THANKSGIVING DADDY

by Rachel Lee

  But then her sterner nature returned in a surge, and she squared her shoulders. She had dealt with tougher stuff than this, countless times. At least nobody here was trying to kill her. It was ridiculous to panic. There was absolutely no reason for it.

  “I should go,” she said firmly. “I didn’t come here intending to upset everyone. I just thought Seth had a right to know. There’s no reason for either of you to be concerned about this.”

  “No reason?” Nate repeated the words. “Sorry, Major, but I don’t agree. There’s always room in this family for another grandchild. You’re staying here until we’re clear on that at least.”

  She bridled a bit and wanted to tell him that he couldn’t make her stay, but she realized that wasn’t what he meant. “Look,” she said finally. “I only came because I felt Seth had a right to know. He can make whatever decision he wants. I don’t want anything from him or anyone else.”

  “Really.” Nate’s expression hovered somewhere between a smile and a frown. “It’s your decision, of course. And his.”

  Marge didn’t look happy about the easy capitulation, but said nothing.

  “Exactly,” Edie said emphatically. She felt a surprising surge of warmth for the man and his understanding.

  Nate settled back in his chair. “So tell me what you do in the air force, Major.”

  So she told him, glad of the relatively neutral topic. He asked cogent questions, indicating some military background, and he, more than Marge, seemed to understand the dangers of what she and her crew did. He didn’t point them out, though, merely nodded his understanding. Marge seemed quite taken with the idea that Edie flew helicopters.

  “In my day,” she said, “they didn’t let women do anything like that.”

  “They do now,” Edie said.

  “And in combat, too,” Marge said, looking as if she hadn’t really given it much thought. “My, things change.”

  “They certainly do,” Nate agreed. “Although in my day, and probably earlier, women got right into the thick of it anyway. I saw more than a few nurses find themselves on the front lines, for all they were supposed to be noncombatants.”

  “At least now,” Edie said, trying to lighten it a bit, “we come armed.”

  Nate flashed a smile.

  Edie could feel her nerves stretching, despite the casual conversation. Seth was going to walk in that door soon, and she couldn’t imagine his reaction. Not that she should care, she told herself. She didn’t even know the man. They’d had a stupid fling, a couple of meals, then gone their own ways. Less than twelve hours.

  Which made him a perfect stranger, however intimate they’d become for an hour. Therefore she shouldn’t care how he reacted at all. He was a cipher in her life, a mere sperm donor. Damn, when she looked back on it, it had been so brief it really hadn’t been much more personal than getting a sperm donation.

  Except she knew she was fooling herself. One wild night, a night she’d never forgotten and now knew she would never be able to forget. Hasty, unsparing, basic lovemaking that had birthed her into a new aspect of her womanhood, and now was bringing her a totally different future. A child, a new career path.

  No, she couldn’t remain entirely indifferent to Seth. He’d given her two great gifts but had also ripped away all her goals and aims. Talk about a life-altering experience.

  She’d been furious for a while. First at him, but she well remembered him rolling that condom on. “Even with perfect use they fail two or three percent of the time,” the gynecologist had said. Great. Still, she couldn’t blame Seth. She could only blame herself for giving in to impulses she had wisely avoided for years.

  So she had turned the anger inward. She considered ending the pregnancy, but somehow that wasn’t in her. Just wasn’t something she could do, however sensible some of her friends tried to tell her it would be. Sensible ceased to matter. She sheltered a life within her womb, and when the first stirrings came, the arguments ended as far as she was concerned.

  The odds had turned on her. They could have turned on her in far worse ways, and as she grew used to the idea, she began to like it. She was going to have a baby. Okay, deal. Make the best of it. And in some ways, it seemed like the best.

  In others, not so much.

  Like right now. She knew how angry she had been at first. She figured Seth would feel about the same, and just hoped he didn’t accuse her of fingering him as the father when it could be someone else. Hell, if he demanded a paternity test, he’d be breathing her dust faster than...

  She caught herself and stopped. This was ridiculous. She didn’t know how he would react and imagining scenarios wouldn’t help. Just deal, the way she dealt with whatever came her way.

  Marge refreshed her coffee, urging her to eat another cookie. The brief relaxation had fled, though, and the thought of trying to eat turned her stomach. This was not just a pleasant afternoon visit with an older couple. She had come to wreck some guy with news no one wanted.

  She began to question all the arguments she’d had with herself about whether to tell him. Maybe she had reached exactly the wrong conclusion. Maybe she should have just left it alone.

  What the hell had made her think he had a right to know? The fact that she didn’t want to look into a little boy’s eyes someday and admit she hadn’t told his father about him?

  All of a sudden that seemed very weak.

  “You’re doing the right thing,” Nate said.

  Startled by his voice, she looked at him and realized she had gone far away in her thoughts. “Why?”

  “Because I know how furious I was that nobody told me. No decent man wants to find out that he was locked out of his child’s life.” He hitched up one corner of his mouth. “Which is not to say he might not be a little angry at first.”

  “I certainly was.”

  Nate nodded. “And I hear his car. Marge, you and I need to take a walk.”

  “But...” Then Marge nodded. “I guess you’re right.”

  Nate winked at Edie. “She likes to manage things.”

  Marge laughed, a surprisingly girlish sound, and headed toward the door with Nate. “We’ll give you a while.”

  Edie didn’t think it was going to take long. She’d make the announcement and leave. That had been her plan all along. She should have been on the road over an hour ago.

  She heard voices outside, thought she recognized Seth’s deep tones. Every nerve in her body stretched tight, and even the stirring of the child in her womb didn’t ease the anxiety. She rested her hand over her belly, an unconsciously protective gesture, and waited.

  * * *

  Seth was surprised to meet his parents on the way for a walk. As the autumn days grew more brisk, they seldom went out in the late afternoon for a stroll, but instead went earlier, before the afternoon breeze started.

  “You have a friend visiting,” Nate said. “We thought we’d let you talk for a while.”

  Then they walked off, leaving him wondering. They had seemed almost secretive, and why should he need privacy? Who the hell would be visiting him anyway? His friends were still almost all in the navy, and most were out of country right now.

  Curious, he strode up to the door, wiping his hands once more on jeans that were dusty from the renovation he was doing on a house he’d bought.

  When he stepped into the living room, the first thing he registered was a camo utility uniform. Then he saw the face above them.

  “Edie!” He was startled. He remembered her well, from her short red hair and bright blue eyes to the delightful curves he’d found under her baggy camos. He had been dealing with a nagging sense that he’d taken advantage of a virgin, despite what she had said, but he had never expected to see her again, even though he had hoped he might. She had seemed perfectly willing to walk away. And it had been what—fiv
e months? Surely if she’d wanted to see him again, she would have written or something. He’d given her his parents’ address after all.

  But there she sat, and it didn’t take him long to realize she wasn’t giving him a friendly smile. Far from it. He saw a tension in her face that would have been more understandable if she’d been about to leave on a mission.

  “Edie?” Something was wrong. He stepped closer and hesitated. Should he shake her hand? Take a seat? Wait?

  “Hi, Seth.” She managed a weak smile then.

  With a growing sense of dread crawling across his nerve endings, but absolutely no idea what was going on here, he decided to offer a handshake. “How are you doing?”

  She shook his hand, but even as she did so that forced smile vanished.

  “You look like you’d rather be anywhere else,” he remarked, trying to lighten whatever was troubling her.

  “I would,” she said flatly.

  That disturbed him even more, but he guessed whatever it was would come when she was ready. He ran a rapid mental checklist and realized there was no way she could have come bearing bad news. They hadn’t known the same people. So what the hell? “Coffee?” he offered to fill the silence.

  “No, thanks.”

  He tried a smile of his own, thinking that she was just as beautiful as he remembered. Maybe even more so. But that seemed irrelevant right now. “So what’s going on?”

  “I’m pregnant.”

  Chapter Two

  Edie watched the anger rise in him, watched the fury darken his face. Then he cussed so savagely even ears accustomed to it in the military almost cringed.

  “Stay here,” he snapped. “Don’t go anywhere.”

  Then he turned and stomped out. She heard the back door slam.

  Stay here? Like hell. She’d done what she needed to do, and she sure wasn’t taking any orders from him. Strength flooded her and she stood up. Out of here now.

  But damn, he was still as handsome as she remembered. His head was no longer shaved, but sported dark hair, a little shaggy. He looked good in jeans and a work shirt. Damn, he just plain looked good.

  So what? She’d delivered her message, and if his anger was any indicator, she’d never have to worry about him again.

  She put her mug on the end table, straightened up and squared herself. All of a sudden she felt amazingly light. She’d finished her mission. It was over, done. She really didn’t care what he thought. Having to tell him was a far cry from wanting anything from him.

  And she wanted not one thing from him. Not one blasted thing. She was perfectly capable of raising a child by herself. She had done far harder things.

  She walked to the front door, opened it and stepped out.

  Marge and Nate Tate were right there. Apparently they hadn’t gone for a very long walk at all.

  “Good meeting you,” Edie said brightly. “You’re very nice people. Maybe I’ll send you a photo when the baby is born.”

  “Wait,” said Marge.

  Edie shook her head. “I’m done here. I just came to let Seth know. He knows.”

  “How did he take it?” Marge asked.

  “He’s furious.”

  “He’s shocked,” Nate countered. “Just shocked.”

  “He’s furious,” Edie repeated. “I expected it, so I’ll just go home and leave you to deal with him. Sorry I made a mess.”

  Nate reached out and put a hand on her shoulder. “I’m telling you, the boy is just shocked.”

  “SEALs don’t shock easily,” she said, her voice growing harder. “Please let me pass.”

  Nate dropped his hand and stepped to the side. Only Marge hindered her now, and the woman’s gaze was pleading. “I can’t stop you, but I wish you’d stay. If you won’t, promise you’ll at least keep in touch with us.”

  “I’ll think about it.”

  Then she eased past Marge and started toward her car again. It was amazing, she thought, how good she felt to have this off her back now. Done. Finished. Now she could move on.

  She had just reached her car when she heard, “Edie, wait.”

  She wanted to open that door, get in and peel out of here. Squealing tires would feel good right about now. But as quickly as the light feeling had filled her, it began to seep away. Maybe she wasn’t done here.

  “Edie, please.”

  She turned slowly and faced Seth. “You don’t have to say anything,” she said quietly. “Not one damn thing. I can manage. I just had this conviction that I needed to let you know. I don’t want anything from you, so I’m going.”

  “Wait,” he said again, and approached slowly. “I wasn’t mad at you,” he said. His tone wasn’t conciliatory, but firm. Not pleading. What she would have expected of a SEAL. In command, even now. “I was mad at myself. Please listen.”

  “There’s nothing to say.”

  “There’s plenty to say. I was mad at myself, not you. I screwed up. I didn’t take good care of you.”

  She shrugged. “Condoms have a certain percentage of failure. Not your fault. Nobody’s fault.”

  “But...” He hesitated. “Don’t go. Not yet. I swear I won’t keep you too long, but we need to talk.”

  “About what, Seth? That we made a mistake? That’s a given. I’m actually kind of happy that it happened, now that I’m used to the idea. So I’ll be fine. We’re done here.”

  “We’re not done. Not at all. I have a child on the way, too. Don’t you at least owe me the consideration to discuss it?”

  She realized she was starting to feel ornery and pressured, neither of which would do any good. She could either get in the car and leave, or she could stay a little longer to discuss it.

  It wasn’t helping that she still felt the same attraction to him that had gotten her into this mess in the first place. She tore her gaze from him and looked away, past houses to the looming purple mountains in the distance. Vaguely, she thought it was pretty here.

  She supposed she owed it to him. The thought seemed to come from far away, but soon it was at the forefront of her mind. Owed it to him to discuss it. Owed it to the baby growing inside her to at least give his father a chance to be part of his life. But what did she owe herself?

  That seemed to be taking a backseat. Maybe, with a child in the picture, it always would.

  “Mom and Dad will leave us alone,” he said. “If Mom gets too managing, we can go over to my place. But at least stay long enough to talk.”

  “Okay,” she said reluctantly. “Just a talk.”

  “Just a talk,” he agreed. “I need to absorb this, then we can discuss what I can do. Maybe how much of a dad I can be. I don’t want you to just walk away with everything up in the air.”

  Everything up in the air? Just as she was feeling the situation had been settled, he was saying that? Well, she supposed it was, for him.

  She shoved her keys back into her pocket and walked back toward the house beside him. Maybe the hard part was done. Maybe the conversation would be easy and civilized. And maybe they did need to talk. She had come all the way out here to give him the news for the sake of her child. Maybe this was something more she owed to the kid.

  And that was a whole lot of maybes. She stifled a sigh. Apparently she had been wrong to think that simply delivering the news would settle everything.

  Well, it might still. Nothing at all might come out of this conversation.

  Marge and Nate were just inside the door. Marge beamed and announced that she would start dinner for all of them, then get a guest room ready. She buzzed away. Edie, who hadn’t agreed to stay that long, felt her stomach sink.

  “Don’t mind her,” Nate said with a faint smile. “Cooking makes her feel good. You two do what you want.”

  “We want a place to talk, or I can
take her over to my place.”

  All of a sudden Marge poked her head into the room. “Seth! You can’t take her to your place. It’s a mess!”

  Seth sighed and shook his head. “Mom, I’ve seen where Edie’s been and I’ve seen what she can handle. It’s far worse than my renovation mess. Before you try to start mothering, remember this—this woman flies into heavy fire to pull out people like me. She’s perfectly capable of managing her own life.”

  Marge blinked. “Oh.” Then she managed a smile. “You’re right, of course. Once a mother, always a mother. I can’t seem to stop.”

  She vanished into her kitchen again. Nate eyed his son. “Be gentle with your mother, Seth. There’s a lot she can’t imagine, and I’d like her to stay that way.”

  “I get it, Dad. But Edie extracted my team under some withering fire. I won’t have her disrespected.”

  “It’s not disrespect,” Nate said. Then he turned to Edie. “Stay or go as you please. You’re welcome here.” Then he vanished into the kitchen after his wife.

  “Wow,” Edie said quietly, feeling a little warmer toward Seth after the way he had spoken for her.

  “My dad was a Green Beret in Vietnam,” Seth said. “I think there’s a lot he’s never told her.”

  “Wise,” said Edie. She was of the school, so much like what Seth had said, that believed there was no good reason to strip away innocence. You talked to others who had been there, or not at all.

  “We can talk here in the living room, in the family room or one of the bedrooms,” Seth said.

  “Where’s most private?”

  “Anywhere, right now. Dad just went to ensure it.”

  She opted for the living room. She didn’t want to get in any deeper, and she knew where the exit was.

  She sat on the couch again, and Seth took a chair facing her. He still looked good enough to eat, she thought irrelevantly, then caught herself. This was not the time, although it helped her remember how she had gotten herself into this fix. A short period of weakness and desire had changed her whole life. And now his, evidently.