Changing on the Fly

by Cherylanne Corneille

  She introduces me to everyone, and I shake their hands, but when we get to Tim, he tells her we already know each other.

  “Oh, you do?” Her interest is piqued; I can see it all over her face.

  “Yes,” I simply say. I’m not sure how they would react to me being gay and dating Tim. Hell, I don’t even know if there’s a policy against it with the Bears. “Kyson first introduced us.” I’m hoping the answer satisfies her curiosity.

  “How sweet.” I know I can hear a tone in her voice, but I’m glad she drops it as she begins to introduce me to more people.

  When we make it back to her office, she states I can go to lunch if I want. Lunch? I’d been so nervous about this morning, I didn’t pack anything, but I knew there were nearby food places. I nod and about to head out the door when there’s a knock.

  “Come in,” she calls out.

  In walks Kyson and Tim.

  “Hi, guys.” Amber smiles. “Come to steal Kian away from me?”

  The guys chuckle.

  “Only for lunch,” Kyson answers.

  “He’s all yours.” She waves us off, and we walk out together.

  Kyson asks how my day is going, and I tell him everything I’ve been doing since I came in. It sounds like a lot more complicated than it is.

  We walk down the street to a small diner a lot of players go to. We slide in a booth, Tim sitting next to me, Kyson across from us. I ask Kyson about practice, and he just nods.

  “It’s good, but Coach is acting all strange again.” He shakes his head.

  I don’t think Coach Long is a strange character. If anything, he has the strong, silent personality down to a science. The one thing I do know he loves his daughter and niece, but never mentions his wife at all. I don’t if anyone from the Bears has even met her.

  “He’s under stress still from last season and that he and the GM didn’t trade Teo when they should have,” Tim comments as the waitress comes and takes our orders. Teo Elgin is the Bears’ goalie and didn’t have the best luck this past season.

  “I’m still not sure why they didn’t trade him.” Kyson shakes his head again.

  “It’s why they are management and you’re a player,” I remind him.

  Tim changes the subject and begins to talk about some of the other teams around the PHL. He and Kyson have a deep discussion even after our food arrives. I’m glad they’re getting along. Kyson did okay with Stan, and I thought it was because Kyson still needed time to get used to the fact I’m gay. However, looking back on it now, he didn’t seem to like Stan as much as he does Tim. Then again, he’s known Tim longer, and they have more in common.

  When we finish, Tim pays for all our meals, which Kyson and I both protest, but he waves us off and does it anyway. We walk back to the arena, and my brother heads off to meet up with Meadow. Tim and I head up to the offices, and he walks me to Amber’s office, which will soon be mine.

  “What are we doing after work?” Tim asks.

  “Um...whatever you want.” I’m not aware we were doing anything.

  “I’ll cook and you can bring the wine.”

  I nod.

  “I’ll have to leave in the morning since we are going on the road. I’d like you to stay the night, if you can.”

  I nod again. “I’ll pack a bag before I come over.” I try to keep my tone low because I’m not sure how public we should be.

  “Great.” Tim beams and leaves me standing at the office door.

  I glance around, but I don’t think anyone heard our conversation, and I head into Amber’s office.

  **

  THE REST OF the day seems to go smoothly, and I’m glad when it’s time to head home. Amber has informed me this will be her last week. Therefore, I have two days to learn everything, but since everyone seems so helpful, I think I should be good when she leaves.

  I rush home, pack a bag, and grab a clean suit. I even remember to stop at the store and purchase a bottle of wine before heading over to Tim’s.

  When I walk in, the house is filled with a wonderful and mouth-watering aroma. “Tim,” I say loudly, making sure he knows I’m there.

  “In the kitchen,” he yells back and I head that way. “Hi.” He kisses me.

  “Hi,” I breathlessly say when he releases my lips. “Keep this up and we won’t make it to dinner,” I joke.

  Tim chuckles. “I’ll take the wine, and you can run your stuff upstairs.”

  “Okay.” I head up the stairs to his room.

  When I come back down, he has the table all set up, complete with the wine and candles. “This is romantic.”

  “I thought since it’s your first day, I’d do something sweet.” He nuzzles my neck.

  The stir in my pants lets me know I’m not thinking about food anymore. “You made a spectacular dinner last night.”

  “That was to celebrate you getting the job. This is for your first day on the job.” He kisses right below my earlobe.

  I moan and instantly turn rock hard. He brushes his lips across my jaw. “If you keep this up, dinner will be cold.”

  His tongue slides into my mouth, and he pushes me up against the wall. We’ve not been too rough with each other, but right now, I’m ready to tear his clothes off and let him take me. Apparently, he has the same idea as he begins to jerk my belt off and drops my pants. He reaches in my boxers and strokes me. I have to break away from his mouth just to breathe. I feel as if the air in the room is leaving.

  “Tim.” I can barely say his name as he takes me in his mouth. I dig my hands into his blond hair. His big green eyes look up at me, and I swear I almost blow right then.

  Tim works me faster in his mouth, and I can’t hold out much longer. “Stop,” I pant, but he takes me to the back of his throat. A second later, my release builds at the tip of my cock, and I explode in his mouth. Without missing a single drop, he swallows me down.

  “I’m glad I didn’t make an appetizer,” Tim jokes and makes me laugh.

  This is the boyfriend I’ve been looking for all my life.

  Chapter Seven

  I CAN’T WAIT to get home to you.

  I stare at my phone screen. The Bears have won their game by two, Tim was great announcing the game and even during the pre- and post-game shows. I sent him a simple text telling him how great he has been doing.

  Then his text arrives.

  I’m not sure why it’s thrown me for a loop. We call each other boyfriends. He knows I care about him, and he’s said it to me. No, we’ve not said the L-word; it way too soon for the big word. However, this text is making me think.

  A lot.

  I miss him too, even though we’ve talked every single day since he’s been on the road. I think it’s the word home wreaking havoc on me. Am I his home? Is he mine? I’m thinking too much, and I know it, but I can’t help it.

  I need to stop acting like a child and get my head on straight. This is Tim. But, with Tim, and the past several weeks, our relationship has moved fast. Faster than I think it should, but a part of me wants it to move fast.

  I’m becoming an analyst for no reason.

  **

  I STROLL UP and down the aisles at the farmer’s market, seeing if anything catches my eye. I truly miss Tim’s cooking. My food is nothing compared to his, and I’ve ordered more takeout than not since he’s been on the road with the Bears.

  I pick up a bunch of spinach and check out the rich green leaves. My mind is wandering with a hundred things from Tim to work to Kyson, when someone taps my shoulder. Turning, my eyes meet Stan’s brown eyes.

  “Stan.” It’s the first time I’ve seen him since our break-up.

  “Kian, how are you?” He smiles.

  Smiles? “I’m good. How are you?”

  He shrugs. “Working hard and not sleeping enough.”

  I nod. Stan works in the medical field as an administrator and is always working. “I understand.”

  “What have you been up to?”

  “Oh, well,” I know be
tter than to say anything about Tim. I don’t want him to think I’m being rude and trying to show him up or anything. “I sort of quit my job with Kyson. I mean, I’m still helping, but I have a full-time job now.”

  “Really?” Stan’s eyes widen. One reason he broke up with me was my close relationship with Kyson and how I coddle him.

  “Yes. I’m the Public Relations Director for the Bears,” I state proudly. I should be proud of my title.

  Stan’s speechlessness stuns me a bit. “Wow, well,” he clears his throat. “Congratulations. I wish you great success.”

  “Thank you.”

  “No, I meant it sincerely; I honestly didn’t think you had it in you.”

  I take a step back. I should be offended by this, but I understand what he means. Hell, it wasn’t in me until he left me. I realized my life needs more. More of me.

  “I’m sorry. I’m being rude and not I don’t mean to. You’re a very smart man and you know this. I just meant, I’m surprised. I truly thought you would be by Kyson’s side forever.”

  This time I am offended. “I will be by Kyson’s side.” It’s the same argument that caused us to break up, among other things.

  Stan looks away from me, taking a deep breath. “I’m not saying you shouldn’t be by your brother’s side. I told you were there too much.”

  “You’ll be even more surprised to know Kyson is moving in with Meadow. He’s doing fantastic, and I’m proud of him.” I’m tired of hearing this from him, and I turn to leave, but he grabs my arm.

  “Kian, I don’t mean anything by it. You know I don’t mean it.”

  I let my anger subside and look back at him. “He’s my brother. Period.”

  “I know.” He nods, letting go of my arm. “I didn’t come over here to upset you by any means.”

  I study him for a moment. “I understand your opinion. I do, but…” I trail off because there’s no reason to waste my breath about the same subject. We’re not together, and it doesn’t matter anymore.

  “Listen,” he steps closer to me. “I’m glad to see you, and I’m very glad to hear it’s going well for you. I hope it stays that way.”

  “Thank you, Stan.” With those three simple words, I leave him standing there, go pay for my items, and leave.

  On my way home, I think about the final argument with Stan when we broke up. The biggest issue was Kyson. The second biggest, how open I was? It’s true I’ve been gay my entire life, but only out for the past year. That’s mainly because Kyson caught us.

  Now, I look at my relationship with Tim. When Kyson came by the night I received news of my job, Tim told me to go talk to Kyson. Stan would always groan when Kyson called me or needed me. There were only a few times that we had double dates with Meadow and Kyson and never was it just the three of us.

  When Stan wanted to go out to office parties and events, I’d been more hesitant because I knew it would be a direct connection to Kyson and his career. Plus, I didn’t want to be his gay brother. I knew a few of his teammates knew of my sexual preference, but they were trusted. I doubted, and now know that Kyson didn’t just run off into the locker room and announce it.

  After I walk into my apartment, dump my items in the kitchen, and pick up my phone, I send a text to Tim.

  I can’t wait to see you too.

  And I can’t wait.

  **

  THE BEARS AND Tim are back in town. Tim asked me to go to lunch, but I seem to be buried in work. I told him I’d try, but made no promises. I want to make sure I show everyone I’m worthy of this job and not here just because I’m Kyson Wick’s brother.

  As of right now, I’m the only one in my department who isn’t at lunch. It’s eerily quiet, and the only sounds are me pounding on the keyboard. The emails seem to keep multiplying, and I swear I have sent five hundred today.

  “There’s my man hard at work.”

  I glance up from the computer and see Tim leaning against my office door. Automatically, I smile and my heart skips a beat. He’s without his suit jacket, and his white dress shirt has the sleeves rolled up. His tie is loose around his neck. “Hi.”

  Tim chuckles and walks in, shutting my door behind him. “I wanted to come by and at least say hi since you can’t make lunch.”

  “I’m sorry.” I fully face him. “I’m a bit backed up.”

  Tim waves off my excuse. “I know. I won’t stay long; I just wanted to see you for a moment.”

  “I’m glad you did.” I stand up from my desk and stroll over to him, embracing him.

  “I missed you.” He pulls back a bit and kisses me.

  “Me too.”

  “You want to have dinner before or after the game?” He still holds me.

  “How about after? We can grab something and head to your place,” I suggest. “I’d…” I pause, wondering if I should say what I want to without scaring him off. “I’d like to talk to you.”

  “Everything okay?” He takes a step back but holds onto my hands.

  “I...I want to let you know some things I’m feeling and that are going through my head.” I’m not someone who can’t express himself, but Tim’s green eyes make me forget my name at times.

  “Well, hey,” he runs his hands up and down my arms. “Is it something we can chat about now? I’m all ears for you.” He pulls me to the chairs near my desk.

  I can see the concern on his face, and I can’t let him carry feelings of dread throughout the day and tonight when he’s to be on air. “I saw Stan.”

  “Oh wow. What happened?” Tim leans in.

  “He reminded me of why aren’t together anymore.”

  Tim smirks. “Good for me.”

  “Me too. He still holds a lot of animosity toward Kyson and our relationship as brothers.”

  “It’s really ridiculous, and you know this. I’ve told you before.” And he has told me. “Don’t let him dampen anything about your connection with Kyson. It’s who you both are, and if he can’t see it, then you don’t need him in your life at all.”

  A small smile twitches the corner of my mouth. “Thank you.”

  “There’s something else.” He takes my hand. “Tell me.”

  I stare deep into his eyes, and I know he wants to know. And I know I should tell him. “How out are we?”

  He squints at me. “What?”

  “How public are we?” I rephrase. “Are we telling people here? Or if we go out publicly, do we hold hands or what?”

  “Kian.” He pulls my tie to bring me nose-to-nose with him. “We’re out. I told you; you are my boyfriend, and I don’t care who knows. I don’t hide who I am or who I’m with. Ever. I’m not going to start now, especially with you because you mean so much to me.”

  “You mean a lot to me, too.” I close the distance and capture his lips. “It’s just fast and I’m not used to it.”

  “Get used to it, because I’m here until you’re ready to get rid of me.”

  I don’t know what came over me. Actually, I do know what came over me. It’s Tim. It’s Tim in my life and his words, the encouragement he gives me in the short time we’ve been together. I kiss him. Hard. Sliding my tongue in his mouth, I know this will escalate fast between us, and we are in my office.

  I break away and rush over to lock my office door. Coming back to him, I jerk my jacket off, but leave my tie and shirt in place. I know this will be hard and fast, and just the way I want it.

  I want it from Tim.

  We both rush to undo our belts, pull our pants and boxer briefs down, and Tim pushes me over the desk, spreading my legs. I hear the spit on his hand and the sting of his penetration, but it’s a welcoming sting. I want him in me. My feelings soar for him with each thrust. It’s not about the sex. It’s about us and right now; he’s where I want him to be.

  Hard and fast is exactly what he delivers, and I almost feel it’s something we both need to let each other know we are in this relationship together. Tim finds his release quickly, and as I’m still hard, panting hi
s name, he turns me around quickly and sucks me off. Since I’m so close the simple swipe of his tongue and the tug of his lips makes me blow into the back of his throat faster than I can blink.

  He’s mine, and I’m his.

  **

  I STAND CLAPPING as the third period starts for the New Hampshire Bears. I love hockey, just not the way Tim and Kyson love hockey. I’d messed around with it as a kid, but for them, it’s part of their soul. I’m just a fan.

  I watch my brother take his position on the ice and stare down the puck. He’s like a magnet for the puck and knows exactly where to put it for his teammates to score. It’s why he’s the best in the league.

  I cheer on Kyson and his teammates as each minute ticks by and the score seems to remain at a standstill of one to one. The game becomes more intense, and you can see how badly the Bears want this win.

  It’s the last moment, and in an epic steal from Cabel Dirks, Kyson takes off with the puck, passes it over to Bas Zorn, and the red light flashes with the horn sounding a second later.

  And the Bears get the win.

  I feel as if I might lose my voice I’m cheering so loud. It has a playoff game type feel, even though it’s still the beginning of the season. I can tell this is going to be the Bears’ year.

  I shuffle out with the rest of the crowd and go to the employee and player’s parking lot. I see some of the wives and girlfriends, but I simply smile and nod, until Meadow calls me over.

  I give her a hug and say hello to everyone around her. “How are you ladies doing?” There are a round of fines and smiles as Meadow asks me about my job. I tell her how much I love it and I do.

  “Dating anyone?” Harlow, Meadow’s best friend and editor, who's currently dating Keaton Jaco, asks.