Reckless (Finding Ava)

by Jennifer Loren

  “Well it’s not like I had any lines, it’s pretty easy to only sit there and giggle and stare at you until you kiss me.”

  “It’s not that easy. I mean it had to be all you could do to keep from running at me and pawing at me too.” I rub my chest until she smacks my arm, causing us both to laugh. I put my arms around her. “You know if we don’t have to do this scene again then we have time to go back to my trailer and …” I grab her ass in the tiny shorts letting my fingers slip underneath. “Ohhhh,” I moan burying my face into her hair. “You have to get these shorts off, they are way too small. I’m going to lose my mind.”

  “Sean,” I turn to see Daniel coming towards us.

  “Was that good?” I asked him.

  “Yeah that was perfect but we are behind so we need to quickly get you two ready for the next scene.” I look at him confused, “You didn’t get the changes this morning?”

  “What changes?” I asked.

  “There were some rewrites, with you and Ava in the scene after this one.”

  I stare at him in disbelief. “Daniel there isn’t supposed to be another scene after this one. The scene after this would be us having sex.”

  “Exactly, everyone feels it will be a great addition …” He looks at me as my anger rages to the surface. “Calm down Sean, read the script. It’s not long, shorter than this one even. I promise.” He hands the script over to me and walks away.

  “Ava we need to get you ready dear,” Carol said grabbing Ava’s arm as she begs for me to rescue her.

  “It’s alright baby, I promise I will take care of it.” She nods dragging herself alongside Carol. I go back to my trailer and read over the scene, getting more furious by the second when Ethan comes in. “Did you read this shit?” I yelled.

  “I did but not until you were already shooting the previous. I checked her contract too and she did not wave the nudity clause. They told her it wouldn’t matter since she is only doing the one scene in the bar.” I sigh shaking my head.

  I slam my fists on the table, “Joel.” I said furious. I instantly go to search for him.

  “What the fuck are you doing Joel?” I asked shaking the script at him.

  “Whoa. Calm down Sean. What’s your problem?” He asked.

  “This script!” I yelled.

  “Sorry, it’s been approved,” he smiles at me. My fists tighten and I move towards him as a guard promptly takes hold of me.

  “You knew I would be fucking ready to tear your head off over this,” I snarled at him.

  He cocks his head with a smile, “It’s my movie Sean and I want to make it better.” He raises his eyebrows and smiles. “I of all people know - those breasts will sell.”

  Lunging for his head, “I will fucking kill you!” The guard struggles to hold me back, until two others come over to help. I calm enough that they let me go but they do not go far. “You can forget it, she isn’t doing it.”

  “I will sue her.” Joel said waiting for me to break again.

  “Sue her then, but she isn’t doing this. You can edit her out of the movie and me too for that matter, have fun trying to hire an attorney with nothing.”

  Daniel steps in between us with shaky hands, “Please, please, we can work something out. I am sure we can figure out something else that will please everyone.” I look down at Daniel. “Don’t worry Sean I will figure out something else, no reason for all this commotion.” I nod and agree to work out something.

  ~

  Entering the set of the motel room I cannot believe what I have to do. I wait for Ava agonizing, and I do not feel any better when I see her trembling and scared to death. She knows and now I have to try and convince her to trust me. I put my arms around her, feeling her trembling to the core. “Ava.”

  “I can’t do this,” she says.

  “Trust me, we have it worked out. They are going to close the set and Daniel is going to set the cameras at a certain angle and the rest is left up to me. Do you trust me?”

  She nods trying to calm down for me. “Okay, now get in the bed with me and take everything off but your panties.” I grip her face as she starts to cry. “Trust me Ava, no one is going to see anything.” Sighing I take her hand and lead her slowly to the bed glancing at Daniel who seems to be holding up his end of the bargain. I close my eyes briefly before I get in the bed and begin taking off everything for her as tears stream down her cheeks. Stopping at her bra, “Press against me and I am going to hide you. I will pull it off, don’t move away from me. Okay?” She nods. “You have to stop crying or it’s going to take even longer, follow my lead and it will be over.” I kiss her trying to comfort her. Jerking off my shirt, I throw it to an assistant and nod to Daniel to begin. I wipe her tears away, asking for a little touch up but not giving them much room to work.

  “Lockdown,“ Daniel yelled.

  “Close your eyes and concentrate on me Ava, I will take care of everything else,” I whisper to her. Pulling her face to mine, I kiss her and make sure to cover her from every view point as I simulate having sex with my wife on camera. I moan feeling her, more than I should at this moment. Concentrating on something else I try to calm myself and step back into character slowly. She is apparently incapable of the same, making it nearly impossible for me not to lose my mind. Damn, I forgot to prepare for this. Being able to feel her I am hard as hell and she is enjoying it. She has completely forgotten about the cameras with her eyes closed. I don’t know where she is, but she begins moaning and causes me to slip and both of us to groan. Trying to hold her still without ruining the scene, I can barely function, not to mention think. I push her down into the bed, making sure to stay against her, purposely putting myself in control of the movement. Ava is lost within it, moaning, and rubbing her hands all over me, driving me completely insane. Focus Sean. You need to protect her. I watch her moaning and writhing underneath me. I’m not going to make it! I fake an orgasm surprising Ava but at least she catches on quickly.

  Once the scene is final, I call for a robe for Ava and myself. Daniel smiles with a nod in my direction as Joel approaches yelling at him. I am sure it is about the scene that he did not write. I wait as Daniel waves me on, assuring me he got what he wanted and what the powers at be wanted as well. Joel is steaming and I smile as he swears at my existence. I take little time in deciding what to do next, I nearly carry Ava back to my trailer. Taking her by the hand I lead her to the bedroom, locking the door behind us. “I love you,” I said as I feel underneath her robe. Seeing her, I exhale deeply and brush my lips along her neck, pushing everything off my body before I pull her on top of me on the bed. “I have to feel you before I lose my damn mind, Ava.” I sigh blissfully as I find what I am looking for deep inside her.

  Graciously, she sits up riding me and allowing me to lay back and enjoy it. She is incredible, moaning, and whispering to me. She handles me perfectly but she suddenly slows, causing me to grow impatient with her, “Keep going. Don’t stop!” She relinquishes her control, allowing me to find the pace I desire. I find my peace, raising her legs high and moving my erection in and out of her rapidly until I feel her powerful hold. Feeling her orgasm brings out all that has built up inside me. I push every ounce into her until I am reduced to a shivering, happy man. “You nearly killed me in that last scene, Ava. I was trying so hard to be good and not take you in front of everyone. But you and you’re moaning and rubbing. And me forgetting to wear anything to prevent from feeling you rub against me.” Her innocent smile says everything. “Uh-huh, yes, you still have an incredible hold on me.” I find her lips tenderly. “Just remember what I had to do for you next time you’re mad at me.”

  Ava laughs, “Okay, you get one free pass.”

  “One! I should get a hundred for that.”

  “Don’t push it,” she said narrowing her eyes at me.

  “50?” She looks away from me. “25?” She crosses her arms in between us. “10?” She glances at me. “I deserve at least 5 free passes. Hell that’s probably o
nly a month’s worth anyway.

  “Fine 5 free passes, and it’s more like only a week’s worth,” she said giggling as I look at her.

  “A week? Damn, I didn’t realize I was such an ass.”

  She wraps her arms around my neck, “No, but you are still in husband training. You’re not screwing up on purpose you just don’t know any better yet.”

  “Is that so?” She nods with her smile stretching as far as it will go. I give her a wicked smile in return. “If you’re going to be like this to me then I am going to go hang out with somebody else on my break,” I edge out of bed but she quickly grabs hold of me pouting. “No, you’re being mean to me and for no reason.”

  “Sean? Baby.”

  “No, have fun by yourself.”

  “But Sean,” I shake my head grabbing my pants. “I’m sorry,” she whispers.

  “What’s that?” I said holding my hand up to my ear.

  “I’m sorry,” I get a little closer to her and wait to hear it again. “I said I’m sorry … Sean”

  “Oh, well in that case I guess I can stay and hang out here with you for a little while longer.” I crawl in over her, being welcomed in with warm hands and kisses.

  “Do you think it was okay? The scene I mean,” she asked.

  “Yes I do, I think it was better than okay.” I laugh at her as she blushes. “We are married now and you still blush, I love it.”

  “I am still in awe of you.”

  “Why?”

  “I still can’t believe you love me, you’re supposed to love people like …,” she looks off into nowhere. “I don’t know, Rebecca maybe.”

  “No Ava, only you,” I tap her cheek lightly to get her attention. “Only you.”

  She gets a half a smile before suddenly looking panicked, “Sean move!” She pushes me off her and runs to the bathroom. I hear her get sick before I can get to her.

  “Are you okay?” I look at her holding her stomach, shaking her head. “Your parts are over sweetheart, you shouldn’t still be nervous.”

  She looks up at me still holding her stomach and her head. “I think maybe I am sick, this has happened a couple of times the last few days.” She said as my eyes widen.

  “Ava, why didn’t you tell me that?”

  “I didn’t think it was anything but nerves”

  “I’m getting the doctor.” I said and quickly calling for someone to come look her over.

  ~

  I sit barely eating my lunch as I wait for the details, expecting to hear that her nerves are getting the best of her. The door opens and the doctor comes out smiling at me. “She’s okay?” I asked.

  “She’s fine, just fine,” the doctor said.

  “I knew it, nerves,” I said shaking my head.

  “No, not nerves,” the doctor said.

  “Then what is it?” I said getting up to catch her eyes as she follows behind the nurse. “Ava?”

  “It’s okay Sean, nothing’s wrong,” she said.

  “Of course, you will need to confirm it with your doctor. Without the ability to run the proper tests I can’t confirm,” the doctor said to Ava.

  “Tests? What tests? If nothing is wrong then why are you needing tests?” I asked her.

  Ava ignoring me, “I understand, thank you,” she says waving the doctor off.

  Once they both leave, I take her hand and pull her to me searching her eyes. “Tell me. Why do you need tests?” I ask as my heart beats faster and faster.

  “Calm down baby,” she said.

  “Don’t baby me, tell me.”

  “I will if you will give me a chance to,” she said waiting for me to shut up. I sigh and cross my arms waiting. She smiles at me suspiciously, “Sean.”

  “What Ava?”

  “Do you want a girl or a boy?” She said tugging at my shirt playfully.

  “What?”

  She rolls her eyes, “They think I’m pregnant.” She bites her lip as everything begins to make sense to me.

  A smile grows across my face, “Are you sure?”

  “Well we will need to confirm it with my doctor but I would say it is 99.5% sure.” I scream joyfully, picking her up and kissing her everywhere I can. “I take this to mean that you’re happy about it?” She giggles.

  “Hell yes, I’m happy! Are you kidding? This is the best news I could have gotten. This day just got a hundred times better.”

  “Good, I’m pretty excited myself.”

  “Wow does that mean Jack’s bed was better than we thought?” She laughs, burying her head into my chest. “Damn, I am going to have pay for that piece of shit bed to be completely restored,” I said shaking my head. I look down at Ava’s heavy eyes and calm understanding her emotions for the day a little better, “You’re tired aren’t you?” She nods. “And now we know why,” I said playfully. “Go lay down and I will make you something to eat.”

  I lie in bed playing with Ava’s hair as she sleeps in my arms. I smile like a fool staring at my beautiful wife. My daydreams take me to better days until Ethan comes in and signals for me to step outside with him. Kissing her gently I lay her carefully back in bed before I follow him outside.

  “Feeling better?” Ethan asked.

  I look over and see Ethan sitting in a chair with a stupid grin on his face, “I suppose.”

  He shakes his head laughing, “I should hope so. Damn.”

  “Damn what?”

  “Sean, the whole fucking trailer was shaking.”

  I eye him, “No it wasn’t.”

  “Oh yes it was, and by the way the walls are not that thick.” I look at him questioning as he laughs harder. “Keep going! Don’t stop!” He said dramatically as I roll my eyes.

  “You’re an asshole you know it?”

  He continues to laugh, “Probably but lucky for you I actually heard that when I walked in to talk to you and not from outside the trailer.”

  “Asshole.” I said relieved.

  “Well hell Sean, you couldn’t wait ten minutes?”

  “No! After that scene are you kidding?” I look over at Ethan as he smiles up at me from his laptop.

  “It was pretty hot, I have to say. I’m not sure how you handled it as well as you did.”

  “So what did you think of the scene?” I asked sitting down next to him.

  “You were perfect, Sean. Ava was perfect and without giving anything away.” I exhale, shaking off the last of my frustrations from earlier. “I have something I need to tell you before your next scene though.” I look back at him guarded. “The powers at be, have decided they could save money and possibly make even more money if they use Ava for Aimee instead.” When my mouth drops, Ethan laughs. “Good job little brother, they really liked the last scene. So much so, they are making Ava a key part of the movie.”

  I shake my head with my mouth wide open, “I don’t think so Ethan, it’s …”

  “Insane … crazy?” I nod. “Yeah well for some reason they think it’s the best idea in the world. Although I do understand their thinking.” I raise my eyebrows at him. “Hear me out, it’s not as if there are sex scenes only some minor speaking for her but I think she can handle it. It’s a small part but a whole lot more meaningful if you relate it to what you two just did.”

  “Ethan, I am suppose to have a ton of girls in my past not only one that keeps popping up.”

  “I don’t see getting your characters ego or sexual prowess across at this point in the movie being a problem. What isn’t evident is why he becomes so Reckless but I think it’s clear if she is the one.”

  “She is only another girl to him,” I said.

  “I don’t think so. She had to be more than that, she was pregnant with his child. He obviously had some kind of connection with her or he wouldn’t have believed her when she said the baby was his. At least, he wanted to believe her.” Ethan said obviously convinced of the idea.

  I lean over resting my head in my hands, trying to get a feel of what it will be like to work those scenes wit
h Ava. The intensity of those scenes with her, pregnant and vulnerable and me the one that holds their lives in my hands. How easy is it going to be to watch her die, to watch my child die within her? I can’t … or maybe I don’t want to know how that would feel? How do you put yourself within a character you don’t ever want to be?

  Chapter 20

  Ava

  Even though I know Sean is somewhere nearby, I do not like waking up without him. I crawl my way to the edge of the bed before I roll back over and crush my face into the pillow all over again. What’s the hurry? I’m done for the day anyway.

  “Hey sleepy head? Are you going to get up some time today?” Sean said grabbing my semi exposed foot, pulling me towards him.

  I turn over smiling wide at my sexy husband.”No, I think I will stay here, in fact …” I reach up and grab a hand full of his shirt and pull him down on top of me. I suck on his lips and moan my desire for him in hopes to entice him to stay with me this time.

  “Ava honey, I cannot do this with you all day,” he said kissing me one last time as he gets a hold of me, keeping me at a safe distance from him. “I wish I could stay in bed with you, hell I wish I could take you home to our bed and not leave for days but I can’t.” His smile disappears with his sigh. “And actually you can’t either.”

  I scoot away instantly, eyeing him, “What? Why?”

  Sean reaches out grabbing my hands and pressing his soft lips to the underside of my wrists. I twist my body awkwardly away from him as he tries to pull me to him, “They really liked that last scene sweetheart.

  “So!”

  “So they want you to do Aimee’s part now” He said it so matter-of-factly it seemed like I should be excited about it but I am not … I’m terrified. She has speaking parts. Acting parts! “Sean how is that possible, it’s two different roles?”

  “Not anymore. Now you are the girl that reappears pregnant … with my child. And since we are shown having sex, it only makes since both money wise and flow wise if the script changes in this direction.”