“I'm nervous too but we shouldn't be, we love each other.”
I cupped his face and pulled him up to me. We kissed again,deeply and passionately. My senses swam. I had a complete mental block. I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe. I had lost orientation, all I was aware of was the taste of him. Of the way his hands moved on my body,of the tingling sensations on my bare breast and of the need I felt growing in me. I wanted him badly, all of him. I put my hands on his chest and began to unbutton his shirt. I trembled with every button I opened. I opened it all exposing his perfect taut stomach. I felt an urge to touch him. I trailed my fingers on his muscles and caressed his chest gently. He kissed my throat and then my shoulder and hugged me to him pressing my breasts against his bare chest. His hands ran down my body till they found my waist , they caressed my hips and then came to the front to unbutton my jeans. I tensed while I felt my jeans loosen before it fell to my feet. He kissed my neck ,his hands now had entered under the soft material of my panties and were exploring places no one had ever reached before. I couldn't help it not to moan when he hit my most sensitive part. I looked at him embarrassed. He just smiled and kissed me. “I love you,” he whispered in my neck while I gripped his body shivering with every thrust his fingers were making. He kept whispering how beautiful I was,tying to calm me down. I felt so clumsy,did he understand it was my first time? I felt lost. I didn't know how to react. I couldn't control my body,the sensations and emotions that were building up were becoming unsustainable ,a devastating assault on my senses. I felt overwhelmed in a world of pleasure that I didn't know could exist. His closeness, the way he caressed me all reflected what we have become for each other. He was like an anchor to me, to which I wanted to hang on forever. I pulled back a little , trembling and looked in his eyes and all I could see was love. I kissed him fiercely,I could feel how aroused he was. He had grabbed my bottom pulling me into him so I would feel his hunger, all his desire. I shivered feeling how hard he was.
“Why don't you undress me,” he told me in husky voice.
I looked in his eyes and he brought my hands to his buckle. I loosened it and then pulled down his jeans. As soon as I did this his arousal was visible. My God I must have stared, he laughed.
“Don't worry Cas. I know I'm quite big but I'll be gentle I promise.”
I swallowed and wondered how was it possible to have him all inside me.
He left me for a second and grabbed the blanket that was on the sofa pulling it down,then he came near me again taking me gently in his arms and pulled me down laying me on the blanket. Although I was nearly fully naked I didn't feel cold anymore. The fireplace was blazing and nothing had prepared me for the burning sensations I felt. As soon as he took his boxers off I gasped, my eyes widened. I had never seen a naked guy before,Oh my god. I felt so excited. I couldn't breathe. He came near me and began to kiss me again. He left my mouth to find the curve of my jawline and kept going down until he arrived near my thighs. I felt my head spinning when he began to kiss the inner of my thighs. And further up. I thought I was choking when I felt his hands pulling down my panties. I felt embarrassed and was going to close my legs but he was already between them. I looked at him and he must have sensed my fear.
“Cassidy what's wrong? If you don't want,we stop don't worry. I don't want you to do it if you're not sure,"he said gently.
"No. I don't want you to stop,” I said.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes Tyler, make love to me please,” I pleaded.
He leaned on his elbows above me and his thigh pressed intimately into mine. He kissed me again. While his mouth locked with mine I felt the hardness of him pushing against my barrier. He nudged my legs gently more apart so that he could have a better entry. His eyes were dark with passion while they looked into mine..
“Cassy are you on the pill?” He asked me then.
“What?”,
“I, I don't have protection. I didn't think we would have done it. I know it's stupid.”
“Can't you just be careful?” I said.
“I never did it without anything on. I hope I manage, maybe we should-”
“Don't even think to stop!” I threatened.
He smiled. “I won't. Are you ready?”
I nodded.
“Relax Cassy, there is no reason to be tensed OK,” he crushed his mouth on mine. I could feel all his urgency, his eagerness, he couldn't resist more. My heart raced and when I felt his tip pushing I convulsed. My breath become shallow. I felt an ignition of desire running in my body. I felt my muscles tensing and I couldn't help but cry out when he thrust himself inside me. I arched against him as I felt him tearing me apart, a tear rolled down my cheek, it burned like hell. For a moment he stopped and looked at me stunned and worried. I couldn't really describe his expression.
“Cassy? You're so tight. Oh my God Cass,are you-?” He stopped, his words died in his throat.
“Please don't say anything,just make love me to me. Love me Tyler. “ I begged.
For a moment I thought he was going to withdraw but he didn’t. He kissed me hard and thrust in me again this time more gently and continued to do so until the pain began to subside and I got used to him in my body. I felt all my body tensing as his movements changed in rhythm, fast, slow, deep, deeper until he filled me completely. I clenched tightly to him, tensing,feeling a burning sensation which led me to a shattering climax I had never thought could exist, let alone experience. I couldn’t control the cries which escaped my lips. My nails dug deep into his back, probably I was hurting him but he didn't say anything. My eyes widened as I felt I could not reach higher and I gasped for breath.
“Cas,I can't resist more. I-”
He withdrew and buried his face in my stomach as he arched and groaned. He gasped trying to catch his breath. With my heart beating fast I looked into his eyes. Sweat ran down his temple,his eyes full of passion.“ I love you,” he whispered before collapsing against me.
CHAPTER 34
We lay there, in silence,in each other arms. My head on his chest hearing his heart beat while his hand caressed my hair. I still wasn't sure if what happened before was real or not, I had made love with Tyler. I lost my virginity to my teacher. I hugged him tight as if to prove to myself that he was really there, he then broke the silence.
“Cassy, how are you feeling?”He asked concerned.
“OK,” I said, I knew what was coming next.
“Cassy, you came to me as a virgin. Why didn't you tell me? My God I could have hurt you.”
“I'm sorry,” I said quietly.
“I thought you and Julian had slept together.”
“You thought wrong, I could never give myself to him. I didn't love him enough.”I said burying my face in his neck.
“Oh Cas, but why didn't you tell me?”He asked again.
“I couldn't,you've been with other girls. I just wanted you to believe I had been with other boys, that made me feel less sad. I know the past is the past and you can't change it, but it still hurts. I know you didn't love them but-” He interrupted me with a kiss.
“This was my first time Cassidy, nothing compares to what I felt today and the fact you were a virgin was the cherry on the cake. You gave me something special Cassidy. You gave me your purity. I'm a lucky man. Let's forget my past and concentrate on the future," he said hugging me tight.
“So Cassy it seems I lost the bet,you were right. Is there anything you would like?” He asked playing with my hair.
“Yes,I would like you to make love to me again,not now later and also if possible I would like you to stay with me forever, Am I asking too much?”
He smiled and kissed my forehead, my nose and my chin before kissing my mouth.
“No. I promise that your wish shall be granted.”
He kissed me again .
“Cassidy I know it's early but try to decide which college you're going to, so that I will began to search for work from now. I will find an apartment in which we can live t
ogether, and when you finish college we will get married, what do you think?”He asked.
I looked at him stunned.
“Are you sure about what you're saying?” I asked him.
“Never been so sure in my life, obviously if you want.”
“Of course I want.”I said happily.
“Good, then as soon as you know just tell me. Now what about if we take a hot shower?”He suggested.
I looked at him in the eyes.
“We?”
“Yes together.”
I felt a shiver running down my spine,which was stupid. I had just made love with this man, he saw me naked and I saw him, why did I feel so excited about taking a shower with him?
“You're blushing why?” He asked smiling.
“Oh nothing,let's go” I said getting up.
We showered together and it was more pleasant than I expected. He washed me and I washed him. It was intimate and special and kind of funny. He used too much bubble bath while he ran his hands over my body and we couldn't get rid of all the bubbles. We laughed and hugged and afterwards we cuddled. It was so romantic. Then dressed in our robes he prepared dinner for me, a plate of pasta. He loves Italian food. It was really delicious. After dinner we saw a movie and cuddled on the sofa. It was the most beautiful evening I had ever spent. Later we went to bed and just held each other tight,we tried to sleep but we couldn't and in the middle of the night we made love again. This time it was even better because it didn't hurt and I was much more relaxed and I enjoyed it more. I felt closer to him. I slept in his arms and in the morning it was really beautiful to be woken up by his kiss. I felt so happy, so serene. We had breakfast and then Lucy called to tell me to come back as her aunt and uncle had gone out and were coming back soon. Tyler took me to Lucy at around 08.30. I kissed him goodbye and went in. Lucy was waiting anxiously for me near the door. I walked slowly as I couldn't walk properly . Probably my body wasn't used to all that love making,my legs and hips hurt. Lucy looked at me amused and as soon as I went in she bombarded me with questions. I sat down.
“Cas, probably it's better if you get changed before auntie realizes that those are the same clothes you wore yesterday,”she said looking at me narrowly.
“Yes I think it's better,” I said getting up slowly. Lucy giggled.
“What?” I asked although I knew what she was going to say.
“It's seems that the war is over huh? And our dear Cassidy isn't a virgin anymore,am I right?” She said looking at me with a grin on her face.
I blushed.
“You're right,” I admitted.
“Oh my God!” She screamed.
“Lucy take it easy. I have a headache please lower your voice.”
“Too much sex isn't good.”She laughed.
“So how was it?” She asked curiously I knew I had to tell her everything or nearly everything.
“In a word,amazing!”I replied smiling.
“Oh I'm happy for you,did it hurt?”
“Like hell, I thought he was going to tear me apart. He's so- I paused and blushed.
“What?”
“Well, he's quite, you know-.”
“Oomph now I understand, according to the way you're walking it seems you had a wild night” She said giggling again. She loved these hot arguments.
“Well,actually I didn't sleep much," I admitted.
“Woho our dear sir has been quite naughty it seems. I don't know how I'll manage not to laugh during his lessons. He looks so serious while in reality he's as wild as a tiger,” she continued teasing.
“Shut up Luc,” I said trying to walk up the stairs.
“You're walking like a duck. Oh my,you're so funny!” She kept laughing.
“Lucy please stop it. I'm hurting everywhere. It's been the best night of my life,not only because we made love but he cooked for me and we cuddled, we even washed together. I don't know how I will manage to look at him during lessons without thinking about him naked. He has such a beautiful body. I get shivers just thinking of him.”
“Well I have to admit he's quite hot but not my type.”
“I hope so, he's mine Luc," I said jokingly." Erm Luc,I'm a little worried.”
“About what?” She said while she followed me to my room.
“Well we did it more than once and well, he didn't use anything.”I confessed.
Lucy's eyes widened and her jaw dropped.
“What?? Are you crazy,Cas you could get pregnant!” she shouted.
“Well, he has been careful. He withdrew in time,” I said.
“That doesn't rule out completely the chance of pregnancy. I read it on a magazine. It just diminishes the probability,” she told me worried.
I looked at her frightened. I felt my stomach ache.
“Listen Cas.. it doesn't happen often but on that magazine there were two women who got pregnant that way. You shouldn't have done it without protection. How come he didn't have any condoms?”
“We didn't think it was going to happen,anyway now it's done. But probably I'm on the safe period right now,my period is due in a few days,” I said trying to re-assure myself.
"I hope Cas,your mother will kill you if you got pregnant and Mr Spencer will end up in prison. Remember you're not even 18 yet,”she reminded me.
CHAPTER 35
I got changed and went down with Lucy. When Auntie got back she was very happy that I was feeling better. I felt guilty that I had lied to her, she had been very kind to us. She and Uncle Mark invited us to their restaurant and we couldn't say no. Lucy seemed a little disappointed, she wanted to spend the last day with Logan.
“Luc.. why don't we go with them and then leave early, we could say we are going on a bus tour or something so that we can take our luggage with us and then leave at about five from here,” I said.
Lucy smiled..
“Yeah I like it. Cas, do you think it's a problem if you return home with Tyler. The fact is that Logan couldn't understand why we're not returning together and he was becoming suspicious,” she explained.
“Oh no problem. I'll ask Tyler and see what he says.”
I phoned him immediately, I told him about the lunch at the restaurant and all. We agreed to meet at around one o'clock. Today the day was beautiful, not a sign of the past bad weather. It was even warm. We went to their restaurant, although not very big it was quite nice and their food was excellent. After lunch we thanked them for everything and caught the bus. I stopped near Tyler's house and Lucy went to Logan. We spent a beautiful afternoon, we went for a walk near the beach and then we bought an ice cream, afterwards we went back home. We took a shower and relaxed on the bed. We just cuddled,I felt too sore to try and make love with him again. He didn't ask me to, so we just kissed and spent time in each other arms talking about the next day, how we were going to behave in class. He told me to just try and act normal. Normal? I have never acted normal from day one, when I had seen him coming in. How could I act normal now that I have been so intimate with him? We left his house at around 5.00 and we arrived at Lucy's house at about 7.30. She was already there,she and Logan had left at 4.00.I kissed Tyler goodbye and hugged him tight. I was already missing him. I went to Lucy and called mum to tell her I was back. That night I couldn't sleep,this weekend had brought so many changes. I was a woman now and my relationship with Tyler had reached its maximum. I kept imaging him near me, his smell that I loved so much was still on my body and my body was still aching for him. Oh how I wished the months would just fly, that I wake up in the morning to find myself at college living with him. I slept and dreamed about him.
The following two months had been amazing. Luckily I didn't get pregnant and we never did it again without protection. Our relationship continued to grow. Tyler always found one way or another to amaze me. On our third month together he bought me a bouquet of flowers which a deliveryman brought me at school. I was so embarrassed,my classmates looked at me with curiosity asking me who the mysterious boyfriend was while he sat down at h
is desk looking at me. Oh I would have wanted to go and hug him but I couldn't so I just sat down hugging the flowers instead. He smiled and continued the lesson but afterwards I ran like a freak to the art room and we made love. I know we must have been crazy. We locked the door and he had me on his desk. It never felt so good although I had to bite more than once my lips not to make noises. Then we managed to start the lesson,thanks God no one came to interrupt us. We were risking a lot but we couldn't help it. every day our bond was getting stronger. Finally December arrived,that meant my Birthday was near and finally I would be 18. We had been discussing and planning that day for weeks. Tyler was planning something he didn't want to tell me about, a surprise. All he told me was to tell Lucy to cover up for me and to tell my mum that I would sleep at her house. That day in the morning I was so excited. I woke up very early and got dressed. I went down for breakfast and mum had prepared for me a special breakfast.
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