Tank (Moonshine Task Force Book 2)

by Laramie Briscoe

  Ryan’s shaking up the bottle, holding his finger over the nipple when all three women come running into the living room. I glance up, a grin on my face. “We got this, y’all can go back in there.”

  Whitney leans against the doorframe, holding her phone out as I assume she takes a picture, a look on her face I’m well acquainted with. “Don’t start crying, sis.”

  Ryan taps my bicep, handing me the bottle. “Go for it, just watch her head and she’ll do the rest.”

  I put the nipple to her mouth, and just like Ryan said, she does the rest. Glancing up, I see all three sets of eyes from the women on me. “Why are you looking at me like I’m the first man to ever feed a baby?”

  “I think we all have different reasons why,” mom says, her voice clogged with emotion. “Me, I worried I might never see you sitting in my living room again and to watch you doing that? It makes my heart so full, Trevor. Nobody had to get me a damn thing for Christmas this year, just seeing you alive and walking around is enough for me.” She turns around and walks back to the kitchen, wiping her eyes.

  Blaze gives me a saucy smirk, hitching her hip out to the side. “Me? I just think you look hot with a baby in your arms. I mean not like we need one, but we can totally borrow her, right? Because you with your hair, your beard, your muscles, and the cutest baby ever? Total ovary exploding moment right here,” she blows me a kiss as I do my best not to listen to the chuckles coming from Ryan.

  With expectant eyes, I glance at my sister. “Do you wanna give me your take on this?”

  She walks closer to us. “You need to burp her if she’s slowing down. Ryan, hand him a towel just in case she spits up.” Once she’s close enough, she pulls Stella up, sits her on my thigh, and holds her head, instructing me on how to pat her back.

  “My take on this? It’s one of the most emotional moments of my life and why I had to take a picture. Not only did I worry you’d never get to meet her because of the wreck, but I also think about all the times I cried to you about wanting a baby. I think of the night you saved my life with Stephen, and I think of what an amazing brother you’ve been to me. It’s just emotional, and you’re gonna have to let me have my emotions, Trev.”

  She leans down, kissing me on the cheek, before she runs a hand over Stella’s forehead. “Love you, bro.”

  “I love you, too,” I watch as she goes back into the kitchen, and it’s then I notice Ryan watching me. “Not you too?”

  “I have to admit, I worried you wouldn’t be here for these parts of life too. For half the pregnancy, I was worried you’d be pissed because of what Whitney and I did. Then when I saw you in that truck, Tank,” he stops, shaking his head. “If anyone had asked me, I would have said you were dead. I worried about it, checked your breathing, and lost a few years off my life. It’s a monumental moment for you to be sitting here, burping my daughter.”

  I’m quiet as I continue the job at hand, taking in how much everyone was affected by the wreck, and realizing for the first time that as I put myself back together, my family is doing the same.

  Today is a damn good day.

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  Blaze

  “I’m so tired,” I sigh as I take my shoes off, sinking my toes into the plush carpet in Trevor’s living room. My feet still hurt from wearing the heels I did last night.

  “I am, too,” he yawns as he takes his wallet out of his back pocket, putting it on the table next to the door. “It’s been a long couple of days.”

  I collapse on the couch, snuggling into the blanket I left last time I’d laid there watching TV. Yawning, I glance up at Trevor. “Why don’t you come watch mindless TV with me? We can fall asleep in front of the Christmas tree like an old married couple.”

  He laughs, the sound deep and rich. I love when he laughs like that. I’m thankful every time I hear it. I must close my eyes and doze off slightly, because the next thing I know, I jerk awake. Trevor is sitting on the other end of the couch with my feet in his lap, massaging the hard knot I have located in the ball of my foot from wearing those shoes last night.

  “Oh dear God, that feels amazing, please don’t stop,” I moan, flexing against his fingers.

  “It never disappoints me, hearing you say those words. It amazes me how many ways I can get you to say them though,” his tone is amused as his fingers continue to work against the hard spot.

  “Now isn’t the time for you to make sex jokes, this feels so good. Merry Christmas to me.”

  He drops my foot and I moan at the loss of the pressure. “Speaking of Merry Christmas, I have a gift to give you.”

  “I have a gift to give you, too,” I smile over at him. “Let me go grab it,” I swing my legs over the edge of the couch and get up with a grimace as I put weight on my feet.

  We meet back in the living room, sitting down together in front of the tree. Trevor’s legs are stretched out in front of him, before he leans over, cupping the palm of my cheek in his hand. He turns my face from side to side tilting my chin so he can inspect my neck. “I did good, huh?”

  A saucy grin spreads across my face as I reach over and cup his dick in my hand through his pants. “I did good, too.”

  He clears his throat loudly as he adjusts and hands me one of the wrapped gifts sitting next to him. “This is an apology for what I did last night.”

  I’m intrigued with the way he’s phrased the words. As far as I’m concerned, there was nothing at all for him to apologize for. What we did last night was everything I wanted and more. “You know you don’t have to apologize, I loved last night.”

  “You’ll love this too,” he assures me as he motions for me to open the gift.

  Wrapped in Christmas themed tissue paper is some of the skimpiest, but also most beautiful lingerie I’ve ever seen in my life. It’s in colors I never would have gone for. I’m more of a black lace type of girl, but what he’s purchased runs the gamut. From virginal white to the most beautiful lilac color I’ve ever seen to bright yellow, and even a hot pink. Apparently my man has an affinity for this stuff, and he likes to have a shit ton of options.

  “I don’t even know what to say about all of this,” my mouth hangs open as I continue to pull pieces from the never ending box of color.

  “You don’t have to say anything,” he gives me a sexy smile. “All I want you to do it is wear it. I love that when you’re with me you’re a girlie girl. When you’re with the guys you work with, you adapt your personality to be able to hang with them. While that’s cool, I get to see a side of you that no one else gets to see. It’s special to me, and I always want to nurture that part of you. I never want to make you feel like you have to hide that part of yourself. With me you can be anyone you want to be, you can show me whatever part of you, you need to. That’s what makes me love you so much. You’re vulnerable with me.”

  This man sees things in me that I never see in myself. He gives me the courage to be who I am without sacrificing my integrity. He encourages me to be sexy when other men have tried to dial me back. I will love this man forever, and I know I will. “I want to be vulnerable with you because I know you’ll put me back together again if I fall apart,” I whisper as I get up on my knees, walking over to him.

  In the back of my head, I tell myself I should be honest about everything. I should let him know about the past I keep hidden. If I let him completely in nothing would stop us as a couple. He hands me a smaller box, this one from a jewelry store I like in the mall. I know without a doubt this isn’t an engagement ring or anything of the sort, the box is too big for that. “What did you do here?”

  He surges up, fusing our lips together, before he pulls away. “Why don’t you open it and find out?”

  Opening the box, I spy the watch I’ve had my eye on for months. It’s not super expensive, but I couldn’t bring myself to throw away the cheap watch I got at Walmart when I very first got out of school and buy this one. I felt like that move was something the old Daphne would have done, and the new Blaze was
n’t that caught up in name brand things. This though – Trevor giving me a gift is the most awesome thing in the world.

  “I love it!”

  “I know you do, you’d look at the thing every time we’d walk by it. Whatever your reasons are for not buying it for yourself, they’re yours. But now you have what you need and want.”

  I lean down, kissing him hard again because this man knows me. “You pay attention to me, you listen to me.”

  “I wonder why I couldn’t do that with Whitney,” he mumbles as he purses his lips. “Renegade told the family we listened, but we never paid attention.”

  Tilting my head to the side, I give it some thought. “Maybe it’s because with the people we fall in love with, we pay more attention. We want to be everything they need us to be, everything they want us to be. We’re willing to let certain parts of ourselves go in order to converge into one unit with them, so we want to make sure they’re happy. Knowing their happiness doesn’t take any more than truly listening to what they’re saying.”

  “Maybe you’re right, but you know more than anything I want my sister to be happy.”

  “You do,” I agree. “But you want her to be happy by fixing her problems, not listening to them.”

  The way he’s quiet, I can tell I’ve struck a nerve, and maybe he truly gets what I’m saying. It’s making me nervous. I’m throwing down some truth, when I’m not sure if he’s going to like the Christmas gift I got him. “I hope you like this.”

  He gives me a look. “I love everything you’ve ever given me, why wouldn’t I love this?”

  I have to be honest. “It took me a long time to figure out what I wanted to get you. Nothing seemed like it fit right, if that makes sense. I didn’t want to be too romantic, and not romantic enough, but I wanted it to mean something.”

  “I’d venture to say anything the two of us say or do with one another means more post-Thanksgiving than it ever has,” he glances up at me as he unwraps the gift. “Words, sounds, gestures – they’ve taken on a whole new meaning when you aren’t sure if you’ll ever be able to do them or have them done to you again.”

  I watch as he opens the box, wondering if I’ve made the right decision in what I got him. My heart beats heavily against my chest, thudding hard against my ribs. When he pushes the tissue paper back, I stop breathing all together. “Is this what I think it is?”

  Even though he’s not looking at me, I nod.

  “This was taken at the cookout,” he looks over at me, grinning.

  It’s the very first picture that was ever taken of us. We didn’t know it was being taken, and we’d only just met hours before, but looking at the two of us, even then, you can see the chemistry there. “Holden gave it to me while you were in the hospital, and at the risk of sounding assuming, I thought you might like to have a copy, too,” my words are strained as I speak around my tight throat. “To remind us of where we started. The people in that picture had an attraction and quick smiles for each other, they laughed all night long while they talked about stupid shit, and then they exchanged numbers at the end of the night with no preconceived notions about one another. Sometimes we get caught up in the stupidest shit that doesn’t make a difference at the end of the day. Trevor, let’s never forget how we felt that night.”

  He puts the picture down banding his arms around my body, crushing his mouth to mine. “I never want to forget it again, or how we feel this night. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so close to another human being, I know I’ve never felt so close to you before. I don’t want to lose this. Whatever we have to do, to make it work, let’s put the work in, let’s do the job. The only people who can fuck this up are us.”

  And I know more than anything he’s right, and right here, on Christmas in front of the Christmas Tree, I decide once and for all – I’m fighting for what we have, I’m never letting it go, and even if it kills me, I’m going to tell him the truth about my past.

  Not tonight, but soon, because nothing is going to ever stand in our way again.

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

  Trevor

  I’m treading water, waiting for Blaze to come out of the women’s section of the locker room. She just got off work, and I’m doing one of my last physical therapy sessions before they’ll be releasing me. The month of January is flying by, but I can’t wait to know what my game plan is for the rest of my career, and truthfully, the rest of my life. I have an appointment with the shrink tomorrow, and I just need to make it through this workout.

  We’re the only ones here, and since it’s near closing time, I think we’ll probably be the last ones to show up. Luckily for me, I know the owner and we have a key. I love working out in the pool because there’s little impact on my joints, and right now, they do hurt if I abuse them. The physical therapist told me in the next few weeks that should go away and then I’ll be able to rejoin my guys in the Moonshine Task Force. Truth of the matter is, I’m so ready. Sitting around is definitely not the life for me, I can’t fucking stand it. I hear the door open and turn around, whistling loudly as I see Blaze headed toward the pool dressed in a white bikini. The white shows off her hair, her skin color, and her tattoos. Damn, she looks smoking.

  “I can’t wait until this summer at my parents’ house,” I wink at her. “I’m gonna do things to you in that pool I’ve always fantasized about.”

  She gives me a look as she sinks into the water, shrieking at the temperature. I’d had to do a deep intake of breath when I entered the pool as well, maybe I should have warned her.

  “It takes a minute to get used to.”

  I swim over to her, gathering her up in my arms. I can’t help but notice her hard nipples rubbing against my chest. It puts thoughts of those fantasies back into my head.

  “I’m all for doing sexually adventurous stuff, Trev, but it seems wrong to joke about doing it at your parents’,” she curls her arms around my neck.

  “So much more exciting though, and need I remind you, we did it at yours” I tease and remind her, thinking about all the pervy situations I’d gotten into as a teen. There was something much more exciting about doing all those things with her.

  As my eyes land on her tits, she smacks my bicep. “Get your mind out of the gutter, you’re supposed to be doing your laps.”

  God, I hate laps. They help to build up the strength in my leg and it’s making a huge difference, but damn do I hate them.

  “I’ll be here waiting on you at the end,” she blows me a kiss.

  “Alright, let’s do this.”

  The entire time I do the laps, I focus on my movement; one arm in front of the other, kick the way I need to, use my core to help offset the less muscle in my leg. Repeat over and over again until I count off the one hundred laps I’ve been told to do. Once I come up, panting from exertion, I see Blaze hanging out on the side of the pool. She’s holding a beach ball in her hands.

  “You ready?” She bounces it from one hand to the other. In the shallow end, she can stand up straight and the water goes up to her shoulders, on me it’ll be at my chest.

  “I’m always ready.” The cocky part of my personality shines bright sometimes.

  As I’m walking to her, she rears back and throws the ball slightly to the left of me. I have to plant my feet and lean to catch it. Last time I did this, it knocked me off balance and I’d face planted in the water. This time I catch it – a little wobbly, but I make it.

  “Good job, Trev! Now throw it back.”

  I do as she asks. This exercise helps me become more flexible and tolerate standing. I can’t wait until they allow me to run on my leg. Hopefully next week, and damn am I ready. “Thanks for coming to hang out with me.”

  She gives me a look, the ends of her lips tilting up in a pleased smile. She throws the ball, this time with a little more force behind it. “I’m sorry I haven’t been around as much. It’s hard getting back into the swing of things and obviously I don’t plan on working late, but sometimes emergencies happen when w
e’re about to go off shift.”

  I raise an eyebrow. “Babe,” I throw it back at her. “I think I understand that better than probably anyone. I’ve been able to drive myself with no problems. More than anything, I want my life to go back to normal, and while I know you want to be with me at everything, I kinda like doing a few things for myself.”

  I wince, because I’m afraid I’ll offend her by what I just said.

  She laughs loudly, stopping our volleying of the ball as she giggles. “You should see the look on your face. You didn’t offend me.”

  “Good! I don’t want to. Just because I’m doing things on my own doesn’t mean I don’t want you around. I want you around, all the time. I’m used to you being around.”

  This hadn’t been planned, but I’d been thinking about it a lot lately. I don’t want Blaze to go back to her apartment, I want her to stay full-time with me, in my house.

  “Are you asking me to move in with you?”

  “I guess I am,” I throw the ball behind my shoulder and swim toward her. “It wasn’t planned, but I’ve been thinking about it for a while. I don’t want to live without you now that I have you. We’ll go slow. I know we’re still learning things about one another, and we obviously aren’t at the same point that Ryan and Whitney are. But I also want you to know that’s where I’m heading. If the wreck taught me anything, it’s that I want you in my life forever. No one else can take care of me the way you do, and no one makes me feel more loved than you do. If something were to ever happen to you, I know I would be the same way.”

  She’s quiet, and I’m scared I’ve overstepped and possibly shocked the hell out of her. “You don’t have to answer right now, I know that wasn’t the most romantic way for me to ask. But real talk, I felt it and wanted to ask. I don’t regret it.”

  “Neither do I,” she launches herself at me, and at that moment, I know my leg’s okay, because it doesn’t give out as I catch her against me. “I’d be super excited to move in with you.”