Visions of the Future

by Brin, David

  Meine Ruh’ ist hin,

  Meine Herz ist schwer.

  What would Maria want? He knew what she wanted, but if she lived, he could not let her pay that price. Too long she had been there when he wanted her, waiting like a doll put away on a shelf for him to return and take her down, so that he could have the strength to continue.

  And somehow the agony had built up inside her, the dreadful progress of the years, most dread of all to a beautiful woman growing old, alone, too much alone. He had been selfish. He had kept her to himself. He had not wanted children to mar the perfection of their being together.

  Perfection for him; less than that for her.

  Perhaps it was not too late for them if she lived. And if she died—he would not have the heart to go on with work to which, he knew now, he could contribute nothing.

  Que acredito su ventura,

  Morir querdo y vivir loco.

  And finally the call came. “She’s going to be all right, Mac,” Lessenden said. And after a moment, “Mac, I said—”

  “I heard.”

  “She wants to see you.”

  “I’ll be there.”

  “She said to give you a message. ‘Tell Robby I’ve been a little crazy in the head. I’ll be better now. That “great perhaps” looks too certain from here. And tell him not to be crazy in the head too.’”

  MacDonald put down the telephone and walked through the doorway and through the outer office, a feeling in his chest as if it were going to burst. “She’s going to be all right,” he threw over his shoulder at Lily.

  “Oh, Mac—”

  In the hall, Joe the janitor stopped him. “Mr. MacDonald—”

  MacDonald stopped. “Been to the dentist yet, Joe?”

  “No, sir, not yet, but it’s not—”

  “Don’t go. I’d like to put a tape recorder beside your bed for a while, Joe. Who knows?”

  “Thank you, sir. But it’s—They say you’re leaving, Mr. MacDonald.”

  “Somebody else will do it.”

  “You don’t understand. Don’t go, Mr. MacDonald!”

  “Why not, Joe?”

  “You’re the one who cares.”

  MacDonald had been about to move on, but that stopped him.

  Ful wys is he that can himselven knowe!

  He turned and went back to the office. “Have you got that sheet of paper, Lily?”

  “Yes, sir.”

  “Have you sent it?”

  “No, sir.”

  “Bad girl. Give it to me.”

  He read the sentence on the paper once more: I have great confidence in the goals and ultimate success of the Project, but for personal reasons I must submit my resignation.

  He studied it for a moment.

  Pigmaei gigantum humeris impositi plusquam ipsi gigantes vidant.

  And he tore it up.

  Translations

  1. Pues no es posible…

  The bow cannot always stand bent, nor can human frailty subsist without some lawful recreation.

  Cervantes, Don Quixote

  2. Habe nun, ach! Philosophie,…

  Now I have studied philosophy,

  Medicine and the law,

  And, unfortunately, theology,

  Wearily sweating, yet I stand now,

  Poor fool, no wiser than I was before;

  I am called Master, even Doctor,

  And for these last ten years have drawn

  My students, by the nose, up, down,

  Crosswise and crooked. Now I see

  That we can know nothing finally.

  Goethe, Faust, opening lines

  3. Men che drama…

  Less than a drop

  Of blood remains in me that does not tremble;

  I recognize the signals of the ancient flame.

  Dante, The Divine Comedy,

  Purgatorio

  4. C’est de quoy j’ay le plus de peur que la peur.

  The thing of which I have most fear is fear.

  Montaigne, Essays

  5. A la trés-bonne, à la très-belle, qui fait ma joie et ma santé.

  To the best, to the most beautiful, who is my joy and my well-being.

  Baudelaire, Les Epaves

  6. Rast ich, so rost ich.

  When I rest, I rust.

  German proverb

  7. Nunc est bibendum!

  Now’s the time for drinking!

  Horace, Odes, Book I

  8. Wer immer strebens sich bemüht,…

  Who strives always to the utmost,

  Him can we save.

  Goethe, Faust, Part I

  9. Ich bin der Geist der stets verneint.

  I am the spirit that always denies.

  Goethe, Faust, Part I

  10. Nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita…

  In the middle of the journey of our life

  I came to myself in a dark wood,

  Where the straight way was lost.

  Dante, The Divine Comedy,

  Inferno, opening lines

  11. E quindi uscimmo a riveder le stelle.

  And thence we issued out, again to see the stars.

  Dante, The Divine Comedy,

  Inferno

  12. Nil desperandum.

  There’s no cause for despair.

  Horace, Odes, Book I

  13. HIC * SITVS * EST * PHAETHON * CVRRVS * AVRIGA * PATERNI…

  Here Phaethon lies: in Phoebus’ car he fared,

  And though he greatly failed, more greatly dared.

  Ovid, Metamorphoses

  14. Percé jusques au fond du coeur…

  Pierced to the depth of my heart

  By a blow unforeseen and mortal.

  Corneille, Le Cid

  15. Je m’en vay chercher un grand Peut-être.

  I am going to seek a great Perhaps.

  Rabelais on his deathbed

  16. O lente, lente currite, noctis equi!

  Oh, slowly, slowly run, horses of the night!

  Marlowe, Dr. Faustus

  (Faustus is quoting Ovid. He waits for Mephistopheles to appear to claim his soul at midnight. The next line: “The devil will come and Faustus must be damn’d.”)

  17. Meine Ruh’ ist hin…

  My peace is gone,

  My heart is heavy.

  Goethe, Faust, Part I

  18. Que acredito su ventura…

  For if he like a madman lived,

  At least he like a wise one died.

  Cervantes, Don Quixote

  (Don Quixote’s epitaph)

  19. Ful wys is he that can himselven knowe!

  Very wise is he that can know himself!

  Chaucer, The Canterbury Tales, “The Monk’s Tale”

  20. Pigmaei gigantum humeris impositi plusquam ipsi gigantes vidant.

  A dwarf standing on the shoulder of a giant may see further than the giant himself.

  Didacus Stella, in

  Lucan, De Bello Civili

  THE EMPEROR OF MARS

  allen steele

  Allen’s novella The Death of Captain Future received the Hugo Award for Best Novella, won a Science Fiction Weekly Reader Appreciation Award, and received the Seiun Award for Best Foreign Short Story from Japan’s National Science Fiction Convention. It was also nominated for a Nebula Award by the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America. His novella …Where Angels Fear to Tread received the Hugo Award, the Locus Award, the Asimov’s Readers Award, and the Science Fiction Chronicle Readers Award, and was also nominated for the Nebula, Theodore Sturgeon Memorial, and Seiun awards.

  His novelette The Good Rat was nominated for a Hugo in 1996, and his novelette Zwarte Piet’s Tale won an AnLab Award from Analog and was nominated for a Hugo in 1999. His novelette Agape Among the Robots was nominated for the Hugo in 2001. His novella Stealing Alabama received the Asimov’s Readers Award and was nominated for a Hugo, and his novelette The Days Between was nominated for both the Hugo and the Nebula in the same year. His novella Liberation Day
and novelette The Garcia Narrows Bridge both received Asimov’s Readers Awards. Orbital Decay received the Locus Award for Best First Novel, and Clarke County, Space was nominated for the Philip K. Dick Award. He was First Runner-Up for the John W. Campbell Award, received the Donald A. Wollheim Award, and the Phoenix Award. In 2007, he received the Alumni Achievement Award from New England College.

  In 2013, he received the Robert A. Heinlein Award, presented by the Robert A. Heinlein Society in recognition of his fiction promoting the exploration of space. The story below won the Hugo Award and also received the Asimov’s Reader’s Award. You can read his novel Coyote at http://amzn.to/1Ay2Crz.

  Out here, there’s a lot of ways to go crazy. Get cooped up in a passenger module not much larger than a trailer, and by the time you reach your destination you may have come to believe that the universe exists only within your own mind: it’s called solipsism syndrome, and I’ve seen it happen a couple of times. Share that same module with five or six guys who don’t get along very well, and after three months you’ll be sleeping with a knife taped to your thigh. Pull double-shifts during that time, with little chance to relax, and you’ll probably suffer from depression; couple this with vitamin deficiency due to a lousy diet, and you’re a candidate for chronic fatigue syndrome.

  Folks who’ve never left Earth often think that Titan Plague is the main reason people go mad in space. They’re wrong. Titan Plague may rot your brain and turn you into a homicidal maniac, but instances of it are rare, and there’s a dozen other ways to go bonzo that are much more subtle. I’ve seen guys adopt imaginary friends with whom they have long and meaningless conversations, compulsively clean their hardsuits regardless of whether or not they’ve recently worn them, or go for a routine spacewalk and have to be begged to come back into the airlock. Some people just aren’t cut out for life away from Earth, but there’s no way to predict who’s going to going to lose their mind.

  When something like that happens, I have a set of standard procedures: ask the doctor to prescribe antidepressants, keep an eye on them to make sure they don’t do anything that might put themselves or others at risk, relieve them of duty if I can, and see what I can do about getting them back home as soon as possible. Sometimes I don’t have to do any of this. A guy goes crazy for a little while, and then he gradually works out whatever it was that got in his head; the next time I see him, he’s in the commissary, eating Cheerios like nothing ever happened. Most of the time, though, a mental breakdown is a serious matter. I think I’ve shipped back about one out of every twenty people because of one issue or another.

  But one time, I saw someone go mad, and it was the best thing that could have happened to him. That was Jeff Halbert. Let me tell about him…

  Back in `48, I was General Manager of Arsia Station, the first and largest of the Mars colonies. This was a year before the formation of the Pax Astra, about five years before the colonies declared independence. So the six major Martian settlements were still under control of one Earth-based corporation or another, with Arsia Station owned and operated by ConSpace. We had about a hundred people living there by then, the majority short-timers on short-term contracts; only a dozen or so, like myself, were permanent residents who left Earth for good.

  Jeff wasn’t one of them. Like most people, he’d come to Mars to make a lot of money in a relatively short amount of time. Six months from Earth to Mars aboard a cycleship, two years on the planet, then six more months back to Earth aboard the next ship to make the crossing during the biannual launch window. In three years, a young buck like him could earn enough dough to buy a house, start a business, invest in the stock market, or maybe just loaf for a good long while. In previous times, he would’ve worked on offshore oil rigs, joined the merchant marine, or built powersats; by mid-century, this kind of high-risk, high-paying work was on Mars, and there was no shortage of guys willing and ready to do it.

  Jeff Halbert was what we called a “Mars monkey.” We had about a lot of people like him at Arsia Station, and they took care of the dirty jobs that the scientists, engineers, and other specialists could not or would not handle themselves. One day they might be operating a bulldozer or a crane at a habitat construction site. The next day, they’d be unloading freight from a cargo lander that had just touched down. The day after that, they’d be cleaning out the air vents or repairing a solar array or unplugging a toilet. It wasn’t romantic or particularly interesting work, but it was the sort of stuff that needed to be done in order to keep the base going, and because of that, kids like Jeff were invaluable.

  And Jeff was definitely a kid. In his early twenties, wiry and almost too tall to wear a hardsuit, he looked like he’d started shaving only last week. Before he dropped out of school to get a job with ConSpace, I don’t think he’d travelled more than a few hundred miles from the small town in New Hampshire where he’d grown up. I didn’t know him well, but I knew his type: restless, looking for adventure, hoping to score a small pile of loot so that he could do something else with the rest of his life besides hang out in a pool hall. He probably hadn’t even thought much about Mars before he spotted a ConSpace recruitment ad on some web site; he had two years of college, though, and met all the fitness requirements, and that was enough to get him into the training program and, eventually, a berth aboard a cycleship.

  Before Jeff left Earth, he filled out and signed all the usual company paperwork. Among them was Form 36-B: Family Emergency Notification Consent. ConSpace required everyone to state whether or not they wanted to be informed of a major illness or death of a family member back home. This was something a lot of people didn’t take into consideration before they went to Mars, but nonetheless it was an issue that had to be addressed. If you found out, for instance, that your father was about to die, there wasn’t much you could do about it, because you’d be at least 35 million miles from home. The best you could do would be to send a brief message that someone might be able to read to him before he passed away; you wouldn’t be able to attend the funeral, and it would be many months, even a year or two, before you could lay roses on his grave.

  Most people signed Form 36-D on the grounds that they’d rather know about something like this than be kept in the dark until they returned home. Jeff did, too, but I’d later learn that he hadn’t read it first. For him, it had been just one more piece of paper that needed to be signed before he boarded the shuttle, not to be taken any more seriously than the catastrophic accident disclaimer or the form attesting that he didn’t have any sort of venereal disease.

  He probably wished he hadn’t signed that damn form. But he did, and it cost him his sanity.

  Jeff had been on Mars for only about seven months when a message was relayed from ConSpace’s human resources office. I knew about it because a copy was cc’d to me. The minute I read it, I dropped what I was doing to head straight for Hab 2’s second level, which was where the monkey house—that is, the dormitory for unspecialized laborers like Jeff—was located. I didn’t have to ask which bunk was his; the moment I walked in, I spotted a knot of people standing around a young guy slumped on this bunk, staring in disbelief at the fax in his hands.

  Until then, I didn’t know, nor did anyone one at Arsia Station, that Jeff had a fiancé back home, a nice girl named Karen whom he’d met in high school and who had agreed to marry him about the same time he’d sent his application to ConSpace. Once he got the job, they decided to postpone the wedding until he returned, even if it meant having to put their plans on hold for three years. One of the reasons why Jeff decided to get a job on Mars, in fact, was to provide a nest egg for him and Karen. And they’d need it, too; about three weeks before Jeff took off, Karen informed him that she was pregnant and that he’d have a child waiting for him when he got home.

  He’d kept this a secret; mainly because he knew that the company would annul his contract if it learned that he had a baby on the way. Both Jeff’s family and Karen’s knew all about the baby, though, and they decided to pretend
that Jeff was still on Earth, just away on a long business trip. Until he returned, they’d take care of Karen.

  About three months before the baby was due, the two families decided to host a baby shower. The party was to be held at the home of one of Jeff’s uncles—apparently he was the only relative with a house big enough for such a get-together—and Karen was on her way there, in a car driven by Jeff’s parents, when tragedy struck. Some habitual drunk who’d learned how to disable his car’s high-alcohol lockout, and therefore was on the road when he shouldn’t have been, plowed straight into them. The drunk walked away with no more than a sprained neck, but his victims were nowhere nearly so lucky. Karen, her unborn child, Jeff’s mother and father—all died before they reached the hospital.

  There’s not a lot you can say to someone who’s just lost his family that’s going to mean very much. I’m sorry barely scratches the surface. I understand what you’re going through is ridiculous; I know how you feel is insulting. And is there anything I can do to help? is pointless unless you have a time machine; if I did, I would have lent it to Jeff, so that he could travel back twenty-four hours to call his folks and beg them to put off picking up Karen by only fifteen or twenty minutes. But everyone said these things anyway, because there wasn’t much else that could be said, and I relieved Jeff of further duties until he felt like he was ready to go to work again, because there was little else I could do for him. The next cycleship wasn’t due to reach Mars for another seventeen months; by the time he got home, his parents and Karen would be dead for nearly two years.

  To Jeff’s credit, he was back on the job within a few days. Maybe he knew that there was nothing he could do except work, or maybe he just got tired of staring at the walls. In any case, one morning he put on his suit, cycled through the airlock, and went outside to help the rest of the monkeys dig a pit for the new septic tank. But he wasn’t the same easy-going kid we’d known before; no wisecracks, no goofing off, not even any gripes about the hours it took to make that damn hole and how he’d better get overtime for this. He was like a robot out there, silently digging at the sandy red ground with a shovel, until the pit was finally finished, at which point he dropped his tools and, without a word, returned to the hab, where he climbed out of his suit and went to the mess hall for some chow.