“Talking is overrated,” she winked, walking into her bedroom. I had only now noticed what she was wearing. She had on a skimpy tank top that was practically see-through and a pair of short, spandex shorts that hugged her curves perfectly. She had one killer body and I was about to devour every inch of it. My dick jumped as she crawled on the bed on her hands and knees. She threw me a playful smile over her shoulder and then fell onto her back, gesturing with her finger for me to join her. I kicked off my boots and tore at my shirt like it was on fire. Alex giggled as I flew onto the bed and tackled her. She kissed me fervently. It was almost as if she couldn’t get enough. I pulled back, but her lips followed.
“Alex,” I mumbled through the kissing. Soft lips caressed my jaw and neck, making it hard to concentrate on anything else. “Alex,” I tried again. “What are we doing?”
“I thought we were kissing?” Pressing the sweetest kiss to my lips, she smiled.
I grazed her cheek with the back of my hand, she closed her eyes and her mouth made the slightest humming noise. Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear, I rested my forehead on hers. “Alex, I need to know what’s going to happen next.”
“I thought you didn’t make plans,” she teased, jutting her chin forward, her tongue snaking out to taste my lips.
I pulled away, needing to focus, which she was making hard to do. “Alex, you know what I mean. I don’t want to wake up and find you gone again.”
“Casper, we’re in my apartment. Why would I leave?”
“Can you be serious for a second?” I snapped.
“Someone forget to take their Midol today?” I shot her a warning look. “Okay, sorry. Last one, promise.”
I waited a beat before I started. “Before we continue. I need to know this is it. That there’s no one else from now on. Just you and me.”
She bit her lip, contemplating. It was only a few seconds before she agreed but those few seconds were the longest in my life. I pushed her down on the bed softly, leaving a trail of kisses along her jaw before connecting with her lips. “I need to hear you say it Alex. That you’re mine. I won’t continue until I hear it from your lips. I don’t want anyone else. I only want you, but if we’re not on the same page then I can’t –”
She pressed two, long fingers to my lips. “I don’t want anyone else either.” I took those fingers in my mouth and sucked, running my teeth over them as she slowly pulled them out, making the humming noise again.
“I need to hear it Alex. Tell me you’re mine.”
“Casper, I was always yours.” My whole body hummed with excitement. Just hearing her say those words was the best thing I have ever heard in my life. I kissed her lips, slipping my tongue out to get a taste. I tugged lightly on her bottom lip, sucking before I let go. I kissed her chin, her neck, traveling down her chest. I skimmed my palm over her side, creating little bumps on her skin. I blew hot air over her nipple making it hard. Her chest pushed up into my mouth. I smiled, opening wide, and sucked her breast over her shirt. Her lips formed a breathless O as I cupped the other breast.
Alex’s hands found their way into my hair. She lightly grazed my scalp with her finger nails causing me to moan against her breast and making her skin vibrate from the sound. I pushed her shirt up, kissing the skin above her shorts, moving lower. Both hands smoothed over her hips and around to her backside so I could remove her shorts, but not before I gave a squeeze. She giggled softly at my teasing. Next I removed her top not wanting anything from keeping me from seeing her naked body. She smiled up at me as I grazed my fingers gently across her temple and cheek. “You are so beautiful,” I whispered. I ran my thumb over her bottom lip. She kissed my thumb. I pushed her knees apart, running my fingers along the smooth silky white skin of her inner thighs. Her breath was heavy as my tongue licked her bikini line. I wanted to tease her and torture her. I enjoyed working her up into a frenzy. It excited me in ways I couldn’t explain. My mouth hovered just above her most sensitive areas. “Is Declan home?” I asked, my warm breath blowing on her.
“No,” she gasped.
“Is your body guard going to be back anytime soon?”
She laughed. “No.”
I grinned wide. “I’m going to make you scream.” I spread her wide with my fingers. I licked her once, twice before running a finger over the slick surface. She gasped, urging me to continue. I wanted to bury my face in between her legs and go to town but Alex was delicate and I needed to take my time with her. I slipped a finger in slowly and then pulled it right back out before sliding in again. When I knew she was ready, I slipped in a second, gradually building speed. Alex’s hips pushed down on my fingers. I wrapped an arm around her leg to keep her steady.
She stopped and sat up on her elbows. I looked up. “I thought you said you were going to make me scream?” I raised a brow at her. She sat up all the way and grabbed my chin, pulling me in for a kiss. “Mm,” she licked her lips. My dick was now fully erect and rubbing against the inside of my jeans. “You need to stop being a little pussy bitch and fuck me,” she said against my lips. I froze for a second, not believing what I just heard. She dragged her tongue over my chin, lips, flicking the tip of my nose.
I growled, throwing her down on the bed. She laughed excitedly. “You are in for a world of trouble little girl.” Gripping her thighs I yanked her down lower on the bed, bending to bury my face in between her legs. Now that I didn’t have to hold back, I just went for it. Lips sucking, teeth nibbling as I slipped back in two fingers. I dipped my tongue in deep, circling her clit as I finger fucked her hard. She yelped, arching her back.
“Casper,” she cried. Her heels pushed down onto the bed, slipping on the sheets. I dug in deeper, lips practically buried inside her. She was quivering and I knew she was close. I slipped in a third finger nearly sending her over the edge. My fingers and tongue moved simultaneously until she screamed. I pulled my fingers out slowly, pushing in again. She clenched, gasping. I placed a kiss on her clit while pulling my fingers out. My tongue flicked out, licking her soft, warm wetness. She whimpered, grabbing me by the hair and pulling me on top of her. I kissed and bit her lips so hard I thought I might bruise them. She threw me on to my back, tearing at my pants trying to get them off.
She reached into her nightstand and retrieved a condom. She ripped the package open with her teeth and slipped the rubber over my hard shaft. Lifting her hips, she positioned herself above me, gripping the base of my cock to slip inside her. We both let out a gasp at the sensation. Gripping her hips I pushed myself into her as she rode me, rocking back and forth.
We both lay back on the bed, panting, our bodies covered in sweat. I gripped the side of her face, turning her to face me. “I love you Alex,” I said, pressing a soft kiss to her lips. She smiled back, running her fingers in my hair. “I’m sorry for all the ways I hurt you. I’m sorry that you had –”
She pressed her fingers to my lips. “Shh, all that doesn’t matter now.” I smiled, staring into her beautiful green eyes. “What are you doing tonight?”
“You,” I grinned, grabbing her behind and pulling her closer to me.
“Cute, but no.” I frowned. “I have plans.”
“With who?” I asked a little too defensively.
“Declan and my brothers.”
“Cancel,” I said as I began to kiss her neck.
“I can’t.”
“Sure you can.” I kissed her lips and she pulled away. I narrowed my eyes at her.
“If you would stop being such a whore for a second and listen.”
“Ouch. Funny.”
“Well you weren’t listening,” she giggled.
“Fine,” I said, resting my chin on her chest. “I’m all ears.”
“The guy that you like to call my body guard,” I raised my brows. “Is my brother Jack. He got leave for a couple days before he has to ship out and we’re all getting together tonight.” That would explain why he looked familiar. “And I want you to come with.”
“Re
ally?” I asked, feeling slightly nervous and excited at the same time. I did confess my love to Alex right in front him. She smiled, biting her lower lip. “I’d love to.”
Chapter 20
Alexis
Casper told me he loved me. He said I love you, several times. I thought about those three little words as I washed away all the dirtiness from our earlier activities. After inviting him to hang with my family tonight, I sent him on his way, knowing if I didn’t we would never make it there and my brothers would come looking for me and they would be armed.
I sighed, content, as I washed the conditioner out of my hair. Casper was in love with me, he loved me and I think I loved him too. I didn’t say it back. I couldn’t. I wasn’t ready yet. I knew the moment I told him, when those words left my lips, that would be it. That would be the end for me. No one else would be able to fulfill the need the way Casper did.
I almost didn’t answer the door. I almost walked away from Casper. But Jack had convinced me not to. “It’s your choice Alex,” he said. “Some risks are worth taking,” he smiled, flicking my chin. In that moment I knew. Casper was worth the risk. All the heartache and pain I put myself through because I was too scared. Too scared to open myself to the potential of someone who needed me just as much as I needed them.
I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower, happier than I had been in weeks. I wiped the fog from the mirror and stared at my smiling reflection. I haven’t had the courage to smile since I caught Reece with his pants down. Just thinking about it made my smile falter. I scratched the thought from my mind. He could no longer hurt me. I made sure of that. He actually had the audacity to show up at my place begging for forgiveness. He would text me, send me flowers and gifts. I shredded everything and mailed it back to him. I think he finally got the hint when I cut off the head of the teddy bear he sent me and stabbed it in the pretend balls. He stopped texting after that. Last I heard he moved on, pretty quickly if I might add, to some short, anorexic brunette who he met at my work of all places. I could have cared less. C’est la vie.
Jack had come over to the house alone, to surprise me. Everyone had forewarned him of my mood and that was the reason they had all decided to stay away. They even went as far as to ask Jack to not invite me out with them for fear of who I would decide to take my anger out on. I was pretty harsh to them, but in my defense, they deserved it. I was also pretty sure Jack had already informed them of Casper’s confession. I myself still couldn’t believe it. I floated down the hall to my room searching through my closet for something to wear. When I couldn’t find anything, I called Declan and asked her to go shopping. I heard a lot of static, a clang, and then some muffled scratching.
“Sorry, dropped the phone. What did you say?”
I covered my mouth to mute my laugh. “I said, I want to go shopping for an outfit tonight. Are you coming with or not?”
“I’ll be there in five minutes.” The line went silent. I laughed, tossing my phone on the bed and looked for a pair of jeans and shirt to wear.
I had just finished drying my hair when my bedroom door slammed open. Declan stood there, breathless, both hands perched on the wooden frame. I looked up at her, brows raised. “Who are you and what have you done with Alex?”
I rolled my eyes. “Declan, seriously.” She eyed me suspiciously. “So I take it you weren’t at Colt’s.”
“Yes, but…” She was so confused. It was obvious she hadn’t run into Casper, which made me wonder where he was. “Why are you so happy?”
“Can’t a girl just be happy and want to go shopping with her best friend just for the hell of it?”
“Normal girls, yes. You, no.” She let go of the door and took a step into the room looking around for clues.
I narrowed my eyes at her. “What exactly are you looking for?”
“The real Alex.”
“Declan, knock it off.”
“Wait a minute, where’s Casper?” I shrugged. I honestly didn’t know. “Colt said he was on his way over here and now,” she gasped. “You didn’t. You finally did it. That’s why you’re so happy.” I was about to tell her yes until the conversation took a turn for the worst. “You killed him and buried his body in the woods. Okay, we need an alibi. I was with you the whole time,” she rambled on and on.
I fought the urge to smack her. “Declan, snap out of it,” I said, shaking her shoulders. “I did not kill Casper.” I stifled an eye roll. “But good to know you’ve got my back.”
“We’re family,” she shrugged like it was nothing. “What’s going on then?”
I let out a deep breath and smiled. “Casper told me he loved me.” She gasped again, covering her mouth. I dropped my arms and took a step back.
“And?” she prompted.
“And, well, not going to go into too many details but –”
She held up a hand to stop me. “What did you say to him?”
“Well, we didn’t do a lot of talking. If you know what I mean.”
She jumped on my bed bouncing up and down on her knees. “So what does all this mean? Did you say it back? Did you tell him you love him too?” I turned away from her shaking my head. Her excitement faded again. “Alex, what am I missing here? You do like Casper, don’t you?”
“Yes, absolutely. I just wasn’t ready to say it back. I’m not quite prepared for the aftermath of those words.”
“What do you mean?” she asked, sitting back on her heels and giving me her full attention.
“I just want to be prepared for the consequences of what I say.” She looked at me confused. “I never told anyone I loved them and there never was anyone I did. So I know once I say it I’m going to be opening up my heart and exposing it to all kinds of dangers. I’m going to be putting everything on the line once I do this and I’m just scared. I never felt this way about someone and I’m not sure what to do.”
Declan pulled me down on the bed next to her. “Alex, I understand and it’s perfectly normal to be scared. I can promise you this, Casper isn’t going anywhere. That boy is head over heels in love with you and would give up his left nut to be with you.” I raised a brow. “I’m serious Alex, you have no idea the bullshit Colt and I had to go through with him. I’m just glad it’s finally over.”
“Almost.” She pulled back. “Jack has to approve.”
“Well you don’t have to worry about that for a while.”
“More like a couple of hours.” She looked at me surprised. “Jack’s home and we’re all going out tonight, hence the new outfit.”
“And you’re just telling me this now?”
“Hey, he surprised me this morning, just before Casper showed up to confess his love.”
“No way,” her eyes widened. “He told you he loved you in front of Jack?”
“He didn’t know Jack was there when he was yelling it through the door.”
Declan threw her head back laughing. “I wish I was here for that. What did Jack do? What did Casper do? Tell me everything.”
I told Declan all the details of this morning as we drove to the mall. Of course she had about a million questions and gushed over and over again about Casper telling me he loved me. For once, I didn’t mind. I was happy. I had my brother home. I was no longer denying myself the one thing that could make me feel good. My only fear now was the dinner tonight with Casper and my brothers. Casper had text me several times complaining about having to shower alone. I suggested if he really wanted a shower buddy he had two roommates he could invite to join him. He stopped asking.
“Do you know what the boys have planned for tonight?” Declan asked as she searched through the sales rack for a dress she didn’t already own.
“With them, who knows, but whatever it is I’m sure it will be fun,” I replied as I floated to the next rack. Declan eyed me over the circular fixture. “Why are you looking at me like that?”
“You. You just seem different.”
“Different how?”
She came around to
stand in front of me. Her eyes searched up and down as she leaned on the rack. “I don’t know. You just do.”
“Okay, can we go back to shopping, now?”
“I never thought I’d ever hear you say that,” she laughed. I shoved her playfully as she moved to the next cluster of sale items.
“Excuse me, miss. Do you have a Band-Aid? I just scraped my knee falling for you.”
I tried to hide my smile when I turned around to face him. He was wearing his cocky smile, his faux-hawk was messy and sticking up. He had on a blue shirt that brought out the color in his eyes. His causal stance told me he was in a playful mood, but the look in his eyes said he was hungry for something. From the way his eyes roamed my body I would have to say that something was me. I took a step towards him and tried to focus on anything but his lips. I threw him a sly smile. “That was pretty pathetic. Is that the best you got?” I challenged, slowly moving closer.
He scratched his chin and looked up in thought. “How about…I don’t have a library card but do you mind if I check you out?” I rolled my eyes as he inched closer. “Did you sit in a pile of sugar? Cause you have a pretty sweet ass.” I threw my head back and laughed. Casper slipped an arm around my waist, tugging me closer. “If nothing lasts forever, would you be my nothing?” My insides turned to mush when he lightly pulled down my bottom lip with his thumb, inching closer until our lips just barely touched.
“My love for you is like diarrhea. I just can’t hold it in.” I shoved him off of me as he laughed.
“Charming.” He pulled me back and placed the sweetest kiss on my lips. “What are you doing here and how did you know where I was?”
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