AFFLICTED: A Dark Bad Boy Romance

by Nicole Fox

  Gunner took off his jacket. Then he unsnapped Kelly’s jeans.

  She lifted her hips so he could tug her jeans down. Stroked his thumb over the front of her lace panties, making her tremble.

  She already had sand in awkward places and they’d barely even gotten started, but she didn’t care. She wanted this. She lifted her hips again — an invitation.

  He fumbled in his pocket, eventually withdrawing a small foil packet. “I came prepared,” he said with a grin, leaning down to kiss her.

  “Mmm.” She smiled against his mouth. “Smart boy.”

  They made out for a few minutes — like teenagers, in love with the newness of each other, alive and free. Then Gunner eased her panties down. Ran his fingers gently through the wetness between her legs. Undid his own pants and put the condom on.

  The exhilaration of doing it outside, in the middle of the desert, was unlike anything Kelly had ever known. The breeze was a balm to her hot skin; the sensation of Gunner’s lips and teeth against her neck had never been so intense. The sight of the stars over his shoulder filled her with wonder and with wildness. She bucked under him, begging him, craving him more with every thrust.

  When at last they were both spent — gritty with sand, relaxed and boneless, their limbs tangled — Kelly took a moment for the blessing that did still exist in her screwed up life.

  She removed Gunner’s condom, intending to toss it inside. She was surprised by some fluid on her fingertips. Holding the condom up so that the moonlight caught it she saw that there was a split in the latex.

  Her heart stopped for a few seconds.

  She held the condom up further, trying to get a better look. Couldn’t tell for sure. She tossed it aside.

  What should she do? Should she tell Gunner? His eyes were closed, and he seemed oblivious, nearly asleep.

  After a moment, her breath slowly evened out. There was nothing they could do right this second. No guarantee that anything had even happened. The tear had been small — maybe even nonexistent. Maybe she hadn’t seen properly in the dark. Maybe the fluid had been hers.

  She said a silent prayer to any god that might exist to help her out here.

  I can’t have his baby.

  But what if I did? The thought kept sneaking in. She did want kids, just — maybe not right now. And not like this. Trapped in a loveless marriage, planning to go on the run…

  She glanced again at Gunner.How do I tell him? If I am pregnant, he’ll want me to get an abortion. I don’t want to have that conversation. Not when I might not even be pregnant.

  Gunner’s breathing had slowed and become soft snores. Gradually, she snuggled closer beside him, pulling her jacket over her and staring over his sleeping form at the stars beyond.

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Kelly made another black X on the calendar with her Sharpie. There were five of those Xs in a row, looking ominous. Normally, she marked off the days of her period this way. But this month, she was marking off how many days late her period was.

  Five days.

  No. No, no.

  She couldn’t face this. Not right now, not with everything else she already had to worry about.

  No need to panic yet. Maybe you’re just late.

  That’s what she’d been telling herself for days, despite knowing that she’d always been regular.

  That night in the desert. The broken condom....

  What if she was actually pregnant with Gunner Wilson’s baby?

  What would she do?

  Abortion was out of the question. She believed firmly in the right to choose, but she also knew abortion wouldn’t be her personal choice. But she couldn’t imagine carrying a baby to term and then giving it up for adoption. One look at her child and she’d never be able to let go. She could raise the baby, but the idea of being a single parent was terrifying. She was alone in the world, had been dependent on her father’s money and now was only able to scrape up a few bucks here and there freelancing. If she had a kid, she could kiss nursing school goodbye for good. And what if her dad insisted on visiting rights? She shuddered.

  The only other possibility was Gunner raising the baby with her, which was a laughable. He hadn’t even wanted a wife, let alone a kid.

  “Of course I don’t want a baby.”

  Her throat and chest went tight. I don’t have any options here except to not be pregnant.

  But she was. No matter what foolish hope she wanted to cling to, she knew the truth.

  She changed from her pajama pants and oversized T-shirt into a fresh blouse and brown pencil skirt. Put on a pair of brown leather kitten heels. Did he hair up in a twist. Took one last look in the mirror and sighed. All right.

  Let’s do this.

  She got in the junker. Listened to it sputter to life. She rattled down the road, past the few neighbors on this long, mostly-deserted street. At the pharmacy, she bought a pregnancy test kit. Tried not to blush as the cashier — a pimply teenage boy, rang her up.

  She lingered for a while in town. Watched the people walking around downtown. Young men and women from the university. Parents and children. An elderly couple with ice cream cones.

  Her heart ached.

  Could that ever be her? Would she ever have the chance to grow old with somebody.

  She wished she could say she couldn’t picture it happening with Gunner, but the truth was…

  No, don’t even go there.

  It’s time to go home, Kelly.

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  Gunner felt like shit. He’d had trouble sleeping last night. Part of it was that he’d kept waking up with his arms around Kelly and hers around him, thinking what a lucky bastard he was to have a woman like this in bed beside him. Not just in a physical sense — he’d meant what he’d said about Kelly being her mother’s daughter. Brave, intelligent, kind. But part of it was that whenever memories of his mother got dragged up, he slept like shit. He’s dreamed of being cold — of lying in bed shivering because the heat had been shut off. His mom had refused to pay the bill, using the money for drugs instead.

  He’d dreamed of pain — of the crack of a belt over his hipbone. The leather lashing around his upper arm.

  Bullshit.

  I don’t think about that anymore. I shouldn’t have fucking stayed as long as I did. That was just asking for it.

  Durango wasn’t at the auto shop. Gunner asked Emmett, one of the other workers, but Emmett said he didn’t know where Durango was. Gunner waited forty-five minutes, then texted.Where u at?

  Fifteen minutes later, Durango texted back.I’m ok just playing hooky. See you at the club meeting tonight.

  Gunner slipped his phone back in his pocket. This was strange. For the first time in memory, Gunner wasn’t looking forward to a club meeting. Things were only getting shadier with the club. Sure, Gunner was enjoying the extra profits. And the missions the Horned Devils were being sent on weren’t particularly difficult or dangerous, but Gunner couldn’t shake the feeling of impending doom.

  He finished his shift at five fifteen, called goodbye to Emmett, and rode over to the clubhouse.

  Silverback was out. So were Durango and Chevy. Mica and Bones and a few others were there though. They had a massive, half-destroyed plate of nachos — ground beef, congealed cheese sauce. Gunner flopped into a ratty armchair, helped himself to the nachos and pretended to watch whatever crap they’d found on Netflix. He fuckin’ wished Durango were here.

  “’Bout time you spent some time here,” said a sullen voice.

  Gunner looked around. Mica was glowering at him from the couch with the stuffing coming out of it.

  “Aw, leave him alone,” Bones said. “He’s got an old lady now. He can’t be bothered with us.”

  Gunner ate another nacho and tried to laugh. “Yeah, hey, I got actual responsibilities now.”

  “You got responsibilities here too.” God damn. The kid was actually pissed at him. Self-righteous little shit.

  “And I’ve been fulfilling them.”<
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  Mica’s stony gaze didn’t budge. “We’ve needed you here.”

  Chevy turned to Mica. “Yeah, what are you ragging on Gunner for? You’re the one who’s crawled up Powers’ asshole.”

  “I havenot.”

  “Yeah, he sends you on all his big important missions, doesn’t he? What do you do in return? Blow his old wrinkly dick?”

  “Fuck off; not my fault if I like making money.” Mica’s chin was thrust out, his eyes cold. “You’re the one who’s too blinded by your girl’s titties to make a—”

  “I won’t be talked to like that by some snot-nosed punk.”

  “Looks like all the pussy’s gone to your head, old man!”

  “I’m doing what I have to in order to keep us all alive,” Gunner snarled. “You want to challenge my decisions, go ahead. Let’s do this. Man to man.” He assumed a fighter’s stance.

  “Hey, man, no,” Chevy said, but it was a halfhearted protest. All the Horned Devils were desperate enough for a release of tension that they simply gathered around to watch as Mica and Gunner circled each other.

  So much like me, Gunner thought, taking in the anger in Mica’s eyes. Lashing out at the whole damn world.

  He knew infighting wasn’t going to solve anything. He knew this wasn’t how the brotherhood was supposed to work. He knew it would make him the bigger man to stand down, to refuse to fight a kid. But in that moment, he hated Mica. Hated him for being so much like a younger version of Gunner. Mica was that ghost Gunner couldn’t kill, the boy who’d left his mother to destroy herself, to die alone on her kitchen floor, next to a trashcan full of needles. The kid who’d run away to San Antonio instead of staying and working through the tough shit and learning to be a man. Right now, Gunner wanted to punch Mica’s nose right through the back of his head.

  Mica took the first swing. It was a little clumsy, but not nearly as clumsy as Gunner would have expected. The kid had had some practice. The blow glanced off Gunner’s jaw, and Gunner retaliated, landing a solid punch to Mica’s gut.

  The kid doubled over, but was right back up again, swinging now with a blind fury. Gunner punched him on the left cheek, sending him reeling.

  There were no cheers from the bystanders. The room was eerily silent except for Chevy, offering another halfhearted, “Christ, you idiots, that’s enough.”

  But Mica was panting, rapid with fury. He lunged at Gunner, and Gunner kicked his legs out from under him, sending him sprawling. He kicked the kid in the stomach. Over and over again.

  That’s where you belong, boy. Crawling on the ground. On your belly like a dog. You’ve never been worth anything. Never done anything good for anybody.

  Mica spit blood. His lip was split, and his nose was bleeding. When had that happened? Gunner stared down at Mica, chest heaving.

  Stop. Stop it. This is your brother.

  He thought about Kelly’s words.“You’re brave. You’re strong. You matter, Gunner.”

  No one had ever been that willing to believe the best in him. Even Silverback. Silverback had believed Gunner could be trained to be useful. He’d believed Gunner could be loyal. But the potential he’d seen in Gunner was the potential to contribute to a gang of part-time criminals.

  Only Kelly seemed to believe that there was a good man hidden somewhere beneath all the scars.

  Mica let out a low groan. Tried to sit up.

  Slowly, Gunner leaned down and extended a hand.

  Mica spit at him.

  “What, exactly is going on here?” A low voice growled.

  Gunner turned to see Silverback standing in the doorway.

  Mica collapsed on his stomach, like he didn’t have the energy to go on. Which left Gunner to explain.

  “We had to sort something out. We’re cool now.”

  “Fuck you,” Mica muttered from the floor.

  “He doesn’t look cool.” Silverback nodded at Mica. “What the fuck, Gunner? He’s a mess.”

  Gunner had no excuse. He’d lost time. Lost control. Had been seventeen again, or else had been fighting a seventeen-year-old ghost. He wasn’t sure.

  “Sorry,” Gunner muttered.

  “Is that how you treat a brother?”

  Rage flared in Gunner.You sanctimonious prick. After all the times you’ve sat up and begged when Powers snapped his fingers…“What about you?” Gunner shot back. “Maybe if you were actually in charge here, we wouldn’t all be on edge.”

  Silverback’s dark eyes narrowed. “Are you blaming me for your lack of control?”

  “No. I’m blaming you for not being able to take your mouth off Powers’ dick long enough to be our goddamn President.”

  The tension in the room ratcheted up about fifteen notches. Gunner could feel Chevy flinch. Mica had gone completely still at Gunner’s feet.

  Silverback stepped toward him, eyes blazing. “What did you just say to me?”

  “You heard me,” Gunner replied through his teeth.

  “I hope to God I didn’t.”

  “I told him.” Mica’s voice was hoarse. “I told him, he thinks he’s too good for us now. Takes his cut of the money and spends it on his piece of ass.”

  Gunner nearly kicked him again.

  “Quiet!” Silverback barked at Mica.

  “It’s true.”

  Gunner whirled. “And you,” he shouted at Mica. “You’re just as bad. You see a chance to play with some new toys, so you buried your nose between Powers’ asscheeks like a damn dog.”

  “Enough,” Silverback roared. “Gunner, if you can’t control yourself, then leave.”

  “I was just going.” He checked Silverback hard with his shoulder as he passed. “Just make sure you don’t choke on Powers’ balls,” he snapped as he went.

  He stormed out, slamming the door so hard the house rattled.

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Kelly stared at the test. Two blue lines.

  She was pregnant. She was actually pregnant with Gunner Wilson’s baby.

  She sat down on the toilet lid and buried her face in her hands.

  She couldn’t ignore this anymore. Couldn’t hope for the best. She had to tell Gunner, and they had to work out a plan of action.

  What the hell would happen when her father found out? The thought made her queasy. She could already hear the faux tenderness in his voice: “Congratulations sweetheart. Looks like I’ll finally get my grandbaby.”

  No. No, I have to protect this child, whatever the cost. I can’t let my father know.

  She unburied her face and took her phone from her pocket. She should call Gunner. Tell him right now. But she didn’t want to break news like this over the phone. She needed to see his face. Needed to know if he’d really be as devastated as she feared he’d be.

  So she’d wait until he came home. She’d go back to her freelancing project, and when he got home, they’d figure out what to do.

  Except when Gunner got home, there was something different about him. A cold fury that radiated from his body. A tension in his neck and shoulders, a warning in his gaze.

  “Gunner,” she started, leaning against the counter, watching him fairly slam his jacket onto the laundry room coat hook.

  He stepped into the kitchen. She saw that his knuckles were abraded, that there was blood on one leg of his jeans and on one of his boots.

  Her mouth fell open. “Gunner, what happened?”

  “Fight,” he muttered.

  “With who?”

  He glared at her. She was starting to recognize that expression. I dare you to judge me, it said. “One of my brothers.”

  “Jesus,” she breathed, looking at the blood again. “What happened?”

  “Kid got too big for his britches. I put him in his place.”

  She inhaled sharply. “Gunner!”

  “I just got an earful from Silverback. I don’t need you lecturing me either.” His gaze was stony, hollow.

  How could she tell him now? When he was like this?

  She went to
him and tentatively put her arms around him. At first, he tensed, and she worried he might push her away. But suddenly he sagged, wrapping his arms around her and hugging her so tightly it almost hurt.

  “I need you,” he whispered against her neck. “You’re all I have now.”