The Great Book of Amber

by Roger Zelazny

  I took another sip of wine myself and cut off a piece of the cheese. “How come you've stayed around all these years? It seems like a hard life.”

  He nodded. “Truth of it is, I don't know the way home. Those were strange trails they brought us in on. I thought I knew where they were, but when I went lookin' I couldn't never End 'em. I suppose I could have just taken off, but then I'd probably get lost more than ever. Besides, I know I can make out here. A few weeks and those outbuildings will be rebuilt and the peasants will move back in, no matter who wins. And they think I'm a holy man, prayin' up here and meditatin'. Any time I wander down that way they come out for a blessin' and give me enough food and drink to hold me for a long while.”

  “Are you a holy man?” I asked.

  “I just pretend,” he said. “Makes them happy and keeps me fed. Don't go tellin' that, though.”

  “Of course not. They wouldn't believe me, anyway.”

  He laughed again. “You're right.”

  I got to my feet and walked back along the hail a little way, so that I could see the Keep once again. The ladders were on the ground, and I beheld even more scattered dead. I saw no signs of the struggle within.

  “Is the gate open yet?” Dave called.

  “No. I don't think the ones who got in were sufficient to the task.”

  “Is that green and black banner anywhere in sight?”

  “I can't see it anywhere.”

  He rose and came over, carrying both bottles. He passed me mine and we both took a drink. The ground troops began to fall back from the area before the wall.

  “Think they're giving up or re-forming for another rush?” he asked me.

  “Can't say yet,” I told him.

  “Whichever it is, there should be a lot of good loot down there tonight. Stick around and you'll have all you can carry.”

  “I'm curious,” I said, “why Dalt would be attacking again, if he's on good terms with the queen and her son.”

  “I think it's just the son,” he said, “and he's gone. The old lady's supposed to be a real bitch. And after all, the guy is a mercenary. Maybe Kasman hired him to go after her.”

  “Maybe she's not even in there,” I said, having no idea how this time stream ran, but thinking of my recent encounter with the lady. The image of it, though, caused a strange train of thought.

  “What's the prince's name, anyway?” I asked.

  “Rinaldo,” he answered. “He's a big red-haired guy.”

  “She's his mother!” I said involuntarily.

  He laughed. “That's how you get to be a prince,” he said. “Have the queen be your mother.”

  But then, that would mean... “Brand!” I said. Then, “Brand of Amber.”

  He nodded. “You've heard the story.”

  “Not really. Just that much,” I replied. “Tell it to me.”

  “Well, she snared herself an Amberite-the prince called Brand,” he said. “Rumor had it they met over some magical operation and it was love at first blood. She wanted to keep him, and I've heard it said they actually were married in a secret ceremony. But he wasn't interested in the throne of Kashfa, though he was the only one she might have been willing to see on it. He traveled a lot, was away for long stretches of time. I've heard it said that he was responsible for the Days of Darkness years ago, and that he died in a great battle between Chaos and Amber at that time, at the hands of his kinsmen.”

  “Yes,” I said, and Dave gave me a strange look, half puzzlement, half scrutiny. “Tell me more about Rinaldo,” I said quickly.

  “Not much to say,” he replied. “She bore him, and I've heard she taught him something of her Arts. He didn't know his father all that well, Brand being away so much. Kind of a wild kid. Ran away any number of times and hung out with a band of outlaws—”

  “Dalt's people?” I asked.

  He nodded. “Rode with them, they say-even though his mother'd placed bounties on many of their heads at that time.”

  “Wait a minute. You say that she really hated these outlaws and mercenaries—”

  “'Hate' may be the wrong word. She'd never bothered about them before, but when her son got friendly with them I think she just got mad.”

  “She thought they were a bad influence?”

  “No, I think she didn't like it that he'd run to them and they'd take him in whenever he had a falling out with her.”

  “Yet you say that she saw Dalt paid off out of the Keep's treasure and allowed him to ride away, after they'd forced her hand against Sharu Garrul.”

  “Yup. Big argument at the time, too, between Rinaldo and his mom, over just that point. And she finally gave in. That's the way I heard it from a couple of guys who were there. One of the few times the boy actually stood up to her and won, they say. In fact, that's why the guys deserted. She ordered all witnesses to their argument executed, they told me. They were the only ones managed to get away.”

  “Tough lady.”

  “Yup.”

  We walked on back to the area where we'd been seated and ate some more food. The song of the wind rose in pitch and a storm began out at sea. I asked Dave about big doglike creatures, and he told me that packs of them would probably be feasting on the battle's victims tonight. They were native to the area.

  “We divide the spoils,” he said. “I want the rations, the wine and any valuables. They just want the dead.”

  “What good are the valuables to you?” I said.

  He looked suddenly apprehensive, as if I were considering the possibility of robbing him.

  “Oh, it don't really amount to much. It's just that I've always been a thrifty person,” he said, “and I make it sound more important than it is. “You never can tell,” he added.

  “That's true,” I agreed.

  “How'd you get here anyway, Merle?” he asked quickly, as if to get my mind off the subject of his loot.

  “Walked,” I said.

  “That don't sound right. Nobody comes here willingly.”

  “I didn't know I was coming here. Don't think I'll be staying long either,” I said, as I saw him take up the small knife and begin toying with it. “No sense going below and begging after hospitality at a time like this.”

  “That's true,” he remarked.

  Was the old coot actually thinking of attacking me, to protect his cache? He could be more than a little mad by now, living up here alone in his stinking cave, pretending to be a saint.

  “Would you be interested in returning to Kashfa,” I said, “if I could set you on the right trail?”

  He gave me a crafty look. “You don't know that much about Kashfa,” he said, “or you wouldn't have been asking me all those questions. Now you say you can send me home?”

  “I take it you're not interested?”

  He sighed. “Not really, not any more. It's too late now. This is my home. I enjoy being a hermit.”

  I shrugged. “Well, thanks for feeding me, and thanks for all the news.” I got to my feet.

  “Where are you going now?” he asked.

  “I think I'll look around some, then head for home.” I backed away from that small lunatic glow in his eyes.

  He raised the knife, his grip tightened on it. Then he lowered it and cut another piece of cheese.

  “Here, you can take some of the cheese with you if you want,” he said.

  “No, that's okay. Thanks.”

  “Just trying to save you some money. Have a good trip.”

  “Right. Take it easy.”

  I heard his chuckling all the way back to the trail. Then the wind drowned it.

  I spent the next several hours reconnoitering. I moved around in the hills. I descended into the steaming, quaking lands. I walked along the seashore. I passed through the rear of the normal-seeming area and crossed the neck of the ice field. In all of this, I stayed as far from the Keep itself as possible. I wanted to fix the place as firmly in mind as I could, so that I could End my way back through Shadow rather than crossing a thre
shold the hard way. I saw several packs of wild dogs on my journey, but they were more intent upon the battle's corpses than anything that moved.

  There were oddly inscribed boundary stones at each topographical border, and I found myself wondering whether they were mapmakers' aids or something more. Finally, I wrestled one from the burning land over about fifteen feet into a region of ice and snow. I was knocked down almost immediately by a heavy tremor; I was able to scramble away in time, however, from the opening of a crevice and the spewing of geysers. The hot area claimed that small slice of the cold land in less than half an hour. Fortunately, I moved quickly to get out of the way of any further turmoil, and I observed the balance of these phenomena from a distance. But there was more to come.

  I crouched back among the rocks, having reached the foothills of the range from which I had started by crossing through a section of the volcanic area. There, I rested and watched for a time while that small segment of terrain rearranged itself and the wind smeared smoke and steam across the land. Rocks bounced and rolled; dark carrion birds went out of their way to avoid what had to be some interesting thermals.

  Then I beheld a movement which I first assumed to be seismic in origin. The boundary stone I had shifted rose slightly and jogged to the side. A moment later, however, and it was elevated even farther, appearing almost as if it had been levitated slightly above the ground. Then it drifted across the blasted area, moving in a straight line at a uniform speed, until -as nearly as I could judge-it had recovered its earlier position. And there it settled. Moments later the turmoil recommenced, and this time it was a jolting shrug of the ice sheet, jerking back, reclaiming the invaded area.

  I called up my Logrus sight, and I was able to make out a dark glow surrounding the stone. This was connected by a long, straight, steady stream of light of the same general hue, extending from a high rear tower of the Keep. Fascinating. I would have given a lot for a view of the interior of that place.

  Then, born with a sigh, maturing to a whistle, a whirlwind rose from the disputed area, growing, graying, swaying, to advance suddenly toward me like the swung proboscis of some cloudy, sky-high elephant. I turned and climbed higher, weaving my way amid rocks and around the shoulders of hillsides. The thing pursued, as if there were an intelligence guiding its movements. And the way it hung together while traversing that irregular terrain indicated an artificial nature, which in this place most likely meant magic.

  It takes some time to determine an appropriate magical defense, and even more time to bring it into being. Unfortunately, I was only about a minute ahead of the posse, and that margin was probably dwindling.

  When I spotted the long narrow crevice beyond the next turning, jagged as a limb of lightning, I paused only an instant to peer into its depth, and then I was descending, my tattered garments lashed about me, the windy tower a rumbling presence at my back...

  The way ran deep and so did I, following its jogs, its twistings. The rumble rose to a roar, and I coughed at the cloud of dust that engulfed me. A hailstorm of gravel assailed me. I threw myself Bat then, about eight feet below the surface of the land, and covered my head with my arms, for I believed that the thing was about to pass directly above me.

  I muttered warding spells as I lay there, despite their minuscule parrying effect at this distance against such an energy-intensive manifestation. I did not jump up when the silence came. It could be that the tornado's driver had withdrawn support and collapsed the funnel on seeing that I might be out of reach. It could also be the eye of the storm, with more to come, by and by.

  While I did not jump up, I did look up, because I hate to miss educational opportunities.

  And there was the face-or, rather, the mask-at the center of the storm, regarding me. It was a projection, of course, larger than life and not fully substantial. The head was cowled; the mask was full and cobalt bright and strongly reminiscent of the sort worn by goalies in ice hockey; there were two vertical breathing slits from which pale smoke emerged-a touch too theatrical For my taste; a lower series of random punctures was designed to give the impression of a sardonically lopsided mouth. A distorted sound of laughter came down to me from it.

  “Aren't you overdoing it a bit?” I said, coming up into a crouch and raising the Logrus between us. “For a kid on Halloween, yes. But we're all adults here, aren't we? A simple domino would probably serve—”

  “You moved my stone!” it said.

  “I've a certain academic interest in such matters,” I offered, easing myself into the extensions. “Nothing to get upset about. Is that you, Jasra? I—”

  The rumbling began again, softly at first, then building once more.

  “I'll make a deal,” I said. “You call off the storm, and I'll promise not to move any more markers.”

  Again, the laughter as the storm sounds rose.

  “Too late,” came the reply. “Too late for you. Unless you're a lot tougher than you look.”

  What the hell! The battle is not always to the strong, and nice guys tend to win because they're the ones who get to write their memoirs. I'd been fiddling with the Logrus projections against the insubstantiality of the mask until I found the link, the opening leading back to its source. I stabbed through it-a thing on the order of an electrical discharge-at whatever lay behind.

  There came a scream. The mask collapsed, the storm collapsed, and I was on my feet and running again. When whatever I'd hit recovered I did not want to be in the same place I had been because that place might be subject to sudden disintegration.

  I had a choice of cutting off into Shadow or seeking an even faster path of retreat. If a sorcerer were to tag me as I started shadow-slipping I could be followed. So I dug out my Trumps and shuffled forth Random's. I rounded the next fuming of the way then, and I would have had to halt there anyway, I saw, because it narrowed to a width impossible for me to pass. I raised the card and reached with my mind.

  There followed contact, almost immediately. But even as the images solidified I felt a probe. I was certain that it was my blue-masked nemesis seeking me once more.

  But Random came clear, seated before a drum set, sticks in hand. He set aside the drumsticks and rose.

  “It's about time,” he said, and he extended his hand.

  Even as I reached I felt something rushing toward me. As our fingers touched and I stepped forward, they burst about me like a giant wave.

  I passed through into the music room in Amber. Random had opened his mouth to speak again when the cascade of flowers fell upon us.

  Brushing violets from his shirtfront, he regarded me.

  “I'd rather you said it with words,” he remarked.

  4

  Portrait of the artists, purposes crossed, temperature falling,..

  Sunny afternoon, and walking through small park following light lunch, us, prolonged silences and monosyllabic responses to conversational sallies indicating all's not well at other end of communication's taut line. Upon bench, seated then, facing flower beds, souls catch up with bodies, words with thoughts...

  “Okay, Merle. What's the score?” she asks.

  “I don't know what game you're talking about, Julia.”

  “Don't get cute. All I want's a straight answer.”

  “What's the question?”

  “That place you took me, from the beach, that night... Where was it?”

  “It was-sort of a dream.”

  “Bullshit!” She turns sideways to face me fully, and I must meet those flashing eyes without my face giving anything away. “I've been back there, several times, looking for the way we took, There is no cave. There's nothing! What happened to it? What's going on?”

  “Maybe the tide came in and—”

  “Merle! What kind of an idiot do you take me for? That walk we took isn't on the maps. Nobody around here's ever heard of anything like those places. It was geographically impossible. The times of day and the seasons kept shifting. The only explanation is supernatural or paranormal-what
ever you want to call it, What happened? You owe me an answer and you know it. What happened? Where were you?”

  I look away, past my feet, past the flowers. “I-can't say.”

  “Why not?”

  “I—” What could I say? It was not only that telling her of Shadow would disturb, perhaps destroy, her view of reality. At the heart of my problem lay the realization that it would also require telling her how I knew this, which would mean telling her who I am, where I am from, what I am-and I was afraid to give her this knowledge. I told myself that it would end our relationship as surely as telling her nothing would; and if it must end either way, I would rather we parted without her possessing this knowledge. Later, much later, I was to see this for the rationalization it was; my real reason for denying her the answers she desired was that I was not ready to trust her, or anyone, so close to me as I really am. Had I known her longer, better – another year, say – I might have answered her. I don't know. We never used the word “love,” though it must have run through her mind on occasion, as it did through mine. It was, I suppose, that I didn't love her enough to trust her, and then it was too late. So, “I can't tell you;” were my words.

  “You have some power that you will not share.”

  “Call it that, then.”

  “I would do whatever you say, promise whatever you want promised.”

  “There is a reason, Julia.”

  She is on her feet, arms akimbo. “And you won't even share that.”

  I shake my head.

  “It must be a lonely world you inhabit, magician, if even those who love you are barred from it.”

  At that moment it seems she is simply trying her last trick for getting an answer from me. I screw my resolve yet tighter. “I didn't say that.”

  “You didn't have to. It is your silence that tells me, If you know the road to Hell too, why not head that way? Good-bye!”

  “Julia. Don't...”

  She chooses not to hear me. Still life with flowers...

  Awakening, Night. Autumn wind beyond my window. Dreams. Blood of life without the body..., swirling..., I swung my feet out of bed and sat rubbing my eyes, my temples. It had been sunny and afternoon when I'd finished telling Random my story, and he'd sent me to get some shuteye afterward. I was suffering from shadow lag and felt completely turned around at the moment, though I was not certain exactly what the hour might be.