The Witch

by Jean Thompson

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  CONTENTS

  Also by Jean Thompson

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Author’s Note

  The Witch

  Inamorata

  Candy

  Faith

  Three

  The Curse

  Your Secret’s Safe with Me

  Prince

  About the Author

  AUTHOR’S NOTE

  When I was a kid, I went to a dentist with a practice limited to children. Her office was downtown, in a building with claustrophobic elevators and long, echoing, deserted hallways.

  In my memory, it was always raining. The dentist’s door was made of dark wood and frosted glass, with a transom. The dentist herself was a stately woman who wore her hair pulled back in a bun. She kept her dental instruments in a tall cabinet of many drawers, painted and carved to look like a grand house. She’d fix a piece of cotton ball on the cable of her old-fashioned drill and tell you to watch the rabbit as it zipped back and forth. There was no such thing as novocaine, so you set yourself to endure, and concentrated on the cotton rabbit, or the dollhouse with the drawers full of picks and drill bits, or the windows gray with rain. I had many fillings, and I spent a lot of time in that chair.

  The waiting room was small, enclosed, and lit with ordinary table lamps. It was stocked with books and games and puzzles that mothers used to distract their fretful children. But the best thing was the big full-color framed picture that hung on the wall at child’s-eye level, a map called “The Land of Make Believe.”

  The map is a landscape of winding paths, streams, waterfalls, bridges, lagoons, mysterious forests, improbable mountain peaks where castles perch. “The Land of Make Believe” admits all manner of imaginary figures. Here are Mother Goose characters, like Little Miss Muffet, here also the Emerald City of Oz, the Water-Babies, and the Little Lame Prince’s tower. It is East of the Sun and West of the Moon, it is equipped with a magic carpet flying overhead, and with mermaids bathing at the water’s edge. Here too are many landmarks from the classic fairy tales: Bluebeard’s castle, the cottage where Red Riding Hood’s grandmother lives, Hansel and Gretel in front of the witch’s gingerbread house, and Jack the Giant Killer climbing his beanstalk.

  It was a wonderful thing, as a child, to trace the curving paths with a finger and imagine yourself inside the stories. Many years later I bought a print of the map. It is the work of Jaro Hess, a Czech immigrant who settled in Michigan. He drew it, in a number of different versions, around 1900, and sold the rights to it in the 1930s, when it was first published. It hangs on my wall, and sometimes I stand in front of it, wondering about the Enchanted Wood, or the City of Brass, or the dark cave marked, Do Not Go In Here.

  Whatever you grow up with triggers nostalgia, and I suppose that Teletubbies or Sesame Street or any other televised production can serve that purpose. But the great tales connect us not only to our childhoods (to the dentist, that kindly witch) but also to an earlier era in human history, when they were not necessarily designed for children. Instead they serve as repositories for primeval fears, such as being devoured. They remind us of a time when getting lost in a trackless forest was not just a risk of outdoor vacationing. They encompass our wish that the usurper and the evildoer be found out and punished in satisfyingly gruesome ways. The downtrodden will triumph. The little-regarded youngest son will find his fortune. The terrifying giant can be outwitted. There are magical transformations and visitations and chances to change our luck. Appearances deceive, but humility and virtue will guide us. We learn that, given a choice of three caskets, we are to bypass the gold and the silver and select the one made of lead. The bear at the cottage door, seeking shelter from the storm, must be let in and allowed to sleep on the hearth, for rendering aid to any needy creature will be rewarded. And goodness always manifests itself as beauty. (Unless, of course, that beauty is the product of an enchantment.)

  All you need to do to remind yourself of the persistence of these stories is to browse the Disney catalogue or other current entertainment offerings. Fairy tales are regularly dusted off, retooled, and retold for new audiences. Often enough sentimentalized and colorized, but the old structures, their darkness and their glories, are still present beneath. And so our collective human past makes its imperfect way into the present, trailing its rumors, talismans, and memories of memories. Amid the wicked fairies and wish-granting fish, some actual events are dimly visible. It has been argued that “The Pied Piper of Hamelin” recounts the loss or removal of some number of the town’s children during the thirteenth century.

  I have tried here to write a cycle of stories that are not recountings or versions of the old tales but something looser. I wanted to recapture their magic, but in a way that used them only as a kind of scaffolding for new stories. The old ones tantalized with questions. Why might a young woman be persuaded to marry Bluebeard? How, exactly, might an animal come to have the power of human speech? And in what circumstances might Cinderella really have lost that glass slipper? Sometimes the answers led me in lighthearted directions, but just as often not.

  I must admit that I have often turned up my nose at what seemed to me weak, inauthentic, bowdlerized versions of the tales. But authenticity is a relative and mutable concept here. Even if you take the Brothers Grimm or Perrault as authorities, they did not serve only as faithful scribes. They too edited, suppressed, and embroidered. Folklorists have found different versions of the same stories in China, India, Malaysia, Persia, Arabia, Greece, all across the globe. So that stories once told around ancient campfires in dead languages, passed down by way of dreams and nightmares, are now reincarnated as animated cartoons. In the inclusive spirit of “The Land of Make Believe,” we should celebrate them all. For the tale belongs not to the teller but to those who hear and remember it.

  THE WITCH

  My brother and I were given over to the Department of Children and Family Ser
vices after our father and his girlfriend left us alone in the car one too many times. The reason we were put in the car had to do with some trouble when we were younger, in some of the different places that we lived, when we were left home by ourselves. Neighbors had made calls and DCFS had come around, turning our father into a concerned and head-nodding parent, at least while the interview lasted. Once the investigator left, he had things to say about people who tried to tell you what to do with your own goddamn kids. They should just shut their faces. “Let’s go,” he said. “In the car, now. Vamoose.” He wasn’t bad-tempered, at least not as a rule, but people who thought they were better than us, by way of criticism or interference, brought out the angry side of him.

  At the time when everything changed for us, my brother Kerry was seven and I was five. We knew the rules, the chief one being: Stay in the car! We accepted that there were complicated, unexplained adult things that we were not a part of, in places where we were not allowed. But sometimes we were scooped up, Kerry and me, and brought inside to a room with people and noise and the wonderful colored lights of cigarette machines and jukeboxes, encouraged to tell people our names, wear somebody’s baseball cap, and drink the Cokes prepared for us with straws and maraschino cherries.

  And sometimes Monica, our father’s girlfriend, drove. Then she’d stay in the car with us and keep the engine running while our father went inside some unfamiliar restaurant or house. These errands made Monica nervous, made her speak sharply to us and turn around in her seat to keep watch, some worry in the air that filled Kerry and me with the uncomprehending anxiety of dogs. And when our father finally returned, we were all so glad to see him!

  But mostly it was just me and Kerry, left on our own to wait. We were fine with being in the car, a maroon Chevy, not new, that drove like a boat. We knew its territories of front and back, its resources, its smells and textures. We always had something given to us to eat, like cheese popcorn, two bags, so that there would be no fighting. We had a portable radio, only one of those, so that we did fight over it, but the fighting was also a way of keeping busy.

  Most often we fell asleep and woke up when our father and Monica returned, carrying on whatever conversation or argument was in progress, telling us to go back to sleep. The car started and we were borne away, watching streetlights through a bit of window, this one and this one and this one, all left behind by our motion, and this was a comfort.

  Normal is whatever you grow up with. Sometimes Monica made us French toast with syrup for breakfast, and so we whined for French toast whenever we thought it might pay off. We had television to watch, and our intense, competitive friendships with kids we saw in the hallways and stairwells. All of this to say, we didn’t think anything was so bad. We knew bad right away when it showed up.

  Kerry was a crybaby. Our father said so. Kerry was a candy ass. This was said in a spirit of encouragement and exhortation, since it was a worrisome thing for a boy to be soft, not stand up to teasing or hardship. People would keep coming at you. When Kerry tried not to cry, it was just as pitiful as the crying itself. He had a round chin and a full lower lip that quavered, or, as our father used to say, “You could ride that lower lip home!”

  The expectations were different for girls, and anyway, I didn’t need the same advice about standing up for myself. Our father’s name for me was Little Big Mouth. I didn’t have a portion of Kerry’s fair good looks either; everything about me was browner and sharper. I don’t know why we were so different, why I couldn’t have been more sweet-tempered, why Kerry didn’t have more fight in him. Throughout my life I’ve struggled with the notion of things that were someone’s fault, of things that were done on purpose, and it was a relief when I finally came to understand that one thing we are not to blame for is our own natures.

  Monica hadn’t always been with us. I knew that from having it told to me, and Kerry claimed he could remember the very day we met her. I said I did too, even though I didn’t. My baby memories were too confused, and how were you supposed to remember somebody not being there? Or maybe she had been around us but not yet living with us as she did now. I think she was a little slow, with a ceiling on her comprehension. She had a round, pop-eyed face and limp black hair that she wore long, and she favored purplish lipstick that coated the ends of her cigarettes. If Kerry or I did something we weren’t supposed to, she waved her hands and said, “You kids! Why you don’t behave? I’m telling your dad on you!” We never paid attention. Monica wasn’t entirely an adult, we sensed, and could be disregarded without consequences.

  Our father didn’t like to sit home. He’d done something that involved driving—a truck? a bus?—until he hurt his back and couldn’t work regular hours. His back still pained him and we learned to walk wide of him when it put him in a mood. But if he was feeling good enough, or even borderline, he needed to get out and blow the stink off, as he called it, see and be seen, claim his old place among other men of the world. And since Monica wasn’t going to be left behind, and since now we could not be left behind either, we all went.

  One problem with staying in the car was when we had to go to the bathroom. Sometimes either Monica or our father came to check on us and carry us to some back entrance or passageway where there was a toilet. At other times they didn’t come and didn’t come, and we tried not to wet ourselves, or sometimes we did and were shamed.

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  Once, whimpering from urgency, Kerry got out of the car and stood behind some trash containers to pee. I watched, unbelieving and horrified. And jealous at how much easier it was for boys to manage these things. “I’m telling,” I said, when Kerry let himself back in and relocked the car door.

  “You better not.”

  “I don’t have to, they can see right where you peed.”

  He looked out the window to see if that was true. “No you can’t,” he said, but he didn’t sound so sure.

  “You are going to get beat bloody.” It was one of our father’s occasional pronouncements, although so far we had not been made to bleed.

  “Shut up.” He kicked me and I kicked back.

  When our father and Monica returned, they were fizzy and cheerful. “How are my little buckaroos?” my father asked. “How’s the desperadoes?”

  We said, faintly, that we were okay. Monica said, “They look hungry.”

  “Now how can you tell that by looking? Let’s get a move on.”

  “You know what sounds good right about now? Chicken and waffles. Where’s a place around here we can get that?”

  “Some other time, Mon.”

  “That’s not fair. I bet if you was the one wanted chicken and waffles, we’d be halfway there by now.”

  “Shut it, Monica,” our father said, but not unpleasantly, because he was in such fine spirits. “If you were the one with the car, you could drive yourself to the moon.” He turned on the radio and started singing along with it.

  Kerry and I kept quiet in the back seat, and I didn’t give him up. Like it or not, we were stuck together in some things.

  So the next time I had to go, I told Kerry, “Move.” He was sitting next to the door on the sidewalk side. On the street, cars passed by us fast, with a shivery sound of rushing air.

  “You better not.”

  I popped out and made a face at him through the car window. I walked a little way, looking for a good place. But everything was out in the open, and it wasn’t fully dark yet, and I didn’t think I could crouch down and pee on the sidewalk, in front of everyone. I didn’t know where our father and Monica had gone. None of the buildings looked likely. I kept walking.

  Behind me, a car door slammed, and Kerry ran to catch up with me. “You’re gonna be in trouble.”

  “Well so are you now.”

  Kerry walked backward in front of me. “Where are you going?”

  “Home.”

  “Uh-uh!”

  I ignored
him. He didn’t have any way to stop me.

  “You don’t know where it is.”

  “Yes I do.” I didn’t think we were that far away. And both Kerry and I wore house keys around our necks on shoelaces, just in case.

  Kerry looked back at the car. It wasn’t too late for him to return to it, but he kept walking with me, looking all worried. “Candy ass,” I said.

  “You’re a candy ass,” he said, but that was so lame, I didn’t bother answering back.

  If I’d found anyplace I could have peed, or if we’d managed to get ourselves home, things would have gone differently. But we walked and walked, and the street didn’t offer anything like a bathroom, and we came to an intersection I didn’t recognize, though I set off with confidence in one direction. Walking, I didn’t have to go so bad. I thought I could keep on for a while.

  Kerry lagged a pace or two behind me. He thought I was going to get in trouble and he was trying to stay out of the way. It was dark by now and the lights around us, from cars, streetlights, store windows, were bright and glassy, and the shadows beyond the lights were a reaching-out kind of black.

  I’d been lost for a while. I knew it but I didn’t want to come out and say it, and anyway, I had the idea that I could find our building if I only looked hard enough. At least I think that’s how I thought. I was five, and it was a whole world ago.

  The street was becoming less and less promising. There were vacant lots with chewed-looking weeds, and the gobbling noise of loud music from a passing car. I wondered if our father and Monica had come back yet and found us missing, or if they were still inside having their important fun. I was holding on to my pee so tight, I was having trouble walking. We came to a big lighted storefront, a grocery, with people going in and out of the automatic doors, and we hung back, afraid of getting in the way.

  A lady on her way out of the store stopped and peered down at us. “Harold,” she said to the man with her, “look, two little white babies.”