The Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 1-4

by J. R. Ward

  As they entered the fighting arena, Mr. X’s eyes quickly adjusted to the velvet blackness and the neon flashes from other players. The space was large enough for the thirty or so who were dancing around the obstacles, laughing and shouting as they fired beams of light.

  “Let’s split up,” Mr. X said.

  While Loser blinked myopically, Billy took off, moving with the swiftness of an animal. A moment later the sensor in the middle of Loser’s chest went off. The guy looked down at it as if he didn’t know what had happened.

  Billy retreated into the darkness.

  “Better take cover, son,” Mr. X murmured.

  Mr. X stayed out of their way while watching everything they did. Billy hit Loser over and over again from countless angles, shifting in and out of the obstacles, coming fast, now slow, then shooting from far away. Loser’s confusion and anxiety ratcheted up every time the light on his chest flashed, and desperation made him move with childlike uncoordination. He dropped his gun. Tripped over his own feet. Knocked his shoulder into a barrier.

  Billy was resplendent. Though his target was failing, weakening, he showed no mercy. Even when Loser dropped his gun to his side and leaned up against a wall with exhaustion, Billy hit him again.

  And then took off into the shadows.

  This time Mr. X followed Billy, tracking the guy’s movements with a purpose other than measuring performance. Riddle was fast, shifting around the foam obstacles, doubling back to where Loser was so he could ambush from behind.

  Mr. X anticipated where Billy was headed. With a quick shift to the right, he put himself in Riddle’s path.

  And shot Billy at point-blank range.

  Billy looked down in shock at his chest. It was the first time his receptor had gone off.

  “Pretty good job tonight,” Mr. X said. “You played the game well, son. Until just now.”

  Billy’s eyes lifted, his hand coming to rest over the blinking target. Over his heart.

  “Sensei.” The word was spoken like a lover, with a lover’s awe and adoration.

  Beth wasn’t about to ask the butler for a ride, because she was too shaken to carry on a polite conversation with anyone. As she walked down to the street, she took out her cell phone to call a cab. She was dialing when the purr of a car engine brought her head up.

  The butler got out of the Mercedes and bowed his head. “Master called me. He would like me to take you home, mistress. And I…I would like to drive you.”

  He was so earnest, almost hopeful, as if she’d be doing him a favor if she let him take care of her. But she needed some space. After everything that had happened, she was rattling around in her own head.

  “Thank you, but no.” She forced a smile. “I’m just going to…”

  The man’s face fell. He looked like a dog who’d been whipped.

  Where good manners failed her, guilt stepped up to the plate.

  “Ah, okay.”

  Before he could come around the car, she opened the passenger-side door and slid into the front seat. The butler seemed flustered at her initiative, but recovered quickly, that beaming smile back on his wrinkled face.

  As he got behind the wheel and put the engine in gear, she said, “I live at—”

  “Oh, I know where you live. We’ve always known where you were. First at St. Francis Hospital in the neonatal intensive care unit. Then you went home with the nurse. We had hoped she would keep you, but the hospital made her give you back. Then you went into the system. We didn’t like that. First you were assigned to the McWilliamses on Elmwood Avenue, but you became ill and went back into the hospital with pneumonia.”

  He put the blinker on and turned left at a stop sign.

  She could barely breathe, she was listening so hard.

  “After that you were sent to the Ryans, but there were too many children. And then you went to the Goldrichs, who lived in that split-level off Raleigh Street. We thought the Goldrichs were going to keep you, but then she got pregnant. Finally to that orphanage. We hated when you were there, because they didn’t let you out to play enough.”

  “You keep saying ‘we’,” she whispered, afraid to believe. Wanting to.

  “Yes. Your father and I.”

  Beth covered her mouth with the back of her hand, her eyes capturing the butler’s profile as if it were something she could keep.

  “He knew me?”

  “Oh, yes, mistress. All along. Kindergarten and elementary school and high school.” His eyes met hers. “We were so proud of you when you went to college on that academic scholarship. I was there when you graduated. I took pictures so your father could see.”

  “He knew me.” She tried the words out, feeling like she must be talking about someone else’s parent.

  The butler looked across the seat and smiled. “We have every column you’ve ever written. Even the ones you wrote in high school and college. When you started at the Caldwell Courier Journal, your father refused to go to sleep in the morning until after I brought the paper to him. No matter how hard his night had been, he wouldn’t rest until he read what you wrote. He was so proud of you.”

  She fumbled through her bag, trying to find a Kleenex.

  “Here,” the butler said, handing her a small package of tissues.

  Beth blew her nose as delicately as she could.

  “Mistress, you must understand how hard it was for him to stay away from you. It was just that he knew it would be dangerous to get too close. Families of warriors need to be guarded carefully, and you were unprotected because you were raised human. He’d also hoped you’d be spared the transition.”

  “Did you know my mother?”

  “Not well. They weren’t together long. She disappeared shortly after they started seeing each other because she found out he was not a human. She didn’t tell him she was pregnant, and it wasn’t until she was about to give birth that she reached out to him. I think she was scared of what she was bringing into the world. Unfortunately she went into labor and was taken to a human hospital before we could get to her. But you should know that he loved her. Very deeply.”

  Beth absorbed the information, her mind soaking it up, filling in holes.

  “My father and Wrath, they were close?”

  The butler hesitated. “Your father loved Wrath. We all do. He is our lord. Our king. That is why your father sent him to you. And you mustn’t fear him. He will not hurt you.”

  “I know that.”

  When her apartment building came into view, she wished she had more time with the butler.

  “And here we are,” he said. “Eleven eighty-eight Redd Avenue, apartment one-B. Although I have to say, neither your father nor I approved of the fact that you’re living in a ground-floor unit.”

  The car came to a stop. She didn’t want to get out.

  “May I ask you more? Later?” she said.

  “Oh, mistress, yes. Please. There is so much I want to tell you.” He got out of the car, but she was already shutting her door by the time he came around to her.

  She thought about putting out her hand and thanking him formally.

  Instead she threw her arms around the little old man and hugged him.

  After Beth left the chamber, Wrath’s thirst called out for her and then stung him hard, as if it knew he was the one who had sent her away.

  He pulled up his pants and dragged himself to the phone, calling Fritz, then Tohrment. His voice kept cracking, and he had to repeat himself to be understood.

  As soon as he hung up with Tohr, the dry heaves started. He staggered to the bathroom, calling out for Marissa with his mind. He lurched over the toilet, but there was nothing much in his stomach.

  He’d waited too long, he thought. Ignored the signals his body had been giving him for quite some time. And then Beth had come along, and his internal chemistry had taken another series of hits. No wonder he was crazed.

  Marissa’s scent drifted in from the chamber.

  “My lord?” she called out. />
  “I need…”

  Beth, he thought, hallucinating. He saw her in front of him, heard her voice in his head. He put his hand out. Touched nothing.

  “My lord? Shall I come to you?” Marissa asked from the other room.

  Wrath wiped the sweat from his face and came out, weaving like a drunk. He reached blindly into the air, pitching forward.

  “Wrath!” Marissa rushed to him.

  He let himself fall onto the bed, taking her down with him. Her body came up against his.

  He felt Beth’s.

  And his face landed in sheets that were marked with Beth’s scent. As he took a deep breath to try to stabilize himself, all he smelled was Beth.

  “My lord, you need to feed.” Marissa’s voice came from far away, as if she were out in the stairway.

  He looked to the sound and saw nothing. He was totally blind now.

  Marissa’s voice grew curiously strong. “My lord, here. Take my wrist. Now.”

  Warm skin was in his palm. He opened his mouth, but couldn’t get his arms to work properly. He reached out, touched a shoulder, a collarbone, the curve of a neck.

  Beth.

  The hunger took over, and he reared up across the female body. With a roar he sank his teeth into the soft flesh above an artery. He drank deep and hard, seeing visions of the dark-haired woman who was his, picturing her giving herself to him, imagining it was her in his arms.

  Marissa gasped.

  Wrath’s arms were nearly snapping her in half, his massive body a cage around hers as he drank. For the first time she felt every hard line of him.

  Including what she realized must be an erection, something she’d never been anywhere near before.

  The possibilities were exciting. And terrifying.

  She went limp and tried to breathe. This was what she’d always wanted from him, though his passion was shocking. But what could she expect? He was a full-blooded male. A warrior.

  And he’d finally realized he needed her.

  Satisfaction took the place of any discomfort, and she tentatively ran her hands over his wide, bare shoulders, a liberty she’d never taken before. He made a sound deep in his throat, as if he wanted her to do more. With delicious pleasure she sank her hands into his hair. It was so soft. Who could have guessed? Such a hard male, but oh, how soft the dark waves were. Like her satin dresses.

  Marissa wanted to see into his mind, an invasion she’d never risked for fear of his taking offense. But now everything was different. Maybe he would even kiss her after he finished. Make love to her. Maybe she could stay with him now. She would like to live at Darius’s with him. Or wherever. It didn’t matter.

  She closed her eyes and reached out to his thoughts.

  Only to see the female he was really thinking of. The human female.

  It was a dark-haired beauty with her eyes half-closed. She was on her back, breasts exposed. His fingers were caressing her tight, pink nipples as he kissed the skin of her stomach, moving downward.

  Marissa dropped the image as if it were broken glass.

  Wrath wasn’t here with her now. It wasn’t her neck he was drinking from. It wasn’t her body he was drawing hard into his.

  And that erection wasn’t because of her.

  Wasn’t for her.

  As he sucked at her neck, his thick arms crushing her against him, Marissa cried out at the unfairness.

  Of her hopes. Of her love. Of him.

  How fitting that he was draining her. And how she wished he would finish the job. Drink her dry. Let her die.

  It had taken her years and years, aeons, to realize the truth.

  He never had been hers. He never would be.

  God, she had nothing now that the fantasy was gone.

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Beth put her purse down on the hall table, said hello to Boo, and went into the bathroom. She eyed the shower, but decided against having one. Even though her stiff body could have used some time under a hot spray, she loved the lingering smell of Wrath on her skin. It was a wonderful, erotic perfume, a dark spice. Like nothing she’d ever come across before, nothing she could possibly forget.

  Turning on the sink, she cleaned up, exquisitely sensitive and more than a little tender between her legs. Not that she cared about the ache. Wrath could do that to her anytime he wanted.

  He was…

  No words came to mind. Just an image of him releasing into her, his massive, sweat-covered shoulders and chest seizing up as he gave himself to her. As he branded her as his.

  Which was what it had seemed like. She felt as though she’d been dominated and imprinted by a man. Taken.

  And she wanted that again. Wanted him now.

  But she shook her head, thinking that the unprotected sex had to stop. Bad enough it had been twice. Next time they were going to be safe.

  On her way out of the bath, she caught her reflection in the mirror and stopped moving. She bent at the waist, bringing her face closer to the glass.

  She still looked exactly as she had this morning. But she felt like a stranger.

  Opening her mouth, she examined her teeth. When she probed the two canines in front, sure enough, they were sore.

  Dear God, who was she? What was she?

  She thought about Wrath, after they’d been together. Pushing himself away from her, his half-naked body straining, his muscles looking as if they were going to break through his skin. When he’d bared his teeth, his fangs had been longer than when she’d first seen them. As if they’d grown.

  His beautiful face had been contorted with agony.

  Was that what she was in for?

  A rapping noise came from the other room, as though someone was knocking on a window. She heard Boo meow in welcome.

  Beth put her head cautiously around the doorjamb.

  There was someone at the slider. Someone big.

  “Wrath?” She rushed over and opened the door before she really looked.

  When she saw what was on the other side, she wished she’d checked more carefully first.

  It wasn’t Wrath, although the man looked a little like him. Black hair was cut short. Harsh face. Intense dark blue eyes. A whole lot of leather.

  His nostrils flared and he frowned, staring at her hard. But then he seemed to catch himself.

  “Beth?” His voice was deep, but friendly. And as the man smiled, fangs were revealed.

  She didn’t even jump.

  Damn, she was getting used to the weirdness already.

  “I’m Tohrment, a friend of Wrath’s.” The guy stuck his hand out. “You can call me Tohr.”

  She shook it, not sure what to say.

  “I’m here to hang for a while. I’ll just be outside if you need anything.”

  The man…vampire—shit, whatever he was—turned away and headed for the picnic table.

  “Wait,” she said. “Why don’t you…Please come in.”

  He shrugged. “Okay.”

  As he stepped through the door, Boo meowed loudly and pawed at the man’s shitkickers. The two greeted each other like long-lost friends, and when the vampire straightened, his leather jacket fell open. Daggers. Just like Wrath’s. And she had a feeling that the kind of weapons Butch had peeled off Wrath were hiding in this man’s pockets, too.

  “Would you like something to drink?” She winced. Not blood. Please don’t say blood.

  He grinned at her, as if he knew what she was thinking. “You got any beer?”

  Beer? He drank beer?

  “Ah, yeah. Actually, I think I do.” She disappeared into the kitchen. Brought back two Sam Adamses. She needed a belt right about now, too.

  After all, she was playing hostess to a vampire. Her father had been a vampire.

  Her lover was a vampire.

  She tilted the beer back and drank hard.

  Tohrment laughed softly. “Long night?”

  “You have no idea,” she replied, wiping her mouth.

  “Oh, I might.” The vampire sa
t down in her wing chair, his big body overflowing the arms and dwarfing the high back. “I’m glad I finally met you. Your father talked about you a lot.”

  “He did?”

  “He was so damn proud of you. And you’ve got to know—he stayed away to protect you, not because he didn’t love you.”

  “That’s what Fritz said. Wrath, too.”

  “How’re you getting along with him?”

  “Wrath?”

  “Yeah.”

  She felt a blush hit her cheeks and headed to the kitchen so he didn’t catch her reaction. She grabbed a bag of cookies from the top of the fridge and put some on a plate.

  “He’s…he’s…How do I put it?” She tried to think of a good answer.

  “Actually, I think I know.”

  She came back and held out the plate. “Would you like some?”

  “Oatmeal raisin,” he said, taking three. “My favorite.”

  “You know, I thought vampires only drank blood.”

  “Nah. Necessary nutrients in it, but we need food, too.”

  “How about garlic?”

  “Bring it on.” He leaned back in the chair, munching happily. “I love the stuff roasted with a little olive oil.”

  Jeez. The guy was almost easygoing, she thought.

  No, that wasn’t right. His sharp eyes kept scanning the windows and the glass door, as if he were monitoring the periphery. She knew without a doubt that if he didn’t like something he saw, he was going to be out of that chair in a heartbeat. And it wouldn’t be to check locks. It’d be to attack.

  He put another cookie in his mouth.

  But at least he was relaxing to be around. Relatively speaking.

  “You’re not like Wrath,” she blurted.

  “No one’s like Wrath.”

  “Yeah.” She bit into her own cookie and sat down on the futon.

  “He’s a force of nature,” Tohr said, tilting back his beer. “And he’s deadly, no mistaking that. But there’s no one who will take better care of you, assuming he chooses to do so. Which he has with you.”

  “How do you know?” she whispered, wondering what Wrath had told him.

  Tohr cleared his throat, a flush hitting his cheeks. “He’s marked you.”