Cold Remains

by Spedding, Sally;

  At last.

  The lock finally clicked open and, with no-one else within snooping distance, she turned back the worn leather cover and its mottled end-paper and on the first thin page began to read:

  This diary belongs to Charles Edmund Pitt-Rose

  aged 8 years, 5 months, 10 days, 6 hours.

  Dormitory 9. Weyborne School. Bridport. Dorset.

  Great Britain. Europe. The World. Hemisphere. Stratosphere.

  Hades.

  PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL

  Any other eyes that look,

  Will be severely brought to book.

  Hades was an odd addition from one so young. Or was it? Then she remembered what the Philippina had said. He’d also allegedly used it to describe Heron House.

  Her breakfast Diet Coke began to churn around inside her as she began to read the first entry, dated Monday 12th September 1945, where, immediately, she spotted Betsan’s name. But in what context was impossible to see as without warning, the breeze had suddenly become a dusty wind trying to turn the well-used pages for her.

  “Stop!” she snapped, facing the other way so she could concentrate. However, the wind only strengthened, bringing a voice she now dreaded. That could, if she let it, drive her insane.

  “I can’t, I can’t. Surely that photograph you stole shows how frightened he was? My darling little brother who was forbidden to see me, his loving sister. His only sister. Never to come home, even for Christmas...”

  Margiad Pitt-Rose.

  “Yes, that’s me and it’s taken you long enough to find out. But then, why should you care? You’re like all the living. Selfish, blinkered. What a waste of a life.”

  Helen secured her hood even tighter around her mess of hair to blot out the cruel monologue. To keep her head free for her own thoughts. Hadn’t Jason experienced the same phenomenon with his Evil Eyes book? Yes. Except this time, the agenda was different.

  “And when it mattered, nobody listened,” Margiad persisted, “to him or me. And don’t think he was the only one to suffer. There were two other young boys who’d strayed too far. Learnt too much about things that were private, so they were…”

  “What?” Helen shivered, glimpsing ordinary people passing the open gates.

  “Violated then thrown in the swimming pool. Where they almost drowned my Jason…”

  My Jason?

  I tried to save them, but was punished for it. You see, their cries had torn at my heart, my soul.”

  That once refreshing Coke was now acid in Helen’s throat. Her pulse jumping and that wind still tossing the branches and scattering litter.

  “When did this happen? And who’s ‘they?’”

  “Hasn’t my Jason told you?”

  “No.”

  “He’s had every opportunity.”

  Just then, a Chinese guy with his toddler son walked by hand in hand, heads bowed against the wind. This picture of normality made her vision blur. They stared briefly in her direction, probably suspecting a multi-personality disorder, before moving on.

  “ It was yesterday, in your present time,” the voice went on. “Ask him.”

  “You’re lying. You want to suck every last ounce out of me like you’re doing with him. Or rather, you did to him. I’m supposed to forget about that? Am I?”

  “He enjoyed it. Begged me for more, if you must know. I can still hear every word… Now,” the tone hardened, “give me my dead brother’s things.”

  “You’re disgusting! Leave us alone!”

  “Never.”

  An angry crack of breaking glass suddenly filled Helen’s ears, followed by that same eerie scream she’d heard outside the art gallery. Not only was the diary being pulled from her grasp by a relentless force she’d never experienced before, but the horrible feeling of something moving beneath her clothes towards her pants.

  She shrieked for help, unable to get up and run away, but at last managed to push the memoir between the bench and her thighs. Sealed tight, as the voice grew even more threatening. “Give me the diary. He’s my baby brother, not yours.”

  “So what are you trying to hide? Who hanged him? Someone we know?”

  A pause in which that sickly smell of roses met her nose.

  “My Jason will have the answers. You’re not worth it. I had a child, remember? Unborn, but still something you’ll never, ever have…”

  Helen shivered and couldn’t stop. “Your father’s, was it? Like Llyr?”

  That breaking glass din returned. She covered her ears. Saw the play area’s trees and shrubs swaying back and forth as if in a deadly dance.

  “I’ve been protecting you and your hard heart, but no more. From now on, you’re on your own, and if you think my Jason will be putting your interests before mine, you’re wrong. You’ve had your chance, Helen Myfanwy Jenkins. So let’s see how you get on.”

  ***

  With that wretched diary safely reburied in her now dirty pink rucksack, and a growing sense of foreboding enveloping her, Helen didn’t hang about. Instead, dizzily turned left into Radlett Road, thinking about that baby. Had it been a lie for her benefit, or part of a terrible reality?

  Whatever. She was now in competition for Jason with a ghost. A ghost, for God’s sake. Time to make a call. Two calls in fact. She burrowed in her rucksack’s usual places.

  No mobile.

  She’d still had it in Sandhurst Mansion and when she’d crept into the damp mean bed next to the bathroom in Nantwich Grove.

  That was it.

  Those two thieves must have struck when she’d gone in there.

  Running now, into the wind, the swollen pad between her legs shifting out of place with each stride, but she didn’t care. Too much else was at stake.

  “Where’s the nearest phone,” she panted at a passing suit. His directions a blur as she ran on, dodging the multitude of shoppers and drifters, all the while sensing that other force holding her back.

  At the welcome sight of a silver threesome outside Islington Post Office she let out a cry of relief, only to have the breath punched from her lungs from behind, between her shoulder blades. With no chance to fight back, she fell on to her outstretched hands. Her rucksack adrift, just beyond reach and soon snapped up by a figure she half-recognised. When she got to her feet, the man had gone. Her rucksack emptied of the diary lay a few paces on. No-one she asked had seen anything. No-one helped. And it wasn’t until she’d flagged down the first taxi to come along, did she realise who her cowardly assailant had been.

  36.

  Saturday 19th October 1946 – 10 a.m.

  The horrifying Heron House jigsaw was slowly beginning to piece together, but with that important school inspection looming, there’d been little time for him and Robert to save Margiad and young Betsan from any more harm, or to try and bring Edmund Pitt-Rose and his cronies to justice.

  If only plans and reality could be so easily melded together, mused Lionel, wiping up his breakfast dishes and returning them to the correct cupboard.

  So here, he was on the filthiest of mornings, cocooned in Cwm Cottage with not only a gnawing guilty conscience, but also a small mountain of pupil files needing urgent attention. Whatever the outcome on Welsh language discussions taking place in Cardiff, and the implications for him should any nationalist swing intensify, he’d changed his mind. He would not be throwing in the towel.

  Although a recent Western Mail article had warned of seismic shifts in the ethos of Welsh education, he must cling on and hope his reputation – despite Walter Jones’ recent death – would hold sway.

  Once in the lounge, he glanced at the chair Margiad had used, but from the moment she’d heard Carol calling her a trollop, she’d abandoned her brief refuge.

  “Too easy for someone like Carol to judge,” she’d declared, fastening her coat except for its lower buttons. “What does she know? Has she ever been in love? Has everything stacked against her?”

  For once, Lionel hadn’t any answer. Just a question.

>   “Forgive my asking, but whose child is it?”

  Scorn had still lingered on her lovely face, like a cloud’s shadow on a hill.

  “Robert’s, of course. Why?”

  “And will you be keeping it? I mean, after the birth?”

  “Only a man could ask that. Yes. She’s my flesh and blood, isn’t she? I want her. So does Robert. He’ll make the best father.”

  “I’m sure he will, and I wish the three of you well.”

  “The best thing about being pregnant is I get no more bleeding. It’s been terrible. It really has.”

  Lionel tried to hide his embarrassment at such unexpected candour. “Well that is good news. But who’s hit you by your eye? It looks recent.”

  “Gwenno. And not the first time, either.”

  “I’m sorry.”

  “You’ve been very kind,” she’d said, touching his arm with sudden affection. “Unlike some people round here. And I wish I’d been allowed to attend the kind of school you run, rather than put up with the obnoxious Miss Powell all these years.” She’d then turned her beautiful eyes on his. Eyes that made the bruise beneath even more of an aberration. “If you see my Robert, please tell him we’ll soon be together. For ever.”

  “I will. Just look after yourselves and the baby,” he’d said, hearing the young organist’s last words beating their way into his head. “And Cwm Cottage is here whenever you need it. But there’s just one other matter.”

  “Yes?” At this, her troubled gaze had fixed on him so hard, he had to look away.

  “Betsan told me that she’s already been punished for befriending you. Did you know?”

  “Punished? How?”

  “Those men and Gwenno and Idris. They’ve been doing…”

  “Stop! She’s making it up. What nonsense, Mr Hargreaves. She really has too much imagination for her age.”

  “I don’t think so. I find her remarkably mature and sensible.”

  Would he ever forget the piercing stare that followed? Her barely concealed anger? No. Never.

  And then, without another word, she’d gone. Her slight, dark form merging with the sombre foliage that with each passing week, seemed to encroach upon the lane outside and steal what little daylight he had.

  ***

  Back to work, still with that unpleasant memory bearing down on him, while his conscience about neglecting Betsan nagged his soul. Meanwhile, the once small mountain of files now resembled Everest. He must concentrate.

  He opened the topmost file on Freddie McCarthy and Malcolm Biggs evacuated from Maghull four years ago, who’d only once graced his schoolroom with their cheeky wit and funny ways. A rush of panic filled his chest. How on earth could he manufacture a better attendance record for them both? After other young evacuees had returned home, those two had stayed on at Top Farm, on an old drovers’ route to Llandewi Brefi.

  He’d only met them once or twice during the summer, bumping around on two rough ponies, happy as Larry. A lost cause as far as schooling was concerned, but a pleasure to see their smiles.

  Margiad Pitt-Rose, however, was another matter. Still disturbing his mind. How had she known the unborn baby was a girl, for a start? And why say she was Robert’s child when he’d denied it? Like burrs stuck to his coat while out walking, the sense she was hiding something wouldn’t leave him alone. He pushed the Liverpudlians’ thin file beneath the rest, hoping it wouldn’t be noticed. No, he’d neither made regular visits to Top Farm, and the couple who’d taken them in, nor alerted Bryn George who’d stopped calling before Lionel had arrived. But try as he might to focus on Freddie and Malcolm’s two bright faces before they faded for ever, another’s took precedence.

  That of a solemn young organist drenched in grief.

  ***

  Lionel heard rain fall down the chimney, sizzling into the fire, while the gutters shed their watery loads against the cottage walls with such ferocity, he missed the familiar voice calling through the letterbox. It came again. This time he heard it.

  “Lionel? It’s me. Carol. Quick!

  Normally he’d have sprung from his seat, over-eager to see the one who’d already lit the smallest of flames in his heart. But nothing was normal now since he’d harboured the pregnant, seemingly traumatised, Margiad Pitt-Rose through whose core ran a spine of steel.

  “Lionel! For God’s sake!”

  The moment he opened the front door, Carol pushed herself against him. She was wet through, her body moulding itself against his. But this was no prelude to passion. She was shivering so hard she could barely speak. “It’s Peris Morgan! Poor man’s been shot like a dog. You must come and see!”

  “Is he dead?”

  Her nod shook more drops from her unprotected head.

  “Where?”

  “By my door. I found him just after I’d finished my round.” She looked up at him. “What’s going on? Why? Why my place?”

  Lionel’s mind became a stew of all the things he should have done. Should be doing. So much had been expected of him since the day he’d been born. He could already see the words on his tombstone. “This is serious, Carol. You must either leave or hide yourself somewhere safe. It’s a warning.” And, as he spoke, seeing her pretty eyes glaze over with fear, realised he could be next.

  ***

  What should have been a short hop to Hafod Lane leading from behind Nantybai towards the River Towy, took them forty minutes in the buffeting downpour. The fierce gale making proper conversation impossible. Even holding hands. So he battled on ahead of her until Myrtle Cottage appeared, bang beside the track without any visible boundary.

  Carol caught up, then overtook him. “Are you ready?”

  How could he ever be ready for death? Especially that of a dedicated guard who’d made it his business to give the village at least some sense of security. A man who, in turn, had warned him.

  Through rain-spattered spectacles, Lionel studied the front wall and its door set back under a plain porch, but nothing seemed amiss. Carol stopped short and they collided. She then clung to him again, pointing at the uncut verge that appeared to be undisturbed. “He’s gone! Look, he was there. There!”

  Lionel edged away to kneel down and stroke this grass with bare fingers. Where was the blood? The trampling? Footprints or hoof prints, even a spent cartridge, it didn’t matter, and the word ’hallucination’ did cross his mind. A young woman with an arduous job, up hill and down dale, might just have needed a hot, sweet cup of tea.

  She looked down at him as if reading his thoughts. “Now you’ll think I’m making it all up. You don’t believe me, do you?”

  “Of course I do. But we must alert his family. Call the police.”

  At this, Carol’s wet face changed, as if the life in her too had faded.

  “No, no, no. Can’t you see? Peris came to see you, didn’t he? To warn you about Heron House? Tell you things that went on there.”

  “Yes.” Lionel stood up, swept the rain from his hair and shook out his soaking coat. As he did so, her cob whinnied from round the back. If only it could talk, thought Lionel, his pulse already working too hard.

  “And didn’t I catch Constable Prydderch laughing and joking with that Edmund Pitt-Rose as if they were best friends? Boasting how many times Margiad could… well, you know… I’m sorry I can’t actually repeat what was said. What I’m getting at is I’ve been seen chatting to you.”

  “Who by?”

  “That trollop. I know I shouldn’t have used that word to describe her. I saw how it shocked you, but she’s hardly run away from all that activity, has she? And with the police so thick with them, it could make everything worse all round. Do you understand, Lionel? Do you?”

  He nodded, feeling suddenly hollow. It was possible that the tragic beautiful Margiad Pitt-Rose was a decoy.

  ***

  He knew where the Home Guard’s last, loyal servant lived with his son and grandson Kyffin and, having seen Carol safely indoors and heard her lock the door, made his wa
y past the colony of lead-workers’ dwellings, the closed Stores, the grey, stone church and up towards Rhandirmwyn village.

  Plas was as silent as his schoolroom. Silent as a tomb in fact. He registered its neat, box shape, the shining slate roof with its dead chimney that said ‘no-one’s home.’ Even the old trap, usually stored in the lean-to, was missing. And as for the piebald pony used for harness, and for Kyffin to ride in the local show, that had apparently gone too.

  He pulled on the bell-rope and waited for any signs of life. Only the deluge replied. That and the sense of a black net closing ever tighter. And where would it end? He thought of his job, akin to climbing Snowdon in bare feet. How he’d proved so many wrong, and now, despite the opted-out Lancashire lads, boasted the best attendance records in decades. But what of his mission for young Walter? For his poor, grieving mother? Perhaps here, now, he could begin to make amends.

  Lionel stepped back from the porch, realising from the clang of iron on iron, the smell of burning bone, the smithy round the corner was busy. Once he’d telephoned Carmarthen’s police from the box by the pub, he’d pay Robert Price another visit to ask more questions. As it was a Saturday, the organist might well be at home.

  Mrs Griffiths too, with luck.

  Five minutes later, in the misted-up glass box, his call to Carmarthen police station was answered. He duly dropped a sixpence into the slot and asked to speak urgently to a Police Constable Francis. He’d only met the amiable Welshman once when he’d visited the school to spell out the dangers of rifles, air guns and any other weapons brought back as souvenirs from the War. “Wait there, Mr Hargreaves,” the officer said once Lionel’s story ended. “One of my men can be with you in ten minutes by the back roads.”

  “Thank you. As I said, Miss Carr is very fearful. I don’t think she should be involved in this at all.”

  “May not be as easy as that, sir. We’ll talk again soon.”

  It seemed to Lionel that in those ten minutes, civilisations could have risen and fallen. Every second a drawn-out ordeal. He duly faced the door, periodically clearing away a patch in the condensation. Fifteen times, he counted, but on the sixteenth he sensed something was different. And sure enough, instead of rain slapping against the glass square, there was a face. Or at least the top half of a face with just its eyes visible.