The Choice She Made (The Mercenary Series Book 1)

by Marissa Farrar

“Hey,” I snapped, grabbing his jaw and yanking his face to look into mine. “You’re not passing out. I need answers.”

  But his eyes rolled again and the lids fluttered shut.

  “Crap.”

  I looked down at his injuries—the ones I’d given him.

  Blood was soaked through both the arm of his shirt and his pant leg. It was hard to see the color against the black of the material, but I could tell from the way the material was wet and clung against the thick muscle of his thigh.

  Something stirred through me.

  Nope, I was not that fucked up. I did not get off on a guy I’d just stabbed and who’d been out to kill me, no matter how muscular his thigh appeared. I was clearly desperate.

  Using my knife, I cut away the material of the pants to reveal the cut below. It was clean, just as I’d meant it to be, but deep. Blood still ebbed from the hole, but it didn’t spurt, so I hadn’t hit a major artery. Tough, if he was going to live, I needed to close it up.

  I didn’t have anything more than some antiseptic ointment and a handful of Band-Aids in the house. I didn’t think they’d cut it, somehow. Would it matter if he got an infection? It wasn’t as though I actually cared if he lived or died, but then I reasoned that I needed him to at least get well enough to be able to answer my questions.

  Leaving him unconscious on the chair, I ran back up the stairs and into the bathroom where I kept the tiny first aid kit. I grabbed the whole thing and took it back down to the cellar where he still hadn’t regained consciousness.

  I applied some of the cream to his wounds, wincing at the depth of them, and then pressed a folded bandage firmly to the cut. With nothing else available, I used my teeth to pull another length of the tape out, and used that to strap the bandage to his thigh.

  That would have to do.

  I moved onto his arm, repeating the process.

  “Hey,” I told him again. “You’re all fixed up, so it’s time to wake up and speak to me.”

  I didn’t get so much as an eyelid flutter as a response.

  It would only be a few more hours until morning.

  Remembering the amount of blood left in the hallway, I made my way back upstairs to clean up. I worked as quietly as possible, using a damp sponge to blot away the worst of the blood, and then scrubbing the rest with some soap and water. For once, I was thankful for the threadbare carpet, with it hideous dark pattern. It would make the remaining stain less noticeable.

  With the job done, I went back down to the cellar to find the man still unconscious. I pulled up one of the old dining room chairs to sit in front of my captive and waited for him to wake.

  Chapter Eight

  X

  I KNEW SHE was speaking to me, peppering me with questions, but it felt as though I was dreaming her, or as though we existed in two parallel universes and we’d somehow broken through to each other.

  She was a devil and an angel all mixed into one.

  She had the ability to hurt, but at the same time I wanted to experience her hands on my skin. Through my haze, I looked forward to her pressing a cool compress against my forehead, and even though she’d caused my wounds, and they hurt when she touched them, I knew she was helping me heal with the ointment she applied. She asked me questions, but my head felt as though it was stuffed with cotton wool, and even if I’d been able to think of an answer, I couldn’t get my tongue to work.

  I didn’t know how much time had passed. Had I been here for hours, or had it been days?

  My whole body throbbed, though the pain seemed to center in my arm and leg. Everything hurt, though, and I had the vague memory of falling, but I couldn’t remember why. I searched my mind, trying to recall what had happened. I remembered the two men I had killed, but what had happened after that? She’d come at me with a knife, but then ...

  It came back to me in a flash. The woman with the tattoos and the cool hands had thrown me down the stairs. I remembered now, the inelegant tumbling and bumping, and hitting the bottom, only for the two bodies to end up piled on top of me.

  It hadn’t been the highlight of my career so far.

  My pride had been injured as much as my body, but I knew an injured pride wouldn’t kill me.

  There was something else important I needed to remember. It hovered at the back of my brain like a hummingbird, flitting away every time I reached for it. But a certainty filled me.

  I couldn’t stay here. It was dangerous to remain in the same place for too long. People would catch up with me, though at that moment, I couldn’t piece my thoughts together for long enough to remember who.

  Chapter Nine

  V

  I SAT WITH the guy until morning arrived. I’d pulled up a chair opposite him and kept the muzzle of the gun trained on him just in case he tried anything. Intermittently, I tried to rouse him, but never got more than a mumble or a jerk of his body.

  I couldn’t bring myself to think any further than him waking up and me questioning him. There were two dead bodies to my right, piled up against the wall and covered in dust sheets, and I would need to get rid of them somehow. This wasn’t like back home. I couldn’t just call the cleaner—the man known for disposal of bodies—and have him take care of it. I would have to deal with the dead bodies at some point. Maybe part of me was hoping the currently unconscious hit man would take care of his own mess. After all, he’d been the one who killed them. But that would mean me having to rely on him caring about clearing them up, and also being able to trust him enough not to come after me. Considering I’d found him in my house, armed with a weapon in the early hours of the morning, and I’d then stabbed him twice and thrown him down a flight of stairs, I figured that might be unlikely.

  I checked my watch.

  It was seven thirty and I needed to make sure Nickie got off to school. It wasn’t that I was worried about her tardiness. I just wanted her out of the house for the day. If this guy didn’t die, he was going to start making some noise, and I didn’t need her around asking questions. The less she knew, the better.

  Though I didn’t think he’d be going anywhere, I made sure the man’s ankles were securely strapped to the chair legs using the tape, and then taped his wrists to his thighs. I left him to hurry back up the stairs and into the main part of the house. Nickie still wasn’t up—the disturbed night had caused her to sleep in—so I used the extra time to strip myself from my bloodied clothes and take a quick shower. I would need to burn the tank top and shorts I’d been wearing, but I couldn’t do that right now.

  Dressed in jeans and a clean t-shirt, I went into the kitchen to make coffee and fry some bacon. The scent of the food cooking must have lured my sister from her bed, and she shuffled into the kitchen with a suspicious expression creasing her face.

  “What’s going on?” she asked.

  “Nothing. I was making breakfast before you went to school. Is that so bad?”

  “Who do you think you are? Mom?”

  Ouch. I could see her usual loving nature was back again.

  “No. I just couldn’t sleep, and I was hungry. Is that okay with you?”

  “Hmm,” she said, but picked up the cup of coffee I set in front of her and took a sip. “What about... last night? Is everything sorted?”

  I flipped the bacon out of the pan and onto a plate, just as the toast popped. “There was nothing to sort. Like I said, a bird got into the house.”

  She gave me a sideways glance as I slid the plate containing bacon and toast onto the table in front of her. She didn’t believe me, but I doubted even her suspicious mind would jump to me having two dead bodies and an abducted hit man shut in the cellar.

  Nickie chomped on her toast while I sipped my coffee and tried not to look as though I’d already drunk five cups that morning. I couldn’t help being jittery, considering the events of last night.

  What would happen if the U.S. Marshals found out someone had discovered where we were? They’d move us again, that was what would happen. I only had a matter of
weeks, and then I would testify and the son-of-a-bitch would be behind bars and we would be safe again. Just a couple more weeks. I couldn’t stand the idea of having to start over once more. We’d have to take new names again, and the lies surrounding us would only deepen. It was hard enough trying to have a conversation with people as it was—you didn’t realize how often you talked about your past until you were suddenly unable to do so. I was less worried about myself than for Nickie. She’d finally settled in at high school and started to make friends. This time was important for her, and it would kill her to move again. I knew her hatred for me would only deepen if we did. She’d blame me for being found, claim I’d said or done something. It didn’t matter to her whether I had or not. I was the focus for her to be able to deal with what had happened, and if hating me made her feel better, and allowed her to live a relatively normal life, then so be it.

  But I couldn’t get away from the fact people knew where we were now. Wouldn’t she be better off hating me, if it meant she’d still be alive?

  No, I wouldn’t let anyone hurt her. I could handle this. I just needed to find out who’d sent the men into our home last night, and why the one guy had killed the other two.

  “I’m getting ready for school,” Nickie announced, pushing back her chair and getting to her feet. She left her plate and empty cup sitting on the table for me to clear away. Part of me wondered if I was pandering to her too much. I let her get away with everything because I knew what a horrendous life she’d had, and I felt bad for her. It wasn’t often I allowed my emotions to dictate how I acted, but Nickie was my one soft spot. Perhaps I should tell her to stop being such a bitch and get on with things, but the trouble was I knew everything she’d been through, and I didn’t just mean the relocation and what had preceded that. The kid had had a tough life, and I’d wanted to protect her.

  I’d failed once, and I didn’t intend to fail again.

  I busied myself by washing the dishes, and ten minutes later I heard the front door slam. Nickie had left the house and I sagged in relief. At least she hadn’t gone out the back way where she’d have noticed the hole in the glass and asked questions. With everything going on, I’d completely forgotten to cover it up.

  I wondered who had revealed our location. Was the young deputy who dropped in on us on a regular basis to make sure we were okay actually bent? Or had someone bribed a U.S. Marshal? We weren’t allowed to make contact with anyone back home. I hadn’t wanted to—it wasn’t as though I had any friends in my old neighborhood—but Nickie had been distraught about leaving all her friends, and the recent boyfriend, behind. She’d cried the whole time, hysterical, until the Marshal had told her she could write a letter saying goodbye, as long as she didn’t disclose any information about what had happened and where we were going. The Marshals would check the letter over and then post it on her behalf. We weren’t even allowed to call people back home, and definitely weren’t allowed to give them our new phone number. All those things could be traced, but besides, it wasn’t only done for our safety. If the wrong people thought someone knew something about where we were, they could be tortured until they gave up whatever information they might have. Keeping everyone in the dark was as much about their safety as ours.

  A twang of worry strummed my nerves. What if Nickie wasn’t safe at school now? What if someone was watching her? I should have warned her, at least prepared her to be on the lookout.

  But no, no one would come after us right after sending the other guys in. They’d assume they would have done their job right, and whoever was responsible was most likely just waiting for confirmation to come in.

  That was why I needed to get the guy in the cellar talking. I needed information, and I needed it soon.

  With Nickie gone from the house, I poured a plastic cup full of water, and then headed back into the cellar. As far as I could see, nothing much had changed. The hit man who’d been sent to kill us still sat in the chair, but as one of the stairs creaked as I walked down, he jerked awake.

  Some crazy part of me almost opened my mouth to say good morning, but I managed to clamp it shut in time. A darkening bruise ran down one side of his temple, and his lower lip was swollen, making it appear even fuller than it already was—pouty, even. They were injuries he must have sustained when I’d shoved him down the cellar staircase. He appeared confused for a moment, his brow deepening with lines, his eyes fluttering again, but then he straightened and looked fully at me.

  My stomach flipped as his gaze landed on me. He definitely had pretty blue eyes, but right now they stared at me with a sharp intelligence and cold calculation. Physically, he must have felt like crap, but he didn’t look like he planned on letting it show.

  “This isn’t going to work,” he said, his voice rough, as though he’d swallowed gravel.

  “What isn’t?”

  “Keeping me here like this. Someone is going to notice I’m missing and come after me, and what are you going to do then?”

  “I’ll deal with them the same way I dealt with you.”

  He cleared his throat—something I found to be annoying in most people, but somehow masculine with him. “Yeah, but you caught me by surprise.”

  “A surprise I orchestrated.” I held back a smile. “I’m not sure you know who I am.”

  “I know exactly who you are.” The hard tone of his voice made me pause. Just what had he heard about me?

  “In which case, you shouldn’t be surprised I didn’t go down without a fight.” I grabbed the chair I had been sitting on while I’d been watching over him, spun it around so the rear faced him, and then sat down back-to-front, my thighs straddling the seat. I folded my fingers over the backrest and placed my chin on my hands. “So,” I said when I was comfortable. “You’re going to answer my questions, or I’m going to make sure you join your friends over there.” I jerked my chin toward the pile of dust sheets.

  The man frowned and followed my line of sight. “What’s under there?”

  “The two men you killed last night. I’d prefer we did this sooner rather than later, ’cause even though it’s cool down here, if we give them another couple of days, it’s going to start smelling pretty ripe.”

  He gave a cold laugh. “What do you think I’m going to tell you?”

  I pursed my lips. “Let’s start with an easy one. How about your name?”

  “I’m not going to tell you my name, but you can call me X.”

  “X? Like Mr. X?”

  He shrugged, but gave a smile that wasn’t fitting for the situation. “Just X will do. And I know your name. Verity.”

  “I’m known as Vee now, but I guess you just answered another of my questions.”

  “Oh, and what’s that?”

  “That you’re here because of my old life. No one else knows me as Verity now.”

  “I figured you’d worked that part out for yourself.”

  I was the one to shrug this time. “I had, but it’s good to have confirmation of my suspicions. I’m going to assume you’re not going to tell me who sent you?”

  “You assume correctly. I won’t say his name, but I’m sure you can guess.”

  He was right, I could.

  I glanced over at the dust sheets. “Why did you kill the men you were with? Have you double crossed someone?”

  He shook his head. “I work alone. Those men weren’t with me. I saw them coming into your house while I was scoping the place out myself, and then I followed them in and shot them.”

  His answer surprised me. I didn’t know what I’d been expecting, but it hadn’t been that. I narrowed my eyes at him. “Why would you do that?”

  “Because coming in here and killing you was supposed to be my job. I didn’t want them to take that away from me.”

  He’d locked me with those blue eyes the whole time he’d spoken, somehow making me feel as though I was the one tied up, and he was the person interrogating me. I tried to push away the feeling. I couldn’t let him intimidate me. I was the
one in control here, and he had to tell me what I needed to know. I should have stuck to the facts, yet for some sick, twisted reason, I couldn’t help myself. It was like tonguing a cavity in your molar—even though it hurt, you couldn’t quite bring yourself to stop doing it.

  “Why not let them do your job for you? Wouldn’t that have saved you a lot of hassle?”

  A slow smile crept across his lips, revealing a glimpse of white teeth behind. “I’d been watching you,” he said, sending a shiver through me. “Something about you drew me in. You’re very beautiful, you know—the glossy black hair, the dark eyes, the tattoos. I like your attitude as well, how you don’t take shit from anyone. I wanted to get close to you, just that once, before you died. Like I said, if the other two men had killed you, I never would have had that opportunity.”

  “How’d that work out for you?” I snapped, sickened by the idea of him wanting to get close to me before he killed me.

  He laughed. “Not as great as I’d been expecting, but one good thing has come out of all of this.”

  “What?”

  His eyes flicked down the length of my body and back up again. “I got to spend time with you.”

  “You’re a sick son-of-a-bitch,” I said, trying to sound tough, but my words emerged strangled, my throat tight.

  He laughed again, deep and throaty. “I don’t think I’m the only one who’s sick. You’re the one who stabbed me twice and tied me to a chair. Plus hid two bodies rather than calling in the cops. Why didn’t you call the cops?”

  “I don’t trust them.”

  “Why not?”

  “I don’t trust anyone.”

  He appeared to hide a smile this time—one of agreement or satisfaction, rather than any kind of smugness. After all, he wasn’t in a position to be smug.

  I realized he’d managed to switch our positions, so he was the one asking the questions, while I was answering. This guy might have let me catch him out last night, but I needed to be wary of him. This would have been easier if he’d been three hundred pounds in weight, balding, with a flat nose, and piggy eyes, rather than the lean, intense specimen who sat before me. I always thought I was better than some simpering girl who lost her mind over a guy, but this one sidetracked me for all the wrong reasons.