Resistance

by K Larsen

  Every Wednesday he comes into work to have lunch with me, declaring he needs time with his woman. Needless to say, I’ve been swept off my feet. My head is stuck in the clouds and I count my lucky stars for that every single day. I didn’t think I’d have this. A life. A full life. Something to look forward to every day. Someone to look forward to every day. This man next to me, he didn’t fix me. He allowed me the space and time I needed to fix myself. The idea of love was so embarrassing to me when we first met. I was this awkward and uncomfortable thing who was running out of places to hide. But Sawyer’s love grew in me like a tumor, like a parasite bent on devouring its host. I let him devour me. I let him grow inside me and the result it has yielded is the most astonishing reward.

  “Stop that.” I giggle and swat at him. He captures my hand in his, twining our fingers together as we settle in to watch his movie.

  After Ezra, Sawyer had stuck to me like glue for the first few weeks. I assured him I was fine but he wouldn't quit. Then, although I really thought I was fine, I started having nightmares. Sawyer was a saint. I was fine all day and a mess all night for the better part of a month. He found a trauma counselor via Clara and set up appointments for me after my return from the retreat. Still, every time I had a bad dream, Sawyer pulled me tightly to him and whispered in my ear that I was safe until I fell back to sleep.

  Now a night devoid of nightmares happens plenty or by mostly avoiding sleep—the things that man can do with his mouth. They happen much less frequently but Sawyer’s always in bed next to me, ready to distract. It’s a secure feeling for me. One I lacked in the past. There are moments when I feel like the exchange of air between us is life altering. As if somehow his oxygen is more pure than mine. But that being near him, with him, allows me to share his pureness of heart. That sharing the air he breathes is all it takes to set my soul on fire.

  I’d tried to meet with Greta this week at the gym but she is mysteriously out of town. Again. Now that I’m more open to sharing things about myself I notice even more how much she holds back. She’s hiding something and I want to dig deep enough to find it. I want to be able to be there for her the way, albeit shallow in a way, she was for me. I’m blessed to have Sawyer and Allie but I’m also blessed to have found Dominic and Clara and Greta. The boys at Mayhem watch over me with a careful eye too, always ready to have my back if I need them. I miss Greta lately. I need to call her more often. I need to be a better friend. Here I am with all these wonderful people surrounding me and I find it hard to make time for anyone outside of my tiny bubble of bliss here at home. I’ll call her tomorrow and find out when she’s due home.

  “Tell me a truth,” he asks. I tip my head and grin at him. God, I love this man.

  “You take my breath away, Sawyer. I’m just thinking about how lucky I am,” I admit.

  “‘Bout to get luckier,” he whispers. I grin and kiss him.

  Allie bounds through into the living room with a shit-eating grin on her face. She leaps up onto the couch and settles between us.

  “Hi,” I say.

  “Hi!” she chirps. Sawyer reaches into the end table drawer and places a small, velvet, square box on my partially reclined chest. Sucking in a sharp breath, I open the box slowly, trying to peek inside before it’s fully opened. Allie giggles at me.

  “Sawyer!” I hiss. “It’s stunning!” He pulls the ring out of the box and puts it on my finger immediately. It slides on with ease. “Oh my God. Look at it sparkle!” I squeal. Tears burn my eyes. I want to run away and bury myself inside of him simultaneously. My emotions run rampant through me.

  “Almost as bright as you, love.” A tear slips down my cheek and he wipes it away with the pad of his thumb. Yes, sharing his life, his space, his oxygen is all I’ll ever need in life.

  “Will you marry us?” Allie asks, eyes full of tears. This kid. Us.

  My heart, that mass of scarred tissue, beats. Really beats. Blood rushes to it, filling it, filling me. This man brought me back. I thought I was broken. Forever shattered, yet he taught me to love again. He taught me to want to love again. He proved that the very definition of “broken” means “able to fix.” And this sweet, sweet child embraced me with open arms. How could I ever say no to them? How could I ever think of disappointing them? They’ve supported my every move. I can’t fathom a single moment of my life, my future, without them in it.

  “Is that a yes?” Sawyer asks, the tinge in his voice concerned.

  “That’s a fuck yes!” I bellow. I start to laugh, completely overwhelmed by the crushing love I feel in my chest.

  “Uhh,” Allie groans. “I’m really happy, but I think you’re gonna kiss now and I’m going to go watch The Regular Show in my room,” she rambles before scrambling off the couch.

  “Hey!” I call out. She stops, pivots, and runs back to my side. I open my arms to embrace her tightly. “Thanks for asking me.” I kiss the top of her head and let her go. She smiles and bounds out of the room.

  “Now, it’s time to get lucky.” I waggle my eyebrows and straddle Sawyer, starting a trail of kisses from his jaw downward. He grins devilishly before standing us both up and stalking to the bedroom. He strips my shirt up and over my head, tossing it on the floor as the door shuts behind us.

  Lucky is an understatement. What he’s given me, it is more than luck. It’s pure and true and tangible. It’s everything I never thought I’d have and yet it’s so much more than I could have conjured up. This time I’m going to show him just how lucky he makes me feel. I’m going to make him understand. And there’s no time like the present.

  The End.

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  About the Author

  I am an avid reader, coffee drinker, and chocolate eater who loves writing. I received my B.A. from Simmons College-a while ago. I currently live in Maine, The Way Life Should Be!

  I'm working on my eighth novel currently. I've published Saving Caroline, 30 Days, Committed, Tug of War, Objective, Resistance, and Dating Delaney.

  I have a weird addiction to goat
cheese and chocolate martinis, not together though.

  I adore my dog. He is the most awesome snuggledoo in the history of dogs. Seriously.

  I hate dirty dishes.

  I like sarcasm and funny people.

  I should probably be running right now... because of the goat cheese....and stuff.

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