When The Right Door Opens
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No – not marched. He didn't march, because he enjoyed every single step he took. Savored the way each and every step felt. His skin started to prickle and he instinctively knew that he was no longer alone. He closed his eyes and listened. But there was no sound. No sound, except for the wind that blew softly around him. Opening his eyes again he was startled when his surroundings had changed completely. No blue in the sky and no green on the ground were there anymore.
Instead he found himself in a different empty space. This one was dark. There was a door cast in a shining white light, but nothing else. He looked back, but all he saw was a black room that seemed eternally big. He had no idea where it ended or where it started, he only knew that the only way out of the dark, was through the door. It scared him, and at the same time it didn't scare him at all.
“Sebastian. I was waiting for you.” A familiar voice said. Tears filled Sebastian's eyes at once. He didn't see anyone, but he knew the voice. He recognized it everywhere and always. It was branded in his mind and in his soul. Frantically he turned and tried to find the source of the voice, but he couldn't find it.
“Jamie, where are you?” The distress in his voice was evident. For years and years he had longed to see Jamie again, to be with him again and now he was close, so close. But he couldn't see him. He could only feel Jamie's presence at the very core of his soul.
“Come closer to the door and you will see me. I was waiting for you.” Jamie's voice repeated again.
Sebastian tried to take a step towards the door, but his legs didn't move.
“I can't. Jamie help me! Wait for me!” Sebastian pleaded desperately. New panic arose. Cutting off his throat again. He reached out his hand in a frail attempt to get to Jamie. But whatever he did, he couldn't see him and he couldn't move his legs.
“Try harder.” Jamie whispered seductively in Sebastian's ear. The sudden proximity made Sebastian spin around with such force that he almost fell over.
Sebastian blinked several times and then he saw him – Jamie.
A young vital man. Alive. Real.
Hesitantly, Sebastian raised his hand to touch Jamie's cheek. He almost didn't dare to let his hand reach its destination, but Jamie leaned into the touch yearning equally for it. Sebastian deflated a bit. A weight fell off his shoulders.
Home. Finally he was home. Jamie was his home.
“I didn't have a chance to tell you that I would wait for you. And I waited. Days. Weeks. Months. Years. Decades. It doesn't matter anymore. Time doesn't matter, as long as you are with me again.” Sebastian's hand slipped from Jamie's face, over his bare shoulder, down his sculpted arm, until it rested in his hand and he entwined their fingers. He took a small step back to look Jamie up and down and take in the sight of the man he had missed for so many years.
He was still the same young man Sebastian had known. Not an ounce of fat was on his body. Dark hair was dusted all over his body. There was nothing that reminded of their last dreadful night together. No mark. No scar. Sebastian's free hand moved on its own accord and came to rest over Jamie's heart.
“How can this be?” he asked looking for an answer in Jamie's green eyes.
“It's how our story is supposed to end. Everything is determined. We are only puppets walking the way that was laid out for us long ago. Call it fate or whatever you want. This is greater than us. So much so that we will never be able to conceive it with our human minds. It's time to let go now Sebastian.”
“I am scared Jamie.”
“I know. There is no need to be scared.” Jamie pulled Sebastian closer and let his arm envelop the other man in an embrace.
“Just let go. I am here. You will not fall and you are not alone. Let go Sebastian.”
And Sebastian let go.
He saw Agnes and Jordan, with their children. JJ – Jamie Junior was already a teenager. They had a beautiful daughter too and it was hard to let them go. Sebastian saw Kai who had finally found his own happiness with a beautiful pregnant wife. He would never bicker with his twin again and he would never meet his brother's children. He saw Ryan who had been the only love he had ever experienced after Jamie's passing. A love that was profound, but not enough to stand the test of time. Ryan had moved on quickly and was happy being single. Sebastian saw himself too and he was dancing on a stage. His favorite piano piece was playing. He was young and healthy. Nothing showed of his ordeal and he looked happy. Sebastian saw Jamie and the night they had made love for the first time. It suddenly felt so real and as if it was happening again. Sebastian saw himself again. This time he was lying on a floor. His eyes were open but empty. His hand grabbed at his chest, covering his heart and a smile curled around his lips.
Sebastian had died.
Jamie held Sebastian's hand tighter and guided him to the bright shining door.
“When we walk through this door together with joined hands, our souls will unite and we will become one. Do you want me to let you go?” Jamie's voice was wavering. Fear stabbed at him, until Sebastian turned him in his arms and took his face in both hands. He brushed his lips against Jamie's and pulled back again. For years he had longed to feel those lips against his own again. He had always thought that it was impossible and yet, now it was happening
“I am ready and I will not let you go again. Never again.” Sebastian smiled. He felt an inner serenity and he finally understood why Jamie had been so calm when he had died. It was a feeling as if nothing mattered anymore. His heart was filled with a pleasant heat and love radiated through every pore of his body.
Jamie reached for the doorknob, but Sebastian held him back.
“Wait!” Jamie took his hand back. He faced Sebastian with a chuckle.
“Kiss me again.” Sebastian demanded. And Jamie obliged. Jamie's hand in Sebastian's neck guided him closer and then their lips met again. Tongues asked for entrance and they tasted each other. Clothes disappeared and Jamie broke the kiss with a wink.
“It's time. They are calling us. We need to go.” Sebastian nodded and squeezed Jamie's hand.
“I am ready.”
Together they took one last unneeded deep breath and walked through the door and the shining light.
At last Jamie and Sebastian were reunited. They became a bright star in the eternal night sky.
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THE END
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