Dangerous Thing

by Lanyon, Josh

  He touched my face. “Okay?”

  “Yeah. Of course.” Maybe a little puzzled that he seemed unsure about it.

  I ran a light hand over the hard planes of his chest. Flicked one flat brown nipple with my thumbnail. He swallowed hard and I smiled. Teased the other nipple into a hard point.

  He sucked in a breath, let it out slowly.

  I’d had enough to drink that I should have been incapable of rational thought, but for some damn reason, the wheels were still turning. Way too fast. Spinning, in fact. I felt detached, a little distant as he bent over me, big hands denting the mattress, the muscles on his arms standing out like ropes. His cock looked like a warhead.

  I remembered the last time — and flinched at the sudden stark vision of all that strength and frustration slamming into me. I stared up into his hard face. He was watching me closely. My stomach knotted with anxiety.

  But that other time hadn’t been Jake. That didn’t have anything to do with … us. I wanted Jake. I did want him. And if I let myself think about that other time I was giving the memory power. And I’d been waiting for this moment for way too long.

  He said, “What if I —”

  “Maybe if I —”

  Suddenly there seemed to be knees and elbows everywhere.

  “Ouch,” Jake said.

  “Sorry.”

  He bent forward at the same moment I raised my head, and we banged noses.

  “What the hell?” His voice came out muffled behind his hand.

  “Sorry.”

  “You’ve done this before, right?”

  I don’t know why that hit me as funny, but I started to laugh, and Jake pushed back and said exasperatedly, “What the hell is so funny?”

  I shook my head.

  “You sure know how to break the mood.” However he didn’t appear to be giving up. His mouth found mine and he kissed me again, insistently. I felt myself quieting, giving in to the unexpected tenderness.

  He drew back, licked my mouth, which was different, sort of playful. My lips parted, anticipating, but he softly bit the side of my neck — then harder.

  I bit back a yelp.

  “Going to behave?” His eyes were amused.

  I said in my best hypnotic-subject voice, “Yeees … Maaaster.”

  He nuzzled the bite mark and I shivered.

  There was a lot of strength and heat in the body poised over mine. He smelled good, like my almond soap, and he tasted good, and he felt very good, his hand slowly stroking my belly.

  I said huskily, “I’m having trouble believing this is you.”

  He reached across to the nightstand with his free hand and picked up my sunscreen. “Nah,” he said. “You knew this was going to happen. Like I did. You called it right. I came after you. Every step of the way.”

  He squirted a glop of sunscreen on his fingers and warmed it. I bent my knees, opening wide for him. Focused on relaxing my muscles. Jake’s fingers slipped along my crack, slick and silky. I’d wondered what those long sensitive fingers would feel like and now one of them was pressing against my hole.

  I bit my lip, trying to keep it quiet, trying not to scare him away.

  He pushed in. Just a fingertip. “You’re so tight,” he murmured.

  He pulled out. Dipped in, dipped out. Pushed further in. That friction felt so good. I moaned. I couldn’t help it.

  “Yeah,” he said with slow satisfaction. “You need it bad. Worse than I do.”

  I gasped, “Is it a competition? What do I win?”

  “Shhh. Turn off for a few seconds, Adrien.”

  “A few seconds? Is that all it’s —” I caught my breath as his finger moved knowledgeably, unerringly.

  “There’s the off button,” he murmured.

  I pushed back hard on his hand. Not like I’d never felt this before, and yet somehow I’d never felt it quite so intensely. It was like he was reaching right into me, stretching me open, finding every little secret place, stroking, smoothing, soothing the naked underbelly of need. I wanted to talk myself away from feeling too much, too keenly, but all that came out was a something unnervingly like a whimper.

  So much for my theory on his lack of expertise. It was going to be okay. I was going to be more than okay.

  “Baby, that little sound you made …” He stroked with two fingers. “What about this? Is this good too?”

  Where had I got the idea he might not be experienced at this? He was in total control, perfectly gauging my responses and expertly bringing me to the edge with each electric — and deliberate — stroke across the gland.

  No way was that beginner’s luck.

  The pressure built unbearably. My eyes flew open. “I-I think I’m going to come.”

  “You think?” His eyes were crinkled at the corner, like he was laughing inside.

  “But …” It’s way too soon. I let the half-formed protest go. Too hard to form thoughts, let alone words. I strained against his hand, aching for more, trying to capture that maddening touch, draw it deeper into my body, ease that screaming tension.

  “Yeah, that’s right. I’ve got you. Just let go …”

  The wildness welled up inside me and began to pump hard, spilling through my body, sizzling along nerve endings, shooting out in creamy plumes. A half-sob of relief tore out of my throat.

  “Whoa,” Jake murmured eons later. He traced some design in the sticky wet splash on my abdomen. I opened my eyes, blinked at him. He was smiling, looking as relaxed as I felt.

  I managed a grin. He leaned over me, kissed me again, said quietly, “Yeah, I like that.”

  I ran a hand over the top of his head, feeling the crisp texture of his cropped hair. It was the first time in our friendship I felt free to look my fill: the hard line of his cheek and jaw at odds with the sensual fullness of his mouth, the knowing gleam of his hazel eyes. My breathing had slowed back down, my heart raced happily along like the start of summer vacation. “You’ll like the next bit even more.”

  He was still smiling. “There’s no rush.”

  “Speak for yourself,” I said. I was tired, but it was a good tired. Loose and light. I sat up, but he pushed me back gently.

  “On your back. I want to watch your face.” He met my eyes. “And you’ll like the … stimulation.”

  We realigned ourselves, the mattress squeaking noisily, and I raised my legs over Jake’s shoulders, leaving myself exposed and vulnerable, but I wasn’t worried now. His warm hands slid over my ass, spreading me wider. His cock rested against my wet slick hole. Holding my gaze, he pushed in. “Christ, that’s sweet.”

  I gritted my jaw, forced my muscles to submit.

  He paused. Even stretched and prepped, my body needed a chance to adjust; he was a big man.

  “Say my name,” he urged.

  “Jake,” I said huskily.

  Something lit in his eyes. He shoved the rest of the way in. I gasped, sphincter muscle spasming around his stiffness.

  “Christ, you feel good. Like a glove.” He thrust against me, just once like he couldn’t help himself.

  I panted, writhed a little, still trying to accommodate him. Making room for him in my head and in my body.

  His hands covered my chest, tugging the nipples. I’ve never particularly got off on having my breast touched, but this felt weirdly good. I rubbed against his palm. He lowered himself, kissed me, hotly, hungrily, pushing his tongue in. I moaned into his mouth, wanting more, needing more.

  His mouth ground down on mine, his fingers pinched my nipples. So much sensation distracting me from the massive cock crammed in my ass.

  “What are you feeling?” Jake’s breath was warm against my face, my bruised lips tingled. “Tell me what it feels like with me inside you.” His hips thrust against me again.

  What did it feel like? My legs felt weak and trembly, my belly soft and liquid; my channel felt scraped and burned with satisfying friction. It felt like invasion — the invasion that comes with a liberating army. I felt my face qui
ver with that mix of pain and pleasure, lifted my lashes. He was staring into my eyes.

  Something snapped inside me, relented, freed itself. I began to move, contracting my muscles around him, trying to arch up against him. My fierce response triggered him. He made some exclamation, began to move, hips pounding against my ass, impaling me with each thrust. The relief was that I could be rough back; I could let go and take what I needed too.

  The mattress springs squeaked, the wooden frame creaked. Jake’s hands closed on my hips. He redirected his efforts, thrust harder, deeper and hit the spot that sent exquisite sensation crackling through me. I cried out. Jake was grunting fiercely in time to the bang of the headboard against the wall. I gripped hard and felt him stiffen.

  “Oh, baby,” he groaned. His body went rigid, his face twisting in distressed delight. I felt him come hard, hot seed shooting into me.

  Startled, I realized that I was coming too. Twice in one evening. It had been a long time since that happened.

  “Adrien ….” His voice shook. His arms slid under me, gathering me against him. I wrapped my arms around him, and we rocked together while our bodies played out, cocooned in warm and sticky closeness.

  * * * * *

  “Christ, you’re limber.”

  I turned my head. Jake leaned on the doorframe of the long front room observing me going through my bi-monthly exercise routine.

  “Tai Chi,” I informed him, palms resting on the floor. Last night he’d had plenty of opportunity to evaluate my limberness firsthand.

  “Looks a lot like ballet.”

  “I took ballet. This is Tai Chi.”

  “You took ballet?” Jake sounded horrified. He stopped scratching his sun-browned belly. “Your mother is an example of why people should have to have a license to have kids.”

  I straightened up. “Lay off my mother.”

  “Ballet but not the Boy Scouts? It’s your mother’s fault you’re queer.”

  I exhaled fast, serenity vanishing in a puff of morning breath.

  “Listen, asshole — and I use the term deliberately — my mother is not the reason I’m queer. If she’d opted for the Boy Scouts or military school I’d just be a different kind of queer, okay? Secondly, I don’t know that ‘fault’ is the right word. This is how God made me. You are how God made you. All God’s chillun are how God made ’em. You think God made a mistake, take it up with Him.”

  I scrubbed my face with my towel, threw it at Jake, and stalked off to the shower.

  By the time I was bathed and groomed and feeling like my normal mild-mannered self, Jake had breakfast on the table. I don’t know if this was a peace-offering or he simply didn’t trust my cooking after the night before.

  “French toast?” I said doubtfully.

  “The breakfast of champions. You want jam or shall I melt brown sugar for syrup?”

  That sounded fairly ghastly. I said, “Maybe just coffee?”

  My much-maligned mater couldn’t have looked more disapproving. I got my coffee with a plate of French toast spread thickly with crab-apple jelly, and Jake sat down across from me, elbows propped on the table. He applied himself to his vittles as though someone were paying him a bonus to finish ahead of schedule.

  I said, “I thought I’d do some research in town this morning.”

  He nodded, not glancing up from his plate. “Watch your back.”

  Now that struck me as a little too disinterested. I speculated on what Jake’s plans might be?

  “Eat your breakfast,” he growled.

  I washed the sweet toast down with a mouthful of hot coffee while I reconsidered. Maybe he was trying to ditch me, but these days the majority of detective work is done by computer. Let Jake try his way, and I’d try mine.

  * * * * *

  My first stop was the local newspaper. Back in the glory days, The Basking Express had been called The Basking Gazette. The first issue had been printed in 1887.

  There was a newspaper morgue, but it only went back ten years. Everything earlier had been shipped to the library where it had been copied on microfilm.

  That was the story at The Basking Express anyway. The library had a different story.

  “We never got the funding,” Miss Buttermit, the rhinestone librarian informed me.

  “So nothing is on microfilm?”

  “Oh, it’s not so bad as that. We were able to copy the newspapers back to … well, circa the 1920s.”

  “What happened to the newspapers before circa the 1920s?”

  Miss Buttermit’s pale eyes flickered behind the kitschy glasses. “They’ve been preserved. To an extent.”

  “To what extent?”

  “To the extent that they are bound in hardcover in the basement.”

  I asked tentatively, “Would it be possible to —?”

  “Only library personnel have access to the basement,” she regretted firmly.

  I thought this over.

  “What was it you were looking for, Mr. English?”

  That was the crux of it. I did not have a theory; I did not really even have a hypothesis. Basically I had a hunch.

  Handing Miss B. some meaningless response, I headed for the computers, and spent the morning pouring over microfilmed copy of The Basking Gazette, getting the Gazette’s spin on such world-shaping events as Vietnam, Gandhi’s assassination, and the completion of the Cascade Tunnel.

  I read my great grandfather’s obituary, and the announcement of my grandmother’s engagement to Thomas English. Rolls of 35mm film later I read my grandmother’s obit.

  Interesting but not germane. If my hunch was right, the answer I was seeking was buried in the distant past, buried deep with the crumbling foundations of the early days of Basking Township.

  I went out for a cup of coffee and returned to the library.

  “Who do I have to talk to about getting access to the volumes in the basement?” I asked Miss Buttermit.

  “You would have to call the Head of Reference and make an appointment. We have to know why and to what purpose you wish to examine those old and fragile research materials.” Her faded eyes blinked suspiciously at me from behind the cat’s-eyes lens.

  I said, “I’m a writer. I’m researching a book.”

  She repeated as if by rote, “If I knew exactly what you were looking for?”

  A voice behind me exclaimed, “Adrien, what are you doing here?”

  I turned at this interruption to find Kevin standing there looking surprised and delighted all out of proportion to the circumstances. He wasn’t the only one; Miss Buttermit’s expression was close to beaming.

  “Hey, Mitty,” Kevin greeted her.

  “Why, Kevin!”

  I answered Kevin’s question, glad to see that he was still at large, at least for the moment. “I’m trying to get access to the old newspapers in the basement.”

  “No problem,” said Kevin. Then he caught Miss Buttermit’s eye and looked guilty. “Oh. Is it a problem?”

  “Apparently.”

  “Now, Kevin,” Miss Buttermit cautioned. “You know there are channels.”

  “Yeah, but Adrien is …” Kevin seemed at a loss how to classify me. “How about this,” he suggested suddenly, “I’ll go downstairs with Adrien and take responsibility for the papers?”

  I opened my mouth to say that wasn’t necessary, but shut it again. Maybe it was necessary. I sure wasn’t having any luck on my own. I watched Kevin work that hopeful puppy dog look for all it was worth.

  “This is a great responsibility, Kevin,” Miss Buttermit observed after a moment, but she took a key off her Mrs. Danvers-like key ring and handed it over.

  I followed Kevin past the water coolers and restrooms down two flights of stairs. Kevin unlocked the basement, and we stepped into a room as crisp and smelly as the vegetable bin in a refrigerator. I waited till Kevin pulled the chain to turn on the ceiling bulb. Garish light bounced off faded green walls and a cement floor discolored by water stains.

  “Holy
—” I didn’t finish the sentence. There were filing cabinets, a few broken shelves, a chair minus a caster, but mostly there were books. We were surrounded by boxes and boxes and boxes of books.

  “I think the newspapers are over on those metal shelves.”

  I stepped over a box of books stamped “Discard,” steadying myself with one hand on the metal shelf stacked with hardbound volumes. The shelf wobbled alarmingly. “I wouldn’t want to be here in an earthquake,” I remarked.

  “Yeah, really. But nobody ever comes down here.”

  I opened the cover of the nearest book.

  A glance verified that we were indeed looking at the earliest editions of The Basking Gazette.

  “These aren’t indexed,” Kevin announced. “What are we looking for?”

  “Any reference to the Red Rover Mine.”

  He looked up, interested. “Why’s that?”

  “It’s just an idea.” I studied him. I liked Kevin, but I respected Jake’s opinion. Jake had a lot of experience when it came to bad guys. “Kevin, did Livingston call at all during the time he was supposed to be away from the dig?”

  His jaw dropped. “He was dead,” he reminded me.

  “I realize, but what I mean is, did anyone call saying they were Livingston? Or did anyone at the site claim to have heard from Livingston?”

  Kevin had a weird expression. “Yeah,” he said slowly. “He did call in — or at least we thought he did.”

  “Who took the calls?”

  Kevin shook his head. “Amy? Marquez? I’m not sure. There were written messages a couple of times.”

  “Whose writing?”

  “I’m not sure. No one questioned the notes.” His eyebrows drew together. “Shoup seemed to be in contact with him. That’s what we all thought anyway.”

  I tried another approach. “What’s the deal with this mine? Why is everyone so interested in it?”

  Kevin spluttered, “You’re the one who wants to look through old newspapers. Don’t you have a — a —”

  “Plan?”

  “No. A — a —” He gestured over his head.

  “Theory?”