Intense 2

by Hebert, Cambria

  I have my arms wrapped underneath his, my nails clinging to his back.

  “Fuck,” Russ groans as his hips thrust into me expertly, driving himself deeper still into me. He picks up the pace, and my hips meet his, thrust for thrust. His lips come to mine and our tongues battle in a deep, breathless kiss. My core begins to tighten again, my channel clenching around his cock, and another mind-blowing orgasm rips through me just as Russ grows harder and thicker within me. He thrusts into me harder and harder and then stills, his body clenching and jerking as he finds his own release.

  I wake feeling sore in so many ways. The sun isn’t quite up yet, but the impending sunrise has shades of soft blue light filling Russ’s room. I glance over to him. He’s sleeping like a baby. His face looks so peaceful and innocent, like a man I wish I could wake up next to for the rest of my life. His heavy arm is draped across my hip like I belong to him, and in a way I do, but in all the ways that count, I don’t. My heart belongs to him, but the rest of me doesn’t. I’m not his girlfriend. I’m not his wife. I’m his long-term chat friend whom he has propositioned to date for thirty days. I have no naïve notions about who or what I am. I can try to lie to everyone else all day long, but I can’t lie to myself.

  I love Russ Barnett and I have for many years. I’ve loved him for so many reasons and those reasons have only multiplied after what we shared last night. He was kind and charming and everything a woman could want in bed. I’m unsure about why he seemed so different at work but what I am sure of is that my heart can’t afford to stick around and find out. I watched him drift to sleep last night and panic set in. My stupid heart was painting pictures of wedding rings and family pets while my brain screamed the same thing over and over: “This is trouble! He’ll break you!”

  And that’s exactly why I can’t do this. I’ll go meet Jo and do my best to get a job at her bookstore. Working hard and struggling is a far better future than having my heart obliterated by a man I know I can never have. Not in the way that I want, at least. I want his heart and soul and none of that was a part of his proposition.

  I lean across the bed and kiss him as lightly as I can before I slip away, wondering if reaching Logan Russell Barnett was the worst decision I could have ever made.

  USA Today Bestselling Author J.L. Mac is twenty-seven years old and currently resides in El Paso, Texas, with her husband and children. She is a native Texan, having been born and raised in Galveston, Texas. J.L. admittedly has had a long and sordid love affair with the written word and has loved every minute of it. She drinks too many glasses of wine on occasion, and says way too many swear words to be considered “ladylike.” J.L. spends her free time reading, writing, playing with her children, and living her happily ever after with her very own Prince Charming, whom she affectionately calls Tight Buns McHotness.

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  Also by J.L. Mac

  Wreck Me (Wrecked #1)

  Restore Me (Wrecked #2)

  Accept Me (Wrecked #3)

  Seven Years of Bad Luck

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  Seven Years of Bad Luck Part II

  Dropping Dimes

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  It’s no secret that I listen to music nonstop every day. I listen to music while I clean my house, play with my children, cook dinner for my family, and while I write. I seek out amazing music that serves as the backdrop to my life and work. Here are a few of the songs that helped me bring Lindsay’s story to life. I hope you enjoy these artists’ music as much as I have.

  Mathew Mayfield

  Stu Larson

  The Fray

  Patty Griffin

  Imagine Dragons

  Mazzy Star

  Kate Costello

  Lucy Schwartz

  James Morrison

  Parachute

  Adele

  Ray LaMontagne

  … And many more

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  The Blue Room

  Table of Contents

  DEDICATION

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

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  The Blue Room

  The Blue Room

  VOL. 1

  Kailin Gow

  The Blue Room (The Blue Room Vol I)

  Published by Kailin Gow Books

  Copyright © 2014 Kailin Gow

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  The Blue Room

  When Danny Blue of the Never Knights inherited his playboy billionaire father’s businesses and legacy, he didn’t realized his father’s pet project was the Blue Room, the most elite and secret club in the highest circle. He was happy to let his half-brother Terrence Blue run the club, but with Terrence’s womanizing ways and carefree attitude when it came to everything, he wasn’t sure if that was a good idea.

  Terrence Blue wasn’t sure that was a good idea as well because it would cramp his style as a former patron of the club, but when he spotted virginal Staci Atussi starting at The Blue Room, he had a change of heart. Not only was Staci Atussi a knockout without knowing it, but she was the challenge he had been craving.

  For Staci Atussi, working at The Blue Room was her solution to a desperate situation, but as she became integrated into the world of The Blue Room and the mysteries surrounding its patrons and the sexy Blues, she wondered if she had traded in her desperation for something far more sinister.

  The Blue Room is a New Adult Contemporary Suspense Series intended for readers age 18 and Up.

  DEDICATION

  To My Readers, Betas, and Kailin Krusaders, Thank You for All Your Love, Support, and Encouragement. You are truly one of the most important reasons why I’m blessed beyond measure.

  To God, Thank You for providing me the strength, courage, creativity and sight to follow my calling. The glory is yours.

  Prologue

  Terrence Blue

  Some people, they’re happy where they are, with what they have. Some people are happy with the little things in life—the feeling of sunshine on their faces, the sound of a baby’s laugh, the taste of fresh-squeezed orange juice on their lips. They’re happy with the music from the ice-cream truck down the street, with the sweet-looking girl who grew up next door and who doesn’t ask too much, with the smell of fresh flowers growing on the edge of a cul-de-sac.

  Not me.

  See, there are things I don’t go in for. And mediocrity is one of them. The way I see it, anybody who can get close enough to the best—close enough, I mean, to see it, smell it, taste it, almost bite it—and who doesn’t is a sucker, through and through. Don’t give me any of that BS about “mindfulness,” about “
being happy with what you have.” I wouldn’t buy it. The things I spend my money on are the things you couldn’t even dream of affording. I spend my money on the best. The best women, the best booze, the best drugs. The best sounds. And there isn’t a single person who’s known me for longer than twenty minutes that’s in any doubt of that.

  So don’t you think that anything less will satisfy me.

  My name is Terrence Blue, and everybody knows I’m a hard man to please. I’ve poured thousand-dollar magnums of champagne down the drain. I’ve flushed fistfuls of cocaine down the toilet. I’ve thrown supermodels out of my bed because I don’t like the color of their bras.

  And I can afford to. So why shouldn’t I?

  Now, I’m a businessman, first and foremost. I’m no fool. I know that the money that comes in as a result of my reputation as a hard man to please more than makes up for the money I waste. It’s a funny thing about this business, isn’t it? The more money you burn, the more people keep throwing at you. I’m a magician. I make money disappear—then reappear. But everything’s an illusion here in LA. Living out in La La land, you learn pretty quickly—or not at all. People want the illusion. They want to think they’re in a night club like the Blue Room because they’re better than all those other identical wannabes lining up outside the door. They wanna believe they’re special. And with me, Terrence Blue, they feel special. And once you give them that feeling, they’ll do anything to keep it going. You think coke is bad? Try that feeling. There’s no more glorious, more addictive substance on earth.

  That’s all you need to know about me.

  So here we are. Terrence Blue’s Blue Room—equal parts Studio 54 and Eyes Wide Shut. A burlesque club where you can do more than look, if you know what I mean. My pride and joy. Where the girls can sing—but you’d be mesmerized even if you weren’t looking at their voices.

  Like this one girl. The girl singing now. The light’s dark midnight blue on her face, but it only brings out that milky figure—her porcelain skin, that platinum blonde hair with little fingers waves in it like Jean Harlow would have worn, there in a bikini bottom and bra encrusted with gems—gems from my private collection, I’ll have you known—sapphires and rubies. And rubies at her lips, too—top shel makeup, studded with metallic dust, making those lips so bright and kissable you wouldn’t mind stopping the song if it only meant you could pull that mouth onto yours. Her lashes so long—like they were trying to keep you away, like she had secrets to hide, that one.

  I knew her type. I go through dozens like her every day. Identical, like drones, robots, clones. Fresh from Kansas or Iowa or Idaho or wherever—big in church choir, dreaming of being a star, willing to do whatever it takes, scared of what that means. Lucky for her, though, she could sing. Staci Atuzzi had a voice that could knock your socks onto your hands, and she wasn’t bad in a bikini either. Though she didn’t want me mistaking her for one of those dancers, oh no, she was clear on that point. A prim little blush, pursed lips, I’m not that kind of girl, all of that. The way she blushed when she heard what patrons of the club regularly shelled out the big bucks to do with performers, you’d think she was a virgin or something.

  Maybe she was. You never know. Stranger things have happened in La La lands. But I can’t say it’s every day you get a virgin trying to claw her way to the top of the greasy pole at the Blue Room. I could have thrown her out, then and there. It’s not good for business if the talent gets a reputation for being fresh with the high-rollers. People don’t just come to The Blue Room to listen to a girl sing, after all. But I liked her. Something about her made me want to give her a second chance. Maybe she’d change her mind. I’ve been known to be convincing enough.

  Not that I know too many virgins to convince. Let alone hot ones. The only one I could think of was Neve Knight, that hot little number who kept my brother wrapped around her finger. Either that, or Danny was keeping his success with her close to the chest. I figured the latter. The girl was hot, but from what I knew of my half-brother’s reputation, he wouldn’t be giving her a promise ring if he wasn’t getting something. What a waste, I figured. A girl like that—with an emo brooder like my brother. I would have shown her a much better time. If she’d met me first—but them’s the breaks, in La la land. It’s all about who you know, and when. It’s all about luck. And when it comes to chance, first one in always wins. Early bird and all that.

  Besides, she was a nice kid, and I—many things that I am—am not. I go through women like breath mints. My idea of a long-term relationship is a weekend in Vegas.

  But looking at Staci shake her hips, I start to wonder if maybe the whole virgin thing was just an act. As she stars unclasping her bra, letting those full and delicious breasts as loose as nature intended, I start to wonder if she’s done this before. She knows what she’s doing, that one. She knows what she’s making us want—and she’s making us believe that she wants it too. A real magic act. LA at its finest. She’s moving across the stage all assured-like, like she knows exactly what’s going on in every pair of trousers in the room.

  But she’s got another thing coming if she thinks she’s got power over us. The kind of guys who I let into my club are the kind of guys used to getting what they want. They got in here, didn’t they? And if one of them put down the right amount of cash, even the blushing Staci might find herself in one of those luxurious pleasure suites for the night, and then no doubt she could kiss her virginity goodbye.

  Her breasts free, Staci starts wriggling out of her bottoms. I can see the contour of her hips. I can smell the desire in the room. The fierce wolf hunger. We’re all feeling it.

  Then, just as those delectable panties fall to the floor, something blocks my view.

  “Danny!”

  My half-brother, his chest so broad I can’t see an inch of female flesh, is standing in front of me.

  His finger is in my chest.

  “Your office. Now.”

  Now, a man like me—we don’t like to be rushed. We take our sweet time. But I don’t mind saying in this case that—fully of my own free will, you understand—we went straight to Danny’s office. You may have heard that Danny grabbed me by the shirt and dragged me there. I can’t say. Had a bit to drink, after all.

  “What do you want, big brother?” I almost spat in his face. “I was at the best part!”

  “What were you thinking? What was going through your mind?”

  “Well, just now I was thinking that those were the nicest pair of . . .”

  “I mean when you slept with her?”

  Now, as I’ve told you, I’m not exactly a one-woman guy. Her, on any given week, could refer to between five and ten lovely ladies.

  “You’re gonna have to be more specific, bro.”

  “You gave her an alibi.” Danny wasn’t kidding around. He was the kind of mad where cartoon smoke is a couple seconds away from blowing out your ears. “We can’t prosecute her because of your alibi, and now she’s gonna get away with it. Attempted murder.”

  I’m sure I could have listened to him, if I wanted to, but I’d had a bit to drink, and there was a gorgeous naked girl prancing around on the stage of the Blue Room, so I can’t say I was paying a lot of attention.

  “Attempted murder? What, man? I’m gone . . .

  “Attempted murder on Never Knight.”

  Now, I’m a lot of things, and I forget a lot of crazy nights, but I’m pretty sure that murder’s not on my list of after-midnight vices.

  “Bro, I would never. A walking bombshell like that—I would never do humanity the injustice of depriving her of one waking moment in our company.”

  “You realize you’re talking about my soon-to-be fiancee?” I’m sure a lot of people think Danny Blue is pretty imposing when he growls, but that’s the thing about being someone’s brother. You can’t take them seriously when you’ve seen them soil their onesies after watching Barney that one time. “Anyway, your depravity, your lack of morals. . . . to go so far as sleeping with . .
.”

  “Hey, I didn’t sleep with Neve!” I had to admit it. It wasn’t for lack of trying, but the girl really loved her boyfriend. And while I had to make a good show of wanting her—didn’t want to offend her, after all—I respected that.

  “Not Neve. Roni.”

  “Oh.” Who hadn’t slept with Roni? It was a rite of passage, like bar mitzvahs or your first beer.

  “Don’t you have any family loyalty? Don’t you ever think with your brain, instead of with your . . .”

  “I like to think I’m a creative thinker. Besides, I have the Blue family genes. Not like Dad didn’t cuckold a bunch of sorry husbands in his day. May the best man score and all that.”

  “But Roni.” I hate it when my brother makes me feel guilty. It’s almost like he’s morally superior or something. “It’s like sleeping with the devil.

  “But you beat me to that already, didn’t you?” I played the cards I’ve got, and that card needed to be played.

  “Before she got with Dad! And even then it was a mistake through and through.” Danny mops the sweat from his brow. The man knows how to look brooding and serious even when he’s screaming his lungs out. What a drama queen.

  “It’s not like I even knew she married our dad!” I feel I have a point. “She turns up at the club this one time—I mean, I can’t keep track of who Dad marries. They all look the same, act the same, talk the same, walk the same. It’s not like he asked us to the wedding. I don’t do a background check on every girl I get with to see if Dad’s also had her.”