.
“I need it, please,” I moaned. “I need all of you.”
He obliged, giving one big, hard thrust until he was deep inside me.
I grabbed onto Axel and Ryker’s shoulders, bracing myself as Diesel began to slide in and out of me quickly. His thick cock was stretching me, filling me completely, and I was in ecstasy with every thrust.
It was so, so good and I should ha
ve been satisfied… and in one way, I was. But in another, being filled up by Diesel only made me crave more. I wanted them all inside me.
Which meant I was going to need to do something I never had before. There was only one way to achieve this.
I turned my head toward Ryker, and through heavy breaths, I tried to tell him what I needed. “Will you… fuck me in the ass?”
He pulled his mouth away from my breasts, and his eyes widened. “Are… you sure? Have you done that before?”
“Never,” I admitted, “but I’m sure. I want all of you. I want to be filled by every last one of you.”
Axel didn’t respond verbally, but he went back into his drawer and pulled out a bottle of lube which he handed to Ryker along with a condom.
Diesel had moved up a little to give Ryker room. Ryker was now behind Diesel, sliding the condom on and smothering it with lube.
He seemed to know what he was doing, so I figured he must have done anal before. Not only did he cover the condom in lube, but he also dripped the lube directly onto my asshole and then covered his fingers with it.
Diesel was fucking me slower now, but he didn’t really stop. He just calmed down enough to give Ryker enough room to do what he needed… and what I desperately wanted.
Ryker slid one of his lubed-up fingers into my tight hole, and my eyes went wide. I’d never done anything anally before, and I wasn’t sure what to expect. But when he did that, I was immediately struck by how good it felt. I hadn’t put a lot of imagination into how it might actually feel. My only thought was that I wanted them all inside me at once.
And that included Axel, but I’d get to him.
He began pushing into me with a second finger, stretching me comfortably so that I’d be able to take his cock as Diesel moved in and out of me ever so slowly.
Diesel stopped moving completely when Ryker began to position himself at my ass. He began pressing in slowly, and this time, I didn’t beg to have a cock plunged into me due to the fear that it was going to hurt.
I did feel some stinging as Ryker broke through my walls, but to my surprise, it wasn’t too bad. And it was overpowered by the intensely brilliant pleasure that had overcome me.
Something I hadn’t expected was that the deeper Ryker was inside me, the more my pussy felt full of Diesel’s cock. When Ryker was finally balls deep in me, I felt fuller than I ever had in my life.
I grabbed handfuls of bed sheet as Ryker began to rock back and forth inside me. He moved slowly at first, and then his pace got increasingly faster.
Diesel started pumping me again, too. They were each entering at different times, overwhelming me with instant pleasure every second. It was the most amazing feeling I’d ever had in my life.
Fuck having sex with just one guy when you can feel this fucking good with two!
I wasn’t completely full yet, though.
“Oh my God,” I called out, trying to turn my attention to Axel. It was hard to form words, so I just grabbed his shoulder. He looked up at me, his mouth still on my breast.
“I want you in my mouth,” I told him, through screams of ecstasy.
I didn’t have to tell him twice. He immediately forgot about my breasts, and instead he straddled my neck, placing his cock right at my mouth and getting ready for it to be swallowed.
I was voracious for him, for all of him, and I began bobbing rapidly on his cock, sliding my tongue all around his shaft and slurping at him as hard as I could while I was getting filled by the other two men.
Finally, with all three of them inside me, I felt what I had been so desperate to feel… satisfaction. Satisfaction like I’d never knew in my life.
And it was in this moment—this sexy, brilliant moment—that I knew I could never go back. I could never just have one of them. I prayed this arrangement would work out because I wanted all of them… forever.
I was convinced I’d never be truly happy without them all.
I felt someone groping at my breasts, and I knew it had to be Diesel since he was the only one who could reach. I closed my eyes as I continued to move wildly up and down on Axel. I could feel him moaning on top of me, and I opened my eyes to see his whole head was thrown back.
Knowing I was providing him with so pleasure only intensified my ecstasy.
I was determined to finish him off before I came. I knew that when I did, I’d be too out of breath to be sucking on him this way, and I desperately wanted to taste him. I wanted to know that I was responsible for bringing him to a brilliant orgasm.
He gripped his headboard as I went as fast as I possibly could go, moving my tongue wildly on the tip of his cock whenever I could reach it. He was going to be pushed to the edge soon, I could feel it. And I refused to stop until he did.
“You’re going to make me fucking come,” he groaned with a strained voice.
When I showed no signs of stopping, he knew I was giving him the okay to release. Which he did, mere seconds later. I felt him shoot out into my mouth—his warmth filled me up, and I swallowed every bit of it.
I sucked hard as he finally pulled out my mouth for the last time. Panting and tired, he started to climb off of me and he collapsed onto the bed.
Now it was just me, Ryker, and Diesel. Both of them seemed even more riled up now that they’d just seen me suck Axel’s cock.
They started ramming me wildly, each were on the verge of coming and I could tell by the way their grunts were becoming animalistic and primal.
Which was enough to push me over to the edge. I loved hearing their noises. I could feel the excitement rising as my orgasm began to roll through me.
It was amazing, unlike any other orgasm I’d ever had. My entire body was shaking and I had to scream out as pleasure rocked me. The fact that it was coming from the both of them had my eyes nearly rolling back into my head.
They both finished just moments later. Ryker first, and Diesel less than a minute later.
“Holy hell,” I murmured to myself. “That was truly… amazing. I guess I know that we’re at least compatible in one way.”
They all had smiles on their faces, so I knew they were as happy about our encounter as I was.
“So, what exactly do we do now?” Axel asked.
I looked at him. “What do you mean?”
“I mean… we had sex… what is supposed to come next? This is a whole new relationship, an entirely new thing. How do we navigate this?”
I looked at him, Ryker, and Diesel. “I think we just… do what any normal couple does.”
“And that means…?” Ryker asked.
“It means… let’s spend the day hanging out. Let’s talk, let’s order in food, let’s watch movies and spend most of the day having sex and enjoying each other’s company. Let’s just explore this. See if we can make it comfortable, even outside of the sex. I mean, if that sounds alright with you guys?”
Diesel answered first. “I’m okay with just… hanging out.”
The other guys nodded, and I smiled to myself.
Everything about this felt so perfect, so right. I hoped so badly that we’d be able to continue this relationship.
I simply couldn’t imagine my life any other way.
Chapter 16 - Ryker
My eyes were fuzzy, and I was feeling confused.
Where was I? What was going on?
The only thing that I was registering was a dull pain in my arm.
I slowly began to come to, and I realized exactly where I was.
In bed with Harlow.
Her head was on top of my arm, which was causing it to cramp. That was probably what woke me up.
I couldn’t move her, though. She was sleeping soundly, and damn if she didn’t look precious doing it. There was just no way I would ever move her when she looked this adorable.
I looked around the room slowly, trying to take in the scene. We were all on Axel’s bed—a California King—spread out in every which way.
We’d spent the whole day yesterday having sex, h
anging out, then having sex again. I guess after our last session of the night, we all just crashed. Understandable, as it had been a long day.
I thought it was going to be weird, deciding to join in on a relationship with Axel and Diesel. I wasn’t as sure as the rest of them. I wasn’t exactly an unconventional man. I mean, sure, I ran a sex club, but even at that, I was a strict and professional businessman.
So entering into a polyamorous relationship? Beyond what I thought could be possible for me.
Then again, I hadn’t exactly imagined a normal relationship for myself, either. I hadn’t ever pictured myself as the marrying type, settling down and having children.
And yet, as I looked over at Harlow, that was exactly what I imagined.
It was crazy, since our relationship was so new. But I could picture marrying this woman. I could see happy little children running around our house. She could be a great mom. Strong, independent, funny, sweet, intelligent…
The weirdest part of all? I wasn’t fantasizing about having to her myself. I didn’t picture me marrying her and throwing Diesel and Axel away. I was picturing it exactly like this.
I obviously didn’t have romantic feelings for Diesel or Axel. They were my friends and business partners only. My only interest was in Harlow.
Yesterday felt so natural, even having them around. We all talked together so well. And I wouldn’t lie, the group sex was particularly hot. I’d been into that, absolutely.
What would it be like if this continued long term? It would be kind of nice to have a family with them around. In a monogamous relationship, there’s only two parents to look after the kids and they switch off. And frankly, both parents always seem stressed and tired as hell to me. It was one of the reasons I never considered having children before.
With Axel and Diesel, though, that would be different. I would be one parent of four. We’d all be able to take it a little easier and divvy up responsibility more. Some of us would even be able to work the club at any given time…
What the hell was I thinking? One day together and I was already dreaming about a future marriage?