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The Giant Book of Poetry (2006)

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by William H. Roetzheim


  abandoned for years

  overgrown with sumac and sour apple,

  the iron scrapped, the wood long

  gone for other things.

  In summer my father would send us along them

  to fetch the cows from the back pasture,

  a long walk to a far off place it seemed

  for boys so young. Lost again for a moment

  in that simple place,

  I fling apples from a stick and look for snakes

  in the gullies. There is

  a music to the past, the sweet tones

  of perfect octaves

  even though we know it was never so.

  My father had to sell the farm in that near perfect time

  and once old Al Shott

  killed a six foot rattler on the tracks.

  “And when the trolley was running,”

  he said, “you could jump

  her as she went by and ride all the way to Cleveland,

  and oh,” he said, “what a time you could have there.”

  Mark Turpin (b. 1953)

  Before Groundbreak1

  Off work and going upslope for a look

  I left the plans—to see the view

  their money bought—weighted with a rock,

  and trampled a path of parted weeds

  past pampas, nettles,

  poison oak bristling in the breeze,

  a weathered two-by-four

  nailed high up in a cedar’s fork,

  a haggard pair of panties waving stiffly from a thorn—

  I walked where they would walk.

  Standing there, out of breath, where

  they would soon stand, vacuuming

  or reaching for a towel—how bare

  and graspable it will seem,

  and ever-present, our time and effort spent.

  Don Fargo & Sons2

  Helpless to throw them away

  or to use them unaltered,

  for years he crossed out & Sons on the tiny invoice pads

  from a cardboard box too tall

  to fit beneath the seat.

  His blackened mechanic’s hands

  turning the slip of carbon.

  At seventy, he needed help up

  the site’s steep slope to the hoe.

  Two laborers and him up

  the loose hillside, or him by himself,

  hauled by a cable from the loader’s winch,

  grasped with grim embarrassment.

  Then, arriving, he spat and pissed

  onto the bucket of the hoe

  before he climbed to the seat,

  as all smiled. Tall, craggy, with

  a big-voiced drawl, he learned

  to operate a backhoe in Korea.

  There was no gentleness, only

  precision in the swing of the hoe

  with Don in the seat as the arm

  swung from pit to pile in flowing,

  boxlike movement, dripping grease.

  I recall the blandness of his look in the sun

  as the bucket tore the ground we

  stood on and the backhoe rocked.

  I never asked if he loved his work,

  or if a day’s glorious vulgarity

  was why he still got up at seventy.

  His gift was not seeming to try.

  Jobsite Wind1

  that rips paper from the walls

  and changes plywood into sails

  staggering a bent laborer with his load—

  that curves string lines,

  bounces grass and trees in gusts

  and makes the stick-framed studs

  above the ledger hum.

  It searches all of us moving or standing still,

  holding hammer or nailgun, our faces tight with cold

  and hair wild. It searches us, leaning into the day,

  for nothing we have,

  buffets the unprotected

  figure atop the wall and one stooped above

  a half-framed floor

  forcing blocks between the joists. Wakened

  by the wind I drove deserted,

  limb-wreck streets to the job

  and found the roofless walls awash in wind,

  thrashing like a ship

  in webs of lumber and shadows waving

  above raindark floors

  laid purposeful with wood and nails.

  Wind that threaded the trembling sticks of the house

  driving plastic buckets down stairs, testing the corners

  of a plywood stack,

  smearing a dropcloth to a wall like a shroud—

  that rolled out of the throat

  of the world huge and articulate blasts—

  And shoring spreadlegged,

  watching my hand hammering

  in rhythm to my breath, the world hidden

  beyond the nailhead’s own demands

  while inside a focused stillness intact and undisturbed

  also incessant asked Who am I? Why this action?

  What is this place I am in?

  Pickwork1

  There is skill to it,

  how you hold your back all day, the dole

  of force behind the stroke, the size of bite, where

  to hit, and knowing

  behind each swing a thousand others wait

  in an eight-hour day.

  And if the head

  suddenly comes rattling down the handle:

  knowing to drive a nail for a wedge

  between the wood and the steel.

  The inexperienced

  pretend to see in the dirt a face they hate,

  and exhaust themselves. The best

  measure themselves against an arbitrary goal,

  this much

  before lunch, before break, before a drink of water,

  and then

  do it. Some listen to the pleasant ringing

  of the pick, or music, and trance-like, follow the rhythm

  of the swing. Once I spent a half-hour attentive

  only to my muscles triggering into motion, sweat

  creeping down my chest.

  Ground makes the biggest difference.

  In sandstone you feel the impact to your knees,

  in mud you yank the point from the muck each throw.

  The hardest part is not to let the rhythm fail,

  like stopping too often to remeasure the depth, stalling

  in the shithouse, losing self-respect,

  or beginning to doubt:

  Am I cutting too wide? Is the line still straight?

  Or thinking of backhoes, more help, quibbling inches

  with the boss.

  On my job Lorenzo works in the sun all day,

  his silver radio quietly tuned to the Mexican station.

  Shoveling out, he shrugs and says, “No problem, Mark,”

  waist-deep in the hole.

  From the spot I work,

  I hear the strike of his pick all day.

  Driving home together

  he has told me about his two black whores,

  his ex and daughter in LA,

  and Susan Nero, “on-stage.” Thirteen times

  he’s seen her. Almost reverent,

  he says, “She is so beautiful,”

  and makes immense cups with his hands.

  And driving home he has told me

  of his landlord who extorts him

  for the green card he doesn’t have, of his “mo-ther”

  dying of cancer in Mexico city, of his son-of-a-bitch

  dad who beat him, and her, and ran away,

  of his brother Michael,

  and JoaQuim, in Chicago, the Central Valley. In the car

  he asks me if I think the boss

  will hold half his pay, he needs

  to save something for his sister

  —I hear his pick all day

  and in the afternoon I go out to ask him, how’s it going?

  He shrugs me o
ff. “It’s no big problem, Mark.

  No problem, I can do it, but the fucking pick is dull,”

  and shows me the blunted steel point.

  “I need something—

  sharper, you know: I need a sharper pick.”

  Poem1

  What weakness of mind

  gripped a moment’s meanness tighter

  than his?—

  stalling, reeling, retarding at the thought that

  cupped the vision of the rope

  actually smoking through his hands

  —while elsewhere and peripheral,

  a huge tree-limb plummeted.

  The rope, as he observed it,

  was not a thing, not an object,

  but a slender field of havoc

  twisted to a strand which, though he

  opened the grasp of his hands from pain of it,

  would not leave

  his hands

  (unless he thinks of something yet to do. )

  But he did not—

  not immediately, and later

  he would raise his hands, and marvel,

  grin, almost feel joy at recognition of that groove

  the rope burned and furrowed across the flesh of each;

  he could plainly see its path in blood, blisters,

  and burnished skin

  from finger to finger

  as if it were something caught that was

  rarely caught. He held his hands up as evidence of something.

  Waiting for Lumber2

  Somehow none of us knew exactly

  what time it was supposed to come.

  So there we were, all of us, five men

  at how much an hour given to picking

  at blades of grass, tossing pebbles

  at the curb, with nothing in the space

  between the two red cones, and no distant

  downshift of a roaring truck grinding

  steadily towards us uphill. Someone thought

  maybe one of us should go back to town

  to call, but no one did, and no one gave

  the order to. It was as if each to himself

  had called a kind of strike, brought a halt,

  locked out any impulse back to work.

  What was work in our lives anyway?

  No one recalled a moment of saying yes

  to hammer and saw, or anything else.

  Each looked to the others for some defining

  move—the way at lunch without a word

  all would start to rise when the foreman

  closed the lid of his lunchbox—but

  none came. The senior of us leaned

  against a peach tree marked for demolition,

  seemed almost careful not to give a sign.

  And I, as I am likely to do—and who

  knows, but maybe we all were—beginning

  to notice the others there, and ourselves

  among them, as if we could be strangers suddenly,

  like those few evenings we had chosen to meet

  at some bar and appeared to each other

  in our street clothes—that was the sense—

  of a glass over another creature’s fate.

  A hundred feet above our stillness

  on the ground we could hear a breeze

  that seemed to blow the moment past,

  trifling with the leaves; we watched

  a ranging hawk float past. It was the time

  of morning when housewives return

  alone from morning errands. Something

  we had all witnessed a hundred times before,

  but this time with new interest. And all of us

  felt the slight loosening of the way things were,

  as if working or not working were a matter

  of choice, and who we were didn’t

  matter, if not always, at least for that hour.

  Kevin Hart (b. 1954)

  The Room1

  It is my house, and yet one room is locked.

  The dark has taken root on all four walls.

  It is a room where knots stare out from wood,

  a room that turns its back on the whole house.

  At night I hear the crickets list their griefs

  and let an ancient peace come into me.

  Sleep intercepts my prayer, and in the dark

  the house turns slowly round its one closed room.

  Molly Fisk (b. 1955)

  Intrigue2

  I love living in a town so small

  it still has a noon whistle.

  There is one stop sign,

  four-way.

  We have our own post office.

  People here say hello

  and they watch where your car is

  at night,

  not wanting to miss

  a good story.

  This makes me want

  to park,

  flagrantly,

  outside the homes

  of unsuspecting bachelors,

  and lurk in the Parkside

  over breakfast,

  to hear news

  of my own misbehavior.

  I am perched

  on the edge

  of being familiar.

  On the Disinclination to Scream1

  If I had been a ten year old stranger

  and you had tripped me in a dark alley, say,

  downtown, instead of our mutual living room

  I’m sure I would have screamed.

  If, in the alley, you had straddled me as fast—

  your knees clamping my elbows into asphalt,

  not the blue Chinese dragons

  of our living room rug,

  I might have been Quiet there, too.

  When you opened my mouth

  with your heavy flat thumbs,

  filled it with pain and flesh—

  I would have choked in the alley,

  as anyone would choke.

  But if you had groaned then, and stood up,

  walked away from the dark street

  leaving me to vomit and shake alone,

  I might have been saved.

  I could describe you to policemen.

  Perhaps their composite would match your photo

  in the Harvard Reunion guide.

  Your fingerprints, lifted from the collar of my dress,

  might be found in Coast Guard files.

  If they never found you and there was no trial

  I could have gone home to people who loved me:

  horrified, enraged, they would plot revenge

  and rock me to sleep in soft arms.

  I would have been frightened, maybe forever,

  of alleys, strange men, and the dark—

  but encouraged by the world,

  who would hate you on my behalf.

  I would have been as safe as a ten year old can be.

  Instead, I rose quietly from the Chinese rug

  and went upstairs to wash.

  No sound escaped me.

  I couldn’t afford to throw up,

  and it wasn’t the first time.

  The Dry Tortugas1

  They were building a house in the Dry Tortugas,

  less for the solitude there than the open eyes

  of a swallowtailed hummingbird they had seen once

  on a fishing trip—the early Fifties, he reeling in

  an oversized yellowfin, Humphrey Bogart

  facing the wind, one foot on the rail in To Have and Have Not,

  she whistling the stuttered call

  of the Amazonian kingfisher,

  and singing in Spanish to flocks of Bonaparte gulls.

  It comes to nothing in the end, though the land

  is paced off and measured and two palms felled

  to expand the view, a road graded the requisite mile,

  and some of their friends fly down from New York

  to surprise them, circle the islands all morning,

  gleeful and chic


  in their 4-seater Cessna

  (he’s something exalted at Chase),

  and later the bottles of Myer’s and Appleton Gold sweat

  dark rings on the terrace flagstones,

  and someone’s pink

  lipstick makes delicate kissprints

  along the rim of her glass.

  No one has told me what happened—his heart

  attack in Guatemala, her premonition about the wide

  and empty view, or the world swinging in

  with its usual brazen distractions—but they framed

  the architect’s plans of the house, and this

  is what I inherit, a rendering in colored pencil:

  what they were dreaming before I was born.

  William Roetzheim (b. 1955)

  Response to Emily Dickinson’s “Wild Nights—Wild Nights!”1

  We sat around a fire and drank Merlot,

  a California wine called “Two Buck Chuck”

  by those of us that shop at “Trader Joe’s.”

  When someone asked, “If I had to be stuck

  in Jimmy’s mountain cabin for a night

  with anyone except my wife, who would

  I choose?” I thought of you, images right

  and verses tight with clarity I should

  achieve but never will. But more, I want

  you on the night you wrote this piece, the panted

  words fresh from your pen. And lest God taunt

  you for your wish I’d have the light be slanted

  such that I appeared to be the one

  inside your mind when this piece was begun.

  Fading into Background1

  The murmurs were the first to go,

  those eavesdropped conversations

  moving here and there within a crowded room.

  And soon I lost discussions

  from across a crowded table

  at loud and boisterous weddings,

  gone to background noise

  like waterfalls, and for my part

  just nods and smiles,

  nothing but nods and smiles.

  And then my wife as translator,

  “What did she say?”

  “What did he say?”

  Until I found

  it didn’t really matter what they said,

  when nods and smiles will say enough.

  Stretch Marks2

  You lie beside me,

  snoring lightly, nude and tan,

  your breasts relaxed. My eyes are drawn

  to spider webs of lacy white along

 

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