Second You Sin - Sherman, Scott

by Scott Sherman

  “I didn’t,” I began. “I mean, I shouldn’t because . . . I’m kind of . . .” Andrew’s hand rested firmly on my rapidly responding guy parts and squeezed. Released. Squeezed again. Had I been saying something?

  “I have a semi—”BoyfriendI was about to say.

  “I can feel,” Andrew interrupted. “If this is the semi, I can’t wait to feel it full on.”

  “No, I have a . . .”

  “Kevin,” his voice was raspy. “Kevin. I want you.”

  This was all moving a little fast. I put my hands on his knees and pushed him away. The task chair scooted a few inches back and Andrew pulled his hands back. He looked a little mystified, and I guessed he wasn’t used to being turned down.

  “Listen,” I said, “you’re a great-looking guy and don’t take this wrong, but . . .”

  I wasn’t exactly sure what I was going to say, but it didn’t matter. The door flew open and the doorway filled with a tall, gorgeous, and familiar figure.

  “Damn it to hell, Andrew,” Yvonne bellowed, “can’t I turn around for one minute without you bringing your latest ‘production assistant’ into your office for a quick round of Hide the Chorizo?”

  You know how, when you see people on TV or in the movies, you think that they’re probably not as good-looking as they are onscreen? That the lighting and makeup and stagecraft cover a multitude of sins?

  Well, as someone who’s had sex with more than a few closeted celebrities, I can tell you you’re right. Nine times out of ten, the people you see in movies or on shows are shorter, fatter, paler, and more pockmarked than you’d expect.

  But to every rule there is the exception, and Yvonne was definitely Exception Girl. On her daily talkfest, she looks pretty but not amazingly so. There’s an everyday averageness about her that puts the daytime audience at ease and makes her relatable.

  In person, Yvonne was a knockout. More statuesque and shapely than I thought, with a bodacious figure that was all boobs and ass. Her heart-shaped face framed wide eyes, a perfect manmade nose (which matched the boobs in that respect), and full over-plumped lips. I’d guess she had a nip and tuck along the way; her skin was gorgeous but almost too smooth. She looked a little manufactured, yes, but still breathtaking, in the way that great architecture is magnificent.

  Which is to say, the Eiffel Tower may be a thing of beauty forever, but I can’t imagine anyone wanting to fuck it.

  Yvonne, either. Maybe I’d warm up to her, but right now, she exuded all the charm of a bulldozer.

  “Yvonne,” Andrew said, rising from his chair. “I was just talking to Kevin, here, he’s actually not a . . .”

  Yvonne held up her hand. “Spare me,” she hissed. Were her brow not paralyzed by Botox, I guessed it would have been furrowed in anger. “It’s just that when I show up on set, I expect my segment producer to be waiting for me. It would be nice to know what thefuckI’m doing in wherever thefuckI am. Where am I, anyway? Is this Detroit? It smells like Detroit.”

  Andrew grabbed a clipboard off his desk. “You’re a half hour early, Yvonne. We weren’t expecting you yet.”

  Yvonne’s mouth turned a millimeter lower and Andrew jumped in to interrupt the frown.

  “Which is great, that you’re here early. Just great. That’s why you’re the best!”

  Apparently, the compliments worked, as Yvonne’s lips returned to the neutral level where I assumed the collagen had settled.

  “Let’s go to your bus and get you comfortable, and I’ll let you know what we’re doing here today,” Andrew said in his calmest voice.

  “Fine,” Yvonne said, still annoyed. She waved a hand at me. “And why isn’t Flavor of the Week wearing one of my T-shirts?”

  “Hi,” I said, extending my hand, “I’m Kevin, and I don’t actually . . .”

  Yvonne looked at my hand as if it contained a steaming pile of shit. “I’m sorry,” she said, “was I speaking to you?”

  “Well, no, but I . . .”

  She turned to Andrew again. “Would you please explain The Rules to him? Because I really can’t bear every little peon who works here yammering at me all day.”

  OK, I take back my earlier comment. I don’t want to offend any bulldozers.

  Andrew put his hand on her back. “Let’s just go to your bus and get you all ready,” Andrew said in the manner of a kindergarten teacher taking sharp scissors away from a five-year-old.

  “Listen, lady,” I began, but Andrew turned his head around so quickly that I feared whiplash for him. His eyes opened as wide as they could and his mouth formed a long and soundless “Please.” I knew anything I said would make him look bad so I suppressed my natural urge to tell Yvonne just where she could put her precious Rules.

  “Why don’t you wait here,” Andrew said to me as he ushered Her Highness out the door. “I’ll be back in a bit and show you how we monitor the show from here.”

  “I’m sure you’ll show him a hell of a lot more than that.” Yvonne snickered.

  I’ve never been so happy to see a woman leave a room.

  I gave Andrew and Cruella a few minutes to clear the decks, and then left the bus to check in with my mother. She was talking to one of what seemed like one hundred identically dressedYvonnestaffers. I heard her as I approached.

  “ . . . more surprised than I was,” she was telling the thirty-something, short, plump young woman with purple streaks in her black hair and a tool belt around her waist. “I mean, my son dating a policeman! How incongruous! You should really have them on the show. Or, better yet, you could haveme back, talkingabout them! Maybe I could be a regular, like that cute Nate Berkus on . . .”

  “Mom,” I said. “How’s it going?”

  My mother put an arm around me. “I was just talking with Margie here.”

  “I heard.”

  “Margie’s a very important person on Yvonne’s staff,” my mother said. “I was giving her some show ideas.”

  “I hang the lights,” Margie said in a deep voice, looking a little uncomfortable with her unexpected promotion.

  “Well,” I said, “it’s nice to meet you. The lights look very, um, well hung.”

  “Thanks.”

  We stood looking at the lights for a moment.

  “I have to go,” Margie said.

  My mother pulled her into an embrace. “Darling, thank you so much for your input. I’m sure we’ll be working together again soon!”

  Margie had that who-is-this-crazy-woman expression on her face that I’d come to know from a million other strangers unwillingly pulled into my mother’s bizarre and scary universe.

  “Yeah, bye,” Margie said, scampering away faster than I thought a woman of her height and weight could move.

  “Everyone’s sonice,” my mother effused. “I feel like Queen for a Day! Maybe I’ll wind up as Yvonne’s personal stylist out of all this!”

  “If she’s crazy,” I muttered to myself.

  “What’s that?” my mother asked.

  OK, maybe muttering wasn’t my thing. “I said, ‘If she’s crazy about the hairstyle, why not?’ ”

  “This is so exciting! I’m going to be a star!”

  “Well, brace yourself, because I just met Yvonne and, believe me, she’s not the woman you see on TV.”

  “What do you mean?” My mother’s eyes narrowed.

  “I mean, she was kind of a bitch.”

  At that, my mother gasped. Yes, actually gasped. I thought for a second she was going to slap me.

  “A bitch?A bitch?Do you have any idea how many children with AIDS she’s had on her show? All the money she’s raised for homeless veterans? The church she personally helped build in New Orleans?”

  “I’m just saying . . .”

  “Yvonne is asaint,” my mother asserted. “She’s like Mother Teresa, only she obviously follows a much more stringent skin-care routine. Why, with all Mother Teresa’s good works, no one ever offered that woman a bottle of sunscreen, I’ll never know.”

  �
�Yeah, well, not everything is like how you see it on TV, Mom. I’m telling you, I just met Yvonne, and that woman is as evil as a box of bees. She’s . . .”

  “Here.” I saw my mother’s eyes widen as she gazed at something over my shoulder. “Oh my God, she’shere!”

  I turned and saw the woman I had just been describing as Hitler with breasts walking toward us with utter grace and serenity, flanked by Andrew, who followed two steps behind on her left. Yvonne ignored me as she approached my mother. She placed her hand on my mother’s arm. I thought I saw my mother’s knees buckle.

  “I hear,” Yvonne said, her voice pure silk and honey, “that you’re going to be making me look beautiful today.”

  Had Jesus Christ himself just descended from the ceiling in a halo of sunlight and angels, I don’t think my mother’s expression could have been any more beatific. “Yvonne,” my mother croaked, her voice betraying her awe, “God made you beautiful. I can only hope to gild the lily. The lily of you.”

  I threw up a little in the back of my mouth.

  “Oh, dear.” Yvonne threw back her head and laughed warmly. “If not for my makeup men and hairstylists, well, let’s just say you wouldn’t want to see me first thing in the morning.”

  Throw in some plastic surgeons and personal trainers,I thought,and there might be some truth to that.But I could see Yvonne had her Humility set to high.

  “But look at you,” Yvonne continued. She put a hand on my mother’s cheek and I saw my mother resist the urge to kiss her palm. “I would kill for skin like this, dear. Now be honest—have you had a little work done?”

  My mother shook her head, but not so vigorously as to dislodge Yvonne’s hand. “It’s all thanks to Mary Kay. We sell her full line of products here. I’ll give you some before you leave today. Free.”

  I doubted Yvonne put anything on her skin that cost less than one hundred dollars an ounce, but she smiled as if she’d just won the lottery. “You are too kind. Well, I have to get ready for the show, but I did want to introduce myself to you before the cameras started rolling. I can tell you are going to be marvelous on the show, dear. Thank you so much for having us out here.”

  Yvonne was as lovely and gracious as could be. Had I not seen the scene in the bus, I’d have been in love with her, too.

  “Thankyou,” my mother gushed. “Oh,” she said, remembering me standing next to her. “Let me introduce you. This is . . .”

  “Yes, we’ve already met,” Yvonne said. She gave me a warm smile. “So good to see you again, dear. Now remember,” she said sweetly, “next time I see you, I want you to be wearing one of my T-shirts, right?” She playfully wagged her finger at me. “Naughty boy. All right, I must go. See you all soon!” Yvonne floated away.

  My mother stood star-struck for a few seconds.

  “OK,” I said, “I admit she seemed nice just then but . . .”

  “Not. Another. Word.” My mother was ice. “I don’t know what you were thinking, but that woman is a saint.”

  “Or so you’ve said.”

  My mother looked at me as if I’d just spouted fangs. “You’re not turning into one of those homosexuals who hate all women, are you?”

  “Mom!”

  “She even offered to give you a T-shirt.”

  “She thinks I work for her!”

  “What?” my mother asked.

  “Just . . . never mind.” It was clear my mother was drunk on Yvonne’s Kool-Aid, and I didn’t have the antidote. No one could talk to my mother when she got like this, not even my . . .

  “Hey”—that reminded me—“where’s Dad?”

  “Oh, your father?”

  “Uh, yeah.”

  “Well, apparently,” my mother said with a longsuffering sigh, “your father didn’t want to be here today. He said something about how he didn’t need to be around me when I get ‘like this.’”

  “Hmmm,” I said. My father was a very smart man.

  “I don’t know what he meant, though. Do you?”

  “No,” I said, smiling and lying like a snake. “I can’t imagine.”

  Hey, if Yvonne could succeed as a deceitful, insincere bitch, maybe it would work for me, too.

  Another young woman in anYvonneT-shirt ran over. “Mrs. Connor, we need you in makeup right now.”

  “Didn’t they already do your makeup?” I asked.

  “This will be the third time,” my mother answered. “This is a strange business. But it keeps a lot of people employed, so that’s good.”

  “This will be it,” the young woman assured. “After this last touch up, we’ll be doing a ten-minute interview with you about your little business here, and then it’s time to bring out Yvonne!”

  Normally, my mother would have been insulted by the reference to her “little business,” but today she was too happy to object. Instead, she bounced a little on her heels and clapped her hands. “An interview? With me? Isn’t thisexciting!”

  For what I hoped would be the last time, I agreed that this was, at the very least, the transcendent experience of a lifetime. “Good luck,” I said, kissing her on the cheek as she was hustled away. “I love you.” I waved.

  “Love you, too,” she called, waving back.

  For some reason, I felt like an onlooker bidding farewell to a loved one as she boarded theTitanic.

  15

  Watch Closely Now I was about to step outside for some air when I felt a strong hand clamp on my shoulder. “Come on,” Andrew said, “let’s go watch the show.” He started walking toward the door.

  “Shouldn’t I stay in here?” “You’d only be in the way. They’ll be shooting for hours. We’ll watch from the bus.”

  Andrew led me back to the mobile studio and ushered me into his makeshift office. He shut the door after us. “There will be some production assistants coming in and out during the taping,” he explained, “but that shouldn’t start for another few minutes. They may need me for something. But for the next little bit”—he put his hand on the back of my head—“we should have some privacy.”

  “Don’t you have to be out there for the taping?”

  “No,” Andrew said. “Now that we’re all set up, everything’s taken over by the segment director. My job is basically done. But I do have to stick around in case something comes up. And,” he added, “to do this.”

  He leaned down and pulled me toward him for a kiss.

  “Hey.” I pushed away. “Maybe you better pull into the slow lane for a while, Andrew. I don’t remember the part where I told you I was interested.”

  “Uh, how about all those hours you spent staring at me at the those practices, Kevin? Or was that just your overwhelming interest in lacrosse?”

  “OK,” I said. “But that was a high school crush. I’m kind of involved right now.”

  “Oh.” Andrew frowned. “Sorry. Anyone I know?”

  Tony was in Andrew’s graduating class. But since he was determined to keep us on the down low, I answered no. I hated having to lie about us.

  “Lucky guy,” Andrew said. “And I totally respect your relationship.” He dropped a hand to his crotch and let it rest there. “But I’m not looking to get married, Kevin. I just thought we could maybe have a good time, you know?”

  “I know, but . . .”

  Andrew squeezed his crotch. “There aren’t that many things in high school I wanted that I didn’t get,” he continued. “You’re one of them.”

  I had to admit I was getting distracted by his hand, and the formidable bulge that was rising underneath.

  “Thanks, but . . .”

  “You know,” he said, stepping a little closer to me, “if we got it on right now, it’s not like you went out there looking for it. You’d just be wrapping up some unfinished business. Nothing wrong with that.”

  He took his hand from his crotch and used it to grab one of mine. “Right?” He put my hand where his had been. “You can feel I’ve really been looking forward to seeing you again.”

  Is th
at a lacrosse stick in your pocket, or are you just glad to see me?

  If you had told me back in high school that I even had a chance with Andrew Miller, I would have called you nuts. Andrew was unattainable, a jock god. Saying no to him was going to be quite a challenge.

  I squeezed my hand a little—just a little—to get a sense of what I was about to turn down. Andrew gave a low moan that didn’t do much to strengthen my resolve.

  After all, Tony was the one who didn’t want to be in a committed relationship. So, what was my problem?

  Andrew took advantage of my momentary weakness and pulled me toward him. He bent his knees a bit so that our erections ground against each other.Ourerections? When had I gone hard? Maybe I should be paying more attention,I thought.

  His lips moved toward my neck. He exhaled lustily and the hot shock of his breath on my skin was wickedly erotic.

  “I knew you wanted this,” he whispered lustfully into my ear.

  I suppose I should have been glad one of us knew what I wanted, because I sure as hell didn’t.

  So, what made him so sure?

  Suddenly, I saw Andrew not as the irresistible object of my helpless, hopeless teenaged crush, but as the arrogant star athlete who always got his way. Although that was the kind of boy I might have been attracted to back then—and who wasn’t?—it didn’t mean I liked him very much. I didn’t evenknowhim.

  While Yvonne might have been an insufferable bitch, she might have been kind of right, too. How many other boyshadAndrew brought into this little high-tech cubicle of seduction, confident that his ridiculous good looks and huskily whispered endearments would sweep them off their feet?