by P. J. Fiala
Molly started walking forward, eager to touch Ryder. He watched her, like a starving man, eager for his meal. She stopped alongside the bed and reached out and wrapped her hand around Ryder’s cock. It jerked at her touch, but she smiled and started sliding her hand up and down its length. She looked into Ryder’s eyes and saw pleasure. She was giving him pleasure. That’s what she wanted to give him, forever. Molly smirked at him and slowly leaned forward and slid her mouth over the head of his cock. Ryder groaned loudly at the feel of her mouth sliding down his length.
They’d been without each other for only a little more than a week, but still this probably wouldn’t last long. They usually made love at least once if not more each day. Molly cupped his balls with one hand and slid her other hand up and down his length with her mouth, keeping him completely covered. She pulled him out of her mouth and licked down the underside and then licked his balls. He put his hand on her head and held her there. Hmm, he liked that.
Molly continued licking his balls and running her hand up and down his length slowly, making love to him with her mouth. She ran her tongue around his cock again and pulled him into her mouth with gentle suction, making him raise his hips in the air, pushing up into her mouth. His hand became more insistent on her head, pushing her faster. Molly continued stimulating him with her moans while sucking and applying more and more pressure. With Ryder’s assistance, her movements increased in speed. She could feel his balls scrunching up into his body. It gave her such pleasure to make him feel this way.
Ryder started shaking. Jesus, she was going to suck him off in record time. He hadn’t had her in a few days, and he knew this would be short lived. As she moaned and sucked on him, it was all he could do to not shoot into her mouth the first time. She continued to suck and moan and dammit, he was so horny it was almost too much. Molly moved a little and her breasts rubbed against his leg and that was all it took. He spurt into her mouth with a loud groan.
She felt the first shot hit the back of her throat and quickly began swallowing to catch it all. She continued sucking up and down his length as she heard him moan. Damn, that was hot! Molly swallowed, drinking him down. When he began softening in her mouth, she let him slide out slowly and kissed her way up his body. She climbed up on the bed and lay on top of him as she skimmed her breasts against his body. She slowly kissed her way up to his mouth, then laid her head on his chest and listened as his heart beat returned to normal. Ryder was still and quiet. Molly thought he’d fallen asleep, but when she lifted her head and saw him looking at her, she smiled.
“I thought you fell asleep.”
“No. I was just enjoying you on top of me. I missed you, Molly. So damn much. I thought my heart would never heal and the hurt would always be there. You crushed me. And just now, you crushed me again. Only this time, it was sweet, and loving, and tender. It felt so fucking good that my mind took longer to catch up to what my body was feeling.”
“I’m so sorry, babe. I never wanted to hurt you. I really thought I was doing what was necessary to keep you safe.”
Ryder cupped Molly’s face in his hands. “I know, Molly. I do. But, never, ever do that to me again. Do you hear me? I won’t survive next time.”
A single tear slid down Molly’s cheek. Ryder quickly swiped it away with his thumb. “No more tears. Let’s promise to never again keep secrets from each other. If there is anything bothering either of us, we talk about it, we don’t run. If there is an issue, we fix it, we don’t run. Mostly, we never run.”
Molly nodded and grinned. “I promise. I will never run again. I swear on my life.”
Ryder quickly flipped Molly over so he was on top of her. He held her with his arms under her. He wiggled around so her legs were spread apart and he was lying in between them. He was still chest to chest with her, looking deeply into her eyes.
“I love looking into your eyes, Molly. I want to look into them for the rest of my life.”
“I love looking into your eyes, Ryder. I want to look into them for the rest of my life.”
“Well, let’s make that happen, shall we?”
Molly giggled. Ryder began kissing his way down Molly’s body. He suckled her breasts and rolled her nipples between his fingers and thumb. He kissed his way down her stomach, across her hips and to the apex of her thighs. He was treated to the most beautiful view of looking up at Molly and seeing her large breasts, with nipples puckered tight. She watched him with those big blue eyes, and never breaking his gaze, he licked her pussy and watched her pupils dilate and her nostrils flare. Ryder grinned and licked her again.
“Do you realize what a view I have here? Absolutely fucking beautiful. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on, Molly.”
Ryder slid down an inch or so and began licking Molly in earnest. He parted her folds, watching intently as he did. What a beautiful sight this was. He watched as his fingers slid across her moist flesh and listened to her moans as he did. He saw the glistening flesh and reached out with his tongue to taste her honey. He slowly slid two fingers into her wetness and reveled in her moans. Ryder watched his fingers sliding in and out of Molly. He watched her body while he was giving her pleasure. It was beautiful. He could feel the walls of her pussy constrict as he started to slide his fingers out and it made his cock twitch. He slid his fingers back in and listened to Molly moan again. As he pushed his fingers inside and curled them just a little to hit her g-spot deep inside, she quivered and groaned. That was the spot. Her breathing was staggered and fast, he looked up her body and saw that she was beginning to glow with a fine sheen of sweat. He slid his fingers out and back in, curling them just a bit and elicited yet more groans of satisfaction. Yes, perfect. A few more times and Molly was coming apart in his hands, and he’d barely put his tongue on her clit. He had another way to make her come. He slid his fingers out of her and replaced them with his tongue, so he could taste her sweet, honey-flavored juices.
Ryder slid up her body and kissed her softly as he pushed himself inside of her. They both groaned at the feel of his cock pushing inside of her. Good God, this was the best feeling in the world.
“Here’s a good one. It’s in Mom and Dad’s neighborhood and not far from JT and Gunnar.”
Ryder was sitting at the kitchen table looking at his laptop. He and Molly had decided they no longer wanted to stay in this house. It didn’t matter that they could get a great deal on it; it just seemed tainted now.
“That does look good. Let’s scroll through the pictures.”
They clicked through and looked at the pictures and decided to call a realtor and take a look. They’d only been looking for about a week now, but they were both anxious to move on from here.
They had decorated the tree and installed a security system so they would know if anyone was in the house. They changed the blinds in the living room and kitchen so no one could see in the house. They didn’t really have to give any notice. Jepson wasn’t in jail, but there was a restraining order on him, and they didn’t owe that bastard anything.
“Before we go looking at houses, I want to show you something. I’ll be right back.” Ryder got up and walked to the bedroom. Molly continued clicking through pictures on the internet and decided to look at a couple more houses she’d found. Ryder walked back into the kitchen and laid a notebook on the table.
Molly looked at the notebook and then back up at Ryder.
She grinned. “You want to show me your notebook?”
Ryder nodded. “When I first met you, I was shy and couldn’t bring myself to ask you out. My mom told me to write things down that maybe I would feel like we had already had a conversation and it wouldn’t be so scary talking to you. I did, I started writing things down. I want you to read them. My thoughts. No secrets, remember?”
He pushed the notebook forward and winked at her. Molly pulled the notebook toward her and paused, unsure if she should read Ryder’s thoughts. She looked back up at him and he nodded and smiled.
Moll
y opened the cover of the notebook and started reading.
September 28 – I met a woman today. The most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. Besides my mom of course. Her name is Molly Bates. She has the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen. Dark brown hair, so shiny it gleams. She has full kissable lips, and when she smiles she takes my breath away. Of course, I couldn’t ask her out. Why would she go out with me anyway? She’s hot. I know I’m not bad, but someone like her, well, she probably has men begging her to go out with them.
Molly looked up at Ryder and he nodded to the notebook, wanting her to continue.
October 5 a.m. – I haven’t had the courage to ask Molly out. I want to so bad. I’ve thought of her all week. Every day I wake up thinking about her. Every night I go to sleep thinking about her. I want to know all about her. What does she like? What does she think? Is she interested in me?
October 5 p.m. – I brought her home with me tonight. She was drunk and some asshole tried molesting her. I knocked him on his ass and brought Molly home so no one else would hurt her. I’ve been sitting in this chair for hours watching her sleep. She’s so beautiful. She looks peaceful sleeping in my bed. Her face is soft and relaxed and it makes my cock hard and my stomach flip-flop to look at her lying in my bed. She’s in MY bed. The only thing that could make this better would be me lying next to her with my arms around her. I’ve never felt like this about anyone before. It scares me a little, but it also excites me to think about being in love. Not sure if that’s what it is, but it sure is nice.
October 6 – Molly came on a bike ride with my family and me today. It was bittersweet having her on my bike. She felt so good behind me with her arms wrapped around me. I could feel her breasts pushing into my back and her legs wrapped around me and it felt…right. It was also hard but, well, I was hard. All fucking day I had a cock so hard I could hammer nails with it. Every time I heard her laugh, every time she climbed on my bike and wrapped her arms around me. Every time she said something in my ear, my cock twitched and throbbed. Bittersweet is a great way to describe today.
October 13 – Yesterday I made love for the first time in my life. I know I made love to Molly, because, I’ve never, ever felt like that with anyone before. I never will again. Dad was right, you know it when it hits you. That’s what he told me when I asked him how he knew Joci was the one for him. He said, “I just knew. You will too, you’ll know it when it hits you.” I got hit today with the love bug or whatever. It doesn’t feel scary like I thought it would. It feels good actually. The only thing that feels bad is the uncertainty. That feels bad. I have no idea how Molly feels. It’s too soon to have that conversation. But I do know I can’t wait to see her later today. We have to work at the build again today. Tonight, Mom and Dad want us all to come over for dinner and enjoy each other since we’ve been working so hard. Mom seems to like Sunday dinners. It seems like it might be the start of a nice family tradition. I’m asking Molly to join us for family dinner. She fits with all of us and I really want to spend the time with her.
November 7 – Molly and I have spent almost every day together since the first time we made love. I never knew life could be like this. So amazing. I look forward to waking up every morning so I can see her and spend time with her. She’s funny. She has a great personality. She’s smart, beautiful, actually, she’s perfect. I’m in love, madly in love with Molly Bates.
November 12 – I told Molly that I loved her today and she told me she loved me as well. We’re moving in together and I can’t wait. I’m going to marry that girl as soon as I can. Is there a time frame you have to wait to ask the woman you love to marry you? My dad asked Joci within a few months, maybe three or four, of them actually dating. He didn’t want to wait anymore for her to be his wife. I don’t want to wait either, but I’m not sure how Molly feels about that.
November 13 – Molly’s landlord died and his son came to the house today to discuss Molly purchasing the house. He’s a creepy fuck and he had Molly cornered in the kitchen when I walked in. I’m so damn glad I got there in time. I hate to think what would have happened if I didn’t come home. I would have to kill that son of a bitch if he had touched her. She’s mine. She’s the love of my life and I’ll kill anyone that hurts her.
November 15 – Molly and Gunnar are brother and sister. No shit. We were celebrating Gunnar’s adoption at Mom and Dad’s house. Gunnar had a box from his biological dad’s wife with pictures in it. He asked Mom to look at it with him and Molly saw a picture of her mom. One thing led to another and now Mom thinks Keith is also Molly’s dad. Friggin unreal. We’re going to see Molly’s mom and find out. She’s nervous. I’m excited for her and Gunnar. They’ll each have each other as well as all of us. Now that I look at both of them, I see it. It seems weird that we never thought they looked like each other before. But, now, it’s almost impossible not to see it.
November 17 – I met Molly’s mom today. Actually, she didn’t even realize Molly and I were in the room, she was focused on Gunnar. Gunnar looks a lot like Keith and Tori zoned in on that immediately. I’m so proud of Molly though. She sat there while her mom gushed over Gunnar and never shed a tear. I can’t imagine sitting next to my mom, either of them, and have them not know who I am. My Molly is a strong woman. I love her more every day, as impossible as that seems.
November 19 – We’re celebrating my grandparents’ fiftieth wedding anniversary tonight. Mom has been spending a lot of time helping my aunts plan this party. Molly’s nervous, but I can’t wait to introduce her to my whole family as my girlfriend. She’s the most beautiful woman in the world and, every day, I fall in love more and more. We still haven’t told everyone I’m moving in and buying the house with her. We will after all of this stuff blows over with Gunnar and Molly and them being brother and sister. That will probably be the talk of the evening and I know she’s nervous about that. We have time. I’m trying to be patient, but, sometimes it’s hard. I want to shout it from the rooftops, “I’m in love with Molly Bates and she loves me.” Maybe I’ll do that one day.
November 24 - Jepson came to the house again today and scared the shit out of Molly. That bastard better not ever lay a hand on her. She’s so special to me and I don’t want anything to happen to her. Ever. I’m going to talk to my Uncle Tommy to see what we can do.
December 4 – We got our first Christmas tree today. It was fun to go out to the tree farm and cut down our first tree. Danny and Tammy got their first tree together today as well. Molly told me that since she was eleven, she hasn’t had a tree. Something terrible happened to this woman, and I need to find out what it is so I can help her move past it. But, from this point forward, we are going to have big Christmas trees every year. We made love under the tree after Tammy and Danny left. It was amazing, hearing Molly moan as I made love to her, smelling the pine of the tree and feeling her body love me back. I don’t have the words to explain how it feels when I’m with her, in her.
December 5 a.m. – Today is the deadline for Jeffrey Jepson to agree to the purchase price of the house. We haven’t seen him since the day he was here and scared the crap out of Molly. He better not ever show up again. I didn’t like the way he was looking at her and he gave Molly the creeps, big time. Of course, who could blame him for being attracted to her? She’s the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. Have I said I love her? If not, I’m crazy in love with Molly Bates.
December 5 p.m. – My heart was broken today. I’ve heard people talk about a broken heart before and thought it was a bunch of crap. But now I know. My heart is broken into so many pieces, I don’t know if it can ever be put back together. Molly left me a note today, telling me she was breaking up with me. I need to find her to make her tell me what happened. Everything was perfect yesterday and I was planning in my mind how to ask her to marry me. Today, my world is black and gray.
December 8 a.m. – I’ve spent the past few days in the most agonizing turmoil any person could ever imagine. My heart is broken. I’m afraid I will never see m
y heart again. I’m afraid something horrible has happened to Molly. I’m scared that being afraid is how the rest of my life will be. I don’t want to be scared, I want Molly back. I’ll do anything to fix what I did wrong. I don’t even know what that is, but I’ll fix it. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t think. I feel stuck in a vortex that keeps spinning, never moving forward, never moving back, just spinning.
December 8 p.m. – I got Molly back today. She came home and told us all what had happened. Molly hasn’t had a very easy life. But, I walked away. She hurt me and now that I know she is safe, I want some time to try and puzzle out why she wouldn’t be honest with me. She didn’t trust me enough to tell me about her stepfather and the abuse he put her through. She didn’t trust me to love her completely. She didn’t trust me.
December 10 – I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I don’t want to talk to anyone to see anyone. Molly has left dozens of messages on my phone, but dammit, my feelings are hurt. My heart hurts. I don’t know how to make it stop hurting.
December 12 – Molly came to see me today. I was mean to her and she left. Then I realized I was being stupid and petty and small. She came to see me and I shunned her. Shame on me. Our future is in my hands now.
December 12 p.m. - My heart miraculously mended in the very first moment I hugged Molly to me. Her touch healed me and made my black and gray days turn into the most vivid color. I love Molly, so much, I want to shout it to the world. We came to the hotel because the house felt creepy. We’re going to spend a couple of days here, making up.
December 21 – Molly and I have decided to move and buy a different house. This one just has too much bad mojo. I love the thought of finding a house with Molly and making it ours together. I hope we find something very soon. Mostly, I want Molly to be my wife. Molly, when you read this, I want you to know that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. You met a shy man, frustrated with himself and you now live with a man that feels bold, strong, confident, but mostly in love. Your love, Molly, has made me the man I am today, the man I always wanted to be. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Sharing each day with you, loving you, making love to you and hopefully, raising a family with you. Molly, will you marry me?