104 Scrubbing the lights: Author's interview with Jayne Brown, February 1986. Jane made up for: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search. Honeymoon: Author's interview with Anne Dick, April 1984.
104 Not able to rewrite: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
105 Borderline surrealism: C. I of Anne Dick, Search. On Jack Isidore: Letter, PKD to Paul Williams, January 19, 1975, published in Williams's "Introduction" to Confessions of a Crap Artist (Glen Ellen, Calif.: Entwhistle Books, 1975), p. viii.
105 Comments on Crap Artist (ss. 1959, p. 1975): Margin notes made by PKD in September 1980 in the Entwhistle Books edition of Crap Artist he gave to Chris Arena, who kindly allowed the author to copy its contents, February 1986.
106 Wind up hitting her: C. 11 of Crap Artist.
106 Involved because husband dying: C. 11 of Crap Artist. Getting away from mother: Ibid. Fay's voice: C. 5 of Crap Artist. Fay's speech patterns: Margin notes to Arena copy of Crap Artist.
106 Anne on Fay: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
106-107 On Jack Isidore: Letter, PKD to Paul Williams, January 19, 1975, supra.
107 Anne's response: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search. Beware the person from Porlock: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
107 Words come from hands. C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search. Intuitive method: Letter, PKD to Eleanor Dimoff, February 1, 1960, supra. Die or have baby: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
108 Mediterranean family: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
108 The abortion: Author's interview with Anne Dick, February 1986.
109 Fantasy life with Pris: C. 18 of PKD novel We Can Build You (w. 1961-62, p. 1972). Pris as life and anti-life: C. 12 of Build. A man's wife won't help: Letter, PKD to Eleanor Dimoff, February 1, 1960, supra.
109 Castrating females: PKD story "The Pre-Persons" (1974). Love, not anger: PKD "Afterword" to story collection The Golden Man (New York: Berkley, 1980), p. 337.
109 Fix the I Ching: Author's interview with Iskandar Guy, February 1986.
110 UFOs don't seem as crazy: Margin notes to Arena copy of Crap Artist, supra.
110 Streak of black in sky and Anne's response: C. 3 of Anne Dick, Search.
111 PKD and Dorothy: C. I of Anne Dick, Search.
111 Mother abandoning: Ibid. Voodoo stares: Author's interview with Jerry Kresy, February 1986. Silver triangle: C. 14 of PKD novel The Man in the High Castle (1962).
111 Anne on jewelry business: Author's interview with Anne Dick, April 1984.
111-112 Third nervous breakdown: Paul Williams, Only Apparently Real (New York: Arbor House, 1986), pp. 60-61.
112 Decided to give up writing: Interview of PKD by Daniel DePrez, Science Fiction Review (September 10, 1976), pp. 7-8.
112 Never chew cud twice: C. 2 of Anne Dick, Search.
113 Dedication: In the first edition of High Castle (1962).
114 Castle metaphors: Letter, PKD to Patricia Warrick, October 8, 1977.
114 Multiple narrative viewpoint: Letter, PKD to Patricia Warrick, July 31, 1978.
115 Tagomi going mad: C. 6 of High Castle.
116 Baynes on Nazis: C. 3 of High Castle.
116 Inner Truth hexagram: C. 15 of High Castle. I Ching as malicious spirit: Interview of PKD by Daniel DePrez, supra, p. 8.
117 High Castle ending: Letter, PKD to Joseph Milicia, August 7, 1978.
117 High Castle and Martian Time-Slip (1962): Paul Williams, Only Apparently Real, pp. 92-93
118 Wollheim rejection: Author's interview with Donald Wollheim, June 1986.
Chapter 6: Phil's Marriage Mimics "Reality"
Books and articles: Anne Dick, Search for Philip K. Dick.
Author's interviews- With Hatte Blejer, January 1986; with Nancy Hackett, March 1986; with Ann Montbnand, February 1986; with Mike Hackett, February 1986.
Quotations:
120 Powerfully brilliant: Author's interview with Anne Dick, April 1984.
120 Bitchy tongue: Author's interview with Anne Dick, February 1986.
121 Killed first husband: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search. Bolting from car: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
121 Just wanted a husband: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
122 Javelina pig hunt: Author's interview with Harlan Ellison, March 1986.
122 Outrageous stuff: Author's interview with Iskandar Guy, February 1986.
122-123 PKD exaggerated: Author's interview with Lynne Cecil, February 1986.
123 Lock on medicine chest: Author's interview with Lynne Cecil, February 1986. Kill himself with drugs: C 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
123 Diagnosed as manic-depressive: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search. Rooted in marriage: Author's interview with Anne Dick, February 1986.
124 Hatte's memory of drive: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
124 Clinic records: Ibid. Effect of Stelazine: Ibid.
125 Chuck and Marv: C. 13 of PKD novel Clans of the Alphane Moon (1964). Korsakow's syndrome: C. 12 of PKD novel Now Wait for Last Year (1966).
125-126 Talking cab: C. 14 of Now Wait (1966).
126 Took arm forcibly: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search. Attend religiously: Ibid. Social climbing: Interview of PKD by Charles Platt in Platt's Dream Makers (New York: Berkley, 1980), p 152.
127 Face in the sky Unpublished PKD "Headnote" in PKD Estate Archives (probably written in 1976 for potential use in The Best of Philip K. Dick story collection; a much shorter note was used instead) for 1963 story "The Days of Perky Pat." Certain chemicals: PKD essay, "Will the Atomic Bomb Ever Be Perfected, and If So, What Becomes of Robert Heinlein?", Lighthouse fanzine, October 1966. Psychedelic drugs: Letter, PKD to Rich Brown, August 21, 1967.
127 Gas mask memories: Unpublished PKD "Headnote" for "The Days of Perky Pat," supra. Idios kosmoses needed to stay sane: Letter, PKD to Bruce Gillespie, June 8, 1969, published in Gillespie, ed., Philip K. Dick: Electric Shepherd (Melbourne, Australia: Nostrilla Press, 1975), p. 32. What Anne might have said: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
128 Mass symbolism: C. G. Jung, "Transformation Symbolism in the Mass," in Joseph Campbell, ed., The Mysteries: Papers from the Eranos Yearbooks (Princeton, N.J.: Princeton University Press, 1978), p. 334. Baptismal devil: C. 4 of Anne Dick, Search.
130 Day at the beach: C. 3 of PKD novel The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch (1965).
131 Bulero's reassurances: C. 6 of Palmer Eldritch.
131-132 It's all the same: C. II of Palmer Eldritch.
132 PKD's father as Eldritch and Bulero: PKD "Headnote" to "The Days of Perky Pat," supra.
132 Chew-Z: Paul Williams, "The True Stories of Philip K. Dick," Rolling Stone, November 6, 1975, included in Williams's Only Apparently Real (New York: Arbor House, 1986).
133 Eucharist: Jung, "Transformation Symbolism," supra, p. 290. Arrogant one: Exegesis 014 (1978). Bulero as Son of Man: Exegesis 021 (1978).
134 Love-blast: Author's interview with Grania Davis, February 1986. Gun and violence: Ibid.
135 Bladder capacity, crazy and complex: Author's interview with Crania Davis, February 1986.
135 Separated from children: Letter, Crania Davis to Cymphia, July 17, 1964.
135 Beautiful letters: Author's interview with Crania Davis, February 1986. Bay Area loudspeaker: Letter, co-written by PKD and Crania to Terry and Carol Carr, October 9, 1964.
136 Advanced schizophrenic paranoid: Letter, PKD to Terry and Carol Carr, October 4, 1964.
136 Nelson on High Castle sequels: Ray Nelson, "A Dream of Amerasia," in D. Scott Apel, ed., Philip K. Dick: The Dream Connection (San Jose, Calif.: Permanent Press, 1987), p. 136.
137-138 PKD on SF novel construction: Letter, PKD to Ron Goulart, undated but written in spring-summer 1964, according to Goulart, who kindly furnished the author with a copy.
139 Goulart on PKD: Author's interview with Ron Goulart, May 1986. Glancing at him: Interview source wishes to remain anonymous.
139-140 Con Flirtation: Author's interviews with Terry and Carol Carr, February 1986.
140 Changing belief systems and three-piece suit: Author's interview with Dick Ellington, F
ebruary 1986.
140-141 Communion: Letter, PKD to Carol Carr, jokingly dated "Nov. 12, 1902 (the day President Gump was done in by a rotting, poisoned carrot, right between the eyes)"; real date almost certainly November 12, 1964.
141 Monogamous sex: Author's interview with Crania Davis, February 1986. Insurance policy: Letter, J. G. Newkom to author, January 20, 1987.
141 Acid trip in A Maze of Death Letter, PKD to Claudia Bush, July 15, 1974.
142 Acid vision: Letter, PKD to Rich Brown, August 21, 1967.
142 On hallucinations: PKD essay, "Drugs, Hallucinations, and the Quest for Reality," Lighthouse, November 1964.
143 Kirstcn and PKD: Author's interview with Kirsten Nelson, March 1986.
143 Poem "To Nancy": MS in PKD Estate Archives. I love you for what you are- Letter, PKD to Nancy Hackett, December 16, 1964.
143-144 Move in for my sake: Letter, PKD to Nancy Hackett, December 19, 1964.
144 She will break me- Letter, PKD to Carol Carr, December 25, 1964.
Chapter 7: A New Start
PKD's works: Exegesis 003 (1977-78), 010 (1977-78), 018 (1978), 019 (1978), 021 (1978), 029 (1978), 032 (1977).
Author's interviews: With Anne Montbriand, February 1964; with Anne Dick, April 1984 and February 1986; with Kirsten Nelson, March 1986; with Terry and Carol Can, February 1986
146 More and more out of it: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986
147 Nancy on PKD: Ibid Rhapsodizing: Letter, PKD to Carol Carr, December 25, 1964.
147 Latest doings: Letter, PKD to Carol Carr, February 28, 1965. Nancy's consort: C. 5 of Anne Dick, Search.
148 Experiences without LSD- Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986. Humorous, Snug and Fuzzy: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986.
148 How they talked: Interview of Nancy Hackett by Jeff Wagner c. 1985 (author's transcription of tape kindly supplied by Wagner). Crisis junkie: Author's interview with Miriam Lloyd, February 1986
149 On the I Ching: PKD essay, "Schizophrenia and the Book of Changes," Niekas, No. 11, March 1965 Party pooper and acid colors: Letter, PKD to Jack Newkom, November 17, 1965.
150 Seance notes: PKD, "Transcript of a Seance," PKDS Newsletter #12, October 1986, p. 5.
150 Instant after death: Letter, PKD to James A. Pike and Maren Hackett, February 17, 1966 (extant in two different drafts). Giving communion: Exegesis 020 (1978).
151 Jim tried for heresy: Letter, PKD to Claudia Bush, July 15, 1974 (letter included in Exegesis 004 [1974] file, indicating that PKD kept it with his Exegesis papers, as he did several other of his letters written in 1974-76 that dealt in some detailed way with his 2-3-74 experiences). PKD's speculations on his possible cross-bonding with Pike in 1974 are included in Exegesis 004, as well as other Exegesis sections. Nothing to say: Exegesis 054 (1981).
152-153 Joe Chip and the door: C. 3 of PKD novel Ubik (1969).
153-154 Runciter commercials: C. 10 of Ubik.
154 Ubik on Ubik: Epigram to C. 17 of Ubik. Book of John: Peter Fitting, "Ubik: The Deconstruction of Bourgeois SF," included in Joseph D. Olander and Martin Harry Greenberg, eds., Writers of the 21st Century Series: Philip K. Dick (New York: Taplinger, 1983), p. 152. Though Fitting notes the resemblance to John, he does not suggest that Ubik is a Christian work; rather, he attempts to draw from the narrative a Marxist view of decomposing bourgeois realities and (Fitting's language) "new collective possibilities." Be it noted that PKD, in the Exegesis, many times considered the true meaning of Ubik-he would do this with his novels, as though someone else had written them-and never approached anything like a Marxist formulation of Ubik or, for that matter, of any other of his novels of the sixties and after. The nature of ultimate reality, as PKD came to conceive of it, was not subject to fundamental change on the basis of economic reorderings. Particularly in the seventies, in the aftermath of the November 1971 break-in, PKD would become quite uncomfortable with Marxist interpretations of his work, though he did acknowledge, in the Exegesis, elements of Marxist sociological critique (drawn in part from his reading of C. Wright Mills) in certain of his fifties novels. See my Chapter 4 and notes thereto.
154 Ubik and Palmer Eldritch, salvific information: Exegesis 032 (1977).
154 1 don't write beautifully: Exegesis 039 (1978).
154-155 Attracted to trash. Exegesis 014 (1978)
155 On Galactic Pot-Healer. Exegesis 054 (1981).
156 Didn't believe in marriage: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986. Well people: Letter, PKD to Cynthia Goldstone, February 27, 1967.
156 File case: Letter, PKD to Cynthia Goldstone, February 27, 1967. Trip to hospital: Author's interview with Mike Hackett, February 1986.
157 Sensitive person, rescuer, wanted her at home: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986. Focus on Nancy, weren't mature: Author's interview with Lynne Cecil, February 1986.
157 Relationship changed after Isa: Author's interview with Mike Hackett, February 1986.
157 Breast-feeding contest: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986.
158 Unwelcome Wagon: Author's interview with Crania Davis, February 1986. PKD and Dorothy, medicating himself, money: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986.
159 Depressions, writing Androids: Ibid. Clever dope fiends: Author's interview with Miriam Lloyd, February 1986. Terrible fear of being crazy: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986.
159 PKD's house a known locale: Author's interview with Hatte Blejer, January 1986.
160 1967 nervous breakdown: Letter, PKD to Carol Carr, July 7, 1967 (see also letter, PKD to Rich Brown, July 18, 1967).
160 How can it go on?: Letter, PKD to Mr. Wardlaw (IRS agent), September 2, 1967. Tax protest petition: Ramparts, February 1968.
161 PKD reflects on petition: Exegesis 040 (1979).
161 Ellison's introduction: Harlan Ellison, ed., Dangerous Visions (New York: Berkley, 1967), pp. 213-14.
161-162 Ellison on PKD: Author's interview with Harlan Ellison, March 1986.
162 Throwing away her stash: Author's interview with Miriam Lloyd, February 1986.
162 Drug scene: Author's interview with Miriam Lloyd, February 1986.
163 Status had climbed: Letter, PKD to Lawrence Ashmead, September 7, 1968.
163 No important book since 1964: Letter, PKD to stepdaughter Tandy, May 7, 1969. Carson Poole: PKD story The Electric Ant" (1969) Writing slump: Letter, PKD to Lynne Cecil, March 21, 1969.
163-164 Plot and writing method: Letter, PKD to Ray Browne, March 21, 1969.
164 Dual loss: Paul Williams, Only Apparently Real (New York: Arbor House, 1986), p. 100.
164 Nancy's fears, trying to quit speed: Author's interview with Nancy Hackett, February 1986.
165 PKD on amphetamine use: Williams, Only Apparently Real, pp. 13233.
165 Mescaline: Letter, PKD to Jim, September 17, 1970.
166 Greatest weakness of SF: PKD written response to questionnaire circulated to ninety-four SF writers, all responses published in Bill Mallardi and Bill Bowers, eds., The Double:Bill Symposium (D:B Press, 1969), p. 103.
166 Mystical love: Letter, PKD to Anne Dick, September 18, 1970.
167 Nice guy, a little loony: Author's interview with Honor Jackson, February 1986. Driving away: Author's interview with Isa Dick, March 1986.
Chapter 8: Dark Night Of The Soul
PKD works and letters: "Cadburv, the Beaver who Lacked," 1972 story, MS. in PKD Estate Archives; letters to FBI, October 28, 1972, November 4, 1972; letters to Inspector Shine, November 4, 1972, November 9, 1972; letter to William Wolfson, October 6, 1972; letter to Bank of Marin, April 21, 1973.
Books and articles: C. 6 of Anne Dick, Search for Philip K. Dick, was especially valuable as to the doings of the young crowd who made PKD's Santa Venetia house their hangout.
169 Fear in Phil: Author's interview with Bernie Montbriand, February 1986. Fearful about the police: Author's interview with Mike
Hackett, February 1986.
170 Up for three days: Author's interview with Bernie Montbriand, February 1986. Documented the struggle: PKD 1970-71 notepad journal in PKD Estate Archives.
170 Life in Hermit House: Letter, PKD to J'Ann Forgue, November 25, 1970.
170-171 Made you feel involved: Author's interview with Tom Schmidt, February 1986.
171 Fun and difficult: Author's interview with Mike Hackett, February 1986.
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