Push

by BLMorticia

  “Sure it is, love. I know you want to be alone with him now, but let me tell you something.”

  “What?”

  Seth’s mother placed her hand on his shoulder and gripped it. “Don’t fall too fast.”

  “Mom, I love him.”

  “I know you do, but you have a life outside of him, Re-Re. You have talent, and you need to—”

  “Mom, please. I don’t want to talk about anything regarding High Stakes.”

  “When will you, dear? This was your dream.”

  “It’s true. The band was exactly that. And… until I pushed Johnno away, forcing him to kill himself, it was my focus. Now I can’t do that. I have to honor my best friend, and doing this band without him wouldn’t be good.”

  “Oh pish posh, Seth! How you honor him is by doing the band. He would’ve wanted you to go on, and I’m sure Malakei does too. Don’t hang on to his coattails because you’re blaming yourself for Johnno’s death.”

  “Mom, I’m not. I never said I wasn’t gonna do music. Once we all settle down about Johnno’s death, perhaps I’ll be ready. Or they’ll be ready to find another one.”

  His mother tutted and grasped his shoulder again. “There is no other singer for High Stakes but Seth ‘Reaper’ Davies! You made that band, and no one else will fit.”

  Seth sighed and dropped his head. “Well, if the boys feel the same way you do, I s’pose High Stakes is no more then.” He moved back. “Johnno died because I pushed him away. My stupid fucking pride, my so-called ambition, killed my best friend. If I would’ve been here, maybe he would still be around.”

  “You don’t know that,” she refuted him.

  “I do.”

  “All right. Then if we go by your logic, you shouldn’t blame the band. You should blame yourself and Malakei. You stayed there well after the disc was done.”

  “Mom, it was only a week longer….”

  “A week too long. If you would’ve left Malakei, could you have stopped him from shooting up?” Seth’s mother said in a stern voice.

  “I don’t know.”

  “Then you also can’t assume that following your dream killed him. You did what you thought was best. Stop freaking blaming yourself for that young man’s death. He could’ve said no. You weren’t his bloody babysitter!”

  Seth glanced back at his mother. Her face was flushed red and eyebrows knitted together in a thin line. He hadn’t seen her this angry in quite a while. “Mom, I—”

  She held up her hand. “Just think of what I said. Having Malakei so close has obviously clouded your better judgment! Now, take some time to think of what you will do to Gio and Morty if you give up on them. There is nothing you can do for Johnno now. Live life for you!” She turned around, then stopped a moment. “I need milk and some eggs to make a proper meal. Do you have money?”

  “Yeah.”

  “Then use it and I’ll make us breakfast. Be quick about it.” She walked out of the room.

  Seth nibbled on his bottom lip and shifted on his heel. Once he made it to the door, he ambled out the house and down the block to the corner shop. As he was on his way, he plucked his pack of cigarettes from his pocket and took one out. Hearing Ethel’s statements, Johnno’s death, and Malakei coming out were wearing on him. He was so happy about Malakei, and because of the other things plaguing him, he couldn’t fully enjoy it.

  After a few minutes, Seth made it to the store. He grabbed the milk and eggs from the fridge, then headed up to the line to pay.

  “Oh my God, did you hear about M. Prophet?” Seth heard a young girl in front of him say.

  “Yeah, I did. Why did he hafta be a nancy? He is so gorgeous. I would’ve definitely given him a fly.”

  “Yeah, me too. Ah well, so much for that, hmm? I wonder who he’s banging, then.”

  “Ew, why?” the other lady asked.

  “Because I want to know what he looks like. I mean, I hope it’s someone famous. It would be kind of cool if it was.”

  “I don’t want to know. I’m already disappointed enough,” the other groaned.

  Overhearing that conversation, Seth snickered. He wished he could’ve told them he was the one Malakei was snogging with on the regular, but as Malakei reminded him, it would be an issue for his mother. If only the press weren’t on him like white on rice, then perhaps they could get away with it.

  The ladies continued to talk about Malakei, but they didn’t say anything bad. Seth couldn’t stop chuckling under his breath about their comments. They wondered who made him turn gay, how long Malakei had been with his lover. The first one even asked if Malakei was the top. Seth replied in his mind that she was correct, but he hoped Malakei would want to bottom eventually. Just one more thing Seth wanted to discuss in private before they hit the bed and spent the rest of the day in each other’s arms.

  Within about twenty minutes, Seth returned to the house. He put the eggs and milk on the table, kissed his mother’s head, and headed upstairs to pack some clothes for his trip. He’d just unpacked dirty clothes, but thankfully, he had just enough to wear a few days before doing laundry. There were times he wore his jeans twice as well because he didn’t have the extra cash to buy anything else.

  Once he finished, he sat on the bed, thinking on what his mother said. She’d made some great points, but Seth couldn’t fathom carrying on, knowing what happened. Seth felt his quick action pushed Johnno in the wrong direction. He could never forgive himself for that.

  Sighing aloud, he decided not to think about it for now. It would already be hard enough to say goodbye at the funeral. He wiped away a tear and pulled his phone from his back pocket. He glanced at Malakei’s announcement. Over one hundred thousand likes, shared over four hundred times, with plenty of comments wishing him well on his new relationship. Seth couldn’t stop smiling through the tears, knowing his man was being supported by almost everyone. He was proud to see Malakei hadn’t waited as he’d said. He’d told the world, and it was only a matter of time before everyone found out about him.

  Seth could hardly wait.

  Not too much longer passed before Seth’s mother called him down for their late breakfast. She fixed Canadian bacon, eggs, along with toast and fried tomatoes. Seth was hungrier than he’d expected and ate two helpings of the meal. She remarked how glad she was he hadn’t lost his appetite. Seth wanted to make a snide comment about keeping his strength up for Malakei, but held his tongue.

  After he finished, he cleared the dishes and walked into the living room to take a seat. His mother and Myrna were talking, so he thought it best to leave them. Just as he was about to sit, the doorbell rang. He ambled over. “Who is it?”

  “It’s Malakei.”

  Seth smiled wide and opened the door. “Hello, my sexy man.”

  “Hey.” Malakei leaned in and kissed him. “Mhm. You smell good.”

  Seth pulled him in and closed the door behind him. “Like food, or…?”

  “Like berries with a hint of bacon.” Malakei laughed. “Are you about ready to go?”

  “I am. C’mon, I want to show you my room. If I hadn’t passed out yesterday, I would’ve given you a tour.”

  Malakei snickered. “We were both tired and too consumed by the news. Let me go say hi to Ethel. Is Myrna still here?”

  “Yes. We’ll walk in, then right back out, right? I can hardly wait to be alone with you.”

  Malakei yanked him in and pressed his lips to his temple. “Okay. I got a room at the Hilton in town. We’re taking a secret passageway, so we won’t be discovered,” Malakei said as they walked toward the kitchen.

  “Mhmm. I’m not too worried. As long as they stay away from here, I’ll be okay.” Seth led Malakei into the kitchen. “Mom, Malakei’s here.”

  “Well, hello. I hear congratulations are in order.” She was about to get up.

  Malakei stopped her and walked over there instead. He hugged her as if he’d known her for years.

  Watching them interact, Seth smiled to himself.
He folded his arms and leaned against the doorframe.

  “I’m so happy for both of you. You lads have fun then,” Seth’s mother said to Malakei.

  “We will. I’ll see you both soon.” Malakei hugged them both, then turned around to follow Seth out.

  Seth shifted back to face Malakei. “Did I tell you how much I love you?”

  Malakei grinned and moistened his lips. “You did, but you can always tell me again.”

  Seth grasped his hand. “C’mon upstairs with me, love.”

  “All right, but we can’t stay up there or I might do something rash.”

  Seth snickered. “I’m fully okay with you doing anything rash, Kei. I’ve got a bed upstairs if you want to get randy.”

  He pulled him along, and they jogged up the staircase to the top. When they made it, Seth pushed the door open and yanked Malakei inside. The minute he did, Seth pressed Malakei against the door, covering his mouth with his own in a smothering kiss. At that moment, rushes of energy filled Seth from head to toe, zipping from one erogenous zone to another. He groaned into the kiss and ran his hand over Malakei’s chest, through his jacket and shirt. He wished he could strip him right here, but he knew it wouldn’t be appropriate.

  “Mmhm. I thought you wanted to show me around.”

  Seth pulled back and glanced into Malakei’s eyes. “I was, but I got sidetracked. Perhaps it might be a good idea for us to talk here. Once I get you alone, I won’t be able to control my behavior.”

  Malakei nodded. “Okay, then this would be a good time. Since we’re still kissing, I know you’re not breaking up with me.”

  “Hells no.” Seth yanked him in and pecked his lips. “I want you, mind, body, and soul. All of you. I want us to further this relationship. I… I want us to be exclusive and go get tested.”

  Malakei wrapped his arms around Seth and bowed his head. “Of course, baby.”

  “And I want to top you.”

  “Yes, yes, I want that too. Do you want to wait until after the results or do it when we get back to the hotel?”

  Seth leaned his head back a moment, then moved to eye Malakei again. “As much as it pains me to say this, I want to wait to have you bare. Is that cool?”

  “Either way is fine with me. I can’t wait to have you there. It’s been a while, but I’ve never had a problem switching.”

  “Mhm. Good. And then, I also want to speak about living arrangements. I want to be with you all the time.”

  “Yes, I remember your words about waking up and fucking me every morning.” Malakei chuckled.

  “Mhmm. I intend to make good on that, but I know you can’t stay here forever. I want to move to New York. I’m gonna try to convince Mom to come along. We don’t have to move in together, until we’re ready, but….”

  “I’d want that, Seth. I’m not gonna have you and Ethel live somewhere alone in New York.”

  “Well, I thought it would be too soon.”

  “It might be, but once we go back to NY, some time would’ve passed.”

  “And, well, we can’t make love with Mom there. I’m quite vocal.”

  “Maybe we can find a place for Mom, and you come live with me. How’s that?”

  “You’d do that for us?”

  “Of course.” Malakei ran his hand through Seth’s hair. “I want everything with you. All of it. I don’t really care that anyone thinks it’s too soon. I love you.”

  Seth smiled at that and grasped his shoulders. He couldn’t believe Malakei would do all this for him so quickly. “I love you, too, and I’m glad we agree. Now, can we go back to the hotel?”

  “What about the tour?”

  Seth shook his head. “Here’s my room that doubled as the band’s practice space. And my daybed. I’ve got another bedroom downstairs. If we’re here any longer, I will strip you down, tie your arms to the headboard, and jump on your dick. Do we really want to make enough noise for my mom to come up?”

  Malakei laughed. “No way. I really like Ethel and don’t want to have a falling out with her.”

  “You won’t. Now let’s get out of here before I make good on my threat.”

  “Yes, please. We have some celebrating to do.”

  “Yes, we do, lover. Yes, we do.”

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  AFTER MALAKEI and Seth chatted, they left Seth’s house and hopped in the car to go to the hotel. He’d already arranged to be escorted to the penthouse suite by security in the employee elevator. He figured that was the best way to go about it, so if any press happened to be in the area, they wouldn’t be hounded.

  “Gods, look at this.” Seth walked in, dropping his bag by the door.

  Malakei watched his man and locked the door behind him. “I thought you might enjoy the view.”

  “I love it. How much is this costing you?”

  “It doesn’t matter.” Malakei walked up behind Seth and bound him with his arms. He leaned in and ran his nose along Seth’s ear and neck. “We have a few days to enjoy one another and cut ourselves off from the outside world. Are you prepared for that?”

  Seth groaned under his affections and shivered. “I… I am.” He turned around and glanced at Malakei while he ran his hands along his lover’s jacket. He pushed it off his shoulders until it dropped. “I want you inside of me, Kei. I want you to fuck me hard and make me feel it in the morning.”

  Malakei smiled at that, enjoying the tone. He ran his hands over Seth’s chest, rubbing his nipples through the fabric. “I plan on doing just that.”

  Seth hissed at the action and removed his leather jacket. After he tossed it on a nearby couch, he yanked his T-shirt from his head and threw it on top of the jacket. While he unbuttoned Malakei’s shirt, Seth covered Malakei’s lips with his own, tangling tongues with him until he was breathing hard.

  Malakei unbuttoned as well, helping him with the task. Once they had it off, they both worked on each other’s trousers while they locked lips. The more they kissed, the pressure increased in his groin, making him fully aroused. “Baby.”

  “Fuck yes, Malakei. I love you so much. I want you so bad right now,” Seth spoke against Malakei’s lips.

  “I love you too, and I feel the same.” Malakei shoved Seth’s jeans down and lifted Seth into his arms. “Bedroom.”

  “Yes,” Seth said in between kisses and nips.

  Malakei didn’t break away from the embrace, carrying his lover to the bedroom as he’d said.

  “WHEW!” MALAKEI fell back on the bed, completely out of breath. He pulled Seth into him and kissed his head. “That was….”

  “Fucking amazing, love.” Seth moved to meet his gaze, running his fingertips along Malakei’s jawline. “You did exactly what I asked of you. I am officially well-fucked. My ass is on fire!”

  Malakei grinned and dragged his fingers over Seth’s flesh. “Good. Now this old man can rest.”

  “Ah shhh! You aren’t an old man. I dunno how I’m gonna keep up with you at this rate.”

  “Oh, you will. I wonder if I’ll have enough stamina for you. And then there’s the matter of when you do me. You’re going to pummel me, aren’t you?”

  “Sure am, with love of course.” Seth snorted and pressed his lips atop Malakei’s. “You know, I was so caught up in the loving, I think I might’ve screamed a little too loud.”

  Malakei nodded. “I think you might’ve, but hey, the walls are probably soundproof. And besides, it’s the middle of the day. I doubt there are many people in the hotel right now other than the workers.”

  Seth laughed. “That’s true…. Then I won’t worry about screaming louder when you do me again.” Seth crawled atop Malakai and straddled his body. He leaned in close, running his nose over Malaki’s jawline until their lips met in a soft kiss.

  Malakei’s cock did a dance under the sheets. “Mmhm. Seth, I’ve got no strength to go for round two yet.”

  “You don’t have to do anything. Just lie here and let me pleasure you.” Seth traced Malakei’s lips with
his tongue, then plunged it into his mouth.

  Malakei groaned, wrapping his arms around Seth. He guided him until their cocks lined up under the covers. Feeling Seth’s skin on his own, he sucked in a shaky breath, and his heart sped up.

  “Kei, oh, Kei, yes!” Seth took hold of both their erections, rubbing them together. While doing so, he caressed the tips with his thumb.

  “Shhh…. Seth.” Malakei closed his eyes a moment, knowing he was on the verge of getting hard again. “I can’t believe what you do to me.”

  Malakai heard Seth huff, in rhythm with his thrusts into his own fist. “You can’t resist me.”

  “No. I don’t want to,” Malakei answered through labored breaths. He opened his eyes again, catching the sight of his man moving seductively, grinding their cocks together. Thoroughly overtaken by lust, Malakei moved his hands to Seth’s backside, pulling him close. Wanting more, he sat up straight, keeping one hand on Seth’s ass while the other grasped Seth’s hair. He yanked it back, giving himself exposure to his lover’s neck. Malakei then traced Seth’s Adam’s apple with the tip of his tongue, sucking and nibbling at the lump.

  “Ugh, Kei. Gods, baby!”

  Malakei moved in the same rhythm with him and pushed Seth’s head close until their lips intertwined. Their tongues lavished in each other’s mouths, making Malakei harder by the minute.

  Seth pulled back. “You sure you’re not ready for round two?”

  “You were supposed to be pleasuring me.”

  “I did, and now you’re hard again.”

  “So I am, but I’d rather do this until completion for now. I got plenty more time to fuck you into this Serta.”

  “Ooh yes, you do.” Seth grinned and kissed him hard, wrapping both arms around Malakei’s neck.

  The more they kissed, the more Malakei fell into that deep abyss of love. He adored Seth Davies and would do just about anything for him. Something told Malakei that Seth felt the same. Their relationship had reached new heights, had become paramount in Malakei’s eyes, and he wished for it to stay that way.