FAREWELL GHOST
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Farewell Ghost’s first album, Voices in the Dark, made them an overnight success and garnered a pair of Grammies, among numerous other accolades. Marquez and Farewell Ghost had released four subsequent albums, becoming a mainstay on Billboard charts and performing exhausting tours around the world. However, their latest effort, Let Me Out, Let Me In, evoked a critical and popular backlash that was known to trouble Marquez.
Ghost’s surviving members dismissed the idea of suicide. “Savy loved what she did for a living,” said Janet O’Connor, a spokesperson for the band’s management company. “I’ve personally chatted with Joe and Gregory and they agree she was in excellent spirits and couldn’t wait to get on the road again.”
Investigators confirmed finding medication prescribed for her throat infection in her residence. Whether the medication contributed in any way to Marquez’s fall, or if the singer was alone at the time of the incident, is not currently known.
Marquez is survived by her two brothers, Guillermo, 30, a drug treatment counselor in Van Nuys, California, and Mickey, 19, a student at Stanford University. “My sister was not the preeminent woman in rock and roll,” Mickey Marquez read in a family statement this morning. “She was a preeminent rock star, period, with a passion that could win an audience in a single verse, and no one took the art of playing guitar more seriously.”
While not on tour, Marquez split her time between Paris and Los Angeles. Though she was engaged on two occasions, Marquez never married and lived alone in her Paris flat. Funeral services have not yet been arranged.
The ceremony was private, and the press and paparazzi and fans and worshippers, were kept at bay outside the cemetery gates. But if you had a reason for being on the grounds, and if you arrived hours before the gates were closed to all traffic save limos and headlighted cars, and if you kept a low-enough profile and expressed your grief genuinely, you were overlooked.
Clay started his morning sitting in the grass at the grave of Payton Alexander. He had been here a few times through the years, often mired in guilt. He still enjoyed talking to Alexander—Payton, call me Payton, Clay—even if his therapist didn’t talk back.
An hour before the ceremony, Clay moved closer to where the large canvas canopy had been arranged and knelt by the grave of someone named Francis Scapelletti, 1922-1993.
The services were just as Savy would have wanted them, undramatic, nondenominational, full of people and music. Her abuela had passed a few years earlier—if she hadn’t, the news of Savy’s death would have surely stopped her heart—but Clay spotted Mickey, very much grown up now, standing hand in hand with his gorgeous girlfriend, and Mo, who was healthy and muscular as he delivered his sister’s eulogy with the vigor and heartfelt emotion of a seasoned orator.
After him, a Hollywood actor that Savy had once been engaged to spoke earnestly about his time with her. Then it was Fiasco and Spider who stepped forward with an acoustic guitar and djembe drum to play “Away for Safekeeping,” one of Farewell Ghost’s better-known ballads, performing it slowly, solemnly, and without vocals to symbolize the missing voice among them.
Finally, the five members of Cloak and Dagger, a band that had toured with Ghost, and who were considered to be rock music’s “next big thing,” played an upbeat song about “the music living on and on, even after all of us are gone.” To Clay, they looked like they were still in high school, with their spiked hair and trendy all-black suits, but he supposed that was only the mark of time passing—his generation growing older, taking on additional responsibilities, starting families, buying fewer records, going to fewer shows, while the kids who had grown up to replace them fell madly in love with bands that had been around for decades and formed bands of their own to shape the next chapter of music and all its subcultures.
In the end, there were too many people—extended family and friends, musicians, members of Ghost’s touring team—crowding in for Clay to see the casket being lowered into the ground. And too soon everyone was dispersing, some in tears, some talking broodingly, others checking their phones and hurrying off to their next commitments.
Savy’s brothers and her band stayed behind to accept final condolences before they made the long, slow procession back to the waiting limos. And that was when Mo stared subtly out across the rows of graves and gave Clay an even subtler nod. When everyone had gone, the funeral director and his assistant broke down the canopy and folding seats and grabbed the corkboard of pictures that had been set out at the head of the grave, before they too departed—another day done in the business of inevitability.
Mo had informed Clay that there would be a respectful fifteen minutes from the time the last cars left to when the gravediggers showed up to fill the grave.
Clay used a few of those minutes to double back and retrieve the guitar case he’d stashed in the bushes.
Then he climbed the hill to Savannah’s grave and sat down. The headstone wasn’t in place, so there was only a rectangular pit. With the casket waiting at the bottom. Clay stared down at the red roses strewn across its black lid. In a show of reverence, the attending musicians had dropped their picks and bows and drumsticks down there too.
A breeze wandered through the treetops and was still. The latches on Clay’s case clacked and he lifted the guitar out and held it in his lap. “I was playing a show in Boston last year,” he said. “There was this girl in the audience who looked a little familiar.” He plucked at the guitar, found it slightly out of tune, and tweaked the keys. “I blinked and she was gone. But a few others noticed her too, hiding under a newsboy cap with a pair of Clark Kent glasses. After the show, I went back to my motel and wrote a song for that girl….”
Silence held, thirty seconds, more, before the first chords rose from the guitar. The breeze carried the sudden melody over the grounds, but there wasn’t anyone else to hear. Not gravediggers or mourners or fans. No one heard the words that Clay sang to Savannah that morning. And in the years to follow, Clay would never again perform the song or utter the lyrics. It was hers—theirs—and would remain a secret between them.
When it was over, and silence returned, Clay shut his eyes and felt the sunlight on his face. How hard it was to touch the past again, he thought. Half the point of being young was enjoying it; the other half was surviving it. But in surviving it, you realized no one ever survived completely. Because when your youth was gone, a part of you was lost. And those certain songs that reminded you of who you were, the dreams you’d had, and all the good things you’d once taken for granted, even those songs seemed fleeting and insufficient.
The guitar fell from Clay’s hands and landed almost soundlessly on the flowers in Savy’s grave.
Clay gripped the manicured grass in both fists, as if to hold back the turning of the earth and the rapid march of time, if only for a moment.
After a while he lifted himself and walked on….
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
This book would not have been possible without the love and support of my beautiful wife, Angela, and our incredible music-loving boys. Thank you to my Jersey Mom (Reader #1, Beatlemaniac) and my father (who saw Zeppelin open for Iron Butterfly), and to my family and friends for their encouragement through the years.
Extra special thanks go out to the William Byrne Experience and the Jonah A. Goldstein Band for taking this project, and its visual trailer, up to “11”!
For steady inspiration: Bruce, Bad Religion, The Gaslight Anthem, Tool, Dave Grohl, Rise Against, Mike Patton, The Lords of Thunder, and that band in that club whose name I never learned (you ruled).
And to every writer, musician, and artist who’s hungry for it and grinds for it every day, this book is dedicated to you!
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About The Author
Larry Caldwell
Larry Caldwell studied writing at t
he University of Maine and Emerson College. Originally from the Land of Springsteen, he's now lost somewhere in Los Angeles. His ghost friends are cooler than your ghost friends.
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