I set down the taffrail-log on the bit of canvas I had put under it, and looked at the doctor. He was uneasy, and his eyes had a sort of hunted look, and his yellow face looked grey. He wasn’t trying to make trouble. He was in trouble. So I asked him questions.
He said he could count as well as anybody, and do sums without using his fingers, but that when he couldn’t count any other way, he did use his fingers, and it always came out the same. He said that when he and the cabin-boy cleared up after the men’s meals there were more things to wash than he had given out. There’d be a fork more, or there’d be a spoon more, and sometimes there’d be a spoon and a fork, and there was always a plate more. It wasn’t that he complained of that. Before poor Jim Benton was lost they had a man more to feed, and his gear to wash up after meals, and that was in the contract, the doctor said. It would have been if there were twenty in the ship’s company; but he didn’t think it was right for the men to play tricks like that. He kept his things in good order, and he counted them, and he was responsible for them, and it wasn’t right that the men should take more things than they needed when his back was turned, and just soil them and mix them up with their own, so as to make him think —
He stopped there, and looked at me, and I looked at him. I didn’t know what he thought, but I began to guess. I wasn’t going to humour any such nonsense as that, so I told him to speak to the men himself, and not come bothering me about such things.
“Count the plates and forks and spoons before them when they sit down to table, and tell them that’s all they’ll get; and when they have finished, count the things again, and if the count isn’t right, find out who did it. You know it must be one of them. You’re not a green hand; you’ve been going to sea ten or eleven years, and don’t want any lessons about how to behave if the boys play a trick on you.”
“If I could catch him,” said the cook, “I’d have a knife into him before he could say his prayers.”
Those West India men are always talking about knives, especially when they are badly frightened. I knew what he meant, and didn’t ask him, but went on cleaning the brass cog-wheels of the patent log, and oiling the bearings with a feather. “Wouldn’t it be better to wash it out with boiling water, sir?” asked the cook in an insinuating tone. He knew that he had made a fool of himself, and was anxious to make it right again.
I heard no more about the odd platter and gear for two or three days, though I thought about his story a good deal. The doctor evidently believed that Jim Benton had come back, though he didn’t quite like to say so. His story had sounded silly enough on a bright afternoon, in fair weather, when the sun was on the water, and every rag was drawing in the breeze, and the sea looked as pleasant and as harmless as a cat that has just eaten a canary. But when it was toward the end of the first watch, and the waning moon had not risen yet, and the water was like still oil, and the jibs hung down flat and helpless like the wings of a dead bird — it wasn’t the same then. More than once I have started then and looked round when a fish jumped, expecting to see a face sticking out of the water with its eyes shut. I think we all felt something like that at the time.
One afternoon we were putting a fresh service on the jib-sheet-pennant. It wasn’t my watch, but I was standing by, looking on. Just then Jack Benton came up from below, and went to look for his pipe under the anchor. His face was hard and drawn, and his eyes were cold like steel balls. He hardly ever spoke now, but he did his duty as usual, and nobody had to complain of him, though we were all beginning to wonder how long his grief for his dead brother was going to last like that. I watched him as he crouched down, and ran his hand into the hiding-place for the pipe. When he stood up, he had two pipes in his hand.
Now, I remembered very well seeing him throw one of those pipes away, early in the morning after the gale; and it came to me now, and I didn’t suppose he kept a stock of them under the anchor. I caught sight of his face, and it was greenish white, like the foam on shallow water, and he stood a long time looking at the two pipes. He wasn’t looking to see which was his, for I wasn’t five yards from him as he stood, and one of those pipes had been smoked that day, and was shiny where his hand had rubbed it, and the bone mouthpiece was chafed white where his teeth had bitten it. The other was water-logged. It was swelled and cracking with wet, and it looked to me as if there were a little green weed on it.
Jack Benton turned his head rather stealthily as I looked away, and then he hid the thing in his trousers pocket, and went aft on the lee side, out of sight. The men had got the sheet-pennant on a stretch to serve it, but I ducked under it and stood where I could see what Jack did, just under the fore-staysail. He couldn’t see me, and he was looking about for something. His hand shook as he picked up a bit of half-bent iron rod, about a foot long, that had been used for turning an eye-bolt, and had been left on the main-hatch. His hand shook as he got a piece of marline out of his pocket, and made the water-logged pipe fast to the iron. He didn’t mean it to get adrift either, for he took his turns carefully, and hove them taut and then rode them, so that they couldn’t slip, and made the end fast with two half-hitches round the iron, and hitched it back on itself. Then he tried it with his hands, and looked up and down the deck furtively, and then quietly dropped the pipe and iron over the rail, so that I didn’t even hear the splash. If anybody was playing tricks on board, they weren’t meant for the cook.
I asked some questions about Jack Benton, and one of the men told me that he was off his feed, and hardly ate anything, and swallowed all the coffee he could lay his hands on, and had used up all his own tobacco and had begun on what his brother had left.
“The doctor says it ain’t so, sir,” said the man, looking at me shyly, as if he didn’t expect to be believed; “the doctor says there’s as much eaten from breakfast to breakfast as there was before Jim fell overboard, though there’s a mouth less and another that eats nothing. I says it’s the cabin-boy that gets it. He’s bu’sting.”
I told him that if the cabin-boy ate more than his share, he must work more than his share, so as to balance things. But the man laughed queerly, and looked at me again.
“I only said that, sir, just like that. We all know it ain’t so.”
“Well, how is it?”
“How is it?” asked the man, half-angry all at once. “I don’t know how it is, but there’s a hand on board that’s getting his whack along with us as regular as the bells.”
“Does he use tobacco?” I asked, meaning to laugh it out of him, but as I spoke, I remembered the water-logged pipe.
“I guess he’s using his own still,” the man answered, in a queer, low voice. “Perhaps he’ll take some one else’s when his is all gone.”
It was about nine o’clock in the morning, I remember, for just then the captain called to me to stand by the chronometer while he took his fore observation. Captain Hackstaff wasn’t one of those old skippers who do everything themselves with a pocket watch, and keep the key of the chronometer in their waistcoat pocket, and won’t tell the mate how far the dead reckoning is out. He was rather the other way, and I was glad of it, for he generally let me work the sights he took, and just ran his eye over my figures afterwards. I am bound to say his eye was pretty good, for he would pick out a mistake in a logarithm, or tell me that I had worked the “Equation of Time” with the wrong sign, before it seemed to me that he could have got as far as “half the sum, minus the altitude.” He was always right, too, and besides he knew a lot about iron ships and local deviation, and adjusting the compass, and all that sort of thing. I don’t know how he came to be in command of a fore-and-aft schooner. He never talked about himself, and maybe he had just been mate on one of those big steel square-riggers, and something had put him back. Perhaps he had been captain, and had got his ship aground, through no particular fault of his, and had to begin over again. Sometimes he talked just like you and me, and sometimes he would speak more like books do, or some of those Boston people I have heard. I don’t know. We
have all been shipmates now and then with men who have seen better days. Perhaps he had been in the Navy, but what makes me think he couldn’t have been, was that he was a thorough good seaman, a regular old windjammer, and understood sail, which those Navy chaps rarely do. Why, you and I have sailed with men before the mast who had their master’s certificates in their pockets — English Board of Trade certificates, too — who could work a double altitude if you would lend them a sextant and give them a look at the chronometer, as well as many a man who commands a big square-rigger. Navigation ain’t everything, nor seamanship either. You’ve got to have it in you, if you mean to get there.
I don’t know how our captain heard that there was trouble forward. The cabin-boy may have told him, or the men may have talked outside his door when they relieved the wheel at night. Anyhow, he got wind of it, and when he had got his sight that morning, he had all hands aft, and gave them a lecture. It was just the kind of talk you might have expected from him. He said he hadn’t any complaint to make, and that so far as he knew everybody on board was doing his duty, and that he was given to understand that the men got their whack, and were satisfied. He said his ship was never a hard ship, and that he liked quiet, and that was the reason he didn’t mean to have any nonsense, and the men might just as well understand that, too. We’d had a great misfortune, he said, and it was nobody’s fault. We had lost a man we all liked and respected, and he felt that everybody in the ship ought to be sorry for the man’s brother, who was left behind, and that it was rotten lubberly childishness, and unjust and unmanly and cowardly, to be playing schoolboy tricks with forks and spoons and pipes, and that sort of gear. He said it had got to stop right now, and that was all, and the men might go forward. And so they did.
It got worse after that, and the men watched the cook, and the cook watched the men, as if they were trying to catch each other; but I think everybody felt that there was something else. One evening, at supper-time, I was on deck, and Jack came aft to relieve the wheel while the man who was steering got his supper. He hadn’t got past the main-hatch on the lee side, when I heard a man running in slippers that slapped on the deck, and there was a sort of a yell and I saw the coloured cook going for Jack, with a carving knife in his hand. I jumped to get between them, and Jack turned round short, and put out his hand. I was too far to reach them, and the cook jabbed out with his knife. But the blade didn’t get anywhere near Benton. The cook seemed to be jabbing it into the air again and again, at least four feet short of the mark. Then he dropped his right hand, and I saw the whites of his eyes in the dusk, and he reeled up against the pin-rail, and caught hold of a belaying-pin with his left. I had reached him by that time, and grabbed hold of his knife-hand, and the other, too, for I thought he was going to use the pin; but Jack Benton was standing staring stupidly at him, as if he didn’t understand. But instead, the cook was holding on because he couldn’t stand, and his teeth were chattering, and he let go of the knife, and the point stuck into the deck.
“He’s crazy!” said Jack Benton, and that was all he said; and he went aft.
When he was gone, the cook began to come to, and he spoke quite low, near my ear.
“There were two of them! So help me God, there were two of them!”
I don’t know why I didn’t take him by the collar, and give him a good shaking; but I didn’t. I just picked up the knife and gave it to him, and told him to go back to his galley, and not to make a fool of himself. You see, he hadn’t struck at Jack, but at something he thought he saw, and I knew what it was, and I felt that same thing, like a lump of ice sliding down my back, that I felt that night when we were bending the trysail.
When the men had seen him running aft, they jumped up after him, but they held off when they saw that I had caught him. By and by, the man who had spoken to me before told me what had happened. He was a stocky little chap, with a red head.
“Well,” he said, “there isn’t much to tell. Jack Benton had been eating his supper with the rest of us. He always sits at the after corner of the table, on the port side. His brother used to sit at the end, next him. The doctor gave him a thundering big piece of pie to finish up with, and when he had finished he didn’t stop for a smoke, but went off quick to relieve the wheel. Just as he had gone, the doctor came in from the galley, and when he saw Jack’s empty plate he stood stock still staring at it; and we all wondered what was the matter, till we looked at the plate. There were two forks in it, sir, lying side by side. Then the doctor grabbed his knife, and flew up through the hatch like a rocket. The other fork was there all right, Mr. Torkeldsen, for we all saw it and handled it; and we all had our own. That’s all I know.”
I didn’t feel that I wanted to laugh when he told me that story; but I hoped the Old Man wouldn’t hear it, for I knew he wouldn’t believe it, and no captain that ever sailed likes to have stories like that going round about his ship. It gives her a bad name. But that was all anybody ever saw except the cook, and he isn’t the first man who has thought he saw things without having any drink in him. I think, if the doctor had been weak in the head, as he was afterwards, he might have done something foolish again, and there might have been serious trouble. But he didn’t. Only, two or three times, I saw him looking at Jack Benton in a queer, scared way, and once I heard him talking to himself.
“There’s two of them! So help me God, there’s two of them!”
He didn’t say anything more about asking for his discharge, but I knew well enough that if he got ashore at the next port we should never see him again, if he had to leave his kit behind him, and his money, too. He was scared all through, for good and all; and he wouldn’t be right again till he got another ship. It’s no use to talk to a man when he gets like that, any more than it is to send a boy to the main truck when he has lost his nerve.
Jack Benton never spoke of what happened that evening. I don’t know whether he knew about the two forks, or not; or whether he understood what the trouble was. Whatever he knew from the other men, he was evidently living under a hard strain. He was quiet enough, and too quiet; but his face was set, and sometimes it twitched oddly when he was at the wheel, and he would turn his head round sharp to look behind him. A man doesn’t do that naturally, unless there’s a vessel that he thinks is creeping up on the quarter. When that happens, if the man at the wheel takes a pride in his ship, he will almost always keep glancing over his shoulder to see whether the other fellow is gaining. But Jack Benton used to look round when there was nothing there; and what is curious, the other men seemed to catch the trick when they were steering. One day the Old Man turned out just as the man at the wheel looked behind him.
“What are you looking at?” asked the captain.
“Nothing, sir,” answered the man.
“Then keep your eye on the mizzen-royal,” said the Old Man, as if he were forgetting that we weren’t a square-rigger.
“Ay, ay, sir,” said the man.
The captain told me to go below and work up the latitude from the dead-reckoning, and he went forward of the deck-house and sat down to read, as he often did. When I came up, the man at the wheel was looking round again, and I stood beside him and just asked him quietly what everybody was looking at, for it was getting to be a general habit. He wouldn’t say anything at first, but just answered that it was nothing. But when he saw that I didn’t seem to care, and just stood there as if there were nothing more to be said, he naturally began to talk.
He said that it wasn’t that he saw anything, because there wasn’t anything to see except the spanker sheet just straining a little, and working in the sheaves of the blocks as the schooner rose to the short seas. There wasn’t anything to be seen, but it seemed to him that the sheet made a queer noise in the blocks. It was a new manilla sheet; and in dry weather it did make a little noise, something between a creak and a wheeze. I looked at it and looked at the man, and said nothing; and presently he went on. He asked me if I didn’t notice anything peculiar about the noise. I listened awhil
e, and said I didn’t notice anything.
Then he looked rather sheepish, but said he didn’t think it could be his own ears, because every man who steered his trick heard the same thing now and then, — sometimes once in a day, sometimes once in a night, sometimes it would go on a whole hour.
“It sounds like sawing wood,” I said, just like that.
“To us it sounds a good deal more like a man whistling ‘Nancy Lee.’” He started nervously as he spoke the last words. “There, sir, don’t you hear it?” he asked suddenly.
I heard nothing but the creaking of the manilla sheet. It was getting near noon, and fine, clear weather in southern waters, — just the sort of day and the time when you would least expect to feel creepy. But I remembered how I had heard that same tune overhead at night in a gale of wind a fortnight earlier, and I am not ashamed to say that the same sensation came over me now, and I wished myself well out of the Helen B., and aboard of any old cargo-dragger, with a windmill on deck, and an eighty-nine-forty-eighter for captain, and a fresh leak whenever it breezed up.
Little by little during the next few days life on board that vessel came to be about as unbearable as you can imagine. It wasn’t that there was much talk, for I think the men were shy even of speaking to each other freely about what they thought. The whole ship’s company grew silent, until one hardly ever heard a voice, except giving an order and the answer. The men didn’t sit over their meals when their watch was below, but either turned in at once or sat about on the forecastle, smoking their pipes without saying a word. We were all thinking of the same thing. We all felt as if there were a hand on board, sometimes below, sometimes about decks, sometimes aloft, sometimes on the boom end; taking his full share of what the others got, but doing no work for it. We didn’t only feel it, we knew it. He took up no room, he cast no shadow, and we never heard his footfall on deck; but he took his whack with the rest as regular as the bells, and — he whistled “Nancy Lee.” It was like the worst sort of dream you can imagine; and I daresay a good many of us tried to believe it was nothing else sometimes, when we stood looking over the weather rail in fine weather with the breeze in our faces; but if we happened to turn round and look into each other’s eyes, we knew it was something worse than any dream could be; and we would turn away from each other with a queer, sick feeling, wishing that we could just for once see somebody who didn’t know what we knew.
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