Tell No Lie, We Watched Her Die
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LIKE SOMEONE CRYING
Amanda Eston was buried in a pink marble garden crypt, surrounded by a lawn that was probably as trimmed and green as a U.S. Open course. You couldn’t tell today, though, because the grass was filled with flowers and stuffed animals and candles and handmade cards. With censored parts of her full video getting millions of hits a day on the Real Story site, she’d been officially rediscovered. Signs of her renewed celebrity, in fact, could be found all over the country: The Crazy Face label was reporting that its limited edition Amanda Eston T-shirt had sold out.
Beautiful sunny day. Clear sky, long-leafed willow trees lining the cemetery. Tasha, smelling like mango and lavender, was carrying two wreathes made of marigolds. I was walking with a cane. I thought of it as a tribute to Pear Wicinski.
Tasha placed one of her wreathes on the grave pile. We stood staring at the marble block, the name etched on its surface.
“I keep thinking of the morning after,” she said. “The morning after she died, the morning after I heard. I woke up thinking, this is the first morning of my life where my sister is no longer part of this world.”
She was still shaken by L.C.’s arrest. For five years she’d believed that Amanda had taken her own life. Now she knew it wasn’t true. In a twisted and tragic way, her sister had escaped the family history, eluded the genetic trap. Now Tasha had a five-year block of belief to demolish.
L.C. Martin was in jail, the medical wing, held as a suspect in the deaths of Amanda Eston and Pear Wicinski.
Robby Walsh was being investigated on various charges of conspiracy to commit assault and battery, and, with the cooperation of the van de Politie Amsterdam-Amstelland, for conspiracy in the death of Arnoud Shuyler. His wife had left him, he’d lost his lobbying jobs and he was now living in the condo near the Firecreek Crossing Mall with Lisa Kohler and their two kids.
I guess at least one person—Lisa—was happy.
Maybe Grady Alexander too. We’d made the deal for the video--$12 million. No negotiation. He’d just wanted to get it over.
“It’s weird,” said Tasha, “how you can caught on a thought. I thought one thing, and I got used to it. I got used to the physical sensation of it, to all the emotions attached to it.”
“That’s what happens. Even with an idea. You get used to it, habituated to it, addicted to it.”
“So what do I do now? Is the truth better than what I thought? Is the truth better or worse? I can’t decide.”
“No better, no worse. It’s just the truth.”
“It feels pretty strange to me. It’s almost something I want to hide away, cause I don’t understand it.”
“That strangeness? That weirdness? That’s us.”
We walked over to Aunt Renee’s crypt nearby. Or she walked. I limped along.
I was thinking about the past and its powers to haunt. I’d once done a story on a guy who’d shot and killed another guy over an argument they’d had 25 years ago. They hadn’t seen each other since. So the big question, of course, was why after all this time. The guy said he’d recently retired and had plenty of time to brood.
But after 25 years? I’d said.
The guy shrugged. It always bothered me.
Tasha put her other wreath at the foot of Aunt Renee’s pink marble. There was a bench a few feet away, under the drooping leaves of a willow tree. We sat, Tasha looking at her sister’s grave.
“Something she said to me once. She was in one of her morbid periods, she made me promise that if she died, I’d put her in an open casket at the funeral. She wanted people to see her. She always wanted to be seen. So that’s what we did. Open casket, champagne colored lining, satin and silk.”
I held her hand.
“The day was just like this,” she said. “It was a beautiful ceremony. Only thing that went wrong, L.C.’d hired this woman to sing. She sounded fine for a minute or so, then her microphone went. Just completely shut down. We couldn’t hear the words, but you could still her voice. Just her voice, just this sad sound. It was beautiful, maybe even more beautiful than with the words. It sounded like someone crying.”
I thought about something I’d told her that first night in her apartment, about the old rites of initiation. How they all ended the same way, with an acceptance of ordinary reality, with an embrace of the everyday world.
It must’ve felt just like this. The willow tree was still a willow tree, but it was a tree multiplied by a million. The sun was the sun but it was more than before. The sky was the sky but it was more than before. Everything was ordinary, but unlike anything it had ever been before.
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WHO THE HELL WROTE THIS?
I worked as an Executive Editor at Entertainment Weekly for 11 years and (in two separate stints) at People magazine and people.com for 12 years. I often speak to young journalists and try to use myself as an example for inspiration—a guy who spent time in jail, rehab and a psych ward and somehow went on to become a successful editor at Time Inc. and managed to keep himself sane and alive. I’ve tried to reflect those experiences in this book.
My wife, Laurie, and I live in Garden City, N.Y.
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