Just Like This (Just Like This Series Book 1)

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by Rebecca Gallo


  I reached out and placed a hand on Oliver’s cheek, which he covered with his own. “I see him too sometimes,” he admitted. “When I’m frustrated with something, he just seems to pop up and know what to say or how to fix it.”

  I smiled weakly. “He’s so excited to come back and help you run Hammond Winery. I know he’s going to find a way to come back to both of us.”

  “I think you need to get some rest,” Palmer interjected. He lifted me gently until I was sitting upright before getting up to find my pills. He returned a moment later with two and a bottle of water.

  “I don’t normally take two,” I told him.

  “It says you can on the bottle,” he replied coolly. “I thought you might want two just because this has been incredibly stressful.”

  “You’re right,” I conceded. I plucked them from his outstretched palm and placed them on my tongue before swallowing them down with the water Palmer offered. I stood, my legs shaky, and headed toward the bedroom. It was only a matter of minutes before my world went quiet.

  The bed shifted, and I woke slowly. My room was still dark, and my body felt like lead. But I wasn’t alone.

  “Cami,” Garrett’s familiar voice called out. “Cami, are you awake?”

  “Garrett?” I sat up to see Garrett silhouetted against the moonlight that streamed in through the window.

  “It’s me. I’m here. I didn’t want to wake you up, I’m sorry.”

  “What are you doing here? You’re missing.”

  Garrett leaned forward to place a kiss on my forehead. “Stay strong, baby. I’m not really missing. I’m right here,” he said softly, pointing at my chest. And then, just like before, he was gone instantly.

  I turned away from my new nightmare and discovered a bottle of water on the bedside table and the bottle of pills. I flipped on the light to read the directions. As needed, it said. I definitely needed it, I told myself as I unscrewed the cap and shook out one pill. This would help me get through the night. I swallowed the medication with a sip of water and fell back against the bed, waiting for it to carry me away back into silence.

  The next morning, Palmer shook me awake. “How many more of these did you take last night?” he asked me, his voice laced with concern.

  “Just one. Imaginary Garrett came back last night, and I couldn’t deal with it,” I told him. My head felt fuzzy, and my body moved slowly as I stirred awake. “What’s going on?”

  “I’m taking you back home,” he informed me.

  “No,” I said firmly. “I want to stay here in case something happens. I can’t risk not knowing again.”

  “You can give Oliver your phone number again. He promised not to lose it this time.”

  I wasn’t entirely satisfied with his answer, but I got up anyway and packed my small suitcase with the few items that I had taken out. Arguing with him was pointless, and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that Palmer was right. Going home was the best thing to do. Staying here would make me sick with worry.

  “You should really eat,” Palmer admonished me, taking the plate from my hand and placing it in the sink. I didn’t have much of an appetite, so the breakfast that Palmer made for me ended up in the trash.

  “I’m not hungry. You’re right; let’s just go home.”

  “Okay,” he said. “We’ll stop in at the tasting room so you can give Oliver your phone number, and then we’ll head to the airport.”

  Palmer waited for me while I showered and changed, and then we walked down toward the tasting room. He placed our bags into the rental car while I went inside where Oliver and Tabitha were talking behind the bar.

  “Good morning,” I said weakly.

  “Hi,” Tabitha greeted me with a warm smile. “How are you feeling?”

  “Like a robot, but that’s usually how I feel after I take the medicine the doctor prescribed,” I admitted. “Since my dad passed, I’ve been having trouble sleeping, so they gave me something to just turn my brain off and knock me out.”

  Palmer came inside the tasting room followed by Jacob. I looked at both of them nervously while Oliver took out his phone and asked for my number. “When we know something, I’ll call you. I promise.”

  “Palmer, I’m sorry you’re leaving so soon,” I heard Jacob say. “How’s your girlfriend feeling? Oliver said she was sick.”

  Confused, I turned back toward Oliver and Tabitha for an explanation. Oliver motioned for me to follow him into a back storage room. “I’m sorry you had to hear that,” he said once the door was closed. “He doesn’t know that you and Garrett are in a relationship.”

  “What do you mean?” I asked. On the surface, I knew what Oliver was saying, but I didn’t understand why my relationship with Garrett was suddenly a huge secret.

  “He’s been through a lot. First, our mom died, and then, Garrett enlisted. Now that Garrett is missing, I didn’t feel comfortable explaining who you were. It’s too much, and he’s getting older.”

  “I still don’t understand. I love Garrett, and we’re planning on getting married. Why would that hurt your dad?”

  “He’s very conservative. He doesn’t believe in love at first sight or anything like that. Garrett is supposed to marry someone who comes with the right amount of acreage, someone he personally approves of.”

  This was unbelievable. With one hand on the handle of the door, I looked back at Oliver. “I’m sorry that he’s hurting, but I am too.” I opened the door and walked out into the tasting room. Palmer, Tabitha, and Jacob all turned in my direction, and suddenly, the fire that burned inside me moments ago was gone.

  “Are you ready to go?” Palmer asked once I was close.

  I nodded but kept my eyes on Jacob. The words were right there on my tongue, waiting to fall out, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. “I’m very sorry about Garrett,” I told Jacob quietly. “I hope he comes home soon.”

  Jacob smiled sincerely and reached out for my hand. He patted the back of it gently before releasing it. “Thank you. We miss Garrett a lot and can’t wait for him to return.”

  I left them all with one last weak smile before following Palmer to the car. I slipped into the front seat and waited while Palmer got himself settled. “Why didn’t you say anything to him?” Palmer asked as we drove down the driveway to the main road. “You could have corrected his mistake.”

  “When Garrett is back, we’ll tell him together,” I said weakly. It was painful for me to admit that if Garrett never returned, there was no point in Jacob Hammond knowing me. If Garrett never returned, I wouldn’t return to Hammond Winery because it would be one more reminder of everything I lost.

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  Cami

  “She hasn’t eaten in days.”

  “Really?”

  “And hasn’t slept either. The lights in here are always on.”

  “Jesus.”

  I was hiding in the bedroom, buried under the covers, clothed in a layer of flannel with Garrett’s shirt covering part of my body. But the walls were too thin, and this place was too small. “I can hear you,” I yelled out, annoyed.

  “Good,” Valerie shouted back. “You need to eat something or else.”

  I rolled my eyes and slid further under the darkness of my blankets and warmth of my bed. Our bed. Mine and Garrett’s. I wanted to ask, “Or else what?” but that would invite her further into my business. And right now, I just wanted to be alone.

  My father was gone. He would know what to do, know what to say, but most importantly, he would know what album to play. I tried hard to imagine the advice he would give, something just right to put me at ease, but there was only silence.

  “Do you need anything?” Palmer’s voice was soft, and I peeked above the covers to see him standing in the doorway, his arms crossed and his face full of worry.

  I pushed myself up and reached for the prescription bottle on the bedside table. “Just some water,” I replied quietly.

  He nodded once before disappea
ring. A moment later, he returned with a bottle of water and sat down on the edge of the bed. He took the bottle from my hand and inspected it carefully. Slowly, he unscrewed the cap and shook out one tiny white pill. “You’ve been careful with these, right?” he asked quietly, letting the pill fall into my hand. I nodded and quickly slipped it into my mouth and reached for the water. He leaned forward and placed a kiss on my forehead. “Call me if you need anything,” Palmer reminded me before he left.

  I fell back against the mattress and waited for the drug to start working. In a matter of minutes, my whole body felt heavy, and my eyes started to blink rapidly until I sank into a dreamless, restless sleep.

  My eyes fluttered open, and Garrett was sitting on the edge of the bed. How was it possible? He was still missing. I blinked once, twice to make sure he was real, but he disappeared. Just a figment of my imagination. Disappointed, I rolled over just as Garrett walked out of the bathroom. I sighed. He didn’t really leave. I stretched out my hand, but just as our fingertips touched, he was gone. Was I hallucinating now?

  Sitting up, I shoved the covers down around my waist. The room was dimly lit by the pre-dawn light. I kicked the blankets away and shifted my feet to the floor. My legs felt like lead as I made my way to the bathroom. I took a shower, a long hot one I hoped would burn away the fog, but it didn’t help. I dressed in long sleeves and black leggings and headed over to the main house. Valerie was just getting up. I could hear her shuffling around, getting ready for the day. I flipped on the coffeemaker and started brewing a fresh pot.

  “What are you doing here?” Valerie’s surprise filled her voice as she stepped into the kitchen dressed and ready for work. I plated the omelet that I had prepared and set it down on the table.

  “Making you breakfast,” I informed her.

  “I can see that. Why?”

  I shrugged. “I don’t know. Something to do?”

  “Well, I won’t complain,” she said almost happily before she sat down and started eating. I placed a mug full of coffee in front of her along with the creamer and sugar.

  “I’m going to clean out some of Dad’s stuff today.” Valerie stopped eating and looked up at me with wide eyes. “Just his clothes. Nothing important. I just want to get them together so we can donate them.”

  “Are you sure that you want to do all of that alone?”

  Honestly, I wasn’t. The emotional weight of going through my father’s belongings was heavy, but I needed to keep busy. I couldn’t just stay in the guest house forever.

  “No, but I’ll be fine. And if I can’t, then I’ll stop and wait for you.”

  Valerie smiled rigidly before getting up to put her plate in the sink. She hugged me tightly before leaving for the day. I was all alone in a house that was filled with my father. My hands gripped the edge of the seat as I breathed in deeply.

  “Hey, baby.” I looked up, startled by the sound of Garrett’s voice. He stood there, leaning against the doorway wearing his olive green T-shirt and a pair of jeans. “What’s wrong?”

  “I’m going to clean out my dad’s stuff today,” I told him.

  “Stay strong, okay? You can do it.”

  “I’m trying,” I told him, but he was already gone. Just another cruel trick of my memory. Frustrated, I pushed away from the counter and headed down the long hallway to my father’s bedroom. Bagging up his clothes so that they could be donated seemed like an easy task, but as soon as I stepped foot into his room, it seemed monumental. I sucked in a sharp breath and headed toward the closet.

  My father’s khaki pants and polo shirts—his daily uniform—were hung in neat rows. I started pulling them down and carried them into my bedroom. I grabbed the few suits he had and set them on top of the growing pile on my bed. That part was easy; these clothes held no sentimental attachment for me. When I reached his collection of concert T-shirts, I set them aside. Those we would keep. I rifled through them until I found a very faded Coldplay T-shirt. That had been my first concert; he’d surprised me with tickets because he knew how much I loved the group. I removed the long-sleeved T-shirt I was wearing and slipped the tee on over my head. It was big and hung down to my thighs, but it didn’t matter because it provided me with some kind of invisible strength to continue.

  There was a small safe tucked away in the closet, and it was easy enough to guess the combination; my parents’ wedding anniversary. The door swung open, and I held my breath as I waited to see what was inside. I pulled out a small box and gently lifted the lid. There were a few ancient looking coins and tarnished silver dollars nestled inside. I set it aside and pulled out a second small box that was labeled “Cami.” My fingers fumbled as I freed the top. Inside was a plain platinum band large enough for a man and a second ring with a large opal surrounded by diamonds. I examined each one carefully; they weren’t mentioned in his will, and he’d never told me about these items. I had no idea where they came from or to whom they belonged. I set the box aside so that I could ask Valerie. I continued to remove the contents of the safe, mostly pictures of my parents when they were younger and a few love letters that I didn’t dare read. My hand knocked against another box, and I when I pulled it out, Valerie’s name was scrawled across the lid. I set it aside so that she could open it herself.

  I took the pile of newly discovered items into the kitchen and set them on the counter before grabbing a box of trash bags and returning to the bedroom. I bagged up all of the clothing I had set on the bed and lined them up in the hallway. The contents of his dresser had all been boxed up when we moved his bedroom furniture to storage, so there wasn’t much more left to do. As I placed the last bag of clothing against the wall, I stared at the door that led to his office. That room would have to wait. I couldn’t do it alone.

  By the time Valerie arrived home, I had accomplished quite a bit. “Hey,” she said, greeting me. Her arms were laden with bags full of Chinese takeout that smelled heavenly. “You made breakfast, so I brought home dinner.”

  “Thanks,” I told her, reaching into the bag and pulling out a carton of what I hoped was vegetable lo mein.

  “What’s this?” She used her fork to point toward the small pile on the kitchen counter

  I shrugged and stuffed a forkful of noodles in my mouth. She started rifling through the items and looked up in surprise when she saw the box with her name on it. “I found all of that in Dad’s closet. He had a safe, and this was inside it.”

  Valerie opened the box with her name on it and pulled out a single ring. It was a thick gold band with a large square amethyst set on top. “Oh! I know what this is,” she declared, slipping the ring onto her forefinger. “This is Grandma’s ring. She used to wear it every day.”

  “Really?” I studied the ring, unsure why I didn’t recognize it. I slid the box with my name on it across to her and instructed her to open it.

  Valerie pulled out the ring with the opal, and her brow furrowed with concentration. She took the ring and walked into the family room. There was a wall of family photos, and Valerie studied one closely. “I think this is Great-grandma Camille’s ring.” She beckoned me over, and I squinted at the picture of my namesake. It was hard to tell, but the ring quite possibly belonged to her.

  “What about the other ring? It’s a man’s ring.”

  “That looks almost new. Maybe he bought it recently?” It didn’t make any sense, but then again, sometimes my father did the strangest things.

  “But the rings weren’t in his will. Why wouldn’t he tell us about them sooner?”

  “Maybe he thought he had more time?” More time, I thought to myself with a heavy sigh. What I wouldn’t give to have just a little bit more time with him. And with Garrett.

  Over dinner, Valerie and I discussed what do with the envelope of money and the random collection of coins. Palmer arrived just as we were cleaning up the leftovers.

  “I wanted to check on you,” he said as he hugged me tightly.

  “I’m fine. It was a rough day because I
cleaned out some of Dad’s stuff, but I’m okay.” I told him about my discoveries in the safe, and he offered to take the bags of clothing with him and drop them off for donation.

  “I went to the base today,” he said cautiously.

  “Did something happen? Do you have news?” It was hard to contain the eagerness in my voice as my hopes soared sky-high.

  Palmer closed his eyes and shook his head. “I’m sorry. They couldn’t tell me anything.”

  My excitement plummeted, and I sagged against the kitchen chair. “Thank you for going there and asking.”

  Palmer reached across the table and covered his hand with mine. “They’ll find him. I’m sure of it.”

  “What if they don’t find him?” My voice was quiet and trembled. It was the one possibility I didn’t want to acknowledge.

  “Then I’ll be here for you, just as I promised,” Palmer assured me.

  “What would I do without you?”

  “You’ll never have to find out.”

  Palmer left and then Valerie went to bed, which left me alone in a quiet house. I looked out across the driveway at the dark guest house. Since my visit to Hammond Winery, I had been haunted almost daily by my memories of Garrett. He appeared quickly and then disappeared just as fast. The moments when I saw him were little slices of heaven, but they kept me in a perpetual hell. I craved these encounters but feared them too. With a sharp breath, I gathered up my things and headed over to the guest house.

  I turned on the lights and waited for him. When he didn’t come, I took the pill that turned my brain off and helped me sleep.

  The next morning, I waited for him again. My eyes searched for him around every corner, but he never came. When I slipped into bed the next night, I didn’t know whether to feel relief or heartache. Heartache won out. I curled into a tiny ball and let the hole in my chest completely consume me. Tears streamed endlessly down my cheeks until I could taste their saltiness on my lips.

 

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