Cyborg Heart

by Anna Lewis

  As the torturous event finally came to an end, and everyone filed out of the room, I felt a hand wrap tightly around mine. “Come with me,” I heard Arden whisper into my ear in a voice that sparked all kinds of exciting memories. Already that intense buzzing started floating around me, and I knew that there was no turning back, no matter what.

  “Where are we going?” I asked him quietly, enjoying sharing a secret with him. I liked having something that most of the rest of the world didn't know… the taboo nature of us made it that much more thrilling.

  “Muth and I want to talk to you…”

  Before I knew it, I ended up in a room that was becoming increasingly familiar to me. I knew Muth's room almost as well as my own, but unlike my room, the secrets hidden in the walls always had me turned on, my body on the edge of desire, and that was before anything even happened.

  “Right,” Muth started with a tone of authority. “We know that you've been struggling with your decision, so we just want to give you our opinion on it.”

  “You… you do?” I stammered shakily. “Erm, yeah okay.” I had no idea where this was going, but it wasn't where I had been expecting it to.

  “Obviously, we would rather you stay, since that's what we're both doing. But we don't want to force you to do anything that you don't want to. Instead we're going to show you what is waiting for you here if you do decide to remain.”

  With that, he brought me right back to where I thought I was going to be by stripping off his top.

  “Wait,” I blustered through all the sensations he had running through my body. “So you're saying… this wouldn't have to be temporary?” That was one of my biggest fears, being here with Arden and Muth, and not being with them. That would be torture, seeing them all the time and not being able to do anything about it.

  “Not at all,” Arden chuckled, also removing his own clothes. “We've had a talk about it, and we're in for as long as you are.”

  In… for as long as I am? I thought in a stunned silence. “Even if that's forever?” I heard myself ask quietly. I needed to know, I had to understand what he meant.

  “Of course… although our forever is a lot longer than yours, so you would have to change…”

  “Stop,” I insisted a little too harshly. “Just… come here and kiss me. I can't think about anything that serious at the moment.” Staying was one thing, but becoming a hybrid was something else entirely. There was no way I could make such a heavy decision when my brain was thick with lust.

  I didn't want to think. No, I just wanted to feel instead.

  ***

  I was naked in a heartbeat, clinging on to Arden as he kissed me passionately, his tongue finding its way between my lips. I was up on my knees on the bed, with him sitting in front of me, clinging to me like there was no tomorrow… which I supposed could have been the truth in his eyes. Who knew what the next day would bring?

  Muth quickly made his way up behind me, and he kicked things up a gear by slowly sliding his fingers into me, giving him a feel of my hot, wet desire. These two men turned me on in a way that I couldn't picture anyone else ever doing. I couldn't imagine myself ever feeling so much passion with anyone else, human or otherwise, however hard I looked.

  Feeling much braver than the first time I was with these two, I started kissing down Arden's wonderful chest, licking every single one of his abs along the way, protruding my butt out even further, giving Muth a much better access to me. He took full advantage of this by claiming me with his mouth without even a second thought, massaging my clit with his tongue in the way that he now knew that I loved. The first time I had experienced his mouth on me, I almost screamed with shock, whereas now I could simply enjoy the phenomenal sensations he had tearing through my body. I loved it. It was one of my favorite things about sex, and it made me so pleased that Muth now knew that for cure about me.

  Part of my believed that this had to be a dragon thing, I couldn't imagine any human man being so expert with his tongue. I'd tried, but I just couldn't see it!

  As my mouth neared Arden's cock, my heart began to race with excitement. I loved feeling him in my mouth, I relished the way that made him feel, and I couldn't wait to make that happen once more.

  “Oh God,” he groaned loudly as my lips drew nearer. “Hattie, you're incredible, you have to stay here. We need you.”

  In that moment, with Arden groaning for me, and Muth making me feel incredible, I felt like I would have given them everything without a second glance backwards. I didn't trust myself to speak, my emotions were all over the place, so instead I moved forwards and I took his thick length to the back of my throat.

  As I explored Arden with my tongue, bobbing my head at a pace that seemed to drive him wild, Muth moved away from me just as I was on the brink of exploding, and he slammed into me instead, causing me to cry out loudly with a pleasant shock. One of the best things about being with two guys was that every time was different. It was always a surprise, there was no way that I could ever get bored.

  Even if it was forever.

  No, I wasn't thinking about that… nothing that serious.

  Each brush of Muth's cock managed to catch my clit, so before long it was hard for me to focus on what I was doing to Arden. I did my best, but the moment he grabbed on to my breasts, to play with my nipples, that became even more of a challenge. With Muth's hands lightly brushing the small of my back, his cock filling me in the most incredible way possible, and the feel of Arden… I was on cloud nine.

  How could I leave this behind? How could I move on? How could I ever have any kind of other life after this?

  All of a sudden, a sweet salty juice filled my mouth, as Arden collapsed on the bed beneath me. He was done, absolutely spent, but even as he lay there while Muth rode me, he looked so gorgeous that I couldn't stop myself from staring, admiring every gorgeous inch of him.

  Eventually I pushed myself into a sitting position so that I could control the speed and pace of things too. This allowed Muth to run his hands all over the parts of my body that he hadn't yet felt, whilst also giving Arden a show – if there was one thing that I'd learned about dragons, it was that they liked to watch. Also, this was a wonderful angle for me because it allowed me to feel everything that Muth was doing to me really deeply. It gave me the chance to feel every inch of that wonder cock that I adored so intensely.

  “Oh fuck,” I cried out, as it all became too much. My eyes fell closed and my head lolled to one side. “Oh my God.” It was rapidly becoming too much, too intense, too overwhelming.

  “Beautiful, so beautiful,” Arden murmured appreciatively while me and Muth moved in unison.

  Muth's hands were tangled up in my hair, his lips all over my neck, and I was getting to the place where I couldn't hold it in any longer. I was about to explode and there was nothing that I could do to stop it.

  Then the orgasm tore through my body, sending bolts of passion through me. I buckled, crumbled, and completely fell apart in Muth's arms. I was just lucky that despite the fact that he was losing himself too, he was strong enough to keep me upright.

  I finally fell forwards, a post coital blissful feeling consuming me entirely. I panted, and giggled. I felt euphoric. If this was on offer for me, forever more, then wouldn't I be stupid to go home? Wouldn't I be a fool to give it all up?

  As Arden wrapped his arms around me, and Muth spooned me from behind, I felt right. I felt complete. I felt like I knew exactly what I wanted… however, I also knew that the second I stepped away, all my self doubt would creep back in all over again.

  ***

  “Okay,” I muttered anxiously to myself, staring at my very nervous reflection in the mirror. “You know what you want to do… so just do it.”

  In my mind, I had finally made my decision. I wanted to stay, I wanted to find some full-time position at the Council of Species. I might not stay forever, but for the time being I wasn't ready to go home.

  The only problem was I needed to tell my grandma,
and I did not know how she was going to react. Just like Muth and Arden had easily persuaded me to stay, I had the horrible sense that if she was upset at my decision, I could just as easily swing back around and change my mind. It wasn't that I was weak-minded necessarily. It was just that I didn't ever want to hurt the ones that I loved.

  “Just tell her, do it, it can't be that bad.”

  But even as I held the phone to my ear, and I listened to it ring, my hand was shaking and my heart thundering in my chest. Even my mouth had run dry with fear.

  “Hello,” she answered, sounding far too happy. I didn't want to crush her spirits, I really didn't want to break her heart. “How's it going, Hattie? Did you do it? Have you finished yet?”

  “I have,” I replied slowly. “We finished yesterday.” Oh God, I didn't want to do this anymore. I wanted to tell her that I was on the next flight and that I would see her soon. But I couldn't, I needed to be brave. “And… I think I'm going to stay. At least for a while.”

  “You are?” She actually sounded pleased for me, which was a huge relief. I'd spent so long expecting the worst that this was actually something of a shock. “That's incredible, I'm so happy for you.”

  “You… are…?” I'd pictured her crying, devastated that she would lose me as well as my parents, but it seemed like I had been very wrong. “Are you sure?”

  “Oh come on, all I want is for you to be happy, Hattie,” she replied smilingly. “I'm glad that you're staying. I think that you will be able to have much more of a life there than you ever could have had here. I mean, it's good for me. I have my friends and my social life, but I never got the sense that you enjoyed it as much.”

  Wow, she was much more perceptive than I ever gave her credit for. “I didn't know I gave you that sense,” I told her quietly. “I'm sorry, it was nothing to do with you.”

  “Oh, I know that, and don't feel bad, it's just the way you are. I tried to give you a normal childhood, but I shouldn't have done that. You're too much for normal, you're too big of a personality. You deserve to be there.”

  “Thank you,” I answered her, unable to keep in my relief. “I don't know what to say. I mean, I will visit, I will come back soon, and I may be back for good soon enough, I don't know.”

  “You enjoy yourself,” she insisted fiercely. “You're making the choice I wish I had. I mean I'm glad that I met your grandfather of course, and the life I had following that choice, but I did really enjoy it there, and I do regret not making the experience last longer.”

  In that moment, I knew that I'd made the right choice. At least this way, no matter what happened next, I wouldn't be able to have any regrets. I would be able to go back home, if I ever chose to, with my head held high, fully knowing that I'd lived life to the full.

  By the time I glanced at my reflection in the mirror again, there was a big smile on my face instead. Now that I'd done the hard part, now that I had my grandmother's approval, it was time for the fun stuff. Time to find out what my job was going to be, where I'd be living from now, and most importantly it was time to tell all the people who so badly wanted me to stay. Arden, Muth and Sephy were all going to be overjoyed by the news. I'd kept them hanging on for far too long while I flicked back and forth between decisions.

  Now it was time to put them out of their misery.

  ***

  “Okay?” I asked, scanning my eyes around the room at the very nervous bunch of new students. “Any questions?”

  I never thought that I would like teaching. In fact, when they first told me it would be my job I was a little dismayed. But it turned out I actually adored teaching. Sure, I was only doing the basics at the moment, like introducing the newbies to the course, but the further I trained in a more specialist way, the more lessons I would be giving.

  Surprisingly it suited me down to the ground.

  Muth was still doing well in his team leader role, and Arden had taken to helping with billing and laws very well. Sephy, Brad, and a group of the other werewolves loved their runner jobs, so everyone was happy.

  Being in such a positive, wonderful place had my mood on a constant high, and I didn't see that ever subsiding. This was it, this was where I was meant to be, and to be honest I couldn't believe that it had taken me so long to make the decision to stay. In hindsight it was such an easy decision.

  As students held their hands up, and asked me a round of questions, I felt needed, I felt complete. I was starting to think more and more that this was the place that I wanted to be forever. Sure, I could still go home to see my grandma, but this was where I wanted to make my permanent place of residence.

  It was no secret anymore that I was in a relationship with both Muth and Arden, and much to my surprise no one even batted an eyelid. They all just accepted us for what we were, and that helped me to fall deeper and deeper for the both of them. I was teetering dangerously close towards love, and I no longer minded the seriousness of that.

  As the class filed out of the room, about to embark on the biggest adventure of their lives – not that many of them realized that yet – I smiled secretly to myself. I recalled being in that position, knowing without a doubt that I would only be at the Council of Species for a few short weeks. I remembered how naïve I was, how little I knew about the other species, and it made me want to go back in time and scream at myself.

  Now though, now everything was different, and it was about to change all over again.

  Months had passed, during which time I'd gotten to know so much more of myself. I was confident now, comfortable with who I was, and content to be here. And tonight I would tell them all…

  “Hey there,” Muth popped his head around the door, sending me that heart stopping smile. “You up for that welcome party tonight?”

  Usually, I would want to go, I loved partying and having fun, but tonight I had something different in mind. “Actually, would you mind if we stayed in tonight?” I asked. My heart raced in my chest. I tried to keep the smile down, not to give myself away, but it was so difficult when I was bursting with the secret that I had inside of myself. “Just the three of us?”

  Sensing that I needed him, in the way that he always did, he nodded and agreed with me right away. “Of course. In fact, Arden is in my room right now. We could go and meet him there if you wanted.”

  “Sounds good.”

  I slipped my hand happily into his and allowed him to lead me away, just as I'd done once before when all of this had kicked off. If only I'd known back then that it wouldn't be a one night fling, that it would be the start of something incredible instead…

  As we stepped into Muth's room, I felt my pulse rate kick up another notch. I was so excited, and that must have been showing on my face.

  “What's going on?” Arden asked, sounding a little nervous. He sat up straighter and stared at me with concern plastered across his face. “You look… weird.”

  “Both of you sit down, I have something to tell you.” I hopped from foot to foot as they obliged, glad to finally be able to get out the thoughts that I'd been having for a while now. “Okay, so I think that things have been going really well between us?” They both nodded enthusiastically. “And… well, I don't know about you, but my feelings are… growing stronger.” I felt my face heat up as I finally confessed everything. “So strong that… it might actually be… you know, love.” I cringed as I waited for them to laugh at me, but instead they both gave me very intense looks.

  “Are you suggesting that you want to change?” Muth asked abruptly. “Because if so, I'm all for that. I have known for a while now that I'm in love with you, and I would do anything to have you sticking around forever.”

  “Me too,” Arden agreed, sounding very enthusiastic for me. Relief flooded me as I realized that they were both on board. To be honest, I didn't have a backup plan if they weren't. “I love you too, and I would love that.”

  I bit down on my lip as I considered the seriousness of becoming a hybrid. That was a real commitment, there wa
s no backing out of it. It was final. But I wanted it. I wanted to be a part of the magical, special world that they were all involved in. I wanted to be a dragon hybrid, to live longer, to have all the chances to have a real relationship with them… including one day even babies.

  I had already cleared it with my grandma, who was as cool with this as she was with me staying at the Council of Species. Now it was time to take that brave step and to finally make that happen. I wasn't even anxious about it, not that I knew much about the process. I was just sure that I was more than ready for a change.

  It was time for me to move on, to finally start living.

  “I do,” I said. “I want to become a hybrid, I want to become one of you.”

  ***

  I stared at my brand new reflection in the mirror, admiring myself from every angle. The process of change had been far more painful than I was expecting, but it was all worth it now.

  I still looked like me. I could still see myself in there, but I looked a lot better too. My legs seemed longer, my torso slimmer, my breasts bigger and a better shape. My face had altered too, but in an amazing way. I had chiseled cheekbones now, and bee stung lips. I looked like a photo shopped version of the person I once was. There was no way that I could be described as normal and boring now!

  “I have to say,” Sephy burst out from behind me. “You wear dragon well, it sure looks good on you.”

  I could almost feel her pride. It was emanating off of her, in the way that I imagined that Muth – and probably Arden too – always did. Everything made a lot more sense now, and I was grateful for that.

  “So, what's next for you?” she asked me curiously. “Are you in it for the long haul now? I mean, is this thing… forever?”

  I'd spoken to her about it a bit, but clearly it wasn't enough if she still felt the need to clarify. I knew exactly where my head was at, I knew for sure what I wanted, and I couldn't wait to get started with that. “I know it's crazy,” I confided in her. “But I love them both. I never thought that I had the capacity to love one person, never mind two. But I do… enough to take this amazing step.”