A Different Shade of Violet?

by K E Osborn

  Being intimate with Hudson again is something I’ve wanted for so long, now that it’s finally happening I’m taking it all in. A tingle shoots up my spine as he thrusts inside me with this fingers again and his thumb presses on my clit at the same time. I feel my body heating up ready to combust. The sparks shooting off between us is astounding and is only heightening my pleasure. I’ve missed his touch so much that every second he’s with me I crave more. I push my pussy into his hand so he knows I need it harder.

  He chuckles slightly and leans in kissing me as he thrusts inside me deeper. I moan against his lips and he starts to move deeper and quicker than before and it’s working. My body starts to tingle and I’m not sure whether it’s the heat of the shower or the heat of the moment, but I’m burning hot all over. I start to sweat which is something I rarely ever do, especially in winter. My breathing starts to increase rapidly and I’m moaning on each exhale while his fingers work me up.

  My legs start to feel weak as I move in time with Hudson’s movements, but I manage to keep upright. He presses on my clit as he pushes inside me faster and faster. I start to shake. I can feel the beginnings of my first climax in over a month rolling through me. He kisses me so deeply that I feel dizzy. I put my hand out on the wall to steady myself and he turns me around so my back’s against the wall while he continues to finger fuck me.

  “Hudson,” I murmur against his lips.

  “I know, come for me, Vee. I wanna feel your pussy tighten around my fingers,” he whispers biting my bottom lip and then kissing me forcefully.

  I love it when he talks dirty. I grip onto his back and dig my nails in as my body quivers and a current runs through me forcing my breathing to hitch. He pushes in deep, pressing hard on my clit at the same time and a tingle shoots straight up my centre. I close my eyes tightly and hold on as the shock wave hits and I orgasm hard. It feels like a massive explosion inside my core, splintering out fireworks in every direction and the sparks only set me on fire again. I moan loudly and Hudson muffles the noise with his mouth on mine.

  I start to breathe harshly out of my nose trying to come down from the unbelievable soaring high. He pulls his fingers out of me leaving me wanting more and he brings his hands around to my arse gripping on to my cheeks tightly. I kiss him back slowly now as I’m starting to feel the most relaxed I have in over a month. I wrap one leg around his arse and pull his hard cock toward me. I know he’s probably struggling with the images in his head right now, but I don’t care. I need him. All of him.

  “I want you, Hudson. All of you,” I whisper and he brings his head back and he looks me in the eyes.

  “I want you too, it’s just—”

  “Then make love to me. Stop over thinking it.” I stare into his multi-coloured beautiful eyes. He exhales gripping onto my arse cheeks tightly.

  “Fuck this, I’m so sick of fighting it,” he says and his lips crash back to mine forcefully. I wrap my arms around his neck and he grips onto my arse lifting me up against the wall. I inwardly grin as I wrap both legs around his waist. He lowers me down slowly and I can feel his cock at my entrance. I gasp at the feeling of his tip right against me.

  This is what I’ve been waiting for.

  He pulls back and looks me right in the eyes. I can see the hesitation in them, which scares me slightly, but I move in his arms and lower myself down causing his tip to slide in, just a fraction. I stare into his eyes as we both breathe heavily.

  “I need you,” I say staring into his eyes as his search through mine.

  “Fuck! I need you too,” he replies and then we both gasp as he slides me onto him fully while we stare at each other. His eyes are open wide and he’s looking at me as he enters me to the hilt. I bite my bottom lip. I know it must be hard for him right now, but he’s fighting through it and looking at me for me, not what I am or what l have been. I can see nothing but love in his vibrant eyes and I know he’s with me in this.

  I move in to kiss him and he leans toward me, our lips meet as he holds me against the wall completely inside me, but not moving. I figure I’ll let him move first. I don’t want to scare him off or freak him out before we even start but having him inside me feels right. It’s where he’s meant to be.

  The water is cascading in between the miniscule gap between us while he grips onto my arse tightly holding me up. He slides his tongue into my mouth and I feel him pull back slightly. I open my eyes to see if he’s freaking out, but his eyes are staring right back at me with nothing but love in them. He pushes back in and my eyes roll back at the undeniable feeling of love and devotion I feel for Hudson, which is creeping right back into my heart.

  He moves inside me in a steady rhythm pulling me off and on him. I notice a slight moan coming from his chest and I open my eyes again just to check one last time if it’s a pain filled moan or a pleasurable one. By the way he’s still looking, kissing and moving inside of me, I figure it’s all pleasure. I run my hands through his hair and pull his mouth to mine even more as I ride him in the shower. I can’t believe I haven’t had this undeniable feeling of home for a month, and now that I have it, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to let it go.

  Hudson is my home, my safe place, my sanctuary… my rock, and everything in me wants to be in this moment with him for the rest of time.

  He moves me on him as he moves in and out of me. This is slow and sensual, nothing like the hard fucking he usually gives me. It’s like he’s taking his time and savouring every second of finally being joined together after so long apart. When we were together we would never go for longer than a day or two without being joined as one, so a month of our bodies aching to be together again, was the longest month of my life. He starts to moan as he moves his hips a little faster, thrusting deeply inside me. I relish his touch as I move up and down on him.

  “God, I’ve missed you. You feel fucking amazing, Vee,” he says breaking our kiss. He rests his forehead against mine as we stare at each other. The energy surging through us is immeasurable as we make love tenderly under the stream of hot water.

  He slides in and out of me, slowly working me up to another high, all the while we’re just staring at each other. I can see in his eyes that he loves me. I know because it’s the same look I’m giving him. He leans forward and slowly kisses me. I get lost in the moment and I shut my eyes just savouring his taste and the feeling of him inside me. He starts to move a little faster, but we’re still moving slowly and in time with each other.

  That all too familiar tingle starts to appear inside me again. It starts in my lower abdomen and as it radiates through my body it sends a shockwave of heat that engulfs me. I start to breathe faster and heavier. My eyes scrunch shut and I clench them tight embracing the feeling washing over me. My body starts to clench tightly, every muscle tightening and constricting preparing for another release. My toes clench up tight and I start to shake as I moan loudly. He thrusts in deeply knowing I’m nearly there. I clench my hands in his hair pulling on it slightly which makes him moan. He pushes into me so deeply while he grasps my hips tightly and pulls me down on top of him. I feel his cock twitch inside me and with another deep thrust I moan loudly into his mouth as those illuminated sparks go off again, and, even though, my eyes are clenched so tightly shut I see flashes of light as my body constricts and then releases while I explode in Hudson’s arms.

  “Open your eyes,” he demands and I open them immediately. I see nothing but devotion staring right back at me. He moans loudly as my pussy tightens around his cock and he kisses me strongly as I slowly come down from the high I’ve just reached. Right as he thrusts again, I clench my pussy tighter and he groans, looking me right in the eyes he then blows his load inside me. He grips onto my arse cheeks so tightly I’m sure it will bruise, but I don’t care. He finally closes his eyes resting his forehead on mine. I feel like my world has taken a turning point and my life is finally back on its right axis. Even though I know this changes nothing between us, I still feel like I’m where I bel
ong.

  We’re both panting as we fall back to earth from our tremendous high.

  “Fuck me,” he whispers against my lips as I lower my legs down from around his arse. He pulls out of me and I grin at him.

  “I think I just did there, Rock,” I joke and he opens his eyes and smiles.

  “Why the fuck did I wait so long to do that again?” he says breathlessly.

  “Because you’re a Neanderthal remember?”

  He nods. “Correct. Now let this Neanderthal wash you, and then we better get to bed. It’s so late and we have another delivery tomorrow,” he says and I nod as he spins me under the water and his hands are all over my body while he washes every inch of me.

  “You warm yet?” he asks with a smirk.

  “Smoking hot.”

  “Yes, you are,” he says leaning in to kiss me gently.

  After our extra-long shower, we make our way back out to the main room and get dressed in some not so wet pajamas.

  “C’mon in you get,” Hudson says after I’m dressed and he helps me into bed. He goes to walk off and I crease my brows in confusion.

  “Seriously? You’re not going to sleep in the same bed as me after that?” I ask looking at him as he walks to the lounge room. He chuckles and shakes his head.

  I can’t believe him!

  “Calm down, Vee. I’m just turning off the light,” he says flicking the switch and walking back toward the bed. I exhale and swallow a lump that seems ever present in my throat. I can’t believe how I reacted just then.

  I need to reign myself in a little.

  He pulls back the sheet and slides into bed and lays on his back with his arm out so I can nuzzle into his side. Which I do happily. I rest my head on his chest and lean in and kiss it softly. He strokes my hair and cuddles into me.

  “I can’t believe it took me thinking the Dogs had you for me to make love to you. I thought they would kill you and I’d never see you again. I was so terrified, Vee. All my thoughts regarding why I couldn’t be with you vanished and I just wanted you to be okay so badly that I couldn’t stand it. When I was faced with your death, all the bullshit that was going on inside my head seemed null and void and vanished. You know what I mean?” he asks quietly as I trace the outline of his tattoo on his chest.

  “I know what you mean. I just wish you could’ve come to that conclusion on your own.”

  “I know, me too and I’m sorry I rejected you before and made you feel like you had to leave. I never wanted that.”

  “It wasn’t just you, it was Cassie who really drove it home. She’s the reason I left,” I mumble.

  He huffs and I see his chest rise and fall. “Don’t listen to her. She will say anything to get to you. Why were you talking to her anyway?”

  I look up at him. “She rang your phone looking for you. I was going to let it ring out, but then I got all jealous and answered. I know I shouldn’t have, but I couldn’t help it. We had a small fight and I hung up on her.”

  “Ah, so that’s why my phone was on the sofa instead of the table, right?”

  “Yeah, I might’ve thrown it after our conversation.”

  “I would’ve loved to have heard that conversation. I bet my little firecracker came out firing, hey?” he asks with a smirk and a slight chuckle. I bite my bottom lip and shrug. He laughs and pulls me into him further.

  “She wants you back you know?” I say quietly, almost a whisper as I trace his tattoo outline again.

  “I know, but Cassie and I just don’t work. She’s too… demanding. I can’t handle her for longer than an hour, any longer and she starts to drive me nuts. Plus, she calls me H, my name is Hudson not a letter of the alphabet.”

  I chuckle and snuggle into him further. “Do you think we could really stay in each other’s lives after this?” I ask turning the conversation from silly to serious.

  He exhales softly and strokes my hair. “I sure hope so.”

  I bite my bottom lip in uncertainty. “What about when you find yourself a new girlfriend? She isn’t going to want me around.”

  “I don’t plan on having another girlfriend for a long time, Vee. I won’t be able to get over you that quickly.”

  “But it will happen one day, and I don’t know that I can stick around to watch you live a happy life with someone else.”

  “Well, I don’t think I could watch you with anyone else either,” he replies and I scoff a small laugh. “What?” he asks looking down at me.

  “Hudson, there’s no one for me after you. I won’t be allowing myself another relationship. We both know that.”

  “Don’t say that, there’s plenty of guys who will love you and love to be with you.”

  “Not the way you do. Plus, we both know that when I get out of here I won’t be alive for very long. The Dogs will ultimately see to that.”

  He grips me tightly. “Don’t even talk like that. They aren’t going to get you, I will make sure of it. They will never hurt you, Vee. I won’t let them.”

  I decide not to argue with him, we both know that he’s wrong and they will find a way to me. Even if I went into witness protection, they wouldn't stop until I’m found… and then dead.

  “Tell me about what it was like growing up with Holden, Flynn and then Brige? Make me laugh,” I whisper and he kisses the top of my head and starts a story about when he and his dad were teaching his brothers to ride their bicycles.

  I wake up to Hudson gently caressing my hair as I rest my head in the nook of his shoulder. Last night was a whirlwind of emotions, tremendous and terrible lows followed by unimaginable and unforeseeable highs. I never thought Hudson would ever make love to me again, but I’m so glad that he did. I’m comfortable here in his arms, of course, it’d be better if we were both naked, but I’ll take what I can get.

  I bring my hand up and start to trace his tattoo again and he leans into the top of my head and kisses my hair.

  “Morning little firecracker,” he whispers. I look up and smile brightly when I see him looking down at me.

  “Morning my rock,” I whisper back. He leans down and his lips gently caress mine.

  “It’s so nice waking up to you in my arms again. I’m going to miss this,” he says against my lips and I pull back and frown.

  “Does it have to end though? I mean really? We both want to be together and surely the force can’t sack you for who you date?”

  He exhales and closes his eyes. He swallows hard and then shakes his head. “No, they can’t sack me for who I’m dating. But Vee, there’s a code of ethics a cop must stand by. It would be bad for my career if we stayed together. People wouldn’t respect me because it’d be seen that I don’t respect the law. Surely you can understand that?” he asks opening his eyes and looking at me.

  “Yeah, I understand. Doesn’t mean I have to like it though.”

  “I’m sorry, Vee. I wish with everything I had that it could be different. You know I love you and you know I will protect you with my life – you know that, right?”

  “I know,” I exhale and close my eyes just living in the moment and taking in his scent. Who knows how long he will let me stay cuddled up to him? We stay in bed for another hour, not talking just holding each other and kissing occasionally, until his mobile rings.

  “Don’t answer it,” I murmur. I’m totally relaxed in his arms.

  “I have to, Vee. It’s the work phone,” he replies moving me off him and getting up to answer his damn phone. I decide to stay in bed. It was such an emotionally draining night and a really late one too. I just want to relax today, nothing too strenuous is in order for me.

  Hudson answers his mobile and comes back over to sit on the edge of the bed near me. I smile at him as he smiles back.

  “Stone,” he answers.

  “Yeah sure. What’s their ETA?” he asks making me furrow my brows.

  “Right, I’ll make sure we’re ready to receive. Thanks, Chief.”

  I nod my head knowing he’s talking to Chief Thomas, b
ut I still have no idea who’s arriving where.

  “Yeah. Things were a little hectic, but it’s all sorted now, boss. I promise she won’t run again,” he says with a stern look.

  I wince and nod so he knows I don’t plan on disappearing again. Thinking the Dogs had me, scared the living shit out of me last night and I don’t want to go through that again.

  “I know I let my guard down, but don’t worry I’m on it Chief,” he says and I rest my hand on his knee. He’s probably getting an ear full from Denzel and that’s all because I had another tantrum and ran off.

  “Yeah, thanks for the heads up. I’ll report in tomorrow.”

  “Yep, okay… bye,” he says and hangs up the phone. He looks at me raising an eyebrow and smirking.

  “What?”

  He chuckles and shakes his head. “I’m in a little bit of trouble, thanks to you missy,” he says and then leans over pinning my back to the bed as he hovers over the top of me.

  “Oh, really?” I ask as he rests his forehead on mine.

  “Yes. Now how are you going to make it up to me?”

  I smile brightly and lean up kissing him vigorously. He lowers onto me fully and I wrap my hands around his back and hold him to me as I open my mouth for him to gain access. His tongue dances with mine and he starts to laugh. I pull back and he looks down at me raising an eyebrow in confusion.

  “Why the hell are you laughing while kissing me?” I ask trying to sound hurt, which I’m not.

  “Because you, little firecracker, have a very good way of convincing me not to be angry with you,” he says leaning back down and kissing me again, but with more softness this time. He grinds his body into mine making me pant slightly and then as quickly as he started he jumps up off the bed and walks over to his suitcase and pulls on a tank top while I sit and watch him kinda stunned.