R. E. Bradshaw - Rainey Nights

by R. E. Bradshaw

  Rainey grinned. “How do you know he or she will be into sports?”

  “I’m stacking the deck so to speak.” Katie tapped the folder. “If not athletic, the child will at least be coordinated.”

  Rainey opened the folder. Once again she was faced with a stack of profiles, only these weren’t of serial rapists or murderers, they were sperm donors. Rainey surveyed the information available. It flooded at her from the pages and pages of facts and interviews. A lump formed in her throat. She couldn’t help but look for the information she knew wouldn’t be there.

  Katie prattled on in her ear, “These are longer than the initial donor profiles. These contain all the general information about the donor's main characteristics, like hair color, eye color, height, weight, education, blood type, ethnic origin, plus a three-generation medical and genetic history - their religious affiliations, whether they are athletes, what their interests are, hobbies, stuff like that. I picked these because they look like you. So we’ll look like a family.”

  Rainey was sure she was supposed to respond positively to the last comment, but at the moment her mind was occupied with the forms in front of her. Each donor’s file contained extensive interviews, essays, even a childhood picture accompanied a few, but what caught Rainey’s eye were the psychological exam results.

  Katie had gone quiet when Rainey didn’t respond to her declaration to have the child’s donor look like her. Rainey turned without thinking and asked, “Who gave these psych tests? Are they legitimate? Most psychos can pass a simple standard test. Do you know we had documented cases where sociopaths donated sperm to reputable places? Can you imagine finding out your sperm donor was a serial killer?”

  Katie stiffened. “What if he was? Would you give the child back?”

  Rainey tried to defend her comments. “Of course not. I’m just saying you have no way of knowing who this person really is. Whether you believe it or not, genetics can play a big role in some of these malformed personalities.”

  “And you don’t think environment has something to do with how these ‘personalities’ are formed? You don’t think that a loving home with responsible parents plays a bigger role in how a child turns out?”

  Rainey was seeing the error in her bluntness, but she couldn’t stop herself from saying, “Yes, it can play a very large role, even bigger than genetics, but if the building blocks that make up emotion are not there, they cannot be created by just loving the child. I’ve looked at many a parent that had no idea that little Johnny was a stone cold killer.”

  “You just made my argument, Rainey. Those parents were normal and loved their child and it turned out badly. You’re basically saying it’s a crapshoot. You’re never going to find the absolute perfect donor, if you look for every possible sign of defect.”

  “It’s better to look at them hard now instead of be sorry later.”

  Katie stood up suddenly. “What if it’s not a psychological defect? What if the child has autism or a physical disability? And if you were sorry, who would you blame, the donor or me? Have you profiled me yet, Rainey?”

  Rainey tried to calm Katie. “Wait a minute. Don’t get upset. I just want to be careful. We can’t rush into something and not know what we’re getting.”

  “We’ll never know for sure, Rainey. I believe babies are born innocent and we shape them through love and education.”

  “Yeah, and you believed you knew who your husband was, too.”

  Rainey couldn’t imagine why she said that. She wanted the words back so badly. It was too late. They hit their mark dead on.

  Katie’s hands flew to her hips and her face flushed bright red. “You know, you’re right, Rainey. You probably would screw up a kid. I certainly don’t want to sit around and watch you profiling our children, waiting for one of them to turn into a monster.”

  Katie stomped off and slammed the door. Now on the couch, about to spend the night alone, Rainey’s own words echoed through her brain and she could not for the life of her figure out why she had said them. She finished her second drink and poured another. She had royally fucked up this time.

  She heard the old radio show voice in her head. “Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men?” Rainey did. Why couldn’t she leave that life behind her? One of the things she loved most about Katie was her eternal optimism. Rainey needed that in her life. So why was she hell bent on making sure Katie remembered that evil existed? Katie knew it. She’d seen it up close and personal, yet she chose to look for the good in the people. Rainey still suspected the worst and was never surprised to find it, especially after her own dance with the devil.

  Rainey reached down and lifted the file folder. The contents spilled across the coffee table. She sipped her bourbon, slowly being drawn to certain words on the pages; chestnut brown hair, curls, green eyes, tall, sports, law enforcement, computer science, honor, valor. A single theme began to emerge. Katie saw these traits in Rainey. The things she wanted to see in her child, their child. Katie had obviously spent many hours searching donors and these were the files she had chosen for Rainey to see. Rainey read each profile thoroughly.

  When finished, Rainey had a much better understanding of what Katie saw of value in her. Beyond their physical attributes, these men were intelligent, self-confident, trustworthy, and loyal. All were men of good character. The interviewers mentioned feeling comfortable and safe with them. Katie considered all that she could with the information she was given, and she did a lot of it with Rainey in mind.

  Rainey shuffled through the pile of papers once more. Katie slammed the bedroom door around seven thirty. Rainey looked at the clock on the bookshelf; it read “1:45 a.m.” She pulled out three sheets of paper, looked them over again, and then put the others back in the file folder. Carrying the papers with her down the hall, she tapped on the bedroom door lightly, and then slid them under the door. She waited.

  When Katie opened the door she simply said, “I’m tired and I don’t want to fight anymore. Come to bed. It seems I can’t sleep without you.”

  Rainey followed Katie into the room, slipped out of her clothes, and crawled into bed. Katie spooned into her, pressing into her body. Rainey slid her arm around Katie and pulled her in tight.

  She whispered, “I’m sorry, Katie.”

  “Shhh. We’ll talk about it in the morning.”

  Rainey closed her eyes more in love with Katie than she had been just hours ago. If she could only see the world like Katie did, the whole glass half-full thing, Rainey would enjoy life more. Katie, it seemed, could even see the good in Rainey.

  Chapter seven

  Rainey awoke to the smell of bacon frying and coffee brewing. Her arm shot to the empty side of the bed, even though she knew Katie wasn’t there. That was another reason she was glad the doors were replaced. Before Katie, the slightest sound or movement could rouse her from a deep sleep. Now she slept so soundly she probably wouldn’t hear an army marching through the room. As much as she assumed the role of protector in their relationship, it was Rainey that truly felt safer now. Katie gave her peace.

  The clock said eight thirty. Rainey’s head said too much bourbon. She crawled out of the Laura Ashley floral print sheets. She was still trying to get used to all the frilly stuff Katie had added to the décor. Rainey and her dad had been more the bland, solid color types. Katie was anything but bland. Rainey appreciated Katie’s talents for decorating, but right now the flowers were swimming, causing her stomach to roll over.

  She was seated on the toilet, head in hands, when she heard the top on a Coke can pop open and fizzle. Rainey raised her head to see Katie standing in the doorway of the bathroom. She held the red can with its familiar logo out for Rainey.

  “Thought you might need this. I saw the evidence of foul play on the coffee table. I do believe this is the standard southern cure for over indulgence.”

  Rainey said nothing. She took the Coke from Katie and downed it without stopping. She could feel the sugary cold liquid as
it made its way through her body. Rainey hadn’t really had much to drink since she met Katie. They drank wine with dinner or had an occasional beer, but liquor as a sleeping remedy or stress reliever had gone by the way side. She was getting too old for this. The alcohol took so much more out of her now than it did when she was younger. Back then, she could hold her own with most anybody and pop back up the next day unfazed. This morning she felt like shit. Knowing she had to finish the conversation from the night before with Katie did nothing to improve her condition.

  Katie was her perky self, as usual. She was already showered and dressed, looking unaffected by their late night. She took the empty can from Rainey’s hand and said, “Take a quick shower. It’ll help. Breakfast is almost ready.”

  “Katie, I…” Rainey stammered.

  “Honey, right now you are hung-over, naked, and sitting on a toilet. You’re quite defenseless. It just wouldn’t be fair.”

  “Are you still mad?” Even Rainey thought she sounded like a scolded child.

  “No.” Katie stepped over to Rainey and kissed her on the forehead. “Now, get moving.”

  Rainey showered and dressed in an old pair of jeans. She threw on a tee shirt and an old University of Virginia sweatshirt. She was going to be late to work and stopped in the bedroom to call Ernie and let her know. When Rainey turned the corner into the kitchen, Katie was feeding Freddie by the back door.

  She smiled up at Rainey. “He brought me a mole. He just laid it at my feet while I was cooking.”

  Rainey’s eyes darted around the kitchen. “What did you do with it?”

  “Relax. I threw it away already. I still can’t believe a big ol’ FBI agent is scared of rodents.” Katie giggled.

  “I’m not afraid of them. I just don’t like them.” Rainey sat down and immediately began to guzzle the glass of orange juice beside her plate.

  Katie placed bacon and eggs, along with cut fruit, and fresh baked biscuits on Rainey’s plate. She brought the pitcher of orange juice and a cup of coffee for Rainey to the table and then sat down. Rainey dove into the food and began to feel better as the caffeine did its magic. Her head cleared of fog and she thought she might actually recover before noon.

  Katie waited patiently, having learned that Rainey wasn’t the most social person before her first cup of coffee. She ate her breakfast, watching Rainey’s every move. Rainey was conscious of the looks from across the table.

  “What? Do I have food on me somewhere?” Rainey finally asked.

  “No. I’m just waiting for you to finish so we can talk, because I’ve obviously misunderstood you.”

  Rainey leaned in closer. “Look, if this is about my comment concerning your husband last night, I truly am sorry. That was totally out of line.”

  “No, that isn’t what this is about, but it did get me thinking. We jumped into this thing without getting to know each other.”

  Rainey didn’t like where this was going. Her heart sounded the alarm. Katie must have seen something in Rainey’s expression that triggered her next statement.

  “Honey, don’t panic. I’m not breaking up with you. I’m trying to understand you. We skipped the dating and went straight to mating. There is so much we don’t know about each other. I know I love you, I know you love me, but I don’t know what shaped you into the person you are. I know some of it, but not enough.”

  “Katie, you don’t need to know all of it. You should never have to know what I know. You’ve seen enough, as it is.”

  “I don’t want the details. I want to know what you think and why. You of all people should realize your childhood, your abandonment issues, your FBI career, have all made you what you are.”

  Katie wasn’t finished talking, much to Rainey’s displeasure. She stood up and went to the counter, producing a thin book Rainey recognized from her reference collection on the bookshelf. Maybe she should have locked those books up, too.

  “I read this report from the Symposium of Serial Murder, before you got up. Your unit of the BAU sponsored that event and finalized the report, correct?”

  “Yes, that’s correct.” Rainey was always entertained when Katie questioned her like an attorney questions a witness. Hours of coaching JW through Law School had made her quite adept at this method.

  “I was particularly interested in the section called Causality of the Serial Murder.”

  Rainey knew instantly where this was going. She let a bit of a sly grin cross her lips when she said, “I bet you were.”

  “It said, and correct me if I get this wrong, that serial murderers, like everybody else are a product of their heredity, their upbringing, and the choices they make during development, but there really are no single identifying factors.”

  Rainey nodded. “You’re doing well so far. Now for the point I believe you’re about to make, the part where you throw my own words back at me.”

  “Didn’t you, Special Agent Rainey Bell, say that the most significant factor is the serial killer’s personal choice to pursue his or her crimes?”

  “Yes, I believe those were almost my exact words.”

  Katie put the book down on the table, her hands going to her hips. Here comes the point, Rainey thought.

  “When we were discussing sperm donors did you not consider that the parents help shape the child’s decision making process?”

  “Touché. You win. You’re right. Every parent is faced with a crapshoot of genetics. I concede and bow to your positive influence.”

  Katie hugged Rainey tightly, saying, “I know that’s huge for you. Thank you.”

  “You are very welcome,” Rainey said, smiling. She couldn’t help it. Katie was so happy it was contagious.

  Katie returned her smile. “One step at a time. I’m going to let you get used to the idea, before we do anything else. I’m learning to let you mull things over. You’re much more pliable that way.”

  “I’m being handled by a master manipulator. I see that now.”

  Katie threw her head back and laughed. “I prefer to call it persistent.”

  “You are that, darlin’.” Rainey’s laughter joined Katie’s, as she repeated, “Yes ma’am, you are that.”

  Rainey stood up, sweeping Katie into her arms, kissing the breath out of both of them. When they broke for air, the look that passed between them rapidly changed from passion to desire. They may not have known all of each other’s thoughts and dreams, but they definitely knew each other’s bodies. They spent the last nine months exploring them thoroughly. Within seconds, Katie’s long sleeved tee shirt hit the floor, followed quickly by Rainey’s sweatshirt and several other clothing items. Several minutes later, a spent Katie leaned into Rainey chest. She began to giggle.

  Rainey swept the stray hair from Katie’s damp forehead, and asked, “What’s so funny?”

  “If that’s going to happen every time we have a fight, I think we should fight more often.”

  #

  Rainey decided to take the morning off and spend time with Katie. They were measuring out the ground plan for their new house on the lot beside the cottage. She checked the local media reports this morning and found nothing new about the body found yesterday. Rainey was lost in thoughts that the police would probably find the missing woman’s case was related. A small dirt clod hit Rainey in the back as she bent down by the one of the corner stakes. Rainey turned to see a smiling Katie armed with a hand full of small dirt clods.

  “What the hell?” Rainey stood up, grinning at Katie who had another projectile cocked and ready.

  Katie let fly with the next clod. It hit Rainey in the thigh, sending a small cloud of dust into the air. “You need to loosen up,” Katie said, reloading and nailing Rainey in the shoulder.

  Rainey dropped the tape measure and reached for ammunition. The ground had been turned over and the clods were easy to find. Katie continued to blast her repeatedly, the whole time taunting Rainey.

  “When’s the last time you walked in a room and didn’t scan for the exits?�
�� Pow! A cloud of dust blew off Rainey’s arm. “When’s the last time someone did something for you and you didn’t look for ulterior motives?” Smack! That one hit her in the head.

  Rainey stood up and pegged Katie in the abdomen, moving to avoid the next onslaught, and saying, “A few hours ago in the kitchen, I think.”

  Puff! She got Katie in the butt. She wasn’t throwing as hard as Katie. She didn’t want to hurt her. Splat! A clod hit Rainey in the cheek.

  “Damn, Katie that hurt.”

  Katie laughed. “Oh, did the little girl hurt the big ol’ FBI Agent?”

  Rainey dropped the clods and took off for Katie.

  “Oh shit!” Katie exclaimed and ran away laughing.

  Rainey caught her with no problem. She wrapped her arm around Katie’s waist and pulled her down, cushioning Katie’s fall with her own body. They were laughing so hard neither could speak. Every time they made eye contact, they laughed harder. They stayed there, Katie lying across Rainey’s chest, until they caught their breaths and then lay still for a moment longer, listening to each other breathe.

  They were startled into sitting position by Mackie’s Escalade barreling toward them. He slammed on breaks and jumped out quickly, well as fast as a more than three hundred pound man can jump out. He shouted, “I thought you were dead!”

  Katie looked at Rainey. “See, you are all paranoid as hell.”

  At that moment, Ernie came out of the office and shouted up the hill, “When y'all get through rolling around on the ground, somebody needs to go bail Derrick out of jail.”

  #

  Rainey looked at the young man handcuffed to the chair. Derrick thought about stealing Rainey’s car last summer, but changed his mind when the cold steel of her nine-millimeter met his chin. She gave him her card, sure that he would need bailing out sooner or later. Since then, Derrick’s mother called Rainey whenever he got into trouble, which seemed to be frequently. This time he was with a bunch of guys in a stolen vehicle. He swore he didn’t know the car was hot, but there he was in handcuffs facing felony charges.