Rafe

by Amy Davies

  “Hey, baby. What can I get you ladies to drink?” he asks, then leans over and kisses my sister. I have learned from spending time with him that Jackson has two younger twin sisters, Poppy and Piper, who are just ten years old. He really cares for my sister; I just hope he doesn’t hurt her.

  “Tru, honey, put the boy down so he can get us our drinks. Well, no alcohol for your girlfriend, Jax.” I wink at him and he laughs. Her age doesn’t bother him at all and I know that he isn’t pressuring her into anything, she will be eighteen soon. “Can I have a vodka and Coke please, Jax?” He nods and takes the girls’ orders. I look over to the stage and relief washes over me.

  On the stage there are two mic stands with two black guitars and there is a very pretty black piano at the back of the stage. I don’t know what the band is called as no name or symbol is showing, but I know it isn’t Inside Noise because of the lack of a Phoenix symbol anywhere. I turn back to the girls and see Tru sucking face with Jackson again and I smile at how happy my baby sister is. We take our drinks over to a booth and talk until the DJ turns the volume up and the room starts to fill up with people out to have a good night dancing and drinking with friends. After a few more drinks, we hit the dance floor. Thank God for my shoes, I won’t be breaking my neck tonight. We dance for a while and then the DJ announces that it’s time for the band. Everyone stops dancing and turns towards the stage. I see three figures walk across the stage and the hairs on the back of my neck stand up again. Fuck, I know this feeling. I turn to the girls and Tru wraps her hands around my waist from behind me and I see Jax doing the same to her. Trin and Kenzie and Maisey have formed a wall around me. I look over Maisey’s head and see Gunner, then Zach and Skeet and Beck.

  Fuck me, they set me up. Fucktards.

  I try to pull out of Tru’s embrace but I feel another set of hands slide around my waist and I turn to see Jackson holding me to my sister. He gives me a sweet smile and nods to the stage. Tears spring in my eyes as I slowly turn back to the stage to see Rafe standing in the center watching me. Reeve is standing to the left of him and Ryder is sitting at the piano; they are all looking right at me.

  “Hey, everyone. As most of you know, we are Inside Noise.” There are more than a few cheers and screams. “This isn’t a normal gig for us, this is a personal Inside Noise gig. You see, I fell in love with a girl many years ago. I believe we were maybe thirteen years old when I actually saw her for the first time, even though I had known her all my life. We never got together despite my feelings because douche bag boyfriends got in the way.” There were a few boos from around the room. Rafe smiles at me, “I know, but I found her again and we fell in love. But like all true love stories go, the couple falls in love but the guy fucks up and guess what?”

  “You fucked up,” A voice comes from behind us all and we turn to see Izzy sitting on the bar, smirking. Swinging her legs back and forth, she smiles at me and I return it. I turn back to Rafe.

  “Yes, Iz, I screwed up big time, but I want her to take me back she knows how much I love her. You see ladies and gentlemen, she is my Inside Noise. And what does that mean, you are all thinking? Well, you see, the Phoenix boys were brought up around music, and I mean loud, heavy rock music. Our dad Johnny was the drummer for Black Angel.” More screams and cheers. “He was awesome…”

  “Damn straight he was!” Reeve shouts, and people laugh.

  “Anyway, we were always running around the house screaming and singing, playing our guitars or drums. And our mom, whom we never really listened to, used to say, ‘Inside voices boys’. But our dad had always told us that music comes from inside us, inside our hearts. Our music beats inside of us. So now you know the meaning behind our name Inside Noise, so when I say that,” he points to me and I wipe the tears away and give him a small smile. “Lucy Cooper is my Inside Noise, you understand me.”

  I still have tears rolling down my cheeks. I go to step forward but Rafe shakes his head at me and mouths ‘No.’ Déjà vu, anyone?

  “I was told that I needed to show Lucy how I felt about her,” he takes a deep breath, “It was my only hope.” On that note, Rafe and Reeve start the song and Ryder joins in on the piano. I can’t stop the gasp that escapes my lips. The people that are in front of me turn at the sound and the all part a way leading to Rafe. I step forward while Rafe sings ‘Only Hope’ by Switchfoot, which is from my favorite movie. I stop in front of Rafe as he sings the song to me, tear flowing freely down my cheeks. During the break in lyrics, Rafe mouths ‘I love you’ and I return my own declaration of love to him. My sexy Rafe smiles creeps across his face.

  The song finishes and I wipe the tears way from my face. Rafe jumps down off the stage and stands in front of me, smiling down at me.

  “Hey, Snowflake.” He wipes a stray tear away.

  “Hey, Rafe.”

  “Baby, I’m so sorry I…” I cut him off my bringing his lips to mine. The crowd screams and cheers and I laugh into Rafe’s mouth. He tastes so good, it’s been weeks since I have kissed him but it feels like years. He runs his tongue along my bottom lip so I open for him, taking his hot wet tongue into my mouth. I moan and Rafe pulls away.

  “Snowflake, we need to stop, babe. People are watching.” I rest my forehead on his chest, breathe his scent in and he pulls me tight against him.

  “I missed you so much,” I say, against his black button down shirt.

  He kisses my head, “I missed you too, baby.” I feel more arms go around me and see Tru and Maisey hugging us. We pull apart just enough to speak to everyone. Reeve jumps off the stage.

  “About fucking time, Juicy. We were gonna kick his sorry ass out of the band if he didn’t sort his fucking head out,” He winks at me and I laugh. Gunner slaps Rafe’s shoulder,

  “Fuck with her again and that one punch I gave you will triple in number, ok bro?” Rafe nods. Hang the freak on, what punches? I frown at Rafe and he shakes his head’ no’.

  Rafe takes me to the back room so we can have a long talk and get everything out in the open. Rafe sits on the couch and pulls me into his lap.

  “Baby, I can’t express much more how sorry I am, but I do need to tell you that I found out Dani set us up a few days after you left me. Nikki, the girl from that night, came to me asking to go out on a date. It turned out that she was a friend of Dani’s. You and the girls pissed her off at the mall one day and she wanted revenge.” I smile remembering that day. “But listen, it’s over and I want us back together, baby. I really need you in my life; my life sucks without you.”

  I take a deep breath and tell him how I feel, “What happened really hurt, Rafe; you ripped me in two. It was worse than Dallas because I actually loved you…” He cuts me off.

  “Loved me?” He looks like a kid who just dropped his ice cream.

  “Rafe, I still love you, babe and I think I always will. I have wanted you for years, just like you said out there on stage tonight. The time we spend apart killed me. I just wanted to kiss you hear you and feel you but I couldn’t find it in me to face you. It hurt thinking you might have moved on.” He goes to speak but I stop him by placing my finger on his lips.

  “You belong to me, Rafe Phoenix. Always have and always will, babe. Do you think we should go back out there with everyone and do some celebrating?” Rafe shakes his head no and pulls me in for a super-hot kiss. Our tongues dance to the beat of our hearts and I can feel his hard on pressing against me so I grind down. Rafe moans, so I do it again.

  “Baby, you wanna do that here? Because I haven’t been inside you for a long time and I can tell you now that I won’t last and I want to be able to take my time with you. Can you wait until we get home?” I shake my head no and he groans again, flipping us so that I’m now flat on my back on the couch with Rafe nestled between my legs. We don’t need foreplay, as I already wet for him after his amazing performance earlier and his kisses just now. He unbuttons my shorts and pulls them down my legs, along with my panties. He lifts my camisole up over my breasts and p
ulls my bra down, forcing my breasts to push up. He runs his fingers through my lower lips and rubs my juices all over my clit. I jerk from his touch and he sucks a nipple into his mouth and my body arches into his mouth.

  “Rafe, now baby. I need you inside of me,” I say breathlessly. He sits up on his knees and removes a condom from his wallet. He hands me the little foil packet. I burst out laughing and Rafe smiles at me. On the condom packet it says, ‘I love Inside Noise,’ but instead of the word love, it’s a red heart.

  Rafe shrugs and we both say, “Reeve” in unison. He rolls the condom over his solid dick and my laughing stops. God, he is beautiful. He lowers his body over mine and rests his shaft at my entrance. He slowly pushes into me and I moan his name. Once he is fully inside me, he stops and looks at me.

  “I love you, Lucy Sinead Cooper. You are my inside noise, baby.” I smile and kiss him. He starts moving and oh God, he feels good. I have missed him, all of him.

  “Faster, Rafe. Harder, baby. God, I have missed you.” Rafe picks up the pace and starts pounding into me. I feel the all too familiar sensation building throughout my body.

  “Fuck, you’re close, baby. I’m not gonna last, Snowflake. Come with me, baby. Now.” My orgasm rips through my body and I come so hard I see stars. I can feel Rafe’s dick swell inside of me from his own release; he slows down to gentle thrusts while we both come down from our climax. He kisses my collarbone then my neck, cheek and then finally my mouth. He kisses me slowly, lovingly; he is showing me just how much he loves me through his kisses, every feeling pouring out of him and into me.

  A knock startles us from our loving, “Rafe, put our girl down and let her come up for air. Are you guys gonna stay in there all night? Or are you gonna come out here and party with us?” I chuckle and reply to Gunner.

  “We will be right out”

  We get dressed and make sure we both look presentable to go back out front to meet the guys at the bar. I run my fingers through my hair and laugh at the sight of myself in the mirror. I clear the make-up up around my eyes and add some more lip-gloss. Rafe takes my hand and leads me to the door and I feel now that I need to tell him.

  “Rafe, you know I love you, right?”

  “Yeah, Snowflake” He smiles at me and I smile back.

  “Good,” I smile at him.

  “You ok, babe?” I nod.

  I take a deep breath and turn to the door. I put my hand on the silver handle but turn back to him. He looks slightly confused but I smile at him and he smiles his Phoenix smile back.

  “You are my inside noise, Rafe Phoenix.”

  The End

  Epilogue

  Ryder

  Inside Noise has just finished our New Year’s Eve set; we sang some old classics plus some new day tracks. As a bonus, we sang some songs that we wrote ourselves. Reeve has that special touch more than Rafe and me. The crowd loved us as usual, and Mom looked so proud. The room was filled with family and friends with some celebs; fucking hot female celebs. Maybe I should bang one; groupies are old now. They are only after one thing. Ok, so was I most of the time but not anymore. Well, unless it’s a celebrity. While performing tonight’s gig me and the boys wore our usual clothes- black jeans, black tee but now we are standing in front of a full length mirror straightening out our bow ties. Yep, that’s right, Mama Phoenix has made us Phoenix boys wear freaking tuxedos for the rest of the night.

  “I feel like a dick in this, man. What the hell was Mom thinking?” Reeve pipes in.

  “You look like one too, dude,” Rafe laughs and I join in.

  “Fuck you, man,” Reeve spits back.

  “Naw, bro I got my, Snowflake for that. She is gonna love me in this. I am so getting fucking laid tonight.” He winks at me and I smile.

  “Dude, you always get fucking laid. You two go at it like a pair of Energizer bunnies,” I laugh at my brother.

  “Well at least I’m getting it regular, dude. Ok, I’m ready. You two good to go?” I turn to face my brothers and we all nod.

  “It party time, brothers.” I laugh at Reeve and follow my brothers out to the main room, where the party is still in full swing.

  I have come stag tonight, as I simply could not be assed to find a date. Hell, I’m Ryder Phoenix. I am so freaking awesome that I don’t need a date to have a good night, but by fuck it helps. I scan the room looking for someone to go talk to. There are plenty of hot babes up in here tonight but I have seen them all before, no one is standing out to me. Fuck my life, I need a change. I scan the room again and see my family.

  Rafe is wrapped around his girlfriend Lucy. He was lucky to get her back after his huge fuck up, but she forgave him and I’m glad she did because I have never seen him this happy. Lucy is good for him. Reeve is wrapped around some redhead that I haven’t seen before, but that’s not unusual for Reeve. He is the Phoenix man whore. I see all of our friends plotted around the room- Maisey and Gunner, Kenzie and Zach even Jack and Jordan are here. Baby Tru is with Jax somewhere. He had better not pressure her or he will deal with Rafe, well, all of us Phoenix boys. I see that Skeet is propping the bar up, eyeing Reeve and his date. They share a lot but Skeet told me that he doesn’t like this girl. He called her a ‘total bitch’ because if Reeve wanted to go somewhere with Skeet, she’d throw a shit fit and he’d stay with her. Dickhead.

  Beck and Trinity have put a gap the size of the Grand Canyon between them; they even each brought a date just to piss each other off. To be honest, I don’t see the point. They both dig each other so just get on with it I say, fuck all the chasing games. I have had a chat with my best friend plenty of times, hell, even drunken chats but he simply won’t budge on getting together with Trinity. He says that she is the type of girl that can totally ruin him and that scares the living shit out of him, thanks to that fucked up bitch April.

  My mother shouts for us of all to join her by the fireplace so we can count in the New Year. I meet my brother and our uncles by my mother. I stand on the outside of the couples, as I didn’t bring a date. Couldn’t find one suitable; fuck, even Nix and Brax brought dates. Ren brought a guy from work but he is not even in her league, she won’t stay with him.

  “Just one minute everyone, please grab a drink and get ready for your first kiss of the New Year,” my mom shouts. The music turns off and with everyone with drink in hand and a guy or girl in their arms, we count in the New Year.

  “Ten, nine, eight, seven, six…” the sounds of everyone counting fade out as the most gorgeous girl I have ever seen comes into view. She is wearing a black dress that has one strap across her left shoulder and there is a slit in the dress that stops right at her right hipbone. I can’t tell if she is wearing panties or not but I sure as hell want to find out. She has a half tattooed sleeve on her left arm which is sexy as fuck. She smiles at me and her friend pushes her forward. She stumbles into me and I place my hands on her hips just as the clock strikes twelve. Everyone around shouts Happy New Year but I hear nothing as she kisses me. I pry her lips open with my tongue and lucky for me she opens for me, inviting me in.

  I devour her mouth, pulling her tight to my body so she can feel just what her kisses are doing to me. I know I am as hard of a fucking rock right now; she has her fingers in my hair holding me to her. She is fucking loving this kiss just as much as I am.

  A loud cheer brings us back to the now and she pulls away. She smiles at me.

  “Happy New Year and um…thanks for the kiss,” she winks and runs back into the crowd. I try to follow her but I’m pulled into a Phoenix family hug and I lose sight of her and her friend. I spend the next hour walking around the rooms looking for her with no luck.

  Well fuck me sideways, who the hell was that girl? And where the fuck can I find her?

  The End…..for now

  Acknowledgements

  Again I would like to thank my husband Darryl for being my support system throughout me writing this book. I channeled my inner Darryl for some of the cockiness and it helped make the sto
ry. I love you baby.

  My three beautiful children who have been placed in this book and will appear in all three, I love you Jackson, Max and Isabelle aka Izzy.

  My girls over at Eye Candy Bookstore, you have been my rocks throughout this book, helping me and supporting me. Giving advice when needed and just being there for me.

  Facebook.com/EyeCandyBookstore

  www.eyecandybookstore.com

  Sarah my #TeamBreathe Thank you for helping with Rafe, even though you claim Ryder ;)

  Kellie my Chickpea, you have helped beyond anyone I could ask. You have helped not only with Rafe but with ‘Let Me love You’ as well and for that I THANK YOU & LOVE YOU Chickpea.

  My long time friend Steven Brayley who took the photos for the cover of this book. Thank you.

  Steven's website : http://www.framedfoto.co.uk

  Facebook.com/FramedFoto

  I also have to say a huge thank you to my darling nephew Kyle Barnett who is my cover model. He jumped at the chance to help me out and for that dude I am so grateful to you. The cover turned out better than I could have ever ask for.

  A big thank you to the Aberavon Beach Hotel and one of the managers Daniel, who let me shoot the cover for the book at the hotel.

  www.aberavonbeach.com

  Thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout writing Rafe, you know who you are and you are all my Rockstars!

  Love you chicas!!!!

  (K,K,C)

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