I stop to admire the trophies in their display case, and the pictures of grinning teams of children beside them. My picture used to be up there. The memory makes me smile some. It feels good here. I can hear sneakers squeaking across the gym floor, the double doors are open a few classrooms up.
I look down at the cookies I’m holding, wondering why I’m baking for a living. How much of what I do is just because Mr. Mealey gave me an opportunity to buy the bakery? I was substitute teaching when I came home. I needed to find a job quick, and working a day or two a week, just wasn’t cutting it. Teacher positions are slim in this job market.
I always dreamed of having a classroom and students of my own, but that’s all it is. A dream. Now I’m living a different life.
I sigh and move down the hallway, the trays still balanced on my hip. I see a group of students in the gym as I pass, playing some game. Another group of students is going down the hall, all following their teacher like ducklings.
“Cookie!”
I turn my head to see Abbi hurrying toward me, Krissy following her. Krissy and I knew each other well in high school, but now we’re just acquaintances.
Krissy looks elegant, her red wrap dress fitting her thin frame well. I know she married Jared. I remember how jealous I was. I could’ve had that with Hunter. I felt like a horrible human being for being upset with someone else’s happiness. But it was all I could think when I saw their picture in the paper. They’re practically the town sweethearts.
She catches Abbi just a few feet from me, and scoops her up, making Abbi cry out with a squeal.
“Hey Violet,” Krissy says, exasperated. “Sorry.”
“No, it’s fine,” I say, moving closer to say hi to Abbi. “Abbi comes into my shop a lot to get cookies.”
“Cookie! Cookie!” Abbi insists, tears starting to take over her voice.
“I’m in charge of the daycare today,” Krissy says, rolling her eyes. “Miss Abigail was supposed to go home an hour ago, but her mom is MIA. I had to call her uncle. Didn’t I, Abbi?”
“Hunter?” I say.
“Yep. So he should be here in a minute,” Krissy says to Abbi. “It’s okay, buddy. It’s okay.”
Abbi is throwing a temper tantrum, but Krissy’s unflappable.
“Haley is MIA? No idea where she is?” I ask, shifting the trays to my other hip.
“No,” Krissy said, shaking her head. “Apparently not.”
I frown. I heard that Haley’s husband died while in service to the Navy, and I remember how torn up about it she was. She was crying all the time: in the produce section of grocery store, at red lights, in church. My heart went out to her. It still does. I can’t even imagine it. She seems to be dealing with the grief differently now. If the rumor mills are anything to go by, she’s been getting over Chris, by getting under other men. I try to stay out of those conversations. I try not to judge. But it makes my heart hurt for her even more.
What I remember most was that when Chris passed away, is that I kept thinking, what if it had been Hunter? I couldn’t sleep, especially when I knew they worked together. I try to shake the thoughts as my throat closes with sadness.
“I’m here,” a masculine voice sounds down the hallway.
I turn around, and there’s Hunter, striding down the hallway. I bite my lip and give him a once-over, looking at his black Nine Inch Nails tee shirt and dark jeans. More specifically, looking at his muscular arms, at the stomach I know is flat and hard beneath that shirt.
He sees me with Krissy and Abbi, and his brow knits.
“I have to go,” I say to Krissy, ripping my eyes from Hunter.
“Sure. See you around,” she says, moving away from me toward Hunter. I turn and halfway run down the hall, at least as well as I can with the trays of cookies in my hands.
“Vi!” Hunter calls, but I’m already turning the corner.
I hear the rumble of his voice as he says something to Krissy, but I surge ahead. I don’t have time for him. I don’t have time for anything but the task at hand, and running errands like this one.
Mrs. Pine is waiting for me when I finally get to the cafeteria. I drop the cookies off in a hurry, and get the hell out of there as fast as I can.
I purposely exit the building, taking the long way around to get to my car. Better that I don’t run into him.
But when I get back to my car, he’s leaning against the door, looking smug. I slow as I approach the car, blowing out a breath.
“Where’s Abbi?” I ask.
“Playing a video game in my truck.”
He points to the truck parked two spaces over from mine. The window’s down and I can hear the high-pitched noises from whatever she’s playing. I bite my lip, feeling suddenly shy. My heart starts pounding just being this close to him.
“Oh. Well…” I say, stopping a foot from Hunter. “Do you think you could move?”
“That depends. Will you go out with me tonight?” he asks, cocking a brow.
“I… I can’t,” I say, shaking my head.
“Why?” he asks, pushing himself off my car.
“I have to… um… do stuff,” I say lamely.
“Stuff?” he asks, moving closer, until he’s just an inch away.
I could move back. I could slap him, for getting too close. But I don’t do either.
Instead I let my head fall back, looking up at him. I lick my lips, trying not to think of the taste of him, trying to ignore how my body ignites with desire.
“Bakery stuff,” I say. “Baking. I have to make a cake.” I swallow thickly and try to remember if I really do need to bake something.
I’m aware that I sound like an idiot. His hand comes out to brush back a strand of my hair and tuck it behind my ear.
I don’t want to, but I lean into his touch. His hand opens and cups the back of my head. I look up into those emerald green eyes, as hypnotic now as they were the first day I saw him.
He leans down and brushes his lips over mine, a burning brand. I curl my hand in his hair and kiss him harder, his blatant sensuality catching like tinder.
I press my lips to his, so lush and firm. I open my mouth almost against my will, needing to taste him. He takes over the kiss, his tongue stroking mine in long, firm sweeps.
I groan. Nothing has ever felt so good as I feel right now, I swear it. His touch feels so calming, so right, just like he used to, like he never left me.
He breaks the kiss abruptly, leaning his forehead against mine. He’s breathing a little harshly; now that I think about it, I am, too.
We stand like that for a few seconds, just breathing each other in.
“Seven p.m. tonight,” he says, releasing me and stepping back.
I bring my fingers to my lips, feeling somehow bereft. I nod, feeling completely out of it.
Hunter grins again, that cocky expression still on his face. Then he winks at me, before heading to his truck. I stand there like a fool, watching him pull out of the parking lot.
I finally manage to get in my car, still adrift and lean my head back, letting out a slow exhale.
I have a date tonight. A date with Hunter.
I don’t even know how to feel. I start my car and pull out of the parking lot, mulling everything over.
Chapter 51
Hunter
I take a look in the rearview mirror, feeling like I need to get more control on this situation. I’m sweating; I’m so damn nervous.
She makes me nervous.
I need tonight to go right. I’ve got everything planned out. If Vi’s anything like I remember, she’s going to love every minute of it.
I park the car in front of the bakery. It’s late and the bakery is closed, but the light above the storefront is on. The yellow glow from the window of her apartment spills into the night.
I’m not sure what I should do. If I should walk up to the bakery door and knock, or call her. Or maybe she’s got a door around back for her apartment; I’m not sure. She doesn’t give me a m
inute to figure it out though. She pulls the thin curtain back and I can easily make out her silhouette.
It’s showtime. I get out of the truck and make my way up the paved parking lot with my hands in my pocket. I take slow steps and stop a few feet in front of my truck.
My heart’s beating fast, waiting for Vi. When she finally steps out into the faint light from my truck, it nearly stops. She’s so fucking beautiful.
Her long, dark hair spills over her shoulders and just past her breasts. Her cream blouse is unbuttoned, just at the top, so I can make out the soft curves of her figure. Her worn jeans hug every inch of her as she walks to me with a shyness she hasn’t showed me in a long time.
“Vi,” I say as I take a step closer to her.
She stops in her path and grips her clutch in both hands.
“Hunter,” she says with that softness in her voice that I remember from years ago.
It feels like everything clicks into place. I’ve got a piece of her right now. A piece of our past that she's not denying.
I walk around to the passenger door and open it for her.
“Where are we going?” she asks.
She doesn’t make a move to get in. I can tell she’s still walking a knife’s edge with whether or not to trust me, but I’ll show her she can. I’ll prove to her I’m still the man she once loved. I can be that man again. For her.
“A late-night picnic on the hill.” It’s where I used to take her. I’m hoping it gets me some brownie points.
A soft smile plays at her lips, and a beautiful blush rises to her cheeks. “You don’t play fair, Hunter Graves.”
I let a rough chuckle vibrate through my chest and hold her hand as she steps into the truck. She looks so small in it.
I carefully shut the door and jog around the front of the truck to get in. As if waiting too long to start driving will give her another chance to run.
When I get in, she turns up the radio and sits back in her seat, letting out a small yawn. Her hand covers her face, and she looks away with a smile when she feels my eyes on her. The sight of her like this, at ease with me, is everything I’ve wanted. I feel whole again.
A small bit of guilt weighs down on me for even thinking I can be whole. Chris is still gone because of me. My sister will never have a second chance. He’s gone, and there’s nothing she can do about it. She can’t go back like I’m trying to do.
“You okay?” Vi’s voice is laced with concern.
I put the truck into reverse and try to get my mind back on the present. The guilt is still pushing hard on my chest, but I ignore it. Part of me wants to open up to her, but I want this date to be perfect. I want to win her back.
“Yeah,” I say absently, paying attention to the road.
My heart’s beating faster, and I’m trying to push down the anxiety I'm feeling.
“You’re different.” I hear Vi’s soft words, and I turn to look at her.
Yeah, I am different. In a lot of ways.
I swallow the lump in my throat and nod.
“Yeah, I am.” I look back to the road and then settle a hand on her thigh, rubbing my thumb back and forth against her jeans. “I’m still the man you fell in love with though.”
She flinches at my words, and I wish I could take them back. Her body tenses and she looks out the window, shoving her thumb in her mouth to bite on her nail.
“I’m sorry I hurt you.” I take my time driving up to the hill and put it all out there. “I know I did. I know I can’t take it back, but if you’ll let me, I’ll make it right.”
She looks at me with sad blue eyes. “You can’t make it right, Hunter.”
I squeeze her thigh as the truck rocks with the uneven road.
“Just give me a chance, Vi.”
“I am.” She puts her hand over mine, and it soothes some of my worry and closes a bit of the distance between us. “That’s what this is.”
I nod, giving her leg another short squeeze and park the car as close to the clearing as I can.
She gives me a small smile.
“Are we gonna see shooting stars?” Her voice is so small, and a little sad.
“I don’t think so, not tonight,” I say. I know what she’s talking about, and I wish I could give her what she wants. If I could make it happen, I would. But some things, I can’t control.
Her eyes fall to the ground. I move my hand on top of hers and wait for her to look back at me. “There are more nights, Vi. We’ll come back.”
Her soft blue eyes reach mine and I lean in, planting a small kiss on her lips. She molds her lips to mine and I pull back, cupping her face in my hand. I look down at her, and her eyes are still closed. It reminds me of the first time I ever kissed her.
Hope blooms in my chest as I fall back into my seat and open the door.
For the first time since I’ve come home, I feel like I’ve got a real chance with her. I feel like she’s not fighting me. But our past is still keeping us apart.
I open her door and help her down, and she lets me, placing her small hand in mine easily.
I reach behind the passenger seat for the big ass picnic basket with the blanket in it and our packed dinner. I let Haley help me pick what to get, but I made sure to get Vi’s favorite dessert, black raspberry crumb cake. I would’ve grabbed sunflowers too if they'd had them at the florist. No luck though.
“I hope you’re hungry,” I say to her, closing the door and taking her hand.
She smiles, but doesn’t answer. There’s a little tension that’s still between us. It doesn’t help that I’m not right in the head and she doesn’t know why. We make our way through the woods with her hand in mine, holding me tightly.
“You’re cheating,” she says playfully.
It makes me grin at her and my heartbeat picks up faster. If I wasn’t cheating, I wouldn’t be trying.
I move a thick branch out of the way for her to duck under and kick some of the smaller sticks off the path. Damn kids around here must not know about this place, seeing as how the path’s covered with other growth. We always came here. It’s the best place there is to get away from town while still being here.
“I know,” I answer her with a smile that makes her laugh. “I can use all the help I can get.”
Her brows raise, and she clears her throat. I prepare myself for some snappy comment, but she keeps walking ahead and keeps her mouth shut.
Part of me’s grateful for that. But I want my Vi back, and if that means she’s gotta let me have it, I’d rather her beat the shit out of me than hide her pain and just play along.
She knows right where to go, leading the way rather than waiting on me and I follow her the last few steps to the clearing in silence.
The stars are clear and bright above us. There aren’t many, but the sky is bright. There’s no need for the lanterns I packed. But I pull them out anyway. As I set the basket down I look up at her. The light gives her a youthful glow. She’s staring at the sky with a look of wonder.
“I haven’t been here since you left,” she says in a soft voice as I lay the blanket out.
The blanket brushes her calf before settling to the ground. She takes a deep breath and crouches to the ground before sitting on it and letting out an easy sigh.
“I thought about this place all the time while I was away.”
“You did?” she asks.
“Almost every night.”
This place was always on my mind when I was writing to her. The letters that I wrote, but never sent. I brought them tonight. My heart beats a little faster, and my palms turn sweaty. I’m not sure I want to show her. A part of me feels like a coward for even writing them. I should’ve sent them to her, or never written a damn thing.
Before I can convince myself not to give them to her, I lay it all out. The only thing I have worth losing is her, and if there’s any chance that the letters can help me win her over, I’m going to take it.
“I wrote to you,” I say, pulling out the sandwiches. The
letters are underneath them. I lay one in front of her as she eyes me with caution.
“I never got a letter.” I can feel her eyes on me, so I look up and see the hurt on her face. “Not a single one.”
I’m such a fucking bastard.
I clear my throat and add, “I didn’t send them.”
I pull the bundle of them out and slide them over the blanket to her. There are over two hundred of them, neatly stacked and tied with twine. I only stopped writing after Chris was killed. I couldn’t anymore.
I couldn’t get the words out right. I couldn’t tell her. I couldn’t tell anyone.
“Why?” she asks with a bite of exasperation.
Maybe I should’ve waited.
“'Cause I never wanted it to end with you. I fucking loved you, Vi. You were my world.” All I can hear is the blood rushing in my ears. It’s silent for a moment. The tips of her fingers run along the twine, but she doesn’t pick up the letters.
“Then why do it?” she asks. “Why break my heart if you really wanted to be with me?” she asks, and her voice takes on a hard edge. Her anger is coming through.
“I thought it was the right thing to do. To not keep you waiting on me, knowing I might never come back.” Like Chris. Vi starts shaking her head with her lips parted, and her hands balled into fists. She’s gearing up for a fight.
I push the letters and the basket out of the way and pull her small body close to me.
“Vi, I was wrong. I was dead fucking wrong to let you go.” Her jaw is clenched, and she’s hardly looking at me. “I know that now, and I’m sorry. I’m an asshole for doing it. I’m a dumb fucker who doesn’t deserve you. But I want you. I want what we had back then.” Her eyes look up at me through her thick lashes, glassy with tears, but she’s silent. “Just tell me what to do.”
I lean down, resting my forehead against hers. She’s quiet.
“I’ll do anything, I promise.”
She tilts her head and kisses me right then. A soft, sweet kiss. Molding her lips to mine.
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