by Ali Parker
"No?" I opened the door and walked out with her behind me.
"No. I need a break from him in general. You guys being here is a great excuse. I won't be in your way back at the apartment, but I will be using you as an alibi."
"You need to drop him, Olivia. He's not right for you, and it's obvious, even to you."
"It's good sex." She shrugged. "He's a warm body to hold on to at night and he's got great style and fun friends."
"And I bet you close your eyes and pretend he's Caden, don't you?"
She flinched. "Stop hitting so close to home and mind your own damn business." Her smirk let me know that she wasn't offended, but I knew the truth of the matter. She'd been in love with the same boy our whole lives. Growing up and changing everything about herself wasn't going to change the truth. It would mask it for a time, but it would seem that her mask was growing thin.
Maybe it was time for me to step in and see if I couldn't cause an intervention. A by chance meet up?
I smiled at Kendal before taking my place next to him at the table. He leaned over and pressed his mouth next to my ear as Luke and Olivia fought over who was staying with who later that night.
"What are you up to? I can see something nefarious playing behind your pretty eyes."
"Really?" I moved back and studied his face, falling even more in love with him. I reached out and touched his cheek softly as my heart fluttered in my chest. "I just want Olivia to find happiness."
"Like we have?" His voice was low, soothing, delicious.
"Exactly." I leaned in and pressed my lips to his as the world disappeared.
It was weird to be twenty-four and understand for the first time ever what love not only looked like, but what it felt like too.
The realization made me want to fight even harder to make sure it remained mine.
What would I give up for us to be together? Everything.
We suffered through dessert and finally headed back to Olivia's place. By the silence in the front seat, it was more than obvious that Luke was pissy over Olivia denying him.
I couldn't handle the silence anymore. It was driving me mad.
"Olivia. You remember during our junior year when your mom and dad let us throw that party out on your father's back forty?" I snorted as memories raced through my mind, leaving me to feel young again - adventurous.
"How could I forget?" She glanced over her shoulder and smiled. "It iced over that winter and we skated on the old pond for hours, busting our asses until we were covered in bruises."
"You guys are talking about 2008, aren't you? I remember being in college and me and Damon enjoying that freeze. It was nuts for Texas. All the schools closed and businesses took the day off."
"And this is an unusual phenomenon?" Luke's tone was less than friendly.
"Absolutely." Olivia turned to face him. "It usually gets cold back home, but nothing like it did that week. We had such a good time."
I snuggled against Kendal and glanced up at him, grateful that he was mine. I wanted to know everything about him, to dig out all of the skeletons from his closet and help patch up his hurts if he still had any.
How close we'd come to not being anything more than acquaintances.
"We're here," Luke announced. "You guys enjoy the rest of your weekend. I'll see you next week?"
Olivia nodded. "Sounds good."
I got out of the car and turned back to watch her try to pull herself together. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and pulled her close to my side as Kendal opened the door for us.
"You could always get in my suitcase, you know." I kissed the side of her head as she chuckled.
"I might do that." She pulled away from me. "I'm going to check in with the front desk to see if I have mail. I'll see you guys in the morning."
"You sure?" I reached for her.
"Yes, honestly. I'm good." She forced a smile before waving at Kendal and turning to walk toward the front of the luxury apartment complex. Her shoulders were rounded in and her head slightly down. I almost hated Luke without really knowing him.
"She needs to get out of that relationship." Kendal wrapped his arms around the top of my shoulders. "She seems like a good woman."
"She is. She's just forgotten somehow." I pulled out of his hold and walked to the elevator. "Tell me about the situation with Bethany and Damon. You never filled me in. What happened?"
"I really don't know." Kendal moved into the elevator and pressed himself to the front of me. "I've been so lost in my own shit that I haven't reached out. Make me do that when we get home."
"Oh, and I meant to tell you, I met your other TA, Jake?"
"Yeah. Jake's a great kid. He's in the honors fraternity that I have to take over when we get back." He brushed my hair back from my neck and leaned down to suck softly at my skin.
"What honors fraternity? You didn't tell me about that." Warmth pooled in the center of my stomach, and I couldn't help but hope for a night that mimicked our afternoon.
"Beta Alpha Psi is the name of the group." He moved back and adjusted himself. "Unfortunately, Mark wants me to work with Heather as a co-adviser."
"Heather? The other professor that's trying to get in your pants?" Ice water hit my veins, effectively taking away any desire to strip down. Was Kendal really going to put himself in a situation like that? Could he help it? Maybe he didn't have any say over the matter.
"Yes." He moved out into the hall and stopped in front of Olivia's door to punch in the code. "I'm going to try to get her to take a handful of events for the group, and I'll take the other. There's no reason for the two of us to be at an event together. It's inefficient."
"And something she would be totally interested in." I hated how my voice betrayed the concern pumping through me.
"And she'd be the only one." He closed the door and moved toward me, surprising me as he bent over and swept me into his strong arms.
"Put me down! You're going to hurt yourself."
"Hush, woman. You don't weigh anything and I'm a big country boy, remember?"
I laughed and wrapped my arms around his neck. "Can you be my big country boy?"
"I already am." He leaned down and kissed me before walking into the bedroom we'd stained with our lust earlier that day. "You have nothing to worry about with Heather, Dana. I'm all yours. We just need to get through these next few months and we can start living the life we want to live."
"Together?" I couldn't even imagine how good it would feel to let the couple we were able to be in New York be us back home. Would I become friends with Damon and Bethany? With all of Kendal's other friends from college? It was like being offered a whole new place to belong. I loved it.
"Absolutely." He put me down and reached for my dress. "Now... no more talking. I still have unexplored places that are begging for my attention."
I glanced down as my cheeks grew hot. "They are?"
"Mmmhmmm." He pulled his shirt over his head and nodded toward the bed. "Get up there on your hands and knees for me. I'll show you every one of them."
There was nothing left to say. I wanted exactly what he was willing to give - so damn bad it hurt.
Chapter 33
Kendal
I shouldn't have brought work with me to New York, but something told me that Dana would be a late sleeper. It had to be her laid back persona. Seeing that I usually woke up at five on the dot unless the world was falling apart around me, I knew I'd have a few hours to myself to get some grading done.
After kissing her back and shoulders a few times in the darkness of the early morning, I slipped on my jeans and t-shirt and snuck out into the living room with my briefcase.
The coffee pot in the kitchen was set to go off in two hours, but I quickly adjusted it and made myself comfortable at the kitchen table. I plowed through a handful of grading assignments before I heard someone moving around behind me.
I glanced up and peeked over my shoulder to see Olivia standing in front of the coffee pot.
> "I started it about an hour ago." I stood up and stretched as I turned to face her.
"Oh good. I usually let myself sleep in on Saturdays and use Sundays to catch up on all the work I didn't get done from the week before." She rubbed at her eyes before tugging her robe closer. "Let me go put something on."
"Don't do it for me. You're all covered up and it's your place. You deserve to be comfortable." I picked up my empty coffee mug and walked into the kitchen. "Thanks for letting us crash here. I love the place. It's elegant and in the perfect location for being downtown."
"Of course." She poured herself a cup of coffee and moved out of the way to lean against the counter beside me. "I miss home a lot more than I'd ever let on."
"I think you're fooling yourself." I lifted my cup to my lips.
"What? Why? You don't think I miss it?" She gave me a quirky smile. We could be friends for sure. She had a pureness to her that shone like a beacon. I could see why Dana was invested in her. She was good people.
"No, I'm sure you miss it. Hell, I miss it and I've been gone a day." I leaned back against the counter nearest me. "I’m just saying that it’s hard to leave part of who you are somewhere and try and start over."
Her eyes flashed with recognition. "It hurts like hell."
"I know." I shook my head and set my coffee down. "I never left home, but I'm a very different man than I was in my younger years. Being that guy still haunts me and yet I miss parts of him so damn much."
"Tell me about him." Her smile spread across her face as if she were preparing for something great.
"He was a whore, firstly." I chuckled as she did. "He wanted the world to bow down to him and he was beyond passionate about everything."
"So leave the whore part and the egomaniac and find your passion again." She took a sip of her coffee and studied me.
"I think I'm doing just that. Dana's like a fresh breath of air for me. I haven't dated for six years because it's hard to meet people when you're working all the damn time."
"Don't I know it?" She moved from the counter and walked to sit down at the kitchen table. She glanced down at my stack of papers and smiled. "Are you passionate about accounting?"
"Actually, yes. I love puzzles and the structure they provide. The final picture at the end is usually worth the effort to get it there." I moved toward the table, but remained standing. "I honestly never thought I would end up teaching, but when I chose that path, it just fit. It's part of who I am now."
"And does it scare you to let that part go?" She glanced up at me.
I had to think about my response for a few minutes. If she'd have asked me before meeting Dana, I wouldn't have hesitated in telling her that it scared me shitless, but now... I wasn't sure.
"I don't know." I moved around the table and sat down as the door opened down the hall. "I think in the past my job defined who I was. It was the only good thing about me, but that's changing because of Dana."
"You guys talking about me?" She padded out into the living room in a t-shirt and panties. Her dark hair was a holy hell mess, and fuck if I didn't love it.
"Always." Olivia glanced over her shoulder toward my girl. "There's coffee in the kitchen. Get a cup and join us."
"How long have you been up?" Dana walked over toward me and leaned down to kiss me a few times before moving slowly toward the kitchen.
"For a couple of hours. I'm used to getting up early in the morning. I used to jog all the time, but over the last few months I've slipped out of the habit."
"I wanna start jogging." Dana glanced over her shoulder at me.
"We can do it together after you graduate." I settled back in my chair to find Olivia watching me. "What?"
"That just sucks. It’s still eight months away. That's a lifetime."
"Tell me about it." Dana groaned as she walked back into the dining room to join us.
"Then say to hell with the rules and do what you feel is best for the two of you." Olivia glanced between the two of us.
My phone rang from down the hall, giving me a chance to get out of having to discuss my situation all over again. It would inevitably lead to me talking about the situation with Ana and my other students, which was something I'd be grateful to never talk about again.
"My phone's ringing. Let me grab it and Dana can explain." I jogged down the hall and closed the door behind me before scooping it up. Damon. "What's up, buddy?"
"Where the hell are you? I'm sitting outside of your house and you're not here. Did you sleep over at Dana's place?" He sounded more curious than perturbed.
"Oh fuck. I totally forgot to tell you that I was going out of town." We played golf every Saturday morning with Damon's younger brother Matt. We'd been doing it for years. How could I have forgotten?
"You get a mulligan for this one, but know I'm due some serious payback. I left a sexy woman in a white g-string to come get your dumb ass." He grunted and threw a few more punches at me.
"Please don't tell me what Bethany wears under her clothes. She's my fucking TA." I stood up and walked toward the window to pull back the curtains. The sun was sitting in the far side of the sky, and the city was empty, which was odd.
"Where are you? And who are you with?"
"Well, mother... I'm in New York with Dana. I took your advice. We're going to sneak around for the time being until we figure out what our best course of action is."
"Nice!" His tone changed immediately. I was still in trouble, no doubt, but if Damon loved anything, it was to be right, and this time, he was spot on. Dana and I did belong together.
"It's been great. I'm not sure what we're going to do for the next eight months, but-"
"Take it day by day. Get out of town when you can and be smart about your relationship. If things go south, you always have a job with me. You know that." It was good to hear his voice and to be reassured by his position on things.
"I appreciate that buddy." I moved back from the window and glanced around for my shoes. Going down to Central Park and walking around in the coolness of the morning would be romantic. I wanted to be that guy for Dana. The one that swept her off her feet and left her heart racing every time I walked into the room. I wasn't sure if it was possible, but Damon seemed to have Bethany in that trance. If he could do it...
"You still there? Did I lose you?" Damon's voice brought me back from my thoughts.
"Sorry. I'm just not myself lately. Dana leaves me feeling so full of life."
"I like full of life. Beth does the same for me. Hold tight to that, brother. It's what a good woman has the power to do."
"I will. I'm not sure how, but I'll figure the shit out."
"When can I expect you back in my neck of the woods?"
"Monday. Why? You need something?"
"Beth's excited about this wedding planning and has picked out the colors for our suits. I told her that you probably weren't ready to go out and live just yet seeing all the shit you've been through, but when you are ready-"
"I'm ready. Mandy's passing isn't going to go away anytime soon, but thanks to you and Dana, I'll get through it. I already am." I brushed my fingers through my hair.
"Awesome. We'll grab Matt and Bethany's friend Jake and go try on suits sometime in the next few weeks."
I snorted. What a motley crew we were pulling together. "Sounds like a plan."
"It’ll be painful, but at least Matt will keep us on our toes and make the day an adventure."
"Your brother is definitely good for that." I turned as the door opened behind me. "I'll give you a buzz next week. Let me know if you need me."
"Same here, brother."
I hung up and tossed the phone on the bed as Dana gave me a questioning look. "Damon?"
"Yeah." I sat down on the edge of the bed and put my socks and tennis shoes on. "I want to go down to Central Park and walk around while it's still cool outside. Come with me?"
"Oh yeah. That sounds like fun." She closed the door and picked up her bag from the floor, opened it
and dumped out the contents on the bed. She pulled her t-shirt over her head, leaving nothing but lots of silky tanned skin and a pair of pretty pink panties that were far too tiny for the curves the woman was sporting.
My cock twitched in my jeans and my heart skipped a beat. "God, you're beautiful."
I moved up behind her and ran my hands up her sides to the front of her body to cup her breasts. I tugged softly at her nipples and leaned down to press kisses up the side of her neck.
"That feels good," she whispered sensually and leaned back against me.
"Maybe the park can wait." I smiled against the side of her neck and let one of my hands move down over her tummy toward her mound.
"No. I want to go. We can make love again later this afternoon before we take a nap."
"You're seriously the perfect woman for me." I slipped my hand down the front of her panties and patted her silky skin as I continued to play with her tits. "Naps, pizza, sex and parks? I'm thinking I might have to keep you."
"Might?" She bumped me with her butt and laughed as I released her and backed up.
"No might to it." I stuck my hand in my pants and adjusted myself in an effort not to scare any of the kids in the park that morning. "What's on the agenda for tonight?"
She pulled her bra on and got dressed far too quickly. Where she looked exceptional in her shorty shorts and t-shirt, I'd much prefer her in nothing but panties.
"We're supposed to have drinks with Jackie and Parks, but I haven't been able to get ahold of her just yet." She pulled her long hair into a high ponytail, making her look five years younger. I almost suffered a moment of feeling like a cradle robber, but forced myself away from the thought.
"Should we track her down?" I opened the door to the bedroom and moved out into the hall behind her. I couldn't seem to keep my eyes from moving down the swell of her perfect ass to her legs. She'd taken me so good, so deep from behind the night before. For someone who appreciated sex as much as I did, not having it for a long time left me wanting to make up for it.